"So when exactly were you going to tell me?" Miranda asked as she cut her patient open. Meredith looked around nervously. She knew what this was...
"Tell you what?" Meredith asked. Aren't you supposed to work? Why are you asking me dumb questions when you are cutting a patient open? Shit.
"That you are pregnant..." Miranda said as she glanced up at Meredith. "You do realize I would have noticed before it popped out."
"Who told you?" Meredith asked with disappointment. Her money was on the nurses.
"Oh, you know Seattle Grace. I heard it around." Miranda said with a roll of the eyes. "I hear about you and then Shepherd. You're having a kid, your husband is leaving the hospital. What else?"
"Well, I'm kind of having two kids..." Meredith muttered under her breath.
"You're what?" Miranda said as she looked up. "Oh hell no! Two McDreamys. The world isn't ready..."
"I know..." Meredith said shaking her head with a smile.
"Well, congratulations." Dr. Bailey said with a smile under her scrub mask. "What are you having?"
"I don't know yet. I have a check-up today." Meredith returned happily.
"That's good." Miranda said. "When are you due?"
"The middle of November. If they'll stay in that long." Meredith said with a chuckle.
"They have their own minds, you'll find that out real quick." Bailey said as she handed Meredith the scalpel. "Show me what you've got."
"Really?" Meredith asked.
"You are a first year resident... Grab the damn scalpel." She said loudly. "You are doing this on your own." Meredith performed nearly the whole surgery on her own. She was on cloud nine.
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Meredith leaned against the nurses station and started writing on the chart. She was tired. She never used to be like this. She could stay up all night, doing anything, and then go to class or work. Not now. Now she was turning into and old lady. Now her feet and back hurt at the end of a long surgery. She hadn't had alcohol in what seemed like forever. The crazy thing is that she didn't crave it. She was in a good place. Her life was perfect.
"Hey." Derek said as he walked up behind her and placed his hands on her stomach. "How are you?" He asked as he kissed her on the neck.
"Tired." She moaned. "But I did a bowel resection solo today."
"Well, that's exciting." He said with a smile. "How did it go?" He asked as he rubbed her shoulders.
"Good. The surgery went well. My feet, not so much." She said with a frown. "Your children are trying to kill me. I could barely get my jeans on this morning. I need to get maternity clothes, but I'm too damn tired. So your children are satan spawn and it's only going to get worse."
"Come on." He said as he pulled her around the desk. "Sit down." He said as he motioned to the chair. She sat with a moan and leaned back. Derek knelt on one knee.
"What are you doing?" She said, shaking her head.
"This." He said as he pulled her shoe off and placed her foot on his knee.
"Oh god...Oh..." She moaned as he began kneading her feet. "Oh..." One of the nurses looked over.
"That is why they call you McDreamy." She said with a chuckle and turned to walk away.
"You have no idea." Meredith said quickly as she closed her eyes.
"You are the mother of my children. I will rub your feet everyday for the rest of your life if you need me to." He told her as he switched to the other foot.
"I don't get it. I'm not that far along. I shouldn't be so sore." She said with a shrug.
"You have two humans in your uterus. You will be sore." He said with a smile. Meredith closed her eyes, enjoying her much needed foot rub.
"Did you hear about Holly?" She heard a voice say. Meredith's interest was definitely piqued. Her head turned slightly so she could hear better. She looked at Derek, who was also listening.
"What do you mean?" The second voice asked.
"Well, she's been gone." The first voice explained quietly.
"Yeah, I noticed that. I thought she quit." The second voice replied. "After all that stuff with Shepherd."
"She didn't quit. I guess some mistake was made. The government thought she was dead. Like her social security number and everything is gone. She can't do anything. No money, no back account. She can't do one thing." The first voice told her quickly.
"Oh my god, can you imagine?" The second voice said in shock. "So what is she doing?"
"I guess she had to move in with her sister. She literally has nothing left. She couldn't pay her rent or her car payment. She is so screwed. She has no idea when they are going to fix it." The first voice said.
"Well, she probably had it coming to her..." She said with a chuckle. "I mean look at what she's done. It was probably that attorney's wife. Who the hell flaunts that?" The voice said.
"She is such a--" Meredith heard them walk away. She looked up at Derek's wide eyes.
