A.N Ya, i know this took forever. i had such bad writers block that nothing i wrote came out right. even now i really don't like this chapter. im sorry. oh if you have any ideas please i need to hear them. im running low on inspiration and i really want to finish this story. so im sorry if its not great. i have no idea when i will update. it might be another few weeks.

The weekend came quickly. Alice wouldn't allow me to back out of the hunting trip so I went with them, far into the mountains. We split apart in search of our favorite prey.

My throat ached for fresh blood. I hadn't hunted in days and my longing reflected this. Hearts beat in different rhythms all around me. My mind left me as my desire over took me. I bolted after my prey.

A cougar ran sensing my presence. My legs ran faster, reveling in the release. I pounced, my teeth ripped into the lions throat releasing the precious blood. The ache in my throat became numb.

I threw the carcass disgusted by what I was. The thirst for blood was a constant reminder of the being I had become. I ran back home.

I tried to play my piano but I couldn't focus. My mind was constantly wandering. My heart was withdrawn from the music. The sound was dull and lifeless, so I gave up.

I walked quietly to my meadow hoping to find some sort of peace. What I found was the opposite of what I desired.

The forest was still and quiet. All life seemed frozen. A deep melancholy hung in the air. The birds were silent. No little animals stirred in the brush. I felt utterly and completely alone.

I made it io my meadow. The clouds hung over the opening keeping an overcast mood. I laid on the ground with my eyes closed. I longed for escape but I had none. Never in my life had I envied a human for sleep like I envied them now.

I had no rest, no pause, no break. My mind rebelled against me. Images of Bella lying next to me haunted my thoughts. Her hand was in mine as she talked to me. The sun shone in these fantasies, causing my skin to sparkle. She however, had no fear. She would look at me and my soul would be at peace.

The loneliness within me burned. I needed to see her. I ran through the forest to her house. Her dad was gone. Working I guessed.

I looked into the window and saw her. She was reading pride and prejudice. A small smile was on her lips as her eyes moved across the page. She was happy, for that I was content.

Her eyelids began to slowly cover her eyes. With a small sigh she was asleep.

I turned and ran home. When I got to my house. I saw that my family was home. I went in and watched tv till morning.

The sun rose and I got ready for school. I drove to school without seeing if any of my siblings wanted a ride. When I got I to parking lot my eyes scanned the cars hoping to see her car.

I parked and got out. I walked to the school building when I heard Jessica's voice. She was tormenting bella again.

"Don't talk about my Mom." Bella said in a small voice.

"Your mom abandoned you like the piece of crap that you are." Jessica sneered. "She couldn't stand the sight of you so she left. Face it, Bella. You're a mistake."

Bella stood up and began to walk away she looked at me. I started to walk towards her but she walked faster. I followed her to her truck.

"Bella!" I called to her.

She turned to me. "Why won't you leave me alone like I asked you to!" She screamed at me "Do you enjoy my pain?" She asked. Tears were filling her eyes.

"Never say that bella." I said in a small voice, hurt she would think such a thing.

"Leave me alone."

"No."

"Please, don't make this harder on me than it has to be." she said as she got in her truck. She tried starting it but the engine would cooperate. She jumped out of her car and started to run.

"Bella! I yelled.

She ran across the highway without a glace. A truck was speeding down. She tripped and fell flat on her face. The drive didn't see her.

My body moved without thinking. I ran, picked Bella up, and jumped off the street.

I set her safely down and looked at her face. Shock shone on her face.

"What are you!?" She demanded.

"A vampire" I said. There was no use denying it now. I looked at her expecting her to be scared.

"Are you going to kill me?" She asked. Her voice was calm.

The very idea disgusted me. My eyes widened. "Never!"

"Please?" she asked.

"You want me to kill you!?" I asked, my was heart broken. Tears filled her eyes.

"It hurts." She whispered.

I couldn't help it. I pulled her into my arms and she cried. She was so broken. The very thing I loved more than life itself longed to die.

"Bella, please don't cry. Please." I begged her.

She continued to sob as i rocked heri n my arms.

"This is my fault Bella. If only I stayed out of you life." I whispered

She looked at me with confusion on her face.

"Long ago I found a baby girl in the wreck of a car. She was crying, and she was, Amazingly, uninjured. Her mom, however, did not have the same luck. She was dead. I picked the baby up and her cries stopped. I couldn't let her die so I found her someone who would take her in. I should have left then but I couldn't force myself to. I stayed, watching over her. She thought I was an angel."

I looked down but she wasn't looking at me. I continued to speak

"I stopped visiting her but I stayed to watch over her. The years passed and I couldn't stay. She was in pain and her pain caused me pain. I selfishly left, hoping that this would stop the pain. It didn't. I was continuously haunted by thoughts of the child. Four years passed and I came back to forks. I went to the child's old house but she was gone."

Bella was completely still now. I looked at her and she was looking at me with realization in her eyes.

"You . . . It can't be." She said standing up. She started to run away as I called her name.