Warning...porny :)
After watching the fire until it turned to embers, Derek carried Meredith to their bed. She laid there with her head on his chest. It was a feeling she had longed for. A feeling of true peace and comfort. Neither of them had to speak. They just knew what each other was thinking and feeling. They both realized how stupid the whole thing was. They both made mistakes, and they knew it. And they couldn't wait for life to go back to the way it was. He laid there and breathed in her flowery scent, so happy to have it back. He listened as her breathing turned shallow and she drifted into a soft sleep. Derek held Meredith all night long. He soon fell into his own peaceful sleep, one he hadn't had in a long time.
Meredith frowned when she opened her eyes and Derek wasn't there. Her frown quickly changed when she realized he was in the bathroom. She could hear the loud rushing water. She silently walked to the bathroom and opened the door. She stood there. She wanted to join him in the shower, but she was afraid it was too soon. Last night she had realized how hurt he really was. She was so angry with her for reading her book, she hadn't realized how bad he felt. She knew that him having sex with her may be uncomfortable for awhile. It had to be. Especially knowing she had been with Drew, and that it wasn't awful. She looked through the shower door. She could see him lathering his body through the translucent door. The soap was slowly running down. She saw him turn and look at her. She quickly turned around.
"Are you going to stand there? Or are you going to join me?" Derek said with a chuckle.
"I. Um. Do you care?" She stammered as she looked at him with a nervous face. She didn't know if she was more worried about awkwardness, or being denied. She felt Derek grab her arm and pull her into the shower with him. She looked into his blue eyes.
"I do think those will be a problem." He said as he pulled her to him. The hot water quickly soaked through her clothes.
"Derek-- If you're not--" She started to say. He quickly pressed his finger against her lips.
"I am always ready for you." He said as he grabbed the hem of her shirt and pulled it over her head. Their lips quickly crashed. She felt his tongue thrust into her mouth with haste. She allowed it, and she began tasting him. He tossed the shirt outside of the shower and it hit the floor with a splat.
"You're sure?" She asked as she pulled away.
"Oh yes." He said as he tugged at her shorts. She quickly pushed them down and kicked them aside. His mouth attacked her neck and shoulder. She let out a soft moan. She had missed his touch.
"I missed you..." She muttered softly. He smiled as she looked up at her for a moment. She felt him move down to her breasts, sucking and teasing each one. His mouth moved down her abdomen. He knelt down and quickly tugged at her panties, pulling them off. He gently shoved her against the wall, pressing her back against the cold tile.
"Oh Mer..." He whispered. He easily pushed her up, her knees resting on his shoulders. The hot water trickled down both of their bodies. He looked up into her eyes, and smiled. He softly pressed her legs apart a little farther, and slide his tongue into her warm folds. He could taste her need.
"Oh God Der." She mumbled as she felt him pressing and sliding his tongue in all the right spots. The hot water gliding down and grazing her. His quickened his pace, as he moved in figure of eights. "Der, I'm...oh god...I'm..." She squealed as she felt her self tightening up. Derek tasted the warm rush that soon came. He felt her beginning to tremble.
"God, Mer..." He muttered as he dropped her feet to the floor and moved his mouth to hers. He tasted her sweetness as his lip sucked her bottom one, causing to to swell.
"Come on, Der...Please...I need you..." She said with need in her eyes. His smile grew as he pulled her legs up, and she tightened them around him. She felt him slide himself into her. "Ohhh..." She moaned as she felt him thrust into her hard. Their bodies both crashing into the wall. She tightened her grip on his shoulder. Her nails dug into his flesh as he thrusted once again, even harder. Maybe it was the need. Or the anger. Of the forgiveness, but it all seemed to surface. It all crashed, causing more pleasure than either of them had felt.
"Oh Mer...Oh baby..." He muttered as he could feel her tightening. She pulled her legs apart father, allowing him deeper penetration.
"Hard Der...Harder!" She shouted. He did as she said and pounded into her harder. "Harder." She screamed as she felt herself teeter at the edge, ready to let herself succumb to the pleasure he was creating. "Oh...god...I'm coming..." She muttered as she felt the hot rush run over her. He felt her warmth encompass his large cock. She felt him release with a loud moan. Her feet dropped to the floor, and they both leaned against the wall, attempting to catch their breath.
"You are amazing." Meredith said breathlessly. "Amazing..." Derek smiled, knowing that she was right, because the presentation he just made was undeniably the best either of them had ever had.
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"So you and Dr. Shepherd are okay now..." Izzie said with a smile. Everyone raised their eyebrows.
"What?" Meredith asked as she pulled her scrub top down. She looked at everyone, and rolled her eyes.
