Crap. Crap crap. This is bad beyond bad. I knew this would happen. I knew something would have to go wrong. It always does. I think I have done well. I finally start to have a normal, healthy life, and then this. Disappointed. That would be the next thing Ellis would say. Angry. Why didn't you tell me? It was coming. And it was coming quick.
"Derek." Meredith spat as she grabbed his arm and pulled him with her.
"What's wrong?" He asked as he looked at her face. The tears were threatening to spill.
"What's wrong? I hate you. You and your stupid, "Let's be nice. Let's invite every freaking person in the world. It'll be fun. All our friends." Yeah. Bullshit! It's-- Damn it." She rambled as she looked at him.
"Calm down..." He said softly. "What is going on?"
"Jake just told my mother that I was married to Ian." Meredith said nastily.
"Oh." Derek responded as he looked at the around.
"Oh no! You can't do that. Be quiet. Play the innocent card. You have to fix this!" She said as she began to storm away. "And for the record, you look completely ridiculous." She spat as she looked at him standing there in his "Grill-master" apron and cooking utensils.
"Mer--" He said as he followed her outside. She threw her hand up and kept walking. She wanted to hide. But it didn't matter. It would come out eventually.
Meredith walked back out and took a seat with Addison, Stan, George and Izzie. They all watched as she plopped down in the chair and crossed her arms over her large abdomen. They all wanted to laugh. She looked like big spoiled brat that wasn't getting her way. They wanted to laugh, but they all knew better.
"What's wrong with the princess?" Cristina joked as she walked up to the table and took a seat.
"We haven't found that out yet." Stan responded as he looked around the table.
"Mer?" Izzie asked with a bit of concern on her face.
"Meredith? Can I speak to you for a moment?" Ellis said as she walked up from behind. Meredith slowly rose from the table and waddled over to the front porch with Ellis.
"What do you think that's about?" George asked as he watched a peeved Meredith walk off.
"Who knows." Izzie said with a shrug. "But she doesn't look happy..."
Meredith was not happy. this was not how she wanted this so-called perfect day to go. This was far from perfect. In fact, it had become hell day. A day for everyone to talk about every mistake she had ever made. It seemed like Ellis was always do that. Either pointing or or finishing for mistakes. God forbid Meredith succeed.
She knew how she was going to approach this. Rough. Straightforward. No nonsense. Blunt. She was tired of her mom's comments. Her little put downs. She wasn't going to do it anymore. She had a little girl, and two more children on the way. She was tired of letting her mom put her down. She was tired of Ellis being disappointed. This time, she would beat her to the punch.
"Yes mom. I was married, okay? I was married for almost ten years. I got drunk in Vegas, and ended up getting married at an all night wedding chapel. That's why I didn't come home. That's why I just disappeared off the face of the earth. That's why i went to Oxford. It was a hail storm of self loathing misery. He and I both slept around. Neither of us were committed. We lived together and that was it. It's over. I know, I screwed up. I messed my whole life up. I'm a big screw up and I will never amount to anything." Meredith spat out quickly before bursting into tears.
Ellis was in shock. Her daughter lived a secret life. She never told her. All those years she was gone and she never told her why. She felt guilty. Part of this was her fault. She wasn't around. She didn't teach her daughter. It was her fault, and Ellis Grey actually felt it.
"Meredith..." She said with a soft face.
"I-- I--" Meredith muttered as she looked down.
"You could have told me. I'm your mother." Ellis said softly as she looked at Meredith's tear stained face.
"It's the hormones..." She said as she wiped her tears.
"Meredith. I wasn't a good mom. I know that. I wasn't meant to be a mom. But I am. I am a mom. And you. You are extraordinary. I pushed hard. I pushed you way too hard. I thought I would make you the best you could be. I thought I could make you everything that I wasn't. And along the way, I forgot to let you be you. I forgot to let you be a kid. I forget to let you do it on your own. It was my fault that you left. And now I realize you did do it on your own. You succeeded. You are great. You will be better than I am. I was jealous. I worked so hard to get where I am. And you-- You're smart. You're naturally talented. You didn't have to work, because you just had it. And now, I know you're not going to stomp me out. You are my legacy. You are my daughter. And you are not a disappointment." Ellis told her firmly.
