Hey..!! I'm so glad I was able to update soon. Finally exams are over! But I'm afraid I did absolutely bad in my differential calculus exams.., *cry* anyway.., I hope I can pass it somehow.., and yeah, thanks to all the reviews! ^_^ *hugs*
I'm so glad you guys like my stories, I'm really doing my best! Hehehehe…
I feel so sorry for Fuji, I know he's having a hard time right now being the wedding photographer and all, also, he had to endure spending time with Tezuka and his wife to be… but don't worry Fuji, you'll find your happy ending too!! Hehehehe…
Oh yeah.., words written in "italic" are inner thoughts!
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Tezuka had to admit. He was pissed. Actually, he was more annoyed. Ever since Atobe had shown up he had always spend time with Fuji.
And it annoyed Tezuka a lot when the two would chatter away and laugh at stuffs that he had no idea about.
Before it had always been him who Fuji would always laugh and talk with. It was always the two of them.
But now someone had replaced him and he didn't like that fact at all.
Five more days to go before his wedding.
Tezuka let out a groan, why the hell was he so affected with Fuji and Atobe? How many times did he have to tell himself that he shouldn't feel the way he was feeling. It wasn't right.
They were at the prestigious wedding gown boutique to check Chiharu's wedding gown. While she went to the fitting room, the three of them, including Atobe, stayed behind and waited for her.
After a few minutes, Chiharu came out from the fitting room with the designer.
"So how does it look?" Chiharu asked as she emerged from the dressing room as she tried on her wedding gown.
Tezuka looked up at her and couldn't help but smile.
"You look beautiful" he whispered. Chiharu blushed and giggled as she checked her own reflection on the mirror while chatting away with the designer.
Tezuka grimaced.
Yes, this is how it should be.
He loves Chiharu.
He took a quick glance at Fuji and felt his heart sank at the tensai's expression. Hurt was shown all over Fuji's face.
But why?
Tezuka stared more.
Why would Fuji have that kind of expression?
Fuji felt his heart crush at Tezuka's comment. He wanted badly to get out of the room but it would be rude towards Chiharu.
She did look stunning in her wedding gown. It matched her body well. She was beautiful. Even Tezuka admitted it.
"Ne Fuji kun? What do you think?" Chiharu asked as she turned to face Fuji.
Fuji felt his throat go dry and he found it hard to speak.
Move mouth!
"I… I think you look really beautiful in that" Fuji commented as he gave off his ever smiling façade as he desperately held onto Atobe's hand.
Atobe squeezed Fuji's hand in assurance.
"Gomen…, could you excuse us please?" Atobe asked politely as he pulled Fuji out of the room.
It was only until they got into the garden that Atobe pulled away.
Fuji looked up at him questioningly but before he could utter a word he was embraced tightly by Atobe.
"K-Keigo…?!" Fuji asked alarmed at the sudden action.
"Syusuke, why do you torture yourself? Ore Sama cannot stand it when I see you get hurt! Ore sama hates it when you act so tough even though you're at your limit" Atobe scolded.
Fuji just smiled softly as he let the embrace comfort him. "What am I to do Keigo? I told him we should go back to being friends but I can't. What am I suppose to do? He's getting married" Fuji said bitterly as he desperately fought the urge to cry.
"Don't keep it to yourself, it will only hurt more if you do. Listen to me Syusuke. There are many people willing to love you, if you let yourself get so stuck up with Tezuka you might never move on with your life" Atobe argued.
"I don't know if I can… Tezuka has been the first person I ever fell in love with. He's the first person I committed myself to" Fuji murmured.
"Idiot, just because he was your first doesn't mean he has to be your last, you might never know, the one who truly loves you might just be near you" Atobe said softly as he ran his hand on Fuji's soft hair.
Fuji let the words sink to his head as he let out a soft smile. It was really amazing how the narcissist was able to make him feel better even though he was hurting. Having Atobe around was really better than spending the days with Tezuka and his wife-to-be on his own.
"Ne Keigo, you really are nice" Fuji grinned.
"You have been awed by Ore sama's prowess" Atobe smirked.
"Maybe I have" Fuji smiled.
Atobe stared at the tensai and brushed his hair gently.
"Syusuke, Ore Sama knows the feeling of unrequited love too" Atobe admitted softly.
Fuji opened his eyes in surprise at that as he looked at Atobe, he then smiled playfully.
"You? The great ore sama has an unrequited love? It seems kind of impossible, especially with that prowess of yours" Fuji joked.
Atobe smiled softly and Fuji could've sworn he felt his heart skip a beat as he saw the serene expression on Atobe's face.
It was a rare sight to see Atobe smile, not smirk. And the smile he gave off has the sense of feeling that he really treasured that person.
