Chapter One

Darien sighed walking down the street. Convincing Serena was harder than he thought. It broke his heart just as much, if not more when he saw her tear brimmed eyes. She looked shattered. He hated himself for breaking her heart so brutally and knew she would be crying right now. Just the thought made him mentally cringe at himself. How could he break her innocent heart? She already had enough being Sailor moon and he just added to it.

He heaved wondering what it would be like in their future battles. As much as he wanted to avoid them, it would be his only chance to have Serena close. It would be the only time he would be able to watch her without her knowing.

The woman he had held in his arms back at the arcade was Andrews's sister. Of course she had been confused when he had claimed her to be his girlfriend but she had played along when his eyes pleaded. He couldn't be more thankful that she didn't misunderstand. Handling the pain he caused Serena was more than enough for him.

He looked up when he heard his name being called "Darien" Raye called anxiously "Have you seen Serena?"

Darien frowned with concern, quickly pasting ignorance "why should I know?" he answered boorishly and sauntered down the street

"Darien this is serious" Amy called "have you seen Serena? She was supposed to meet us for a scouts meeting today"

He turned, annoyance pasting his features "listen girls. I don't have anything to do with Serena unless its got to do with the Negamoon so don't bother me"

Raye's fists bawled in anger "How can you be so heartless Darien. She's missing for god sake!" she yelled "she's been late before but never this late. We were just worried"

"Oh" he murmured "well I don't know girls. I don't keep track of her so don't bother asking again" he muttered walking away

"I swear Amy; I'm going to kill that man one day. I've never seen Serena as hurt as she looked this morning. He just makes it worse for her everyday"

"I know Raye; I wish I had stopped her this morning"

"Uhmm" Raye nodded "we should have but I guess she needed her time alone. I swear that meatball head is going to get a mouthful from me when I see her" she grumbled frustrated

"Be easy on her Raye, she needs us right now, not our anger"

"I know Amy. I'm worried for her. I have this really bad feeling that something's wrong. I hope I'm wrong but I can feel it"

"Serena is so irresponsible" Renee complained sitting crossed leg on the wooden floor of the temple

"She can be, but she's a nice girl Renee" grandpa replied offering her the freshly made doughnuts

"Mhmmm, this is tasty grandpa" she mumbled between bites "Grandpa how did Raye and Serena become friends?" grandpa looked at her uncertainly "I mean Serena's so weird and clumsy but Raye's so nice and beautiful. How did they ever become friends?"

"I don't know actually. Raye didn't have many friends before Serena. She could never keep friends. Not that I blame them" he muttered "I never really understood how they become friends myself because they always seem to be arguing. I'm just glad Raye made some steady friends. She was very lonely before Serena came. Raye will never admit it but Serena makes a difference"

She nodded listening attentively "what about the other girls. When did Raye meet them?"

"She met Amy when she met Serena"

He was cut off "I can never guess how Amy and Serena became friends" she exclaimed munching on the last of doughnuts "they are totally opposite. Amy studies so hard and Serena is so careless. Who would have thought they would ever become friends"

Grandpa chuckled "yes, Amy is a bookworm but I guess all the girls are unique in there way. Raye met Lita through Serena and mina, well I really don't know where they met but I saw her at the temple the first time"

"That's cool" Renee sighed "I wish I can make friends like them one day" she paused "excluding Serena"

They turned to look at the door hearing the loud thump. Chad peeked inside, his shaggy brown hair covering his eyes "Raye wants me to help her find Serena grandpa. Can I go?"

"I told you grandpa, Serena is so careless. Everyone is worrying about her so much. I bet she's sitting somewhere pigging out on food" Renee growled crossing her arms

"You can go Chad" grandpa answered then turned towards Renee "Why don't you go home and check if Serena's there Renee. I think the girls could use your help"

"Argh. Alright. That meatball head owes me one" she muttered walking out the door

Darien sighed aggravated. His hands itched to pick the phone and call his meatball head. Why was Serena so careless? She should have stayed with her friends if she needed consolation. Why did she have to go alone? His eyes turned to the phone. Maybe he could call and hang up once he heard her voice. Oh, but she had callers ID. How bad could this get? Defeated he pulled his jacket from the closet. Maybe a walk in the park would help him.

