Winter Eyes Chapter 9: Part 8, a l word fanfic

A/N:

This is the part where I kill off a character so it's bound to be sad! And if you don't wanna know, then don't read!!

Oh and please don't hate me lol... It's only fiction!

Part VIII

I ran towards the castle, covered in blood. My breathing was becoming rapid and I began to stumble. All the events of the day played over and over in my mind. It wasn't happening. Couldn't be happening.

Oh no. Was following me? His voice boomed through-out my mind but he wasn't following. He had left, I told myself.

5...

Don't think, Carmen. Run!

4...

Shane'll be fine.

3...

Alice'll be fine.

2...

Jenny'll be fine.

1...

Bang.

"Dana!".

12 HOURS EARLIER

Wow. I hadn't slept that good in ages. All the Ouija Board trauma was forgotten as I opened my eyes and stared up at Jenny. Her hands were on her hips and her lips were pursed into a smile.

"See you scored last night" she smirked.

I glanced over at Shane, who was still asleep. Gently, I pried myself from her grip and stood next to Jenny. "What?" I whispered "I had a rough night... Nothing happened" I yawned.

"Is that you denying?" Jenny frowned "Or... was that you disappointed?".

I pull a face and walk into the bathroom. I don't hear the shower run on as I begin to brush my teeth, groaning at my rough skin. I hate my skin in the morning. It's a total mess. Not to mention my hair.

"Carmen!".

"Oh, I didn't see anything" I mutter annoyed, to Alice and Dana, who are in shower. Nice. I spit out my tooth-paste and rinse my mouth with water.

"Leaving" I tell them quietly. When I walk about out, Shane is standing there, like waiting in a line to get into the toilet. Cute.

"Morning" I yawn her.

She nods back tiredly. "Hey".

I hear her walk into the bathroom and smile at the protest cries of Dana and Alice.

"Feeling any better?" I ask Jenny, flopping down on her comfy bed.

"No" Jenny sighs "But I'm getting there... I'm gonnah be okay".

"Yes you are" I smile, walking over to my own bed. "Saturday! What do you do on a Saturday?".

Jenny shrugs "Saturday's usually the day I fuck Jade... Doesn't look like that's gonnah happen... But I need something... Do you know anybody who's up for no-strings-attached sex?".

"Papi" I grin back "Shane".

"Please" Jenny scoffs "I'd rather fuck someone who wasn't in love with someone else".

"Would you quit that already?" I growl tiredly "Shane is...".

The bathroom door opens and Shane reappears, yawning "Shane is what?" she asks.

"Shane is..." I laugh nervously "... A real kicker... Oh yeah, it was like fighting off mutant elves...".

"Uh-huh" Shane nods, lying back down her bed with a sigh "God, Carmen, shit is just rolling right from your mouth...".

Carmen! Could you think of something better? I fake a smile and glare at Jenny before rolling over to pretend to get some sleep. It doesn't work. Great.

"Come on, I'm bored" Jenny sighs. She looks to Shane "Shane, you've been around the block, right? Can you hook me up with some girl, please?".

Shane frowns "What?".

"She's desperate to get laid" I smile at Shane.

"Least I'm getting some" Jenny mutters, giving me a look.

I snort and shake my head "Please... What did you think me and Papi did? Hug? Tell each other baby-stories?" I pout and laugh at her expression.

"Yes" Jenny flips her hair "But I'm used to sex twice a day... I'm having withdrawal symptoms...".

"Acting like a bitch?" I nod.

"Funny Carmen" Jenny purses her lips, turning back to Shane "So?".

"See..." Shane grabs a pen and writes something down on Jenny's arm.

Jenny frowns "Who's Amanda?".

"Basically a whore" Shane shrugs "She's real nice".

Okay... Ignore that, Carmen.

"How nice?" Jenny smirks.

Shane smiles back "Not that nice".

"Thank-you" Jenny goes back to her bed, reapplying her lip-gloss.

"You're going now!?" I mock-shock.

"Course I am" Jenny nods "If I hear more one kiss or something... From Tennis-Whore and Writer-Girl, I'm gonnah be sick".

I give her look and watch as she smoothes down her skirt, picks up a pink bag and leaves the dorm.

Me and Shane. And the silence. Thank you so much, Jenny!

"Do you ever get the feeling that Jenny is jealous of Dana and Alice?" Shane looks at me, frowning.

Shit. Tread easily, Carmen... Tread easily...

I shrug and smile "Who knows? I'm sure anybody would be jealous of what Dana and Alice have". Oh shit. Did that come out the way it sounded?

