Part 14
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"I can't keep doing this!" my throat is raw and sore but I keep going "Not knowing where you are at night, what you're doing, who you're doing it with!".
Shane steps towards me, a fire in her eyes "Me? Please, let's not get into this, we both know that the only reason you stay is because you've got nowhere else to go!".
"How dare you!" I rant, circling her like my prey "I do everything for you! I clean for you, I watch those flipping sheep, I even cook and you know I can't cook!".
"Well, excuse me!" Shane spins around "Who was the one who wanted to move away from your family!? I bet you were ashamed of me!".
"What?" I gasp.
"You heard me" Shane steps closer "Just because I don't earn what all your other friends do, doesn't mean I don't love you!".
"It doesn't feel like it!" I shriek "All those late hours, the looks, it's as if... You don't trust me anymore" the last part comes as a statement.
"Because you're keeping secrets from me!" Shane backs away from me, tears in her eyes.
"You really wanna know!?" I scream "Do you!?".
"Yes!" Shane screams back "Just let me in, stop all the lies and just—".
"I'm pregnant!" I cut her off.
Shane stops and stares at me painfully.
"And cut!" Mrs Calendar steps in, smiling. She looks at us "Very well played, I liked the emotion".
I glance down at the printed out script in my hand and bite my lip. I smirk and glance up to Shane, who's looking at the script like it's something important.
"I don't know why I have to be Joseph" Shane frowns, glancing at me quickly "I mean, I can see why Carmen was cast as Mary... She's all girly and...".
I roll my eyes.
"Don't even try complaining" Jenny steps up beside us "I wanted to be Mary! Hell, I would have taken Joseph but no..." she hissed angrily "...I got Sheep Number 2!".
"I was cast as the donkey!" Alice mumbles to herself, padding towards us in an old tatty donkey costume. She has to dip side to side as she walks and I can't help but stifle a laugh.
Alice glares at me and I affectively stop.
"Take lunch everyone" Mrs Calendar adds before walking off into the stage.
"I think it's going to be fun" I muse.
"Fun ..? Fun as in having Colon surgery?" Alice retorted.
"Come on" I smile "Enjoy this, we're young, free, with—".
"Issues" Becky interrupted me, striding by eating a chocolate chunky bar. I threw her a look but she ignored it and smiled back.
"She's got nothing to worry about!" Alice sighed "She's not the one who goes on stage and makes a complete fool of herself!".
"Neither are you, Al" I reply "C'mon, I think you're being a little over-reactive...".
"Yeah" Alice nods "You're soo right, Carm..." she starts walking but then stops and turns around "By the way, we're all here for you in the script where you have to kiss Shane".
My. Heart. Literally. Stopped.
Holy. Shit.
Nobody. Told. Me. About. That.
I glance up and see Shane smirking. Well, what else did I think she would be doing? All she ever does is eat, sleep and breathe sex. Oh, that's good. Mental Note to self: Write book when older.
"Right" I grit my teeth "Excuse me, I have to go... And do something" I run off. Do something? My god, you think I would have had a better excuse but no...
"She digs you" Becky joins me in my half-walk, half-bounce run.
"What?" I raise my eyebrow.
"Shane" Becky rolls her eyes "She totally digs you... But then, you already knew that, didn't you?".
Okay, breathe. What should I do? Start sobbing my life story? Go for sarcasm? Pretend to know nothing (which wouldn't be hard, by the way... I hardly know anything about Shane, she keeps her past private), mock her?
Oh, soo hard... Go for...
"Thank you, Becky... I'll be sure to keep that in mind" ooh, go for the sarcasm...
"I'm not kidding here" Becky starts seriously "I know when people dig each other... It's one of my many talents..." she smirks.
I turn and fold my arms "Really? So, you and Jenny, it's the real deal, right?".
"Jenny and I... It was a one-time thing" Becky replies "'Sides, I can tell she's into Alice... But Alice is still hung up on Dana and Jenny would never do anything to push Alice into something that she's not ready for and—".
"Whoa, hold up" I interrupt "How do you know all this?".
