It's so close to the end, I think this might be the second to the last chapter then we will have an Epilogue! Please stay tuned until then, it's almost the moment you've all be waiting for.

"I heard Susan was back in town," The words barely escaped his sister's lips when Alex ran from the room toward the door of the house. He had been so worried about Susan for the past few weeks, if there was any chance for him to see her he had to take it.

She had been in such grief and pain the last time he saw her and now he needed to know if she was alright. She had to be alright!

"My sister told me that the caretaker said you were back," Alex said to the still form of Susan sitting on the couch in the living room. Susan didn't respond she just clutched a picture of something. Alex walked over to her and touched her shoulder.

"No," Susan said, "I'm not back. I'm lost and alone and I'm growing afraid. I can't see myself anymore." She dropped what she was holding and the sound of shattering glass filled the house as the frame hit the floor. Alex picked it up to see a small painting of four children. A caption beneath it reading The four Kings and Queens of Narnia. A gift to Queen Susan the Gentle, our beloved queen on her 23 birthday. May you live a long and happy life. Alex was a little stunned by the painting, the wood was golden and it was more beautiful than anything he had seen around this world. He knew immediately that it must have come from Narnia, Susan was still 21 in there world, but what was it doing here?

"Do you see the truth now?" he asked her.

"The truth?" she said looking at him with tears in her eyes, "the truth that I've lost everything that I was sup-post to hold dear? The truth that I will never be whole again? The truth that my blindness has now led to my ruin?"

"Susan there's still a chance..." he begun.

"A chance for what?" she yelled, "I left it all behind for a reason because I knew there was no chance. And as long as it's not real it doesn't hurt as much."

"You can't just go on like that!" Alex protested grabbing her arm.

"And why not?" she yelled, "They're gone! They're all gone! And I've been alone all this time trying so hard to face the world! I can't do this anymore, I can't look at the past! I have to leave it all behind or else it will kill me!"

"Susan!" he yelled breaking through her speech, "there has to be a way for you to get back. Please try hard to remember."

"I can't," she said pushing him away, "just leave me alone! I don't remember!"

He looked back at the house as he walked on toward his own home, he cared so much about her and yet he couldn't seem to break through to her. He didn't know what to do anymore, maybe it was time for him to move on and stop trying. But how could he? Susan was so much more to him than anyone else had ever been.

As he walked along the path he noticed the rain that had begun to fall. He had seen too much of tears and rain. He longed for the green grass and lush fields of Narnia just as much as Peter had before he died for Alex had once had his own adventure in the wonderful world as well. It was there that he learned for the Kings and Queens that once ruled Narnia and after that he had returned to England only to find that the children were alive here. He and Peter had become friends as Alex had told him of his adventure.

Alex to had been told he would have to live his own life and he had almost rejected Narnia but in the end he had realized that this would lead to unending pain. So he had waited in his life for Narnia to call him once again and now he saw Susan suffering from the pain he had almost fallen into. He could not bring himself to leave her alone like she wanted. He would tell her everything now, he had to end this! Susan needed to know that Narnia was real and that he had been there. He turned from the beaten road and ran back the way he had come ignoring the rain! He had to get back and he had to tell her the truth. He loved her too much to let her go down without fighting for her again. This was a battle he had to win, for the soul of Susan.

Susan walked through the groves around the house one last time. Thunder sounded and she realized a storm was coming. She walked on almost methodically not knowing what had begun to come over her. She wanted something she could never have and she wouldn't be denied anymore, she would deny it. She was alone and afraid.

As the rain started to drizzle down from the sky she saw a shady grove where she could possibly wait it out but she didn't move toward it. She stood in the rain letting it wash over her and her troubles and cares. She let it fall like the tears the flowed from her eyes, for she had no control over either event. She had tried so hard to escape the shadow of Narnia but it seemed to follow her no matter what she did. What was in Narnia that was so special and why couldn't she remember everything if it was real?

As she walked on she saw something glowing in the distance. Soon she found herself walking toward it and when she reached it she picked it up. There she stood holding a piece of paper that simply said her name on it, it was a letter but who from Susan did not know. She was a bit confused as to how this was happening. As she opened the letter she saw golden writing on it.

