Part 21
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Opening my eyes, I yawned. It was... dark? And someone had their arms around me. I quickly remembered Shane and... I don't remember falling asleep but we must have. "Shane" I turned over as much as I could because Shane's grip was so tight it was almost painful and found Shane, eyes closed and looking like an angel as she continued to sleep.
She stirred and mumbled something but refused to open her eyes or move. "Shane" I nudged her, "Shane, we must have slept in, look, it's dark". I nudged her again and sighed, this was pointless. Glancing to my watch, I saw it was 1am.
"So?" she muttered, eyes still closed. She pulled me back down into her and wrapped her legs around mine, smiling vaguely. She moved forwards, arms wrapped around me, nearly overtaking my whole body. God, I had missed this.
I opened my eyes and stared at her. Reaching up, I gently began tracing the outlines of her nose, lips, eyes and neck. She opened her eyes and smiled, staring so intensely at me, I thought she could see right through me.
"I love you, Carmen" Shane whispered, her grip on tightened as if she was scared I was going to up and run, like she did. My breath caught it my throat and my stomach flipped over.
"I love you, too" I replied and really meant it. I had had a phobia of those words before I had met Shane and now... It's all I've wanted to say to her for ages but, never found the right time.
"If you give me another chance" Shane whispered, "I swear, I'll make it right, we'll make it work" god, you can't imagine how perfect those words are, they're everything I've been waiting to hear.
I grinned, "God, you have no idea how much you affect me, Shane McCutcheon" I looked down, feeling so completely happy. I can't quite remember a time when I've ever felt this... complete, whole, content.
"Is that a yes?" she poked her tongue between her teeth in a cute childish smirk. I'm pretty sure she knew the answer; she just wanted me to say the words. I breathed out deeply, mockingly.
"Oh well" I rolled my eyes, "I suppose it's a yes" I laughed, she's so adorable when she's trying to act offended. She grinned back and I felt her leaning in. This was our first kiss since we'd said those 3 scary words and it probably couldn't mean more to me than anything in the world.
Shane rolled over and made sure she was on top, like she always does. Pinning my hands by my head, she leaned down so close to my lips and made a deep animal growl in the pit of her throat.
Licking her lips and letting her rich, heavy breath linger on my neck, Shane came closer. I don't think I've ever wanted anyone more in my entire life. Her lips touched mine briefly and then returned and we slowly began fighting for dominance. The movements got faster and all I wanted was air but she wasn't letting up.
Shane plunged her tongue into my mouth and traced every inch of it, continuing her animal attack on my swollen lips. Hands still pinned to the ground and body trapped under Shane, she had me right where she wanted me. I had no control. I thought I was gonnah suffocate but Shane finally broke apart, if only for a few inches from my lips and we panted heavily, my chest moving so fast up and down I felt dizzy.
"Carmen" Shane moaned and I nearly fell apart at the seams. She dipped into my neck, letting me breath some more and began sucking so viciously on my neck I screamed a little. Her teeth scraped against my skin and her mouth and tongue was so hot against my neck I was gasping every time she moved an inch. She grinds her pelvis into mine and I bite my lip so to stop from screaming I think it might bleed. God, I want her right now but it looks like she's calling all the shots.
Her lips are back to crushing against mine. She's not giving up. I feel like all my energy is being sucked away the more she keeps up her carnal attack. Our bodies seem to be moving in the same rocking order now and I can feel the urge to spill out and scream and do something, anything, taking over.
"Shane" I'm begging now, my breathing heavy and my chest flustered, still heaving with tension, "Shane—I can't—" I have to talk between kisses because her lips are so fierce and unforgiving she just keeps going, "I can't—do t-this—any longer...".
Shane finally stops and places her forehead against mine, her dark passionate eyes staring straight into me. "Carmen" her voice is slick and laced with pure animal lust, "Do you want me to fuck you?" her words make me want to scream her name until she's screaming with me but my breathing is still quite erratic.
