Hi guys! I'm back… I'm sorry it took me quite sometime to update, I was just really busy last week.., hehehe… ^_^ But now I'm back and I've finally finished the 9th chapter.., hehehe.. hope you enjoy this too.
Ps. I do not own Prince of Tennis
Fuji stared blankly at the wall, he didn't know what to do, let alone think clearly. It was the end.
Tomorrow, Tezuka will be married and that will put an end to his delusion of being together with him. It was time to accept reality.
He closed his eyes as he reminisce the taste of Tezukas' own lips on his, he could clearly remember the sweet taste of his tongue that nearly drove him to insanity.
Fuji lowered his head as he tried his best to remain calm. He couldn't even go to work that day since he knew how awful he must look right now. He shouldn't let others worry about him.
Ayase would surely bug him to no end if he went to the office right now, and Eiji would let out a tirade of not taking care of himself.
Fuji smiled to himself bitterly, he shouldn't wallow in self pity, he should at least be happy for Tezuka, that would be the least thing he could do.
The wedding was tomorrow.
Tomorrow would be the last time he will see Tezuka.
After being unrequitedly in love with him for almost ten years it was time to move on.
In fact, he should've moved on before.
After the wedding he would work somewhere far away from japan, away from the pain and then a start a new life.
That would be the best for everyone.
Right now he should be happy for Tezuka because tomorrow will be Tezuka's special day…
He should show Tezuka that he was glad for him
Tell him that everything was fine.
And wish him all the best.
Fuji felt hot tears fall from his face.
He shouldn't be crying.
He had to show he was alright.
He had to be strong tomorrow.
He felt the tears continue to fall.
Damn stupid tears won't stop!
He had to be strong tomorrow…
He felt himself sob harder as he gave in.
What's the point of stopping his tears?
He knew that whatever he does, the tears would just continue to fall, so right now he would cry, cry his heart out so that maybe he would be too tired tomorrow to cry anymore tears.
Fuji slowly stood up and went to his closet and took out a box.
He carefully opened it revealing his most treasured picture.
It was a picture of Tezuka sleeping peacefully with a soft smile placed on his usual growling lips.
Fuji felt a strong prick of pain.
Why?
Why did Tezuka never love him?
Why wasn't he as happy as his other friends?
Everybody had their happy ending, so why didn't he?
Tomorrow… Tezuka is also going to get his happy ending…
And tomorrow, he knew it would be the day he dies.
He felt enormous pain swell on his heart and he felt a terrible twist in his stomach as he imagined Tezuka and Chiharu exchanging vows.
It hurts…
It hurts…
It hurts…
"Tezuka… it hurts so much…" he whispered bitterly as he clutched on his chest.
It was so painful to accept the fact that he and Tezuka will never be. But the more painful thing was being aware that he still loves him.
"Fuji Syusuke you're so pathetic…" Fuji muttered to himself as he hugged himself tightly.
Fuji sobbed harder unable to control his emotions as he broke down and cried, it was so unlike him. He had always hid himself behind his cheerful façade, always showing his cheerful smile, he never knew crying was so hard and painful.
He had to end it. He had to put an end to everything so that he wouldn't completely fall apart.
Tezuka stared out the window. Tomorrow is the big day. He should get a good night sleep.
If he can.
Something was bothering him, or rather, someone bothered his thoughts.
'The kiss meant nothing' he muttered to himself as he recalled what had happened on the night of his bachelors' party.
He let his fingers softly touch his own lips as he remembered Fuji's soft and sweet lips on his own.
Tezuka blinked twice.
What was he thinking?
He was going to get married tomorrow, so why was he bothering himself with another person?
Well, Fuji isn't just 'someone', he was especial, very much especial.
No.
He should stop thinking about him in that way. He was going to get married the next day, why was he having such foolish thoughts?
Wait.
Foolish??
Was it foolish to think of the possibility?
Yes, it is.
Because he shouldn't think of such things especially not before the day he gets married. He is happy, he loves Chiharu, and Chiharu loves him as well. There shouldn't be any problem right?
Fuji is just a friend.
When he gets married Fuji would move on. He would definitely find a new love.
Tezuka felt a certain prick on his chest as he imagined Atobe and Fuji together. Even though Fuji had said that there was nothing going on between him and Atobe he had an inkling that they might end up together in the future.
It should be fine…
Atobe is a good guy albeit his arrogance. He cares a lot for Fuji and loves him completely.
It would be great. He has Chiharu to love him and Fuji has Atobe, it was perfect… right?
Tezuka let out a sigh.
It wasn't perfect at all, he wasn't ok with it.
But what could he do?
What should he do?
Tezuka snapped out of his thoughts when he heard the cell phone.
Who would be calling him at eleven in the evening?
"Tezuka…"
Tezuka felt his breath hitch and he felt his heart beat faster.
"Fuji…" Tezuka breathed out quietly.