"I told you" Becky shrugged, "I have many talents... Anyway, see ya" she winked at me and then bounced off, spring still in step.
oOo
How the hell had I not seen the whole me-kissing-Shane thing in the script? It's usually the first thing I should have looked for, right? We're supposed to be playing the parts of lovers and I didn't even stop to think about a simple kiss. A peck on the cheek. A chaste kiss on the lips. Oh no. It's a full-on, tongues, groping-kiss. Should have known. It was probably the only reason Shane agreed to do this stupid play. The only I reason I agreed was... Well, I wanted something to distract me.
Skipping the dinner line and a few younger annoyed girls, I just grab a box of salad and a bottle of water and go to sit at our table. It's funny how everyone here just has a table. The one you sit in. The one everyone else knows never to go to. Alice and Becky are already there and I smile and sit down across from them.
"What you talking about, girlies?" I ask, opening up my salad box.
"You and Shane" Becky says bluntly.
I roll my eyes. Does this girl never give up?
"Not really you and Shane" Alice tries to rescue herself. Yeah, she fooling no-one "Just... people in general...".
"Who happen to have the hots for each other" Becky smiles.
"Please don't start this again" I say quietly "I'm not in the mood to talk about—".
"Shane!" Alice cries, and I frown and shoot her a look.
"Well yeah, who did you think I was talking about?" I reply.
"Talking about me, Carmen?" Shane slides into the seat next to me and I inwardly groan. God, that has happened to me like a million times. Talk about someone and they're right behind you.
"No" I laugh nervously "No! God, no...".
"We were just talking about the play" Alice decides to save me. Bless her. "How we think in your past life, you were probably a male carpenter".
"Thanks, Al" Shane forces a smile and drums her fingers against the table surface.
"But a hot male carpenter" Becky adds with a smirk "A feminine hot male carpenter".
"I was probably a fish in my past life" Alice muses "Don't know why but I bet I was one of those adventurous fish... Like, those rainbow coloured ones and..." she drones on but I don't really listen. Shane is practically vibrating heat off her body onto mine and I know she's doing it on purpose.
Course, being Shane, she doesn't actually act like anything's wrong.
"I hate this tuna" Shane moans, closing over her tuna salad box. Ever since... Well, ages, the school has started to make us eat more healthy crap. No. I want my pizza back. As a teenager who has her period every month or even less than that, I need my junk food. And they don't have any right to take that away.
"Where's Jenny?" Alice mumbles, glancing over the crowd.
I grow quiet. I don't know where I lie with Jenny. We were talking a few days ago but now she tends to keep herself to herself. And that includes not having any kind of a relationship with us. Or Alice, for that matter.
"We've got that career thing to fill out" Becky says randomly "I mean, you do realise that we're all getting kicked up by the time we turn 18 and they want us in stable jobs before that happens".
My stomach falls. My birthday's months and months away granted but, what will I do if I don't have anyone to fall back on? No job? No flat? No grades? No, I'll find a job before I leave here, save up money, get my grades and leave... Leave... My mouth goes dry. I won't see Shane anymore. What about Alice? Jenny? What about...
"Carmen?" Shane has noticed my dazed look.
"Huh?" I snap my head up, frowning "What? Nothing".
Shane doesn't believe me but I know she'll just squeeze it out of me later on. The bell goes and the hall starts to get up and go to class.
"We've got English" Alice notes, getting her bag "And another essay to finish". We start to leave the dining hall to get to class.
"I think I want a job in hair-dressing" Shane muses "Or even Skate-boarding...".
"I want to be a Fashion designer" Becky grins "I love clothes".
"I've always wanted to write" Alice smiles "I could be a book writer or be a... Journalist".
"What about you, Carm?" Shane asks.
"I don't know" I shrug, "Probably something in music".
Shane smiles and my heart stops. Does she even know what effect she is having on me? What power she holds over my own bodily functions. I muster a vain smile and head towards our English class. Good. We won't have to do much talking except when our teacher is babbling on, and we pretend to have an interest.