"Like we didn't hear... Well, only me, because I was walking to my room. But don't worry, Anna was still sleeping." Izzie said with a tiny giggle.
"Yes, Derek and I are- Well, I think we're actually okay." Meredith said with a smile. They were okay. More than okay. They had good conversation last night, amazing sex this morning. The best of both worlds.
"Good. I was getting tired of attitude. God, he has been a real jerk the last few days." Alex said from around the corner. "That guy is an ass when he's not getting laid!"
"No kidding." Cristina agreed. "We can always tell when McDreamy's getting some bedroom action."
"In this case, it's shower action..." Izzie told them. They all looked at Meredith with smiles.
"Can we not talk about my sex life." Meredith said loudly as she turned away.
"Okay. But it is the only gossip worth spreading in this hospital!" Izzie joked as she threw her hair up in a loose bun and fastened it.
"Yeah, well, it's private." Meredith said frankly. The locker room door opened quickly.
"Okay, people. Rounds!" Miranda Bailey shouted loudly. "Let's go!" They all quickly followed her down the hallway. "I see you and Shepherd kissed and made up." Bailey pointed out. Meredith moaned and rolled her eyes.
"Okay, O'Malley. You present." Dr. Bailey said as she shoved the chart to George. "Um, Mr. Smith is in for a triple bypass..." George went on to explain. Meredith wasn't listening. She was still thinking about the morning.
Dr. Bailey gave the cardio case to George. There was a possible case down in the pit, and Izzie got sent down to check it out. Alex got sent to with with Callie Torres on a ortho case. So Meredith, Cristina and Miranda made their way to the next room. Meredith smiled when she saw Derek standing there talking to his patient. He looked up and met her gaze. Cristina grabbed the chart, but Meredith wasn't listening. She was too entranced in Derek's gaze. She looked over when she heard a faint whine next to her. She looked over and small a small baby, laying there in his stroller.
"My husband went to the car." The patient, Jan, said as she looked over at the baby. "Can you-- Do you mind?" Jan asked as she nodded to the baby.
"Um- I-- Well, yeah." Meredith stammered.
She leaned over and grabbed the baby. She was amazed at the way it felt to hold him. Derek looked at her in amazement. She looked perfect, standing there, holding a baby. The baby immediately quit whimpering and smiled at Meredith. Meredith, forgetting where she was started talking to him. He grabbed her hair in his tiny hand and started tugging. It woke something up in her. The urge to have a child was immense. She couldn't believe how it felt. She wanted a baby with Derek, and she wanted one badly.
She was smiling at him when she heard a someone clearing their throat. She looked up to see Miranda, standing there with raised eyebrows. Meredith didn't realize how long she had been standing there. She looked over and saw the woman's husband. He walked over and gently took the child. She and Derek shared a glance, and the same thought.
"Dr. Grey-Shepherd, do you know why?" Miranda asked. Meredith looked at her with a puzzled look. She hadn't heard what she said.
"What?" Meredith asked. Miranda asked the question again, and Meredith answered correctly.
"It's your case." Miranda said as she handed her the chart and walked out.
"Wow." Meredith muttered to herself.
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"We are going to approach anteriorly from above by retracting the temporal lobe upwards to expose the petrous portion of the temporal bone. Then we will drill away the petrous bone and expose the vestibular nerve and a tumor growing in it." Derek explained to the OR and the gallery. "Dr. Shepherd." He said, and then paused with a smile. "Can you tell me what the possible hazards are?"
"The internal auditory artery lies in proximity to the complex of vestibulocochlear and facial nerves and can be injured by the manipulations required to dissect and remove the acoustic tumor. Injury to this artery can result in infarction of the cochlear nerve with deafness." She explained as she watched.
"Very good." He said as he worked. She watched intently, but she could feel his stare on her every once in awhile.
"So..." Derek said as he looked across the table at Meredith.
"Yeah..." Meredith returned as she took a deep breath. She knew what he was talking about. He was talking about the same thing that she had been thinking about for the last three hours.
"You're a natural." He said quietly. "You would make a fantastic mother. Not that you aren't with Anna... But a baby, our baby..." He said as he looked at the patient's brain.
"Derek...We've been trying so long." She muttered with disappointment.
"I know." He said, matching her disappointing tone.
"Maybe we should see a fertility specialist..." Meredith suggested quietly.
"Is that what you want?" Derek said as he looked up at her.
"Yeah, I think it is." She returned with a faint smile. "Burying our heads won't solve anything."
"You're right about that." Derek agreed.
"So I think we need to make an appointment. Maybe Addison knows someone..." Meredith offered.
"Addison would know." Derek said.