It's not like I've never had sex before but... This is Shane, the girl I'm madly and irrevocably in love with. This means something—no, it means everything to me. But I can't stop now, it's too late for that, even if I wanted to stop, I'd never be able to, it'd be absolute fucking torture and by the look on Shane's face, if I even tried to stop, she'd probably explode or kill me.
As if my heart wasn't already beating 1000 miles per hour, it sped up dramatically as Shane threw off her jacket and begun undoing her top. I'd seen Shane naked before, loads of times, when we had to share the shower together but this was different. It was more special than I ever thought was possible.
A semi-naked Shane leaned over me and I stared. She was so fucking hot, I almost screamed. Hell, she was sex. She smirked that sexy grin and gripped my jumper to pull it over my head. Luckily for her, I hadn't chosen to wear a top this morning. Shane seemed transfixed, god knows why.
"You are so beautiful" she whispered and slowly came down to my chest. It became as flustered as before as Shane began rolling her tongue all over and leaving bite marks. My bra soon came loose and I would have taken Shane's off but she wasn't wearing one. Now, come to think of it, I don't think Shane actually wears a bra. Oh well, who cares?
I could see Shane wouldn't want to get up so she held herself up an inch and undid my jeans. Pulling them down me as fast as she could, I flipped them off my feet with my feet, my converses going too. The cold night air would have bothered me if I didn't already have an amazingly high temperature from just looking at Shane. Undoing her jeans, pulling off her vans and tugging her jeans from her legs in less than 4 seconds made me gape. Shane is very impressive when it comes to getting undressed.
Shane sat still on me, just staring down at my nakedness in front of her. I've never felt so exposed before in my life. In slow motion, she pressed our naked bodies together and bent down to kiss me. It started out tender and gentile like the wind around us but the more the wind got volatile, so did Shane. Resuming power over me, the kisses were getting so heated, and as our bodies rocked together, I couldn't help but scream, as loud as I wanted to before; I let it all out and screamed her name until my throat went raw.
"I love you" She whispered into my ear.
"I love you" I replied, breathing heavy and uneven again.
And as the heavy wind continued to blow, Shane wrapped her arms around me tightly. As the lights around us dimmed and darkened even more, and soft rain poured down like spit, and birds chirped in the trees, I let Shane take me into the dark, merciless night.
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It was early morning, really early. Blinking my eyes open just barely, I glanced at my watch and it read 6am. Gazing up at the naked beauty lying on top of me, I smiled. "Shane" I mumbled, kissing her neck gently, "Shane, it's 6 o'clock, we gotta get up".
"What?" Shane opened her eyes and looked down. She immediately smirked and pressed her lips close to mine in happiness "Morning sexy" she whispered into my ear.
"Shane" I laughed, "C'mon, we gotta get up before anyone sees us" I laughed as she rolled her eyes and got off me. Finding our clothes was a lot harder than we imagined and they were a little damp because it rained a little last night but we eventually found them in the end and dressed as quickly as possible. By that time, it was half 6. Classes started at 7am here but all I wanted was to be with Shane.
We tip-toed into back into school, thankfully all the doors were open by now and looked around. It was like a ghost town. Practically nobody was around except from the janitors.
"I wish you were in the same dorm as me" Shane moaned, linking our fingers together as we walked down the corridor.
"Me too" I looked away, "Do you share a dorm with Alice, Becky and—Joanie?" I bit the last name out.
Shane smirked, "Yeah, who do you share a dorm with?".
"Jenny, and some Queen Bee bitches Lana and Caitlin" I replied, rolling my eyes.
"We could figure out a way to swap" Shane reasoned.
"That'd be right" I snorted, "Who'd want to bunk with two Prima-Donna's?".
Shane laughed and pulled me into her, kissing my neck gently. I laughed and mockingly pushed her away before pulling her back into me, "Is sex all you think about?" I grinned as she playfully bit into my neck. Think of all the marks I'd have on my body from last night...
"No" Shane smirked, "You're all I think about".
