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Chapter 12
"They Know A Secret, I Knew They Wouldn't Keep"
A Week Later,
Mickie and Randy were very close, and the two had become official.
Ashley and John were also very good. But Ashley seemed distant for the last four days.
"Hey babe, you okay?" John asked Ashley as the two walked home.
"I'm fine.." Ashley responded quietly.
"You sure? You seem distant and sad." John replied.
"I'm fine!" She snapped.
"Sorry." He apologized.
"Whatever. Bye." She then turned down her block and walked very fast.
John stood there at the corner of the block with a confused expression on his face.
Ashley walked in to her home to see her mother and her mother's disgusting and rude boyfriend.
"Well well Ashley's home." Her mother's boyfriend said, before sipping his beer.
Ashley ignored him, rolled her eyes, and put her backpack down.
"Ashley, dear, you need to make a dinner tonight for me and Jack." Her mother told her.
"It's your dinner.. It's not like I'm eating it, why don't you make it yourself.." Ashley replied.
Her mother's boyfriend got up from his chair and walked over to Ashley.
"Don't you EVER speak to your mother like that! Your a selfish brat!" He yelled.
"Your not my dad! You've been around for a week, you have no right to push me around! All you do is hit me and make me feel bad about myself! Well guess what, it's over! Your not pushing me around any more! Your just another bastard that my mom is only gonna date for a week."
He then back hand slapped her straight across the face.
Ashley was beaten by him pretty much every day since last week.
Ashley fell to the ground, holding her right cheek in pain.
"Jack! What are you doing?!" Her mother yelled, as she quickly got up to run over to the two.
"Oh whatever like you even care! You let me push her around all the time!"
Ashley stood up with tears rolling down her face, she then immediately ran up to her room.
"Ashley! Hunny!" Her mother yelled.
But Ashley ignored her and continued to sprint up the stairs.
She slammed her door shut, and slid down it. She sat on the ground, leaning against the door.
She cried hysterically. She then managed to gain up her strength to get up from the floor.
She got up from the ground and walked over to her dresser.
She then proceeded to get a pair of scissors. She sat down on her bed.
Five Minutes Later,
Ashley put two bandaids on her arms, and put her sweatshirt back on.
She then got up and looked at herself in the mirror.
She was ashamed of what she saw. She couldn't believe that she was hurting herself this way.
She knew that she shouldn't be doing, what shes doing. But she felt as if she was forced to do it.
It was the only pain that she could control.
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Ashley was walking down the school halls. She put her books in her locker, and made her way to the bathroom.
She was washing her hands when Kelly entered the bathroom.
"Ashley.. Just the girl that I was looking for." Kelly stated.
"And why would that be?" Ashley replied.
"Well I know you and John are a thing now. So me and you, for the most part, are friends now. Right?"
"Sure, I guess."
"Well I need to ask you some thing."
"What is it?" Ashley asked.
"What do you think of Mickie?"
"Shes a good friend."
"I mean.. the bad stuff. Because my group is trying to find out if she has any thing bad about her, because we wanna be her friend. And the only way we can be is if we know for sure that shes not a bad person." Kelly replied, lying to Ashley.
"Well she has a slutty side, I'm not gonna lie about that. She also is really sensitive, and can be a real bitch."
"Really?"
"Yeah." Ashley answered.
"What about Melina?"
"She is such a drama queen, and she likes being the center of attention. I don't trust her that much, but shes a friend I suppose."
"How bout Brian and Paul?"
"Paul is kind of annoying and weird. But Brian is a close friend, but he tends to hit on girls a lot, hes like a man whore." She answered.
"Just one more question. What about John?"
"Hes sweet, and I'm totally in to him.. but he gets too concerned and it annoys me. He also always wants to be with me, its annoying."
"Thanks. I gotta go now. I'll see you later." Kelly then left the bathroom.
Kelly had some thing bad planned, and she knew Ashley would regret saying that all.
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Lunch.
Ashley was running late, so she wasn't at lunch yet.
Kelly approached her table where; Brian, Paul, Michelle, Mickie, Melina and John were sitting.
"Hey guys." She greeted them, sitting down.
"What do you want, Kelly?" Mickie asked annoyed.
"Well, I know some stuff that you guys might wanna hear.. it's about Ashley." Michelle replied.
"What is it?" Melina asked.