"Mom..." Meredith said as she looked up at her. "Thank you." Ellis pulled her into a soft embrace.
"Now let's go eat." She said as she led her daughter away.
Meredith grabbed a plateful of various salad and a hamburger. She was starving. All of the preparation was a lot of work. But Derek was right. It was worth it. She was still shocked that her mom had been so kind. So human. Meredith grabbed her plate and sat down next to Addison and Stan.
"So..." Addison asked as she looked up at a relieved Meredith.
"My mom. She's um-- Well, she was actually human." Meredith said as she took a bite of her macaroni salad. "Mmm. The twins like macaroni salad." She replied with a smile.
"That's good. About your mom..." Stan said with a smile.
"Yeah. She does have the power to amaze." Meredith pointed out. Derek grabbed a plate and sat next to her. "The burgers are good." She said as she leaned over and kissed him. "And you were right. It's good. Everything is good." She told him happily.
"I told you." He said with a knowing smile. "Did you try the cucumber salad? It's pretty good." Derek said as he lifted a bite to her mouth.
"Yuck...the twins definitely don't like that." Meredith said as she spit it into her napkin.
"You know. The twins seem to be making an awful lot of decisions lately. And you say I'm the pushover..." Derek said with a chuckle.
"You are, Der." Addison said with a giggle. "Especially when it comes to your girls." She said, meaning Meredith and Anna.
"Well, I'm allowed to push him over..." Meredith said quickly.
"And I like it." Derek agreed.
Meredith glanced up at a black suv making it's may down the driveway. She had thought everyone was here. Maybe Derek had invited more people. At the moment, she was ready. The more the merrier. She watched it come to a halt, and the doors finally open. Her face dropped was she watched Francaesca step out of the passenger seat. Her stomach knotted as Marty came around the front of the car.
"What the hell is he doing here?" Derek spat in shock.
"Oh, I-- I invited Franceasca. I supposed she dragged Marty along..." Addison said with a smile. Derek began to stand up from his seat. Meredith quickly pushed him down.
"Oh..." Meredith said as she squeezed Derek's thigh with her hand. "That's...the more the merrier." Meredith said with a fake smile.
"He's not--" Derek started as he looked over at the two approaching. Marty had a smug look on his face.
"Derek, I think we need more soda. Can you help me get more?" Meredith asked as she sat her plate down and stood.
"Mer-- I think we have more than..." Derek started with a look.
"We need more." She said firmly as she walked off. She could feel him following behind her.
"I'm going to kill him." Derek said as he walked into the house with clenched fists. "I am going to kill that son of a bitch!" He said as he punched the sofa.
"Derek! Stop. Stop that!" She said as she put her hand on his arm. "This has been good. It's been a good day. My mom and I talked. She said things. Everyone is getting along. Just for once I would like the drama to stop. For the gossip in the halls of Seattle Grace to not be solely about me and my crazy life. I want a happy relaxing day. Please..." Meredith pleaded as she held his arm.
"Oh, and you're really going to be able to relax with that asshole staring at you like a piece of meat? I'm not going to take it. No way. I will not let this happen." Derek said as the vein in his neck started to pop out.
"You said it yourself. He has been gone. I haven't seen him. Haven't heard from him. He didn't even give me a sideways glance as they walked up. I think you made your point. You're the big dog. You pissed all over him." She said with a chuckle.
"Mer--" Derek whined.
"No. Just let it be... If something happens... If he makes me uncomfortable..." She started.
"You will let me kill him?" Derek asked with a hopeful grin.
"No, I'd like to keep you around. Not to mention you wouldn't fair very well in prison. You're just too damn pretty." She said with a giggle. "But yes, I will tell you. You will know."
"Fine. But I am not leaving your side." He said as he grabbed more soda and they walked out together. Meredith made her way over to Jake and Megan.