We kissed a few times before I pulled away, "I better go back to my dorm... I'll see you in class?" I didn't want to leave her but I figured I better go make sure Jenny was okay considering I hadn't seen her all yesterday.
"Oh okay" Shane groaned, rolling her eyes. She pulled me into her one last time and kissed me so hard I thought I might bruise before releasing me.
I smiled and we both parted, walking opposite directions. I got to my dorm room and slowly, quietly turned the knob. Slipping into the room, I spun around and came face to face with a red-eyed, messy-haired Jenny.
"Where have you been!?" she lunged at me, pulling me into a tight hug. Then she let me go and hit me.
"Ow!" I jerked away, "What was that for?".
"You went bloody missing!" Jenny replied, angry, "That's what that's for!".
"I'm fine" I insisted, "Clearly, I'm okay... Sorry to make you cry over me" I rolled my eyes.
"I'm not crying" Jenny wiped at her eyes, "I was just... concerned you might have jumped off a roof or something".
I laughed, "No need to panic, I'm officially okay, promise".
"You could have let me know" Jenny whined, "I wanted to tell someone but Alice told me you were probably with Shane, just talking things over but I the voice in the back of my head kept me you had been adducted or kidnapped or murdered—".
"Jenny" I stopped her mid-way, "I'm fine, really, I swear... I was not adducted or kidnapped or—" I smirked, "Murdered".
"Okay" Jenny nodded feebly, "Where were you?".
"With Shane" I replied, "Everything's... em..." I bit my lip, "Everything's good, finally" I smiled happily and Jenny shook her head at me.
"What?" I said innocently.
She leant in suspiciously and—wait for it—sniffed me. Okay, what? I pulled back and frowned, "Okay, Jenny, what is up with you?".
"I smell sex" Jenny said, looking at me accusingly.
"What?" I tried to laughed, "W—hat, what... are you talking about?".
"You and Shane had sex!" Jenny cried, pointing her finger at me.
"Don't you point your finger at me!" I shot back, batting her hand away, "And anyway, what Shane and I choose to do in private stays private".
"Pft!" Jenny rolled her eyes.
"What now?" I sighed.
"As much you love Shane" Jenny began quietly, "And no matter how much she loves you, you know Shane, probably even better than she does, and Shane... Shane self-sabotages all the relationships in her life when they're going great, fantastic... It's just... It's what she does".
"She's—" I began.
"Changed?" Jenny interrupted me, "You think you've changed Shane McCutcheon, the player?" she looked away, "Wow Carmen, you're more gullible than I thought".
"Why are you saying this?" tears rose to the surface, "You're supposed to be my friend, you're supposed to support me".
"I am supporting you!" Jenny cried, "I'm trying to make you see sense because I don't want you to get hurt again, like she hurt you in the past".
"We hurt each other" I corrected her.
"But Shane started it" Jenny whispered, "If Shane hadn't of hurt you first, with that Amber girl... Carmen, would you have hurt her back and slept with Papi? Cause I think not".
"This time is different" I stressed to her, "Shane's changed, she's more mature and more realistic about life... And I've changed, Jenny... I'm not naive anymore, I know what to expect but I also know that if Shane and I try, I know we can make this work...".
Jenny sighed deeply and shook her head, "I think you're making a mistake" she picked up her white duffle bag, "I'm going for a shower" she added quietly before leaving the room.
Glancing up to the bunk beds where Lana and Caitlin lay sleeping, I wiped my tears away, feeling angry. Why did Jenny have to ruin this amazing moment? I was so happy and now... Now, all I can think about is her words, cutting into my skin like sharp metal.
Authors Note: Okay, I know you hate me but let's face it, no real drama can be happy all the time, and while I felt it was right to get Carmen and Shane properly together, I need to show other opinions, e.g. Jenny's negative one and before you bash Jenny, I just want you to know what she's saying is purely out of love and concern for her friends. Sounds corny, I know but oh well, you write angst stuff for ages and that's what happens lols xx