"She was the one?" Meredith asked as she looked at Derek.
"One what?" He asked.
"Who had the affair with the attorney..." Meredith said with raised brows.
"That's kind of what it sounded like." Derek said with a shrug. "Who knows..."
"Well, what goes around comes around, I guess." Meredith said with a shocked look on her face.
"No kidding." He said as he shook his head and continued rubbing.
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Meredith hoisted herself up onto the sterile, cold table. She hated exams. She hated being the patient. At the same time she was so happy to be in this room. Months ago she thought she was never going to have the opportunity to be in this room. Addison was going to be in in awhile. Meredith laid back on the table. She was tired, her body was tired. Derek was supposed to be in by now, and she was hoping he hadn't been pulled away, once again.
Meredith couldn't get Holly put of her head. She hated Holly. She hated her with a passion. But part of her felt bad. How could you not feel bad for someone who was so miserable that it poured onto everyone else. Someone who had no idea how to make themselves happy. She didn't feel bad, pity was the more appropriate word. She was like a weed. A vine that wrapped around, suffocating everything it entwined. Meredith couldn't even imagine waking up and being dead. Dead on paper, unable to do anything about it. And the fact that Holly was the one having an affair with the Livingston's attorney was unbelievable. Anyone who would sleep with someone, just to sabotage someone else was completely deranged. Meredith closed her eyes and rested her hands on her abdomen. Derek wasn't coming. She couldn't believe it. She felt sick. Her stomach started to rumble. Finally she heard the door open. She was relieved to see Derek, standing there in his street clothes.
"You made it." She said with a smile full of relief.
"Of course I made it." He said smoothly as he walked over to her bedside.
"You must admit, you haven't been Mr. Reliable lately." She said with a shrug.
"I guess you're right." Derek said with a frown. He began running his fingers through her hair. "But that is going to change, Mer."
"So you say..." She mumbled, making him feel even worse. "What time is it?" She asked as she looked around the room.
"She's late." He said as he looked at his watched. "A half an hour late."
"Which makes you late." She said, rolling her eyes.
"Richard..." Derek said, trying to pawn the blame off on him.
"And you didn't tell him that you needed to be at your darling wife's appointment?" She said with a giggle. "It's okay baby, I still love you." She said, he leaned down and kissed her. She grabbed the back of his head and pulled him towards her, pressing her tongue into his mouth. He eagerly fought back with his own tongue. "These hormones..." She moaned as she pulled away.
"I love the hormones." He said as he leaned in and kissed her again.
"Don't start something you can't finish." Meredith muttered. They both looked up as the door opened.
"Dr. Montgomery is going to be about twenty more minutes." The nurse said with a smile. "She said you could reschedule if you wanted."
"I think we can wait." Derek said as he looked at an agreeing Meredith.
"She thought you'd say that. She also said you should lock the door first." The nurse said with a confused shrug. Meredith and Derek burst out laughing.
"Thank you." Derek said as she walked out, closing the door behind her. "Addie knows us way too well." Derek said with raised eyebrows. He quickly crossed the room and locked the door. She smiled as he walked back to her.
"So twenty minutes..." Meredith said as she pulled him onto the bed.
"Addie is usually faster than she says she will be." He told her quickly.
"Then we must only take off the necessary clothing." Meredith muttered as she pulled her drawstring.
"Good idea." Derek said with a grin as he undid and removed his own pants. Meredith gasped at his large bulge, making it's appearance in his boxer briefs.
"Holy crap, Derek!" She laughed. "I beginning to think you were born that way." She giggled.
"Nope." He said as he pulled her dark blue panties off. "It only happens every time I look at you." He said with a smile.
"I need you inside of me." She told him. He quickly ripped his boxer briefs off and smiled. "Come on already, Derek." She whined in desperation. He hastily pushed her knees up and entered her with a grunt. He looked at her closed eyes. The faint smile she had turned into a frown. "We don't have all day!" She finally shouted.
"Geez, Mer--" He said with a frown.
"I want you to fuck me, Derek. Not stare into my eyes lovingly. Some days I want that. Today. In this minute. I want to be fucked. Preferably hard." She said frankly. He was taken aback. "Like now!" She said as she smacked him. He quickly withdrew and pounded into her with force. He heard her yelp.
