Gaaaah. I'm oh so sorry about this. How long has it been since I updated? Like a month or something. Again sorry x1million. I will try my best to get the next chapter out way faster. Although I still have Smile to worry about and I'm messing around with like three other stories, so you can see my dilema. Anyway no excuses what I was and I'm sorry for it end of story. Hope you enjoy this chapter!

I pulled a flower from the ground. Summer was going by so fast. I didn't want it to end. I started pulling the petals off of the flower.

"He loves me. He loves me not. He loves me. He loves me not. He loves me," I said smiling. I sighed and fell back onto the ground.

I went into the forest to get away from everything. I needed to think. Think about Jacob. I liked him a lot. I wasn't sure if this was some summer romance or the real thing. Should I stop this now? Nip it in the bud? Would I wanna be bothered during the school year?There were so many things going through my head at top speed.

A gush of cold wind blew by. It gave me the chills. I just started feeling weird. I felt like I was being watched. I heard a twig crack and jumped up. It was just Jacob.

I rolled my eyes sighing, "You scared me."

"You shouldn't be out here alone," he snapped.

"What's your problem?" I retorted.

"What's my problem? What's yours? Why would you come out here alone?" he huffed.

"Calm down I'm fine," I countered.

"Why do you have to be so difficult?"

"Why do you have to be such an ass?"

--

I felt bad about earlier today. Jacob was just worried about me. I went over to his house to apologize.

"Oh uh hi Soleil Jacob's not here right now," Rachel said sadly.

"Oh. Uhm well tell him I stopped by," I said and turned around.

"Hey Soleil do you wanna come in and wait? He shouldn't be too much longer. I'm waiting for Paul too," she asked hopefully.

"Sure," I replied. Rachel looked a little jittery. "Are you okay?" I asked.

"Oh yeah I'm fine. Just a little stressed with the wedding," she said running her fingers through her hair. "Would you mind helping me with some things? I need a second opinion."

"I'd love to."

She wanted my help picking out a centerpiece. After a half hour we made a decision. She wanted to know what I thought about everything else. From the looks of it this was going to be a really nice wedding. And Rachel was really nice. Paul was a lucky guy. I'm just sad it took me this long to get to know her.

"Hey Rach," Paul said barging in. She squealed then ran over and hugged him. "Hey Soleil."

"Hey Paul. It looks like this wedding is going to be pretty amazing," I complimented.

"Thanks," they both replied.

Jacob came in a few minutes later. When he saw me his eyes widened. "What are you doing here?" he demanded.

I stood up. "I came here to talk to you about earlier."

"You're supposed to be with Kim and Jared," he snapped.

What was he talking about? "No one ever told me this," I said.

"I'm gonna kill Jared," he said through clenched teeth. He stormed out and slammed the door. Paul went after him.

Rachel looked at me sadly. "Come on. We've got ice cream," she said.

--

Hours had passed and Jacob still wasn't back. Rachel said I should go home but I wasn't leaving. Then she tried to get me to go to sleep. There was no way. I wasn't going to sleep when things hadn't been worked out yet. I wasn't going to bed mad. I came over to apologize and he blew up like that. Was he bipolar or something? God where is he.

About an hour later he came in. I was sitting on the couch in the dark.

"Soleil?" he whispered smiling. He came over to give me a hug. I moved to the side. "What's wrong?" he asked. I pointed to the door and we both went out. He sat on the porch and looked up at me.

"What's wrong with you?" I demanded.

"Look it's nothing," he said.

I rolled my eyes. "Why can't you just tell me? I'm completely honest with you. I've told you the most personal things about me. I tell you everything and you can't even tell me what's wrong?"

He stood up. "Come on Soleil. Don't be that way. Let's just kiss and make up."

"Get away from me," I said pushing him away. He looked at me sadly. "You're a jerk," I said storming off.

--

Damn. Damn. Damn. Why am I so stupid? Why did I do that? Why do I have to be so difficult? Why do I always have to cause problems? If he wanted to tell me he would? I went over to his house to attempt another apology. When he saw me he only smiled sadly and came outside.

"Here to tell me to never speak to you again?" he asked.

"What? Of course not. I came to apologize. I'm sorry Jacob. You're right. I am difficult and you deserve someone so much better than me but I hope I'm who you want," I said.

He simply looked at me with his mouth open. He grabbed me and squeezed me tight.

"Soleil I'm so so sorry. You're not difficult. I was just being an ass like you said. I don't deserve such an amazing girl like you."

"Look at the two lovebirds," Paul teased.

I pulled away from Jacob and laughed. "I'm sorry," I said giving him a quick kiss. He grabbed my hand and we walked inside.

--

Kim was out with Jared, her parents were at work, and Jacob was busy. I was all alone. Although I was perfectly fine with that. It gave me time to think. Something I'd been doing a lot lately. And of course my mind always wandered to Jacob. Like why did I always forgive him so readily? Why was I so attached?

I was so mad at him the other day. I was lying in bed crying my eyes out. When I woke up the next morning I missed him so much, and I felt so bad. I just had to see him and apologize. It was as if something was making me do it. I knew I was pissed. But something made me go over there anyway. Why? What the hell was wrong with me?

Just thinking about him now is making me heart hurt, as cheesy as it may sound. Lately I can barely stay away from him. I can barely make it through the nights. I'm around almost constantly. Why?

When Kim got home I talked to her about it.

"I just can't stay away from him you know?" I said.

She shifted uncomfortably. "Soleil I really think you should talk to him about this," she suggested.

"No way! I'd be too embarrassed," I replied.

"Talk to him," she said.

--

I'm supposed to be talking to him. Instead we're making out. Kind of off track I know. I pulled back from him and sighed.

He brushed his hand across my face. "What's wrong?"

"Jacob I…need you."

"What?" he asked confused.

"Well I need to be…around you. When we're apart I feel all weird and depressed. When I see you my heart starts beating faster and I just feel this immense joy. When we're mad at each other I just have to make things right. And I can barely sleep at night because I miss you so much and it…it scares me. I've never felt this way about someone."

"Oh," he said quietly.

"Oh? Oh? That's all you can say? I basically just said 'I love you' and all you can say us oh? God!" I yelled.

"Soleil calm down," he said placing his hands on my shoulders. "I think we need to talk."

--

"Where am I?" I asked rubbing my head. I looked around and I was surrounded by Jacob's family.

"Are you okay?" Jacob asked.

"Yeah I'm fine."

"Is blacking out normal for you?" Paul asked.

Blacking out? What? What happened to me? What could've made me black out?

"Soleil you passed out when I told you I was a werewolf," Jacob explained slowly.

"Ha," I laughed. Wait why was I the only one laughing.

"Soleil dear it's true," Billy said.

I fell back on the couch. "Oh God."

This can't be happening. I must be going crazy. Great this is just what someone like me needs.

"Soleil it is true," Rachel said. She was sitting at the foot of the couch.

I was close to passing out again.

I stared pinching my arm. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up.

"Soleil what are you doing?" Rachel asked.

"Well obviously this is a dream and I'm trying to make myself wake up," I explained quickly.

They were all staring at me like I was crazy. I felt crazy. The mad woman picking at her arm. I sighed loudly.

"I need to go," I said standing up.