"I… I might not be able to attend the wedding tomorrow" Fuji said softly, Tezuka could sense that the tensai had been controlling his voice from shaking.
"I understand…" Tezuka replied.
He knew Fuji must be hurting a lot right now. He realized now how hard it must have been for Fuji to be the wedding photographer and to attend the wedding.
"I'm sorry I'm so weak, if I go tomorrow I might just die" Fuji chuckled softly.
Tezuka could feel the pain from Fuji's voice, because right now he felt it too.
"I…" Fuji stuttered as he took a deep breath.
Tezuka listened to the silence, he couldn't find the strength to speak as well, why couldn't he find a damn word to say?!
"Tezuka, I… wish you all the best…" and with that Fuji hang up.
Tezuka felt his eyes widen.
Tezuka, I… wish you all the best…
Was it really goodbye?
Was it the end?
No!
Tezuka stood up from his seat as he grabbed his car keys.
He did not understand why but his body acted out of pure instinct.
He needed to see Fuji.
It was beyond his logic to do such a thing especially on the night before his wedding but somehow he just didn't care anymore.
The only thing going on his mind was that he needed to see Fuji right away.
He opened the door only to be surprised as he saw the tensai crying while clutching the phone on his hand.
"Fuji… w-what..?" Tezuka stuttered in surprise.
Fuji abruptly stood up and brushed the tears away as he forced himself to smile.
"Gomen Tezuka…, I.. I…" Fuji stopped as the tears continued to fall, he was trembling and his he couldn't look at Tezuka.
Stupid tears, why won't it stop?!
Tezuka let out a frustrated sigh as he pulled the tensai into a tight embrace.
Fuji's eyes widened at the sudden action, he hadn't expected Tezuka to do such a thing. It was so sudden and it felt too good that his tears continued to flow again.
Oh why? Why was fate always playing with him?
Fuji tried to pull away from Tezuka, he couldn't bear staying beside him for long, it was torture.
Tezuka held on tightly, he didn't give Fuji the chance to pull away.
"I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I'm sorry" Tezuka muttered over and over again. Fuji stopped and let his hand run through Tezuka's hair.
"You don't have to be sorry" Fuji said softly.
"I have to! I hurt you a lot without knowing it. I'm sorry for causing you so much pain" Tezuka said bitterly.
Fuji softly brought Tezuka's face to his and gazed at deep hazel eyes.
"I've wanted you ever since middle school, you were the only one… but I guess this is goodbye… I just want you to be happy" Fuji said softly as he tried desperately to give Tezuka one last smile.
It was over.
He had set him free.
Tezuka's eyes widened as Fuji's words sank in his brain.
Fuji was giving up on him!
No!
He couldn't let it end like this!
It shouldn't end like this!
Tezuka knew at that moment he had lost all sense as he reached out for Fuji and captured his lips. For a moment he could sense the disbelief in Fuji's reaction but it soon turned out to a heated kissing battle as both of them let passion overcome their sense.
It was very similar to their first kiss, they both wanted it and both were despearte.
Tezuka kissed the tensai hungrily as he begged for entrance which was soon granted and he let his mouth explore every inch of Fuji's mouth.
Tezuka pulled away with a soft smile on his lips.
Fuji tasted so sweet.
He slowly pulled Fuji and brought him inside the house as they once again immersed themselves in another rough and passionate kiss, hands roaming everywhere and shirts being taken off.
Tezuka carried Fuji to his bed as he continued to kiss him.
He knew that what he was doing was wrong, but damn! It felt so right!
Having Fuji with him like this, breathing and sweating hard under him was like a dream.
And he couldn't help but let his passion overrule his logic.
He kissed Fuji over and over again as if he wanted to devour him, he let his desire get the better of him as he hungrily claimed Fuji.
"I love you… I love you so much…" Fuji panted out, the tears were still there but Tezuka licked it off.
Tezuka knew at that moment that he didn't care anymore, he thrust into Fuji and let themselves get lost in the throes of passion as both of them slumped back in bed, tired from their love making.
Fuji instantly fell asleep from exhaustion while Tezuka held him tightly.
Tezuka stared at the ceiling, he knew that what they did was wrong, but for the first time in his life he felt it was the only right thing he ever did and he didn't even feel the slightest regret.
Fuji had become his on the night before his wedding.
Tezuka shifted from his position and looked at Fuji's peaceful form, he smiled softly as he kissed Fuji on the forehead.
And he became Fujis' on that same night.
Tezuka cupped Fujis lips before giving it a chste kiss.
"I love you too…"
TBC....
So sorry, but I really have stop here.., hehehe…, I tried to make the love scene not so graphic cause I know this is just rated T.
I hope it was ok…
I hope you like this chapter. I really wanted to show here that Tezuka finally accepted the truth that he really does love Fuji a lot. The wedding will be in the next chapter..!!
By the way, do you think the wedding should be cancelled or not? please give your opinions.., hehehe.. ^_^
For now, pls. review….!!!!!