"To hard?" He asked with worry.
"God no." She said with a moan. He thrust into her again. She pulled her legs apart farther, allowing him deeper access. "Shit!" She moaned.
"Oh...shit...Mer...oh god..." He muttered as he continued thrusting himself into her tight, hot, folds.
"Harder..." She shouted loudly. He obliged. "Oh my god!" She screamed. "God, Der... I'm- Oh my--" She screeched as she tightened around him, her hot liquid washing over him.
"Mer...oh...Oh!" He moaned loudly. "I'm...fuck..." He shouted as he released into her. "Oh..." He slowly pulled out and stood there, attempting to catch his breath.
"Oh god... Thank you. I have needed that all day." She said breathlessly.
"You?" He asked as he pulled his clothing on. "I'm the one that has been walking around with a hard on for the last four hours since I saw you." She let out a giggle.
"I just hope I can still do that to you in another four months." She said as she pulled her own clothing on.
"Oh you definitely will..." They heard a knock on the door. Derek quickly walked over and opened the door.
"I thought you guys would never get done." Addison said as she shut the door, shaking her head. Derek and Meredith beth turned beet red.
"You-" Meredith asked in embarrassment.
"I was out there forever. You two are very loud. You in particular." She said, pointing to Meredith. Derek chuckled. "You are not so quiet yourself." She said with a laugh. He dropped his head.
"Don't be embarrassed. I wouldn't have told you to lock the door, if I didn't expect it. You two are like horny teenagers." She said with a laugh. "I'm actually jealous." She feigned disappointment. "Okay, Mer. How have you been feeling? Besides the surge of hormones..." She said with a laugh.
"Great." Meredith said with a smile as she rubbed her abdomen.
"No she hasn't. Her feet and back have been killing her." Derek said with worry.
"Not bad." Meredith quickly chipped in. "I'm just trying to get foot and back rubs." She laughed. Derek pretended to be hurt. He could see through her. He knew she really was hurting.
"Well, you can take some mild pain relievers. And of course hot bubble baths are a good thing. But not when you flood the downstairs." Addison chuckled. Derek's face dropped. He quickly looked at Meredith.
"You told her?" He asked Meredith. She looked at him and rolled her eyes.
"She's my friend, we talk about these things." Meredith said, attempting to diffuse it.
"She's also my ex-wife." Derek returned quickly.
"Well, it must have been hot..." Addison said with a shrug.
"It was!" They both said with gusto.
"Okay, let's get down to business. I am going to draw some blood. And we'll so an ultrasound." She explained as she grabbed the syringe and rolled up Meredith's sleeve.
"Have you had any nausea?" Addison asked as she looked at Meredith, then Derek. She had also gotten used to Meredith's not-so-fine fineness.
"No, not really." Meredith winced as she pushed the needle into her vein. Meredith felt sick as she saw her own red blood running. She hated it when it was done to her.
"Well, that's good." She said as she sat her things on the countertop. "Okay, you can lay back now." She said as she pushed up Meredith's shirt. "You have a little bump there." She said with a smile.
"You don't have to point that out." Meredith said with a frown.
"It will only get bigger. And I think you look great. You are in good weight. You could stand to add a few pounds, but you are in a healthy parameter." Addison said as she squeezed the jelly on her and began running the doppler over her. The gentle whoosh, whoosh, whoosh filled the room. Derek looked at Meredith's tear filled eyes. He squeezed her hand, and she squeezed his back.
"They look good." Addison said as she pointed to the screen. "The heartbeats are strong... It's still too soon to tell the sexes. But other wise, they look great, everything appears normal... Any questions?"
"No. I just--- Wow..." Meredith muttered as she watched. "It's so unbelievable."
"Wow..." Derek said in awe. "Our children..." They all sat there in silence for a few minutes. Finally Addison put the machine away and stood up.
"So Stan and I wanted to know if you'd like to meet for dinner on Friday. Quimby's maybe?" Addison suggested as she scribbled on the chart. They all loved the little Irish pub and restaurant.
"I think that would be fun." Meredith said with a smile. "Is that good for you?" She asked Derek.
"I think that would be great." He said as he leaned down and kissed her.
