Fuji walked slowly as he took pictures of the decorations in the garden. The venue was perfect for the wedding, the preparations were made carefully, the pictures he took were all high quality. He was doing a good job.
But his heart wasn't.
He could feel the pain, the bitterness and envy in his heart. He knew he shouldn't be feeling that way but he couldn't help it.
He hated it.
He wanted to get away from the place but he couldn't.
Three days left before the wedding.
Tomorrow, Tezuka will be having his bachelors party.
All the regulars have been invited, even Rikai and Hyoutei and other tennis players that they've become friends with during their middle school.
Fuji didn't want to go, but it would be rude to Tezuka if he didn't show up.
Fuji let out a sigh, at least Atobe would be there if ever he couldn't take the pain anymore.
"Fuji kun!"
Fuji glanced back only to find Chiharu waving at him.
Fuji neared her.
"What is it?" he asked politely.
"Ne Fuji kun, would you help me choose a good song for the wedding?" Chiharu asked.
Fuji blinked in surprise.
A song?
"Ah, sure" he replied with his usual smile.
The two of them listened to various songs that Chiharu picked out. Fuji listened carefully but felt his heart stop at one song.
If youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that i can stay in your arms?
"Fuji Kun…"
"Fuji Kun..?"
"Fuji Kun..?!" Chiharu snapped.
Fuji instantly looked back at her only to find her staring at him worriedly.
"Ah, gomen… I kind of dosed off, I just… thought of something" Fuji explained.
"Are you sure you're alright? You kind of looked a bit pale" Chiharu observed.
"Ah, I'm fine. You don't have to worry" Fuji smiled kindly.
Fuji mentally kicked himself for being so careless. It was definitely uncharacteristic of him to dose off just because of a song.
C'mon Syusuke, you can handle this!
"Ah! I think this one is good. Kunimitsu will definitely love this song!" Chiharu beamed. Fuji just stared at her not quite listening to what she was saying as his mind wandered on the wedding three days from now.
Fuji excused himself from Chiharu as he went to the garden and sat on nearby bench. His mind still wandering on the upcoming wedding.
Fuji let out a sigh as he gazed at the sky above him.
What was he suppose to do?
Could he really just simply watch and wish them happiness?
Of course not.
He couldn't do it.
He could never do it.
He hated himself for being such a horrible person but that was how he really felt.
He couldn't bring himself to accept everything.
He hated himself for it.
He hated himself for telling Tezuka that they could go back to being friends when he couldn't do it.
He hated the fact that he agreed to do this photography job thinking he had already moved on when in fact he was still so stuck up with Tezuka.
He hated himself for not being able to forget the stoic man after being rejected before.
Why?
Why was Fuji Syusuke so damn weak?
Why was he so pathetic?
If he really wanted to forget Tezuka back then he should've just dated those guys or girls who wanted him so desperately.
But he had been so cruel to them, he didn't even give any of them a chance because somewhere in his heart he was still hoping that Tezuka might love him back.
Fuji let out a bitter smile.
For someone who was considered a tensai he could be really stupid.
Atobe walked gracefully in the garden as he searched for the tensai, he was sure Fuji would be there as the brown haired boy loved the outdoors.
He couldn't remember when and why he started to fall for the tensai, he just woke up one day realizing he couldn't stop thinking about him.
He didn't know why those blue eyes haunted him every night, it was like he was in a spell.
When they were in middle school he was more focused on Tezuka as he considered the stoic boy worthy to become his rival.
Fuji was just someone who watched over the sidelines.
Atobe even considered him insignificant.
But on they're second year of middle school things started to change slowly.
He was walking around the park alone to cool off his head when he saw the tensai sitting on a bench, he was just about to leave when he took another small glance at Fuji and felt himself stop.
Fuji let out a soft bitter smile, very much unlike the kind of smile he often had plastered on his face and Atobe chose to ignore the fact that his heart was beating fast.
He didn't understand why he felt such a thing and he didn't understand why, in that moment, he thought that Fuji was so beautiful.
