Ich darf dich wiedersehen? (I came back to you)

After returning, I focused on books. Books about hearts, heart-diseases... nothing made sense. I did not feel like talking, eating or sleeping. It was like the day I was born, but this time, no Xemnas popped up out of nowhere and told me what was wrong with me and how I could fight it.

All I thought of was, that surely there was a logical explanation for everything. I was just not able to find it. My head hurt and I wanted to sleep. Questions covered my mind. Why was that happening? And why did I have to suffer from it? My inside broke apart, leaving me alone with something I was not sure I wanted to see.

After a day or so, I finally felt asleep, dreaming of my own death and the person I wanted to see that day, without remembering anything detailed. Just when he turned around to show me his face, I felt a hand on my shoulder. My eyes snapped open and faced something familiar blue-green. I started screaming and the 'something' did too. I stoped, because I noticed Saìx standing next to the desk I had slept on with my face pressed against an open book. Next to me stood the owner of those bright eyes, calming down himself. His hair stood in weired angles from his head and he smiled sheepishly down at me. I knew that smile, but I never thought, it would come back, once it was destroyed. That was this guy from the beach, but why was he a nobody? And how did he come here? And why did that make me happy? Somewhere in my stomache, a giant bunch of butterflies started to fly around.

I coughed, avoiding Saìx condescending look and got up, closing my cushion-book with one hand. An awkward silence later, VII asked: ''Finally awake? The Superior (when he said that, you always thought of some kind of holy organ music or singing angels in the background. I never figured the Why? and how? out myself. Me and my questions... ) has ordered me to show you this.'' he grabbed the smaller man's hood and dragged him away from me, so I could take a look at the entire this, which was nothing but a young blond, wearing a black coat, too big for his thin form. His gaze was fixed on me and he blushed when the Berserk touched him. How could he?

''And why should our great Superior ask you to do that, I wonder.'' the sarcastic way I talked, drove Saìx mad. ''Because you left him in the world he send you. This makes you his babysitter.'' I wanted to answer that I did not gave a damn about Xemnas and that he should just leave me alone with the strange blond. Somehow, I could not imagine anything better, when I was interrupted: ''Uhm.. sorry scary guy, but I don't need a babysitter. And why do you show me around? Where's... what's his name? Xigbar? Man, that guy was funny.'' Without taking a break he went on talking, totally ignoring Saìx, who looked as thought somebody asked him to dye his hair orange. ''Ough, and I forgot your name.'' For the first time in ages, I had to bite back a laughter. I was suprised, it felt so natural. Like breathing. And I recogniced the signs. I had a rare fever- or I was in love with him, but the first possibility was more likely. The thought that I had killed him was not cheering me up in any way...

Meanwhile, the diviner had hit the blond nobody across the back of his head. The poor guy flinched. And that made me angry. How dared he hurt the only person I knew, that made me feel something? I wanted him to stop, but when I heard : ''Ouchie! Now that was plain rude.''I had to snort. Laughing felt good, it made the darkness inside of me go away. The 'deathglares' blondie shot Saìx were not really serious either. He remainded me of a puppy, trying to be like a scary guy. A puppy waiting for a hug and somebody to play with him. The thought made me grin.

The lunar nobody watched me, like there was a flower blooming on my forehead and then turned to leave. A good choice, he could not win against somebody like this.

The blond watched him step into a swirly portal. When he was sure, the berserk would not hear it, he mumbled: ''You're a meanie, shitface!'' then he looked at me, blushed again and said: ''Oh.. sorry. I don't know why, but I can't stop talking. Please, won't you tell him? He doesn't seem to like me.''

Now that Saìx was gone, I burst out giggling like a schoolgirl. ''Don't worry. You're not alone. Thank god, he was not hungry when you met him.'' I could not believe it. The joke was far away from being good, but I laughed. And he joined me. The way I watched him made me doubt the fever-theory. To me, he was gorgeous, most of all when he laughed. He gave me my feelings back.

''You laugh a lot. I like that. Ough, and by the way: I'm..'' ''Myde.'' the name came back without asking for it and with it, everything was clear to me. Now it was my turn to turn red in the face. He tilted his head. ''Close. But not quite right. It's Demyx. God, don't you think that sounds stupid? Like something you can eat for breakfast with butter and toast or something you use for BBQ. But at least it's better than Myde. Who is that anyway?'' What could I say? Somebody I was in love with, before I lost my heart? Before I knew you, saw you were special to me and tore your heart out to leave you to the heartless, just because I was to dumb to notice there was a bond between us. Yeah, of course. How romantic.

''He's...dead. 'Cause ...I don't know. He just.. I can't remember it.'' his smile grew sad. ''Ough. Sorry. Hey, then maybe he is with Ienzo. I waited for him I think, but the I died and you know... when our world was destroyed.'' He seemed to remember who had destroyed it and his voice trailed away. I shuddered. He had talked of Ienzo before he died. Could it be that...? ''That's all I remember. He abandoned me, but I could not stop loving him. Silly, isn't it?'' ''Not in the slightest. And yes I think they are together.'' I smiled. To be honest, I had no idea if they were together, but I was with him and that was enough for me.

Reassured, he went on talking: ''Do you know you look just like him ... ? How was your name?'' ''My name is Zexion. Nice to meet you Demyx.'' ''Yeah! Same for me.''

Demyx. If I could have him for breakfast... it would be fine for me. I blinked. Was that my thought? I did not wanted him to be, what Saìx was to Xemnas. No, I would not abuse my right as his superior. Demyx-breakfast was okay- but just if Demyx was alright with it. Else, there was still butter and toast.

In the meantime, my new fellow nobody had gone back to smiling. One of those smiles, you could not else then join in. ''Hey Zexion? There's something I wonder: Am I cute?'' Argh. My first challenge. ''Because Xigbar said that, y'know? And he said I was pretty, because when he found me, I had no clothes and was floating through the darkness and that scared me, so he started talking random stuff... Is it true?''

Number two, you're a lucky bastard. 'No. You're not just cute. You make me want to kiss you with your gorgeous-ness. Happy now?' I thought. After a minute or so, I rememebered, that a thought explanation was not what he wanted. So I said to him: ''Maybe. Would you like it, if I say yes?'' He beamed. ''Yes. And it sounds much better when you say it. Xiggy looks weired doing so.'' I could not believe II really said that. No matter how hard I tried, I could not picture it, but he was not done talking: ''And, you know something else?''

I shook my head, but stopped when he hugged me. It was an impulsive thing to do, jet feeling so right. I was small enought to fit into his arms, smellling in this strangely familiar way. The place in my chest, that used to hurt had turned into a warm ...something made of pure happiness. ''I like you better than him.''