"How was everything?" Meredith asked as she sat down.
"Great. We're stuffed." Megan said as she placed her hand on her stomach.
"That's good." Meredith said as she sat down. "So how has work been?"
"Great." Jake responded. "Busy. But it's been great. How about you?"
"It never ends." Meredith told him.
"How many hours do you work a week?" Megan asked with an interested grin.
"Well, last week it was one hundred five." Meredith responded.
"Holy crap! I cannot imagine working that while pregnant!" Megan replied in shock.
"That's a lot." Jake agreed. "So you're husband..."
"He's great. Amazing." Meredith said as she glanced over at Derek.
"And hot too." Megan answered with a giggle. Jake rolled his eyes.
"Yeah. I can agree with that." Meredith answered.
"So, what does he do?" Jake asked as he took a sip of his beer.
"He's a neurosurgeon." Meredith told them. "One of the best."
"No shit? A brain surgeon... Wow." Jake said with a fair amount of shock in his voice. "So that would explain you dating the doctors. They're all you ever see..."
"I suppose so." Meredith said with an agreeing nod.
"Mommy..." Anna said as she ran up to Meredith. "Can we go swimming? Please?"
"Well, I don't know if anyone is around to watch you..." Meredith explained.
"Alex and George are going..." Anna said as she pointed at the two.
"Sure. You can go swimming." Meredith said with a nod.
"Yay!" Anna shouted as she ran off.
"She's sweet." Megan said with a smile.
"She's great. I just--- It's amazing. We're going through the adoption process now." Meredith explained. She felt Derek sneak up and kiss her softly.
"So Meredith Grey...mommy. That is the shock of a lifetime." Jake said, shaking his head. "You always said no kids."
"Things change. People change." Meredith said as she placed her hand on her abdomen.
"This is true." Derek said as he sat beside her.
"Well, it seems to suit you." Megan said with an agreeing nod. "I've never seen you happier."
"I've never been. I have everything I could want right here." She said as she grasped Derek's hand.
"That's great...it really is." Jake said as he glanced at his watch. "Oh... We need to get going."
"Oh, yeah. I guess it is getting late." Megan agreed. "Thanks so much for inviting us. we need to do this again sometime." She said as they all stood up.
"Thanks, and it was nice meeting you." Jake said as he shook Derek's hand.
"You too." Derek agreed as he shook his hand. "So, that wasn't bad, No embarrassing stories... Although I have to admit, I was hoping there would be." He told her.
"Of course you were." Meredith giggled.
"And I also have to say, it was hard to keep a straight face while sitting across from a man who you know has a very small pipe-cleaner." Derek said with a chuckle. Meredith burst out laughing.
"You are bad..." Meredith said as she shook her head. Cristina and Izzie walked over and joined them.
"Whatcha talking about?" Izzie said with a grin.
"Pipe-cleaners." Meredith said with a giggle.
"Like plumbers?" Izzie asked with confusion.
"No." Meredith said quickly.
"Is that some sly reference to your penis?" Cristina asked with an amused smile.
"Um..." Derek said as he looked at Meredith.
"Seriously? You two are...bad." Izzie said as she sat down next to them. "Where's Drew?"
"He got pulled into a surgery. Lucky shit." Meredith said with a chuckle.
"No kidding." Cristina agreed. "I'd kill to be in on a surgery."
"Oh." Meredith said as she grabbed her stomach. They wall looked at her with worry. "I need some cheesecake The twins need some cheesecake." Meredith said with a large grin as she stood up.
Meredith walked over to the table and eyed the chocolate cheesecake. It had never looked so good, and it was definitely what the twins wanted. She cut herself a large piece and sat down on the rocking chair on the porch. He smile turned to a frown when Marty neared the table and then headed her way with his plate.
Meredith's stomach twisted as she watched him near. He made her nervous. She didn't fell right about him. She wasn't happy that he was at her house, but she was determined to keep the peace. She wanted to have a good day. She wanted it to be perfect. And for the sake of Anna and everyone else, she would bite her tongue and give him the benefit of the doubt.