Walking down the park had done nothing to console him. He was restless assuming all sorts of things. He sighed dropping onto the bench. He watched the water ripple slightly with the cold wind. His meatball head must be freezing if she was out in this cold. He hoped not. He wanted her to be in the warmth of her home, her family and friends. Maybe they could help her move on. It would hurt him to see her with another man but it was best for her. He could never bear to see her die the way he saw in his dreams.

He had constantly dreamed about their wedding the past few weeks. It was a pleasant dream but as the weeks went by, the dream became a nightmare; a nightmare he could never bear. He still shuddered when he saw his small bunny drenched in tears as her hand lost his. He had taken it to be a pointless dream at first but the dream occurred constantly warning him of the dangers he caused just being with her. He could live with the pain of Serena belonging to someone else, no matter how much it hurt him; but he could never tolerate seeing her cry in agony of what his dreams showed him.

He snapped out of his thoughts hearing a scream for help. He rushed towards the voice, instinctively pulling out the rose to transform, but stopped finding no monster. He walked further finding a couple with a girl lying unconscious in the rose gardens. He rushed forward to help them but stopped dead in his tracks at the shock of golden blond hair.

"Serena" he whispered, his eyes widening with sheen wetness. He ran forward collapsing in front of her limp body. She looked so pale. Her once rosy cheeks streaked with tears, her long lashes wet on her skin "What—what happened to her?" he stuttered taking her head into his lap. He looked up when no one answered. The woman looked at the man fearfully, whilst the man looked anxious "What happened to her damn it?" he shouted

The woman looked up at him "She –she cut her wrist" she stammered "Do you know her?"

Darien gaped at her in shock "she what?" he whispered hoarsely ignoring her question

"She cut her wrist" the man answered pulling the woman close "Her pulse is shallow, she needs medical attention"

"No" Darien exclaimed "this cant be happening. Serena" he shook her "Serena get up. Meatball head. You can't leave me. Lizzie isn't my girlfriend damn it. It was fake. Serena please wake up" he laid her to the ground checking her pulse; it was shallow "someone call the ambulance" he yelled frantically "Serena hold on for me. You can't leave. You have so much to see. You can't die on me Serena, oh Serena I'm so sorry. This is all my fault" he sobbed holding her body to his chest "I wanted to protect you" he whispered "please don't leave me"

Darien stared at the doors; his eyes rimmed red from the constant tears as his heart pined for Serena's sweet words of comfort. Never in a million years had he thought that Serena would commit suicide. When he met her she was a mere clumsy brain dead high school student. He'd never imagined he would fall in the love with her. Yes, they were destined together from there past on the moon, they were soul mates but a part of him had fallen for her long before they remembered.

He had always been fascinated with her cheerful personality. She always seemed so happy; happy enough to make him jealous. He would sit at the arcade watching her smile brightly for the tiniest things. He never understood how she could be so joyful, so lively. He envied it. He'd teased her mercilessly pushing his feelings for her aside. He had the princess to worry about then and his meatball head was just too innocent to face anything he felt for her.

When he was finally with her, he was so happy. No one could make him happier than Serena. She was the light of his life. Of course she could be annoying at times but having her was worth it. His sweet bunny had a heart of gold.

His head fell into his hands, his body shaking as he sobbed tears of pain. He had caused her so much pain. He wanted to protect her. It had taken him a lot of time to accept the distances he was creating between him and his meatball head but her attempt to suicide had all that courage shattering. He couldn't carry on when she woke up. He was too scared for her.

He was cut out of his thoughts hearing the rushing footsteps of her friends and family on the cold floor of the hospital. Rubbing his face he stood up, ready to face the endless questions. If only he could answer them.

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well heres the next chapter. I'm really sorry for the late update; I just seem to be breaking something or the other of the laptop. Thx for the reviews. they were encouraging and helpful. thx to all those who added this story to there favourites as well :D and well hope u like this chapter. review plz

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