I yawn. Prepare for the snooze-fest. My uncertainty about the future is soon forgotten as I take my usual seat next to Shane and wait for the lesson to begin. There'll aways be tomorrow.
I hope.
oOo
Sitting up on my bed, I glance out at the dark room and sigh, pondering on whether I should wake Shane or not, but then decide against it. It would be awkward. Too awkward. And I probably couldn't deal with that.
Unfortunately, fate has a way of making things go completely the other way... I hear Shane yawn and sit up, rubbing her face. Okay, now if I just sit here and don't move, don't breathe, then Shane will never know, it's too dark anyway to see. I hear Shane plank her feet down on the floor and my heart starts hammering.
"Carmen?" Shane breathes and I jump a little. "Carmen" Shane laughs and I feel like rolling my eyes. Figures nothing could get past her. I hear her footsteps pad towards me and then her soft warm hands grip my upper arms.
"Wha—" I choke out when I feel Shane hook her legs around my legs and sit on my lap. God, she's so close, pressing her chest to mine, and I can feel her warm breath on my neck. Her arms wrap around my back and I sigh in a complete daze.
"Shane" I gasp, when I feel Shane push me back down into my bed, staying joined at my chest. God, she kills me. Over and over and over and over—Her hand slides down my side to grip my waist. Shane's lips press against my pulse on my neck and now I'm actually trembling.
"We should practice" Shane whispers against my ear, pressing a small kiss on my earlobe.
"Practice?" I mumble weakly.
"For the play" Shane smirks, chuckling with a layer of darkness "The Kiss... We should practice, Carmen...".
"I don't..." I murmur out as Shane begins to move her lips down my neck to my now flustered chest. I feel her forehead pressed against mine and I look up and see her dark lusty eyes staring back at me in the dark. She smiles and moves her hands down to find mine. Linking fingers, she pins my hands to the bed beneath hers and now she has all power over me. Her body pinning mine to the bed and she loves it, I can tell.
It's all a blur as she grinds her pelvis into mine and I bite back a scream. God, she is going to be the death of me. Total death of me.
"Shane, I don't think this is a good idea" I blurt out before I can take it back. I feel her purring against my chest as her lips rub up and down my skin. I go to move but she shoves me back down and suddenly her lips are on mine. My god, I didn't think it would—All thoughts gone as her tongue ravages mine and her lips just keep going. Keep attacking. She presses down and grips my body even harder with hers. I try to pull away to moan but she's not letting me so she ends up swallowing my extremely vibrated shriek.
Eyes on eyes the whole time, I feel her pulling away, for a nanosecond, for air and then her lips are back. Crushing against mine. She's so relentless, I feel like all my energy is being drained away the more she keeps up her attack.
"Sh—Sh—Shane" I mutter, mumble, gasp, everything but Shane doesn't give up. She goes harder, faster, bashing her nimble body against my slightly tired one.
And I give in. There's no point in trying to deny my feelings now. Although I am aware that we have 3 other roommates, Shane does not. I pull back enough to say something but once again, her mouth crashes against mine and she silences me. Her hands are everywhere and just when she edges her fingers through her pyjama bottoms, the lights click on and I hear a shriek.
Shane growls in frustration as I push her off me and look up to see Becky, Jenny and a tired-looking Alice. Looks like they've just woken up. Oops.
"I knew it!" Becky cries triumphantly.
I roll my eyes. Bitch.
"Are you fucking serous!?" Alice yawns "4 in the morning and you chose now to—".
"Got it, Al" Shane snaps, striding into the bathroom and slamming the door shut. I groan inwardly and watch them just stare at me.
I step off the bed and walk towards the bathroom door, opening it gently. Sliding through into the dark room, I close the door behind me and faintly hear Jenny sigh.
A/N:
Hey, another part finally up!! lol Haven't had as much inspiration lately, mostly because school has been an absolute drag, i hate 4th year. Yuck. They're all official and make you take yourself sooo flipping seriously...
Anyway, it's amazing to you readers who kept with this story and reviewed even though I've been a terrible author, big massive thanks and hugs!!
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