"Course" Shane copies my smile. I wanna touch her so badly.

"What about you, then?" I frown "What are you doing today?".

Shane shrugs "Sleep in... Though it's this money-raising-day... Every Saturday, the school hosts a game-day and people from Social Services and stuff come to check it out... Spend money...".

"We sound like a Charity-case" I sigh.

"We are" Shane nods.

"So? Wanna get dolled up? Steal a couple candy canes, piss Causley off?" I smirk. Oh god. Did that come out like a date? Don't let it be a date, don't let it be—

"Sure" Shane nods "Lemme get dressed".

I muse a smile and start rummaging through my cases to find something I know I look so fuckable in. God, I'm beginning to spend too much time with Jenny. Great.

This game-day wasn't as bad as Shane had made out. I had gone for a shower and dried and curled my hair. After 15 minutes of constant internal arguing, I finally choose a dark red summer dress. I would have gone with something lighter but summer pink isn't really my thing.

I shove on a pair of red flip-flops and keep my make-up to a light. My red summer dress stopped just below my knees and it had no back, making me shiver something when the wind blew in the right place. Shane, on the other hand, didn't seem to have a problem with it.

As usually, she looked so sexy in skinny jeans, converses, white wife-beater and demin jacket. Her hair was spiked up in all the right places.

"You guys off to the Saturday Game Day?" Dana asks me.

I nod "Beats just hanging around".

"Are you gonnah join us?" Shane asks us.

Alice and Dana exchange looks. Oh, I know that look... I glance at Shane and we smirk. I have a feeling they won't be leaving the dorm for a little while if you know what I mean...

Shane takes my hand and leads me towards the door, still smiling "Have fun" she adds.

"Breathe" I advise quickly.

We hear Dana and Alice burst into giggles as we leave. "That's so cute" I smile "They want they're first time to be special...".

Shane goes quiet, giving me that silent brooding look. I swear she sits at night and just practices it. Wonders what she can do next to drive me insane...

We walked into a busy crowd, music was going, some stalls were set up, and windows were open, actually letting in light for once... Before we can cross the room, we have to have our photo taken. Well, this was going to be awkward.

We stood next to each other silently as the camera clicked.

The girl behind the camera smiles and shakes her head "God, smile, will you!?..." she frowns "Why don't you step in front?" she points to me.

I automatically just move in front of Shane and feel her wrap her arms around my waist. She leans her head on my shoulder and I grin.

She sticks her tongue out and I turn to look at her, still smiling. The camera clicks and it takes seconds until the girl prints the small thick photo out and gives it to me.

I glance down at it. Wow, I'm so obvious. My head is turned, smiling at her. Her head is leant into my shoulder, sticking out her tongue cheekily. Her arms are wrapped around my waist and my hand is placed softly on hers.

Wow. We are so obvious.

"Good" that's all I can say to Shane. She sticks it in her back pocket as I've got none and we continue across the hall. We see Jenny appear from a closet, hair messed up, clothes sticking out. Yep. She's just been laid.

"Jenny?" I smile.

"Carmen" she gasps "Shane... Shane, Shane, Shane..." she grins happily "Amanda is..." her face trails off, and she tries to fix her clothes.

I see a red-head come from the closet that Jenny has just come out of. She takes Jenny's hand and pulls her off.

"Amanda must be really good at what she does" I mutter.

"Causley" Shane's nods her head to the left and we see Causley, leaning in closely to a man, dressed all in black, looking furious. He's wearing a big leather jacket and big clump army boots.

It's not hard to figure out that he's definitely not with Social Services. Wait... Causley looks scared. Terrified, even... I go to walk forwards but Shane pulls me back.

"Carmen, what are you doing?" Shane growls into my ear "That's her dealer... Do you wanna get this place shut down?".

"Her what?" I look shocked. I am shocked. Even though I shouldn't be...

"Cal" Shane explains "He's the ass of the hole... The pig in the city... You shouldn't go near him...".

"Then why is he here?" I spin around.

Shane shrugs "Maybe she got desperate...".

"How long has she been on drugs?" I ask quietly.

"She was like that when I got here" Shane shrugs again.

"And how long have you been here?" I blurt out.

"4 years" Shane stares me in the eye "Happy?".

"Shane, I didn't even mean to pry..." I reply.

"Forget it" Shane looks away "Doesn't matter".

"No it does matter" I take her hands "Okay? I'm sorry I crossed a line or whatever... Can we just go back to enjoying today?" I search her eyes.