"We need to make an appointment for you too." Meredith told him. His head shot up, and he had a look of shock on his face.
"What?!" He said quickly.
"Derek. It may not be me. And you just have to make a deposit. I have to have blood tests and whatever the hell else. You just go in a room, choke the chicken and that's it." She said frankly.
"Meredith." He said, looking around. "I think my guys are just fine. I don't need to be tested. I am fine. We are fine. Things are good on this end." Derek said forcefully.
"You're awfully sure..." Meredith said, not believing him.
"Yes. I am positive." He said confidently.
"So where are all of these illegitimate children of yours?" She asked with raised eyebrows.
"What? What illegitimate children?" He said as his eyes darted around the room.
"Exactly. You have no children. You have no way of knowing. Maybe you're shooting blanks." Meredith said with a shrug. She knew she was irritating him.
"I am not shooting blanks!" He said just a little too loudly. "I'm not. And I am not getting tested, because I am fine."
"Thank you, Derek. It's nice to know that we both want the same thing. And what's more, you are willing to do anything for it." She snapped. She wasn't mad, just disappointed.
"Meredith..." Derek said softly.
"No, Derek. It's fine." She said honestly. "No one should have to do something they don't want to..." She said as she looked down, trying to hide the tears that were threatening to pour out.
Nothing more had been said about a fertility specialist. Meredith didn't want to make things worse. They were still recovering from the battle of the century. She just wanted to try and be happy for awhile. She had talked to Addison, and she made an appointment with a top notch fertility specialist. It was going to be a few weeks even with Addison's recommendation. Meredith figured she would see what happened before she brought it up to Derek.
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Meredith and Derek watched as the mover loaded the last box in their van. There it was, all of their belongings. It was a big day. An important day. Their lived were going to change. They were finally moving into their home. Their first real home as a family. Anna quickly ran up and looked out the window.
"Today is the day." Derek said as he pulled Meredith against him.
"Yes it is." Meredith said as she looked around the house. "I'm going to---" She said as she walked away. Derek looked at her and smiled. He knew how she was feeling.
The house was full of memories. Some good, some bad. She grew up here. This was her home for most of her childhood. But that wasn't what she would miss. She would miss the memories that she had made with George, Izzie, Derek and Anna. Meredith slowly walked upstairs and looked at her empty room. And the bathroom. She was going to miss that bathtub. This wasn't the end. She could come to the house anytime she wanted. She walked back down the stairs. She knew in her heart that this wasn't the end. It was the beginning.
"I'm ready." Meredith said as she opened the front door for the two of them.
"Let's go home." Derek said as he put his hand on the small of her back and walked her to the car.
The ride seemed slow. Maybe it was the anticipation. Neither she nor Anna had seen the house. And Anna had never been to the property. She felt Derek grab her hand and squeeze. She smile softly as she watched out the passenger window.
"We're here." Meredith said as Derek pulled down the long winding driveway.
"This?" Anna said as she looked out the window only seeing trees. Derek laughed at the disappointment in her voice.
"No..." Derek said after a few minutes. "There..." He said as he pointed to the house.
"Oh my god, Derek!" Meredith said in shock. The house was perfect.
"Wow, Daddy." Anna said as she looked out the window.
It was everything they wanted. Meredith looked at the large porch. It had rocking chairs and hanging baskets. Derek was so good at this. He had a way of making sure everything was just perfect. As soon as the car stopped, Anna jumped right out and looked around.
"It's like a forest." Anna said as she looked around. "And we even have an ocean!"
"That's not an ocean, honey." Derek said with a smile.
"It's big." She said as she ran to the water. Meredith chased after her.
"Anna! Be careful. And never ever got out her by yourself. Ever." Meredith reiterated firmly.
"Okay, Mommy." Anna said sweetly as she looked at the water.
"Why don't we go see the house." She said as she led her away. Meredith watched as the mover moved the remainder of their things into the house. Derek smiled as she neared and they walked in together.
It was large. Much larger than it looked from the outside. It was just what they had planned. Meredith looked up at the cathedral ceiling in the great room. The large windows let the sun in, lighting up the whole house. The fireplace was perfect. The timber framing fit in perfectly with the atmosphere. All of the furniture fit like a glove. It was a perfect place to raise a family. And Meredith couldn't wait. She watched as Anna began running from room to room. Derek looked over at Meredith and smiled.
"It's perfect." Meredith said as she looked around and then looked into his eyes.
"Welcome home." Derek said as he placed a kiss on her head. "Welcome home..."
Okay, so they are home. And Derek isn't wanting to get any tests done. He's a man! All will work out, don't worry. And if you want to see pics of the house, check out the other site...