"Ne Keigo, did you ever tell that person of how you felt?" Fuji asked.
"No, I'm waiting for the right moment" Atobe replied with confidence as he looked straight at Fuji's azure eyes.
Fuji felt a blush crept to his cheeks as Atobe gazed directly at him and avoided his eyes.
Why was he feeling embarrassed?
"Ah, soka… I'm sure that person will come to love you, I mean... you're a great guy, although you could also be a jerk at some times" Fuji laughed.
Although he felt somewhat embarrassed awhile ago, he still felt a lot better. Having Atobe around felt really good, he felt safe and cared for.
"Let's go back Syusuke, I'm sure they're wondering why we're taking so long" Atobe suggested as they both headed back inside.
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During Lunch, Fuji and Chiharu headed up for a pictorial in the garden while Tezuka and Atobe stayed behind in the lounge.
Tezuka watched Atobe closely, he noticed a tiny difference in Atobe's behavior when Fuji was around. Atobe would give a soft smile to Fuji but he would merely grunt or smirk arrogantly at others.
Whenever Fuji is around his eyed would soften.
Tezuka was sure.
Atobe is in love with Fuji.
But what about Fuji?
Did he love Atobe back?
/They call each other with their first names…/
That doesn't mean Fuji loves him as well
/They give secret smiles…/
Still, they might just be fooling around
/And since when did Fuji and Atobe became best of friends if they're not together?/
Maybe they understand each other well!
/Or maybe Atobe replaced you in Fuji's heart…/
'……'
Tezuka stopped at that thought.
Maybe that was true.
Maybe Atobe was the reason that Fuji was able to move on and forget about him.
Tezuka blinked.
Why was he thinking about Fuji again?
Why couldn't he get the tensai off his mind?
How come he was always thinking of him?
What did it mean to him if Fuji moved on?
It wasn't as though he was in love with Fuji…. Right…?
"Tezuka, you look pathetic, if there's something you want to ask Ore Sama then ask" Atobe said annoyed as he watched the stoic boy.
Tezuka straightened himself. "I don't know what you mean Atobe" Tezuka replied.
"I know you're wondering why ore sama became so close to that Tensai of yours" Atobe smirked as he elegantly took a sip of his tea.
"I believe that it has nothing do with me if Fuji befriends you" Tezuka replied curtly looking straight at Atobe.
"But it has something to do with you. Don't play dumb with me Tezuka, Ore Sama knows everything. Syusuke was once in love with you but you simply brushed him off" Atobe stated frankly.
Tezuka couldn't help but glare at the diva.
He hated the fact that he had to hear it all over from Atobe.
But he hated it more that he felt he regretted rejecting the tensai back then. Why? Why was he acting that way?
"You don't deserve Syusuke" Atobe glared as he placed the cup on the table.
"You're not worth his love and time"
Tezuka felt a pang somewhere in his heart.
"You had your chance but you wasted it, did you know how broken he was when you left?" Atobe asked.
Tezuka looked at the floor unable to look straight at Atobe's face, he didn't want to know.
He didn't want to hear.
Atobe gave a satisfied smirk as he watched the stoic man contemplate on what he said. He stood up to leave when he Tezuka stopped him.
"Why are you telling me this?" Tezuka asked confused.
Atobe smirked.
"Syusuke… is mine" he replied before leaving Tezuka alone.
Tezuka slumped back to his chair as realization struck him. Wasn't it already obvious that Atobe loved Fuji?
Still, hearing it come directly out of Atobe's mouth was painful.
Wait?
Painful?
Why?
Why did it hurt when he imagined Fuji and Atobe together?
Why did it matter?
Why??!?
Why was he behaving this way?
What was this feeling?
It was as if he wanted to punch something hard.
Why was he so frustrated?
/Admit it/.
What should he admit?
/Don't deny it/.
Was he in denial?
/Don't hide./
Hide from what?
/The truth./
Truth…?
/You love him/.
…what…??!
/You're in love with Fuji, you've always been./
Tezuka's eyes widen in shock. He didn't understand anymore. If he did love Fuji even before then why did he reject him back then.
/Because you denied it./
/Because you were scared/.
Tezuka let his hand run through his hair in confusion.
He didn't understand himself anymore.
He felt like going crazy.
Yet, Fuji was still the only thing on his mind.
He knew it wasn't the right thing to do but he couldn't help it.
Especially now that Atobe admitted he was in love Fuji.
And also due to the fact that there's only five more days to go before he gets married.
For the first time in his life, Tezuka doubted his own decisions.
TBC….
I hope you like this chapter! Finally Tezuka starts to realize his own feelings and Atobe admits he's in love with Fuji! Hehehehe… But for now, pls. review..! Hehehe.., it's highly appreciated! *hugs*