"Well for starters; Melina, Ashley thinks your an attention whore and she doesn't trust you. Mickie, Ashley thinks your a slut and a bitch. Paul, she thinks your annoying and weird. Brian, she said your a man whore. And finally John, according to Ashley, you get too concerned and you always wanna be with her which annoys her." Kelly explained. "I asked Ashley about you guys this morning in the bathroom, and I told her to tell me the truth.. and that's what she said."
"Your lying." John stated.
"Would I really come up with all of that?" She replied.
Ashley entered the lunch room.
She walked over to her table with a bright smile.
Right before she got there, Kelly left.
"Hey guys!" She greeted them, with a bright smile. She noticed the mad expressions on every one's faces. "You guys okay?"
"I'm an untrustworthy attention whore?" Melina asked.
"And I'm a slutty bitch?" Mickie added.
"Don't forget that I'm too weird, and Brian is a man whore." Paul stated.
"And I always wanna be with you, which is annoying.."
Ashley was in shock.
"Who said that I said that?" She asked.
"Kelly." Melina answered. "Why the fuck would you say that about us?!" She yelled.
"Okay you guys gotta hear me out, I'm having a terrible home life and I'm really messed up right now. When Kelly asked me; I decided that I really needed to get every thing off my chest.. so I just said it all." Ashley explained.
"Your a bitch." John blurted out. "Not to be harsh but Ashley.. They're your friends, and I'm your boyfriend.. You treated us like shit."
"John. I'm sorry, okay? I didn't mean any of it."
"No.. you said what you felt." Mickie stated. "And I understand-"
"You do?" Ashley asked happily.
"I understand that your a selfish bitch who cares only about herself." Mickie replied, Ashley's jaw dropped. "I'm outta here."
Mickie then stood up and began to leave.
Melina, Paul, Brian, Michelle, and John followed her.
Ashley was in complete shock. She stared at the empty table, as tears rushed to her eyes.
She then sat down at the table, and put her hand on her forehead.
She then began to cry.
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About a half hour after she got home, she was putting more bandaids on her arm.
She cried in her room, and she was all alone. She had no one to talk too.
Suddenly, there was a knock on her bedroom door.
"Come in.." She stated sadly.
Her mother proceeded to open the door and enter her room.
"Ashley."
"Yes."
"I'm really sorry for Jack freaking out on you lately." Her mother apologized.
"Did you dump him?"
"No. We're still together." Her mother answered.
Ashley rolled her eyes.
"You have no idea what hes making me do." She replied, referring to her cutting.
"What do you mean? Whats he making you do?" Her mother asked, very concerned.
"Nothing mother, It's not like you care about me anyways. This is probably the first time I've been talking to you by yourself in about 2 months."
"Ashley, I'm sorry about that. I just.. after your father died, I was lonely. I wanted to find another guy. I'm trying to get out there and find another man. Your father got sick and passed away so quickly that I wasn't allowed to prepare myself for his leaving.. I was in shock for a year after his death."
"I know.. I remember."
"I know you were only 10 when it happened, so you don't remember as much, but I tried to be a good mother to you Ashley. I've always tried to be a good mother, I just.. I'm having trouble as a single parent, that's why I'm trying to find the right man."
"Well Jack is not the right man, mom! He is a complete asshole."
"Don't you want me to be happy?" Her mother asked her.
"Don't you want me to be happy?!"
"Why is it always about you Ashley Marie!? Huh?! Why is it always only about you being happy?!"
"Because I never am!!" Ashley yelled back. "Mom.. I've been miserable since the day dad died. Wanna know why? Because dad always cared about me, and he always was there for me. He would spend every day with me. He'd take me to the park, to the carnival, even to the dog shelter! He just wanted me to be happy, he cared about me so much. He was the best father ever... and then he left. He passed away and I was lonely too. You keep saying how you were in shock and how you wanted some one so that you wouldn't be lonely.. well guess what mom? I needed you so that I wouldn't be lonely, but you weren't there. You were out every night and Grandma had to babysit me. And now, your out every damn night, and I'm stuck at home. I'm sick of being the daughter that you don't want."
Her mother was speechless.
"Just get out." Ashley demanded. "Now!" Her mother then began to walk out.
Before her mother opened the door to leave, she looked back at Ashley.
"I'm sorry.. Ashley.. I love you." She then left.