"Okay" she nodded slowly.

"Yeah, well I need it now" the man dressed in black hissed to Causley.

I look in their direction and Shane follows my gaze. Causley gestured to her office and they went in rather hotly, slamming the door behind them.

I pause "Should we... Go see if she's okay?".

"No" Shane shakes her head.

"No?" I frown.

"No" Shane repeats "Causley's fine... She does this all the time... C'mon, I wanna show you my good aim".

"Good aim?" I smirk. Shane leads me over to a stall with Coconuts pinned up against the wall. We waited in line for about 3 and a half minutes and Shane gets the bean-bag to hit the coconut down with.

We sort of did this kind of stuff at my old Spanish Orphanage but it was slightly different. All we won back then was Spanish books. Great, huh?

Shane throws the bean-bag once and it hits the coconut, making it smash to the floor. "Wow" I grin "I take it back, you have good aim...". The stall-girl gives Shane one of the teddy-bears on the shelve but she immediately gives it to me.

"Shane?" I frown "You won" I push it into her. We walk down the hall and she smiles, shaking her head "No Carmen... Shane McCutcheon doesn't have teddy-bears".

I shrugged "So, what?" I grin "She's so cute... Look..." I put it up to my face and make it wiggle a bit "Come on Shane" I put on my baby voice "My name is Shay and I like giving hugs...".

"That is fucked up..." Shane laughs pushing the bear away.

"Fine" I pout "She'll just have to stay mine... And you can't keep her" I grin at her, laughing. She laughs back. Well, my oh-my-god-it's-gonnah-a-terrible-awkward-date-thing worry was turning out to be totally wrong. And I was so glad.

That was, until Cal, the drug-dealer came storming out of Causley's office carrying a gun. Everything went by in slow-motion as he raised it up and shot once at the ceiling.

"Alright, listen up!" he cried angrily "Causley doesn't have enough money to pay me so I want everything every little one of you stupid girls have!".

Nobody moves. My heart beats faster. Harder. Until I think it might burst. Oh god. Just at that tragic moment, Dana and Alice come skipping down the stairs, laughing happily.

They stop when they realise how eerily silent it is. Then they see the gun. Alice gasps. Dana grabs Alice. Everything is back in slow-motion again.

"You, brunette!" Cal points to Dana "Move! Get down here!".

Dana's face turns cold, not scared. Wow. She steps down with bravely as I'm standing here, shaking uncontrollably. Alice protests and freezes, but Dana keeps on walking until she reaches him.

He grabs her by her arm and points the gun to her head. "If I don't get my 14,000 in one hour, I'll kill her!" he spun around to Causley's office "Do you hear me, Causley!? I'll kill her!".

Tears are strolling down Alice's cheeks and I don't know what made me do it. Call me stupid. "So, Cal, you got a plan or are you just gonnah shot everybody here?".

"Excuse me?" Cal locks eyes on mine.

I gave the bear to a shocked Shane and stepped forwards, folding my arms. God Carmen! Why must you always get yourself into these situations!?

"I said, do you have a plan or not?" I repeated, annoyed.

"You wanna keep that pretty little face of yours, keep your mouth shut" Cal growls.

I grit my teeth "Seriously, though... What's the plan? What if nobody can get you your money..? The cops show up and you wait for 14 hours until you finally realise you're not getting your money and then you'll be tried and sent back to jail for... Well, those boots for a start" I smirk despite the gun "And the threat and attempted murder, of course...".

Cal looks up, thinking. Wow, he's actually thinking about what I said. Weird... "Fine" he smirks now "Actually, you're clever... You come too...".

"Don't I feel special..." I smile and walk towards him.

He beckons towards the door and shoves Dana into me. I grab her hand and mutter something reassuring. Cal points the gun at us.

"Outside" he barks.

I give Shane one last look before me and Dana walk down the steps. Cal follows us, ordering us to cross the field towards the woods. I don't like this.

Not one bit.

"What's your smart plan now?" I frown "Drag us into the woods in the hopes that we find the magical door-way to Narnia?".

"Your funny" Cal nods, turning dark "How funny would you be dead?".

"Are you mocking me?" I frown "You're mocking me?".

"What's that supposed to mean?" Cal growls.

Dana looks scared. I am too but there's no way this stupid psychotic is gonnah make me cry in front of him. He's not worth it.

"What do you think it means!?" I cry back, angry "You're standing there with a freaking gun and no plan, wake up!".

"Woods!" Cal barks.