"How are you?" He asked cordially as she sat in a chair next to her.
"Um. I'm good, how are you?" Meredith asked as her stomach twisted.
"I'm great. Been busy, but I wouldn't have it any other way." He said as he took a bite.
"That's good." Meredith answered as she placed a big of cheesecake in her mouth. It was now making her sick. Now she was associating it with him.
"So, Addison says you've been jogging?" Marty asked as he looked over. "They say it's good, to try and stay fit, for the babies."
"Um. Yeah. I guess it is." Meredith answered. Why would he ask? Why would her jogging be a conversation piece? Note to self...quit jogging.
"So has Derek thought anymore about the system?" He asked as he looked over.
"Um. I really don't know. We've both been busy." Meredith said quickly. She caught Derek's glance. His eyes got wide when he realized who was next to her.
Derek immediately jumped from his chair. How the hell does he think he is? If Meredith didn't trust him, he didn't trust him. There was absolutely no way he was risking the health and safety of she or the children. No way. His anger grew as he walked towards them. Now nervy. How ballsy. What kind of man just walks in and talks to your wife when you warned him. Threatened him. Either an idiot. Or someone who was too damn brave.
"I thought we came to an understanding." Derek said nastily as he clenched his jaw.
"I was just making conversation." Marty said quickly. "And actually, I would like to take this chance to apologize to you both. I behaved like a complete asshole. My behavior was completely out of line. I'm very sorry, Meredith. I didn't mean to disrespect you, or make you worry." He said genuinely as he looked at them both. "If you'll excuse me..." He said as he walked off.
"What the hell was that?" Meredith asked in shock.
"I don't know. I guess his attempt at being a decent human being?" Derek asked.
"He seemed genuine." meredith said quickly.
"Seemed being the operative word." Derek replied as he looked into her eyes. "I still don't trust him as far as I can throw him."
"Yeah, me either." Meredith agreed.
The cookout went without a hitch. Everyone ate and had a good time. They all trickled out before too long, much to Meredith and Derek's relief. It was a long day, and they were both exhausted. Anna had fallen asleep on the sofa and Derek had taken her to bed. Meredith took a much needed hot bath. Meredith smiled when she came out and saw Derek asleep with his book on his chest.
"Goodnight..." She said softly as she pulled his book off his chest and kissed him.
"I was awake." He lied with a grin.
"Sure." She said with a smile as she looked into his eyes.
"Well, I'm awake now." He said with raised eyebrows.
"Are you now?" She asked as he lips neared hers. She could feel his hit breath. She could almost taste his sweet lips.
"I am." He said as he grasped the back of her head and pulled her in for a kiss. Their lips crashed like a wave. Meredith parted her lips as Derek slip his tongue deep inside of her mouth. Meredith grabbed the back of Derek's head tightly.
"Oh, god am I glad you're awake." She said as he pulled away breathlessly.
"Me too." Derek said as he laid her back and began kissing her neck.
"Oh..." She moaned as she felt his tongue trail as he sucked softly. "I need you..." She whispered into his ear.
"Soon enough..." He said as he pulled camisole off, and ran his mouth across her chest, sucking and pulling her nipples. "I have to say...these are...nice." He said as he teased her nipples. His fingers tugged at her pants, pulling them and her panties off in one swoop.
"Oh..." She moaned as he placed kisses on her thighs. "Please?" She moaned.
She felt his tongue teasing her. He moved her hips towards him, begging him to put her out of her misery. He placed his hands on her hips, holding her down. She spread her legs, awaiting him. Derek ran his finger down her middle, feeling her heat.
"Please...Der..." She moaned. The loud ring of her cellphone filled the room. "Forget it." She said as she looked over.
"It could be an emergency." Derek pointed out.
"Don't care." She moaned as her body begged.
"Mer." He said as he looked.
"Fine." She muttered as she leaned over an grabbed her phone. "Hello?" She was meant by loud sobs. "Hello?" She looked down at the number on the phone. "Oh god..."