This is what it said:

You hold the answer deep within your own mind. Consciously you've forgotten it. That's the way the human mind works, whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us to entertain we reject it and erase it from our memories but the imprint is always there. Everything from the past you can't see will always be there.

You see we're sup-post to try to be real. And I feel alone and we're not together and this is real. This is how I feel, this is how you feel. I want it to change. Please try!

The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we idolize
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
Dawn will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth my final time

Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away

Lying beside you
Listening to you breath
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know, I cannot
Bear it all alone

Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, No, no, no, no

Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away

Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
O, it all away
O, it all away
It's always there

But the imprint is always there, nothing is ever really forgotten. Please don't reject me, please don't leave me because I'm dying to. I'm missing you, so much and I can't leave it all behind like I've tried to. I can't erase it all just like you can't erase it all, it's there and it will always be there! Please listen to me. Understanding that this is your legacy, this is who you are! PLEASE SUSAN! PLEASE! There's still hope. It won't ever leave, it will follow you! No matter where you run, no matter where you hide. You may loose it forever but you will never escape it's memory. We all still love you and we want you to come home. Please come home.

Lucy

Suddenly like the storm around her a sea of memories flooded her mind breaking the barriers that she had tried so hard to contain them in. The walls crumpled and she saw herself as the queen of Narnia along with her siblings. She fell on her knees crying out as everything she had tried so hard to erase suddenly flooded her mind. It was real, just as she had begun to suspect, Narnia was real. And she had rejected it because she had been told that she would never see it again and it she knew that it would better to forget than to live on with the pain. But now she could not wash it all away, she could not wish it all away, she could not cry it all away and she could not scratch it all away. The imprint which had been laid on her heart the first day she stepped into Narnia had never left even when she had built her walls and broken her memories. She had believed that it had been erase but here it was.

"I've lost it all!" she yelled holding her head in her hands, "I remember! I remember the world! I remember! I remember! I remember!" She knew no one could hear her but her heart was crying out, surrendering to the memories that flooded her now. Fresh tears flowed from her eyes as the rain stopped around her. She had ran so far from it all she felt that she would never be able to recover it. She could not fight it all away, she could not hope it all away, she could not scream it all away, it just would not fade away.

She knelt there face in her hands, ashamed of what she had done and who she had become. She had denied what was most precious to her, her home and her family. She had run away from them in her attempt to run from Narnia and she had not seen how much it had hurt them to see her fall. She didn't realize the pains they felt every time she scoffed at Narnia claiming it was a childish game. And now she felt their pains and fears, there hopes and dreams as they tried so hard to tell her it was real. She never listened, not to Peter, not to Edmund, not to Lucy and not to Alex who had stayed with her through this prodding her to believe and never leaving her side no matter how many times she rejected him and Narnia.

She didn't notice the warm light that begun to surround her as the rain stopped and the sun began to shine. She was there between the trees when everything that had fallen apart now began to come back together.

"Susan," a warm voice said, "Susan." She didn't look up in her shame, she didn't want to see anyone. She felt a presence in front of her but still held her face in her hands, "look up Susan."

"I can't," she said.

"Why not," the voice asked.

"Because I have denied my king, my land and my family," Susan said as tears leaked from her hands to the ground, "and now I'm all alone."

"No," the voice said, "for you have seen the truth and you have returned to your first love. Look up Susan."

"Where has my heart gone," she said, "I'm trapped in the eyes of a stranger, and I can't go back to believing in everything. I remember it, I was told I would never go back."

"You were told that you would live in your own world," the warm voice spoke again, "and your heart somehow knew that once that life was over that you would return yet you rejected that. Now that you see the truth look up and be restored to your place!" The voice spoke the last phrase with such authority that Susan slowly did look up. In front of her a few feet away sat a great lion staring at her with saddened eyes.

"Aslan?" the word barely escaped her lips as the great lion roared and his breath washed over her.

I know I'm horrible giving you a cliffhanger! I'm sorry! I just had to get this up! I want REVEIWS! I want to know how you feel now that the story is ending, It's getting close to the end.

-WintersChill