It was a struggle. It was humorous. It was embarrassing. It was Derek trying to get the car seats in his Land Rover. He was on a mission. Evelyn tried. Jane tried. He was not taking help. Period. He could do this. They were the only ones in front of the hospital holding babies and balloons. Derek had to show them. He had to be able to do it. Especially with everyone watching.

"You could have done this before you came..." Meredith mentioned, falling on deaf ears.

"Derek, Dear...let me try." Evelyn said as she moved him out of the way.

"I've got it." He snapped as he glared at her.

"Okay..." Evelyn said as she stepped back in shock.

"Derek..." Meredith said as she neared him.

"There. Got it! First one in." He said as he stood back, hands on his hips. "Now I just have to do this one like that one." He muttered to himself. "Ha." He said as he quickly got the second one in place.

Meredith had never seen Derek drive so slowly in her life. He was going twenty-five. Twenty-five in a forty-five. People were beeping. People were yelling. And yet he went on as if he were in his own safe little world. He was pretending his children. ensuring their safety.

"Seriously! Derek. You are going to get us killed." Meredith said as she looked over at him.

"What?" Derek asked as he continued to look forward.

"You are going twenty miles per hour under the speed limit. Someone is going to hit us because we are going so slow!" Meredith snapped.

"I don't want them to get hurt." Derek said as he looked at them in the rearview mirror.

"That is why they are in car seats. They are protected." Meredith said quickly.

"That doesn't save them from shattering glass or when the car flips twelve times!" He said loudly.

"Fine. Five miles under. Or I drive." She told him as she looked at the speedometer.

"You are in no condition to drive." He said quickly.

"I will push you out, onto the road and I will drive. You're going so damn slow, I'm sure you'll be fine when you hit the pavement!" She said as she shook her head.

"Fine." He muttered, as he sped up, much to the relief of the other drivers.

"Finally." Meredith said as they pulled down the driveway. Derek ignored her comment and pulled into the garage in silence.

"What took you so long?" Evelyn asked as she walked into the garage.

"Derek is a slow ass-rse driver." She muttered as she grabbed Devlin.

"You shouldn't be lifting yet." Evelyn said as she grabbed the baby's carrier.

"I'm fine!" Meredith said as she grabbed Delilah.

"Mer, don't push." Derek said as he grabbed Delilah.

"Damn-it! Can I not take care of my own children?" She snapped loudly.

"Mer--" Derek said as he watched her storm off.

"Hormones, dear. She can't control herself right now." Evelyn explained. "This is a big change for everyone."

"Mommy!" Anna shouted loudly as they walked in.

"Shh!" Derek said quickly. The babies immediately started to cry.

"Oh no... This is how Kelsey said it starts." Anna said with a frown as she looked at the crying babies.

"Oh..." Meredith said as she grabbed Devlin, Derek grabbing Delilah. They both began rocking the babies gently. Meredith sat down on the sofa. "I think they're hungry." Meredith told Derek. He nodded.

"I'm going to give you guys some time alone." Evelyn said as she looked at the parents feeding the babies. She walked out quietly with Anna.

"This is going to be hard, isn't it?" She asked as she looked up at Derek.

"You have no idea." He said as he looked down at the two now-quiet babies.

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"Oh god..." Meredith moaned as she climbed out of the bed for the millionth time.

"Ahhh..." Derek moaned as he covered his head.

"I'll be back..." Meredith moaned as she stumbled out of the bedroom and into the nursery.

Meredith looked at the pale moonlight peeking through the sage green curtains. The antique white cribs looked so perfect. The nursery was perfect. Derek had done it while she was in London. It was the perfect surprise. She walked over to the crib and looked at Delilah, who was sleeping quietly. Then she looked at Devil who was screaming.

"Don't you sleep, little man?" Meredith moaned as she picked up the little boy and sat in the rocking chair. He looked up at her with his bright blue eyes and quieted down.

"Mommy's tired. Daddy's tired. And if you wake your sister up, there is going to be big trouble for you." Meredith said softly. He looked at her and stared. "You have to sleep. Are you hungry? Do you want to eat?" She asked him softly. He refused as stared at her. "Maybe you need a story? Do you need a story?" She asked softly.

"Once upon a time there was a woman. She was so sad. She felt like her life was incomplete. She felt like there was nothing left for her. Not love. Not friendship. She was all alone. She was foolish and married a man that she didn't love. Not the way you're supposed to. She just went through life like it didn't mean anything. Then she met a man. A man that she really loved. She loved him a lot. And he left her. She was even sadder than she was before. He left her without saying a word. He broke mommy-- I mean the woman, he broke the woman..." She said softly as the tears ran down. Derek stood outside the door and listened quietly.

Derek's face dropped. He knew that Meredith had loved Nate. According to Ian, he was the love of her life. He knew that he had broke her when he left. But at the same time, Derek knew that love never went away. He knew that no matter how deep it was buried, it was still there. Now he was praying that it didn't come back.

"And now you're asleep. I guess it was a pretty boring story..." Meredith muttered as she stood back up. He immediately started crying again.

"This isn't right. No, it's not. Devlin you are supposed to be a big man." She said as she kissed him softly. "Okay, so on with the story. The woman was broken. Beyond repair. Or so she thought. See, she found someone else. There were fools along the way... But the end result. The end result was perfect. The end result was worth all of the other stuff. Because in the end, she had a wonderful husband and three great kids. And they were happy. Even when babies kept them up all night, they were happy." Meredith said as she began to feed the little boy.