"Well, I will see you Friday." Addison said with a smile as she walked out.
"God I love you." Meredith said as she pulled him into an embrace.
"I love you too. And you, Thing One and Thing Two." He said as he pulled her shirt up and kissed her abdomen twice.
"What!" She said with a giggle.
"Thing One and Thing Two...it's cute. Plus we don't know what the sexes are so..." He said with a grin.
"It's cute..." Meredith agreed.
"Yeah?" He asked with and unsure look.
"Yeah." She said with a smile as she slide off the bed.
"You know what I think?" He asked as he followed her out the door.
"What's what?" Meredith asked as she grabbed his hand.
"I think Anna needs to go to a sleep over Friday night." He told her.
"I think that is a very good idea." She said with a nod.
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Derek had been better about being around. He had made it a point to be off earlier than her. He had made it a point to be around more. It almost irritated her. Not because he was around. She needed him around. She wanted him around. It was the fact that he hadn't been. The fact that now, after being under a little pressure he was right there. He was making things happen, that before were supposedly out of his control. She lit a fire under his ass, and he jumped. And she kept wondering how soon it would be before he would fall back into his old trap.
Meredith grabbed the mop and filled the bucket with soapy water. Domestic stuff didn't come naturally to her, but she was trying. She was learning slowly. She would never admit it, but she had to google several house related things in the past few weeks. Especially when she used the wrong cleaner and it started eating away at the wood floor. Her, loose in a house, with chemicals and a child... this was a very scary thing. She quickly mopped the floor and made her way to the great room. Anna was on the floor playing with her Breyer horses. She smiled when she heard Anna humming.
"Whatcha singing?" Meredith asked as she laid back on the sofa. She was exhausted from cleaning. She was now wishing that they had built a smaller one house.
"Nothing." She said as she quickly turned silent. She watched as Anna ran the pretend horses around on the floor.
"Come on, Anna Banana... You're shy all of the sudden?" Meredith giggled as she closed her eyes. After awhile she head Anna start to sing.
"I'm all lost in the supermarket, I can no longer shop happily, I came in here for that special offer, a guaranteed personality..." Anna finally sang out nearly inaudible.
"What's that?" Meredith asked as she opened her eyes and looked at Anna.
"I'm all lost in the supermarket, I can no longer shop happily, I came in here for that special offer, a guaranteed personality..." Anna sang out again, loudly.
"Oh...Anna." Meredith said as she shook her head. She couldn't believe that Anna was singing a Clash song. Derek was definitely polluting her mind.
"What?" She giggled as she jumped up and ran over to Meredith with a smile on her face.
"Oh, Anna..." She said again, laughing. Anna jumped on the sofa with her.
"What mommy?" She said with a big smile.
"What's that you're singing?" She asked quickly.
"The Clash. Me an Daddy listen to it when you're not in the car. He says it's the best. And you don't appreciate it." Anna told her frankly.
"Oh really?" Meredith said, shaking her head. Anna nodded and went back to her horses.
"Do you know what that means?" Meredith asked.
"Nope, daddy told me the words." She said as she began to sing it again. Meredith laid on the sofa thinking. Finally she sag out.
"Your Dad is lost in the eighties, he can not longer think rationally, he's fallen off his rocker, and needs to come back to reality..." Meredith sang with a laugh.
"Mommy!" Anna said shaking her head. She didn't understand exactly what it meant, but she knew sarcasm. "What does that mean?"
"Daddy is stuck in another time. He doesn't know that he has to move on." Meredith attempted to explain to a lost Anna. "Okay...What was your favorite show when you were really little?" Meredith asked.
"Uh, Dora the Explorer..." She said with a shrug.
"Well, do you like that now?" Meredith asked.
"Not really..." Anna said with a smile. "Not anymore."
"Well, you moved on. See daddy is still watching Dora, and look how old he is..." Meredith attempted to explain.
"Daddy watches Dora?" Anna said with a burst of laughter.
"No... The Clash is his Dora...kind of...Do you like Bob the Builder?" Meredith asked.
"No." Anna told her.
"Okay, well daddy figuratively likes Dora, and I like Bob, and I've moved on, I don't watch Bob the Builder anymore, and he hasn't/ He still watches Dora the Explorer. Do you understand?" Meredith asked.
