Title: Feelings so Confus'd
Doctor: 9th, naturally.
Disclaimer: All I own is... is... now where did I put it? I'm sure I own something! Oh yeah! I own nothing. Doctor who belongs to the BBC, though I would quite happily relieve them of Christopher Eccleston (already free, I know)!
Summary: Rose and the Doctor are more than just friends, but what happens when the Doctor says something and Rose takes it the wrong way?
Will give you cookies if you can give me a better summary! Please?
A/N: Read&Review or my Wear-Bear will eat you! M for later chapters. This is my first fan-fic so be nice! I am going to start to try and update more often, though up until the 23rd of June I might not be able too! (After the 23rd I'll have no more exams left so will be free to write more fan-fics, LoL!)
"Doctor, when Jack comes back I think we should pretend that we've made up. And… and that… and we should pretend we li… l-l-love each other."
The Doctor – who had withdrawn from trying to kiss her, as she started to speak – heard what she said and pulled his hand away from her. Shit! He thought to himself, crushed, why did I go and dump myself in Ape-ish emotions again?
"PRETEND! YOU WANT TO PRETEND!" The pain of her running out on him, and the pain of her words exploded through the Doctor, and a wave of anguish fuelled anger surged through his body. His voice took on a harsh whisper which, to Rose, seemed louder than thunder in the darkest of storms. "So what? Were you just after a bit of fun then, hey? Was I just a means to an end? Go on! Tell me! Why did you kiss me?"
Rose sat there horrified, watching the Doctor's facial expressions. He looked the same way he had when he had been screaming at the Dalek before they met Jack. The same pain on his face. The same anger in his eyes. The same tilt of a smile, tainted with Hatred. She hated looking at the Doctor like this, wanted to run away from the room screaming. Yet at the same time, wanted to comfort the vulnerable man the Doctor had become. To take him into her arms and show him just how much she loved him. Not tell him why she kissed him. Show him why.
But she couldn't. how do you do that with a guy who already told you he doesn't love you?
"TELL ME NOW ROSE! GO ON, YOU PETTY LITTLE APE, WHY DID YOU DO IT?"
Rose had scrunched herself into the corner, during this latest outburst. He could see that she was terrified, yet he couldn't stop. Not now. He had to let his emotions go. It was either this, or he would ravage her. And she had made it absolutely clear that she did not want the latter.
"I – I – I don't know…" She stammered.
"You don't know? Not good enough Rose! AM I RIGHT?" he bellowed, before his voice dropped once again to it's steely whisper. " Was I just a stand in until you saw Mickey?" If it wasn't for her own anger at the accusation or the pain of what he was saying, she would have heard his anger had almost dissipated, his voice broken and he sounded as if he was on the verge of tears. As it was, her own anger was rising so she couldn't hear it.
She was about to reply when she heard Jack's footsteps outside. Forgetting her anger, and forgetting her need to pretend, she yelled at Jack.
"Jack! GET ME THE HELL AWAY FROM THIS BASTARD! I can't stand even on more minute with him!"
"Rose I already told you! Not until you --" he was cut off as the Doctor's anger sparked up again.
"WHAT? YOU CAN'T STAND ME? AM I REPELLANT OR SOMETHING?" He was incredibly angry, then was over taken by a sarcastic wave crashing through him, wanting to make Rose cry. Wanting to hurt her. "No, actually! Don't worry your primitive little brain about it. I'm sure it can't cope with the pressure!"
"MY LITTLE BRAIN? You don't even know your own name! Or maybe you don't have one. Maybe your 'PEOPLE' hated you so much they couldn't even give you a name!"
The minute it was out of her mouth she regretted it. She knew it was wrong but in her anger couldn't take it back.
Jack heard everything that had been exchanged in the short time that he had been there, and decided the safest course of action was to drag Rose away.
He opened the door and pulled Rose out, swiftly shutting the door again and ran off with Rose. He knew the Doctor would likely be very angry, and upset. He knew from personal experience never to mock the sole survivor of a race about their race. It just hurt them too much.
"Rose! How could you have been so stupid? Right, stay in here and don't move, if you hear him come along the corridor, then don't make a sound. It could be a while before he calms down. Do you have any idea what saying that might have done to him?"
"I'm so sorry Jack, I didn't mean too! I swear, it's just I was so angry with him. I'm sorry!"
"It's not me you need to apologise to, Rose." He said, sadly, closing the door behind him. He left it unlocked because he trusted her. She wouldn't go looking for the Doctor without making sure he was calm, or at least without going to say sorry.
He made his way to the room he had chosen for them to make up, wishing he hadn't tried to intervene. Now there was even less chance of them making up again.
He expected the Doctor to be angry, and possibly preparing a fist for Jack, so naturally he was surprised when he reached the room. When he pressed his ear to the door – which was something he didn't expect to need to do – instead of hearing the expected curses, he heard the Doctor sobbing.
He rapped lightly on the door, and entered, comforting a weeping man for what would not be the first – nor the last – time.
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