After that he seemed to let his gaze wander on the tensai in every tournament. With his eyesight, he was able to realize that Fuji felt something for Tezuka, and it made the rivalry with Tezuka greater.
For the first time in his life, Atobe had felt envy. He was jealous that Tezuka got so much of Fuji's attention, yet, he didn't notice the tensai's affection towards him.
It was right after they graduated that he got closer to the tensai.
He was walking in the streets during a rainy day, he didn't even bother to call his chauffeur to take him home as he wanted to be alone.
He wanted to think things over, most of all, he wanted to see Fuji, he knew Fuji liked the outdoors and he often see the tensai at the park alone. He passed the street tennis court and went to the park, he felt himself smile as he saw the object of his desire.
But he soon let out a frown as he saw the expression on Fuji's face.
Fuji was smiling but Atobe knew that the tensai was crying, the rain might cover the fact but he knew better.
Without thinking he went to Fuji.
He could sense Fuji's surprise as the brown haired boy faced him.
"You shouldn't stay out in the rain" Atobe grunted. He had to keep his composure. He shouldn't let the tensai know of his feelings.
Fuji let out his usual smile that Atobe hated so much.
"Speak for yourself Atobe, you're as drenched as I am" Fuji commented.
"You look pathetic Fuji"
Fuji opened his eyes in surprise at the comment.
"It's normal for people to smile when they're happy and to cry when they're sad, you on the other hand look so pathetic for not even knowing such a simple thing" Atobe commented futher on.
Atobe froze as he saw Fuji glare at him.
"How would a spoiled brat like you understand how I feel, you've always gotten what you want! So don't you dare tell me what I should do!" Fuji snapped.
At that Atobe glared at him as well as he pulled Fuji's wrist, Fuji's eyes widened in shock at the sudden harshness.
"Ore sama just wanted to help you, do you know how awful you look right now?" Atobe asked angrily.
"I don't need your help!" Fuji spat.
"You are so stubborn!" Atobe said.
"I am stubborn! Look, just leave me alone ok? I can manage by mys…."
Fuji couldn't continue as he felt Atobe pull him in a tight embrace.
"Ore sama know you're hurting right now, you can cry you know. No one forbids you to show some weakness some times" Atobe said gently while soothing Fuji's back.
Fuji wanted to push him away but the sudden gentleness and kindness in Atobe's voice made his knees go weak as he finally let the tears continue to fall. He held onto Atobe as if his life depended on him.
That night, Fuji slept in Atobe's embrace.
Fuji let out the same soft smile that Atobe adored so much when he first fell in love with the tensai.
Since that day, Atobe vowed to himself that he would do everything to make Fuji happy.
Atobe smiled at the memory, he had gotten close with tensai after that. he was about to go to Fuji when he stopped his tracks.
Atobe let out a smirk as he saw Tezuka, he neared the stoic man and stop right in front of him.
He then motioned for Tezuka to look at the right side where Fuji was seating. Tezuka glared at him.
"You had your chance, now it's mine" Atobe said looking straight at Tezuka's eyes. He could feel the stoic man tense at those words and he continued to walk towards Fuji.
Tezuka turned to look at Atobe and found the rich heir nearing the tensai. He could feel the weirdest sensation curling up inside him. He watched as the tensai turn around and let out a soft smile that used to belong to him.
He knew that Atobe had a point. He had his chance with Fuji during middle school but he brushed him off. He knew he shouldn't be thinking this way especially since there was no more time left, he only had three more days before the wedding.
He knew that marrying Chiharu was the right thing to do, for his family. He did love her but somewhere in his heart, a voice was asking him
Would he still give me one more chance?
TBC…
Hello..!! I'm so glad I was able to update soon! I think I'm gonna be quite busy next week but I'll still try my best to update soon! Hehehe.., I hope you like this chapter, I just showed some TeFu moments.., don't worry, the next chapter will be perfect pair moments.., hehehe..!! I also wanted to thank everyone who reviewed..!! thank you soooo much..!! hehehe *hugs to everyone*