"Yes. Kind of. No, not really. But that's okay cause this is to hard and it's making my brain hurt, and I don't want daddy to have to fix it." Anna said with a frown.
"Okay..." Meredith said with a chuckle. "I'm sure Daddy won't have to fix your brain."
"Oh good..." Anna said with a smile.
Meredith laid on the sofa laughing at herself. Maybe she wasn't cut out for this. Maybe she wasn't meant to be a mother. Her mother didn't have that much needed motherly instinct. And for most of her life, Meredith didn't think she had it, either. She really wasn't sure. She was sure there were going to be times when she wouldn't have a clue what was going on. But, it didn't matter, because ready or not, she had two bundles of joy on their way.
Derek walked into a sparkling clean house. He could smell the fresh, clean smell. He liked a clean house. He would never tell Meredith that. She was the type that would kill herself trying to keep it that way. He silently thanked god that he hadn't fallen in love with a slob like Cristina. He smiled when he looked down at Meredith. She was sound asleep on the sofa, Anna asleep at the other end. He leaned down and kissed her softly.
"Hey." She said as she sat up, stretching her arms. "What time is it?" She asked as she climbed off the sofa.
"Seven." He said as he looked down at his watch. "Are you hungry?" He asked as he walked towards the kitchen.
"No. Yeah, I guess. Thing One and Thing Two probably need to eat." She said with a giggle.
"Well, what do you want?" He asked.
"Something spicy." She said with a smile.
"How about tacos? That's all we have...stuff for tacos." He said as he rummaged through the cabinets. "We don't have much..."
"I know. I need to shop." She said with a frown.
"You hate to shop..." He said with and agreeing frown and a head nod.
"I do...but it needs to be done." Meredith said begrudgingly.
"We'll all go. Tomorrow. A family thing." He said with a grin.
"Okay." She said with a smile. She watched him cook. "We really need to call your mom."
"We do." He agreed as he stirred the meat. She could already smell the spicy scent she was craving.
"Now." She urged.
"Now?" He asked with a wince as he turned and faced her.
"Now..." She said as she picked up the phone and handed to him.
"Why me?" He whined as she grabbed it and dialed.
"Because you crawled out of her vagina. She deserves to hear it from you." She said with a smile.
"Did you have to give me the visual?" He asked with a sour face as he listened to it ring.
"No problem." She returned with a laugh.
"Mom?" Derek said as he put it on speaker phone.
"So my son finally decides to call his mother...At eleven at night." Derek and Meredith looked at the clock and frowned.
"Sorry, Evelyn." Meredith said with regret. "It was my idea."
"Meredith, dear. Call me mom!" She said with gusto. "And it was a great idea." Evelyn said with a happy tone. "So why are you calling. I know you, son. You don't call for no reason."
"We actually- Um-- We--" Derek stammered.
"Spit it out." Evelyn told him with a chuckle.
"Meredith's pregnant!" He finally shouted exuberantly. "We're pregnant!"
"What! Oh my god!" Evelyn shouted happily. "I'm going to be a grandmother!"
"Mother, you're already a grandmother." Derek said with a chuckle. "Many times over."
"I know son, but this one is special." She said with a smile. Derek was her baby. She had been hoping for a grandchild from him for years.
"Two." Meredith clarified.
"Two?" Evelyn asked in shock.
"Twins." Derek said with a giddy tone.
"Two more baby Shepherds..." Evelyn trailed off. "Congratulations!" Evelyn said happily. "So how are you feeling, dear?"
"I'm good." Derek answered.
"Not you! Not that I don't care, son. I was talking to Meredith..." Evelyn amended.
"I am feeling pretty good for 13 weeks." Meredith told her.
"You're already in your second trimester?" Evelyn asked with hurt. "Was I the last to know?"
No! Of course not. We found out late. Between the stress, and everything else." Derek explained.
"I'm so happy for you both." Evelyn told them. "And Derek, you take care of her. Excellent care, she is special." Evelyn said, talking about Meredith.
"I know she is, mom." He said as he walked over and pulled Meredith close. "I know she is."
So finally Mama Shepherd knows. Thanks to everyone who reviews! I do read and enjoy every one even if I don't reply.