Me and Dana jump, but we continue the way we went yesterday towards the lake. Funnily enough, we stop at the lake. Okay, maybe not so funny...

Cal checks his watch "She has half an hour" he mumbles to himself "The money doesn't come... I'm shooting one of you!".

"30 minutes" I frown, glancing down "Can I sit?".

Cal doesn't reply.

I pull Dana down and we sit right next to the lake. "Don't worry" I whisper "This guy's not gonnah do anything... When he realises that 14,000 is a higher value than his life, he'll just run".

Dana tries to smile but it doesn't come. I don't blame her. I smile again and tell her that nothing's gonnah change. That we'll both get out of this alive.

One of us, sadly, don't.

Half an hour passes fairly quickly, considering there's a crazy dealer holding a gun to us... The cops haven't shown yet... Where the fuck are they?

"That's it!" Cal announces, agitated "Stand up, now!". We both stand nervously, eyeing the gun.

"Put it down, Cal" I tell him "You're gonnah throw your life away over 14,000!? Put it down".

"She's right!" Dana in-puts, a little nervous "Just by pulling that one trigger, you throw your life away, throw away any rights over whatever money you want... Don't do this".

Cal shakes his head "Nobody crosses me, nobody!".

Oh no. Slow-motion again. He raises the gun, clicks it into place. My heart races and I grip hands with Dana. He's yelling, shouting, near tears... No-one can reason with him now, he's too gone... Out of it—

5...

Don't think, Carmen. Run!

4...

Shane'll be fine.

3...

Alice'll be fine.

2...

Jenny'll be fine.

1...

Bang.

"Dana!".

I don't see Cal drop the gun in shock and flea from the woods. I glance down. Dana's not holding my hand anymore.

"Dana!?" I shake her, tears flowing out, sobbing "Oh god... No, Dana! Dana!" my hands touch her wound and suddenly I'm covered in her blood.

Dana is laying right next to the lake, her eyes half-closed.

"Dana?" I choke out, cupping her face "Dana!".

"I'm here" Dana wheezes out, scared.

"I'll go get help!" I cry "I'll go get help!".

"No, don't leave me!" Dana grips my wrist. Her face softens in pain "Please... Don't leave me...".

"But..." I shake my head "You have to get to hospital... They can help you-".

"I think we both know that I'm beyond help..." Dana laughs sadly, tears falling out.

"No" I shake my head "Alice needs you, Shane needs you... I'm sorry, about snapping at you yesterday... Please don't go".

Dana sighs sadly and then winces. "I... was good, right?".

"You were brilliant" I whisper back, stroking her hair. "You were so... I couldn't have done it without you...".

"Tell Alice..." Dana breathes out "Tell her... I love her" she gasps painfully, clutching her stomach.

I shake my head in protest "No" I look down and look up, freezing when I see her "Dana!".

Her eyes are frozen open wide and I choke out more sobs, crying over her dead body.

"Dana..." I lay my head on her chest, sobbing hysterically "No, please..." I know CPR and before I even know what's happening, I'm giving her CPR, tilting her head out to give her mouth to mouth. Nothing.

"Dammit!" I scream "No!".

"Come on" I press down on the chest, again and again and again... "Oh Dana..." I whisper out, crying.

Dana just stays there; dead and lifeless. Then I realise.

Dana's not there anymore.

I stumbled over myself, crying more uncontrollably. "Dana" I gasped "Oh Dana". I run towards the castle and slam the doors open. Nobody's around.

Everybody's been moved into the big hall. Seconds later, Shane appears; Jenny, Alice and Causley beside her. I scream and fall to the floor, shaking, crying.

Shane cradles me, asking me what happened. How can I tell them?

Tell them that Dana is no more, tell Alice that the girl she loves is dead, and tell Jenny that the girl she envied is no longer here... Tell them that I let it happen, didn't even try to stop it.

Couldn't... Right?

Could I have saved her? Could I have thrown myself in front of the bullet, and Dana would still be here...

"Carmen" Shanes firmly grabs me "What happened? Where's Dana?".

"Where is she!?" Alice shrieked, tears falling from her eyes.

"She's dead" I breathe out "She's dead" Shane pulls me into her again as I hear Alice scream and begin to break into tears.

I wish it was me. I wish it was me who had took the bullet. Dana would still be here and my heart wouldn't be breaking all over again.

It's all my fault.

Dana is gone. And there's nothing I can do about it.

A/N:

You hate me right? Lol... I'm a very emotionally person and I hope that the Dana-scene came off real...

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