Derek stood there with a smile on his face. She loved him. Not that he doubted it. But it made him feel better. It made him feel like no matter what everything would be fine.

"Hey." Derek said as he walked in and kissed her on the head. "How is he?"

"Horrible." Meredith said with a chuckle. "Like his father. You're mother told me about you..."

"I was a good baby." Derek said with a chuckle.

"Sure." Meredith said as she shook her head.

"Well, Lilah doesn't seem to have a problem sleeping. Like her mother." He said with a chuckle as he stroked Delilah's cheek.

"Funny." Meredith muttered.

"Do you need a break? Do you want to go lay down?" Derek asked as he watched her.

"Considering he's attached to my boob, I don't think that's an option." She said as she looked up. "I guess you're right." Derek said with a nod.

"I'm sure she'll be waking up next." Meredith muttered. They heard her loud cry. "Uh huh." She said as she shook her head. "Well, luckily he's done." Derek grabbed Delilah and swapped them out, rocking Devlin.

"You are so amazing, Mer." He said as he watched her.

"Why?" She asked with a smile.

"You did this... You are just..." He shook his head as he kissed Devlin, placing him in his crib. Meredith stood up and walked Delilah to her crib. She ran her finger across both or their cheek's and wrapped her arm around Derek, walking two their room.

"Let's get some sleep... While we can." Meredith said as she collapsed on the bed. Derek wrapped his arm around her and spooned up against her.

"Goodnight." Derek whispered as he kissed her head. "Mer? Mer?" Snore.

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Derek looked over at the red numbers on their clock. It was eight in the morning. He never slept this late. He had never felt that he had to. But today. Today he needed it. Sleep he realized was a prized possession these days. the twins were up all night. They never slept. Derek moaned. Yes sleep. Sleep was good. Until he heard the yelling.

"I can't go to school!" Anna shouted at her mother.

"And why not?" Meredith asked as she looked up at Anna.

"I didn't sleep. They cried all night." Anna said loudly.

"I'm sorry, baby, but you really need to go to school." Meredith said as she looked at Anna's sad face.

"Fine." Anna moaned as she turned around and started ripping clothes out for her dresser. Meredith moaned as she stumbled down the stairs towards the kitchen. She head her phone vibrating on the counter. She put in her password and listened.

"Meredith, I am so sorry. I am really sick. I don't want to get the twins sick, so I'm not going to come over. I think it's a twenty-four hour thing, but I can't stop vomiting. I hope it isn't a problem." Jane said in a sick voice.

"Shit..." Meredith muttered as she climbed back up the stairs. "Der... Listen for the twins, okay. I'll be right back." Meredith said softly as she nudged him.

"Alright." He said as he rolled away from her and closed her eyes.

"Okay, Anna. Let's go get some breakfast. I made you and english muffin." She said as they walked down the stairs. "Jane can't come today. We're late, so you need to eat on the way, okay?"

"Okay." Anna huffed as she followed Meredith. Meredith climbed into the driver's side of her BMW. It had been a long time since she had driven. She adjusted her seat from where Evelyn had it and backed out of the driveway. "I know you don't want to go..." meredith said as she looked back at Anna, who was rolling her eyes. Meredith didn't have the energy to argue. "I'm sorry you didn't get any sleep last night..." Meredith said as she neared the school.

"Anna?" She said as she looked back. Anna was slumped over, out like a light. "Apparently you really were tired." Meredith muttered as she made a u-turn and headed back home.

Meredith looked at herself. She was a mess. Her hair looked like an animal lived in it. She was wearing slippers. She went out in slippers. She drove her daughter to school in slippers and pajamas. This was mess. It was already starting. She was a mommy. A real spit-up covered mommy.

Meredith drove up to the house and looked at the barn. The horses. Jane wasn't there to take care of the horses. She drove over in front of the barn and looked at it. She didn't want the damn pony. And who was taking care of it? She was. She was taking care of the thing. She walked into the barn with her slippers. At this moment, she didn't care. She was too tired to care. She walked into the feed room and looked at the chart. Taking a half a cup of this and a half a cup of that, she walked out and poured their grain into their tubs.

"I'm sorry you had to wait, guys." She said as she looked up at them. Hay, they needed hay. She climbed the stairs to the loft and looked around. She struggled as she dragged a bale over and threw their flakes of hay into the stalls.

"That wasn't so hard." She said with a shrug. "I guess you guys are in for the day, because I don't know how to let you out." She said with a shrug. She slowly made her way back to the car and drove to the driveway.

"Anna, come on..." Meredith muttered as she shook Anna awake.

"Mmmm." She moaned as she looked up.

"Come on, let's go back to bed." She said as she led her along. "I declare this national sleeping day." she said. Anna nodded as she followed Meredith into the house and walked to her room. Meredith sighed when she looked into the quiet nursery. She walked to their room and changed her pajamas, before climbing back into bed. She pulled herself up against Derek and closed her eyes, falling asleep.

Meredith awoke abruptly when Derek shouted at her.

"Oh my god, Mer! Get up!" Derek shouted as he looked at her.

"Oh my God." She said as she looked at him.

Oh no...