EPOV

I was going to do it tonight. I was going to propose to my beautiful Bella. I know it's only been four months, but I can't imagine my life without her anymore. She is my life now.

I already bought the ring, and I was going to give it to her after dinner. I was going to take her to our meadow, where there is a picnic blanket, plates, and desert, and I was going to get down on one knee. I would tell her all that she means to me. I would tell her how much I love her. I would ask her to marry me.

I was jolted out of my thoughts by a pixie flying at me. "You're going to propose! Do you have the ring yet? Let me see it!" she squealed.

"Alice, whoa, slow down, how did you know I was going to propose to Bella?" I asked in shock.

"Hello, it's me you're talking to, Edward. How could I not know?" She replied.

"Okay, yes, I am going to propose to her after dinner tonight," I sighed, and handed her the ring.

"Okay, nice size… I approve. Go make Bella a new future Cullen," was her response.

I walked downstairs to see my mom, where Bella was supposed to be. "Mom, where's Bella?" I asked.

"Oh hey honey. Umm… she went to the market a little while ago to get some Extra Virgin Olive Oil. she should be back by now though." She replied. I looked outside, and it was already dark. I was getting worried.

"Mom, I am going to go check on her," I said, and was out the door before she could protest. I walked down the street of the market looking for Bella, when I heard a loud shot, that sounded like a gun shot.

"BELLA!" I yelled, and started running to where the gun shot came from. When I turned the corner I saw Bella's body bleeding on the ground. "Bella, please no. Please come back to me Bella, please, I need you! I want to marry you Bella! Please," I said over and over as I began to sob. "I know you're there, James, and I will hint you down and avenge her!" I yelled behind my shoulder. I heard another shot, and felt pain ripple through my back, and everything went black.

BPOV

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me. (New Moon- page 93)

It took a long time for me to come to terms with the fact I couldn't be with him. It still hurt to say his name. I couldn't, or I would fall apart. I do that enough as it is. I can't stop thinking about him. I wanted to be his wife. How do you forget something like that? That first day I woke up was the hardest.

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"Edward, where's Edward," I mumbled as my eyes shot open. I looked around to see Charlie standing over me. That was confusing to say the least.

"Bella, baby you're awake. I was starting to worry. Do you remember anything that happened?" he asked. I shook my head no, even though I remembered every second.

"Well honey, when you were making dinner one night you passed out. I took you to the hospital, and they told me you had a brain tumor. Instead of putting you through chemo, they decided to take out the tumor. Then, they had to put you in a medically induced coma. You could've died," he said, voice breaking at the end.

"How long have I been out?" I asked incredulously. Would they let me stay on the machines for four months?

"Four days."

I realized that the four months I spent with Edward wasn't real. That still didn't console the bone crushing grief I felt living my life without him. I couldn't make it. It was just too hard.

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Thinking about that time was causing the hole in my chest to grow, so I decided to go to Jake's house.

"Dad, I'm going to Jake's! I will be back later!" I called, and left out the door.

Life hasn't gotten any better for me. I was living my life day by day. Jake made things a little easier. Even though I broke up with him we are still friend. He doesn't know about Edward, but he does know something has me in a lot of pain, and was happy to help.

I jumped into my truck, and jumped at the roar of the engine. I took the familiar roads to Jake's house, and was there in no time. He came out there with a smile on his face and open arms.

"Hey Bells. I'm guessing you want to go on a bike ride," he said and smile. When I first came here, the day after I was let home, he was working on some motorcycles. I helped him build them, and it only took us a month. They were finished two days ago, and I have come here the past two days and riding. It was a good escape.

"Hell yeah!" I yelled, and jumped out of the truck and hugged him.

"Well, let's go!" he said, and I followed him to the garage. We had to keep them there because Charlie and Billy didn't know about it. Charlie would kill me if he did know.

I rode around for about an hour, and cleared my head. It was always nice to get out here and ride. I was never known for my crazy sports, but I need something to clear my head, and this really helped.

After I was done I hung out with Jake, and went home to get my things ready for school the next day. School was a pain at first. It was hard to pretend like nothing happened, and try to be normal for my friends. I couldn't act all broken. Because they would think it had something to do with the brain tumor. It is a lot easier now, but I was always a good actress. I couldn't let anybody see the hell that was going on inside.

Tomorrow should be interesting to say the least. We were getting five new students, the Cullens. They were all adopted by Dr. Charlile Cullen, and his wife Ms. Esme Cullen. I didn't know any of the kids name's so I would just have to figure that out the next day.

I got home, and started my homework. I only had trig homework, so it only took me fifteen minutes. After that I started cooked dinner, and watched T.V. for a little while. After that I took a shower, and did my hair. For some reason I felt like looking nice for the new student. I figures it was just because they were new, and I wanted them to like me. At about ten o'clock I went to sleep.

I woke up the next day to the sound of ran beating down on my window. Big shock, I thought as I hopped out of bed. I got ready, and headed downstairs. Charlie already left, so I just grabbed a granola bar, and headed to school.

When I got there everybody was buzzing about the new students. I learned in my trigonometry class that their names were Alice, Edward, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie. I internally winced, and wrote a pass so I could go to the bathroom and cry until the whole in my chest didn't feel so bad.

When I was finished I put on some powder so my cheeks didn't look so stained. I finished my trig class and went to lunch. I was so confused, I mean what are the odds that there were five new kids, and all of them were in my "dream" I had while I was in my coma.

I walked into the cafeteria only to be met by the beautiful topaz eyes of a bronze-haired Greek God.

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-Nikki