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Chapter 3

I'm surprised to find the door to our room is closed. Waiting for a few moments, I debate on whether I should knock or just go in. I mean, it was my room as well. And surely he knows I am here. It was weird but Edward and I have always had this deep connection where we could sense each other's presence. I couldn't explain it but I like it, made me feel like we were meant for each other. Deciding to knock, he comes to the door a few seconds after.

"Hey, mind some company?" I smiled taking small steps in. He turns to go back to the bed, shrugging indifferently.

"Oh, I didn't hear you come up. Come on in, it is your room too my Bella."

Sitting down next to him I wrap my arms around him. Neither of us say anything right away. I don't need Jasper's ability to tell that Edward is hurting. Gently kissing his forehead, I rest my head on his shoulder.

"When I lost Charlie, it was like someone threw a glass of cold water on me and a punch in the face all rolled into one. I never realized how important he was in my life until he was gone. The days that followed I was so lost. The only thing that pulled me through was knowing that I had you and remembering the time I did have with him. I swear I ate fish for a good month after his heart attack. But I'll be there for you Edward, always."

"I know and I'm so thankful for you. It would be so much harder without you. Bella I..Esme was in my life so long and I guess I just took for granted her presence. Honestly I'm not sure of how to go about this." Edward had pulled us back on the bed by this point.

"Edward, life isn't scripted. You just act how you feel." Silence engulfed us again and I chose to allow it too. He would speak what was on his mind when he was ready and pushing never did anyone any good.

We stayed in our room for an unknown amount of time. No one had disturbed us since and my throat was painfully burning. Edward still had failed to speak any new words, choosing to stare at the ceiling. I noticed that his eyes were a onyx black, mirroring mine assumingly. Untangling from his hold I stand up and look down at him.

"Come on, starving yourself is not going to do any good. You have to be in pain, you haven't hunted longer than I have and I'm about to go crazy from the fire." My smile drops as I see his face still void of any emotion.

"Fine, I guess I should hunt." Edward resigned, and launched himself out his window. He made it seem like he wanted to be alone, while it hurt me, I let him be for the moment. Jumping from the window, I start running in the opposite direction.

I finish quickly and head back to the house. Hopefully Edward will feel a little bit better. Pushing the patio door open, I run inside looking around. My spirits crash when I realize he isn't anywhere in sight. Walking up to Jasper, I watch Emmett playing some game along with him.

"Have either of you seen Edward? We went hunting at the same time."

"No he hasn't been back yet." Jasper replied. Everyone was obviously being cautious with what was said about everything. Carlisle had taken to doing double shifts at the hospital. Right now I think that was the only thing keeping him even remotely same.

"Jasper, those demons you were talking about before, what was that about?" I hoped he would tell me. I was curious as to what would drive Esme this far, and on some level I needed to know. Jasper was debating on if he should tell me or not, so I just patiently waited.

"It's something that has been eating away at her for so long. I know she loved us all as her own, but it wasn't enough. She never got over the loss of her baby boy."

"But that was decades ago. Why self destruct now?" I ask, completely confused. He winces at my phrasing.

"It was an accumulation of things really. Twenty years ago, Esme had a…lapse of judgement. She changed a human baby that someone had abandoned in the forest. Of course we had to destroy it, it was too dangerous to do anything else and she understood that. Only Carlisle and I knew of it, we thought it would be best that way."

I was surprised with what Jasper revealed. I can't believe she was hiding that all this time. She could have been a world class actress for sure. "Thanks for telling me Jasper, you didn't have to."

"No problem. But what's going on with you? I can sense emotions peaking out every now and then, and then nothing like some sort of wall." Jasper asked concerned. I figured I ought to tell him some of the truth considering what happened with Esme.

"I don't know, it's just that Edward is acting really strange and distant. I feel like he's going to slip through my fingers at any moment, but I also knows he loves me and people react differently to grief. But it's okay, that's all petty compared to what we all just lost." I smiled and made my way to go.

"It's not petty Bella. We did lose Esme, but as much as we may want to we just can't put our lives or our feelings on hold. I don't quite understand the way Edward's reacting to this, but he'll come around. Don't worry." Jasper assured me. I could only hope he was right. Lately it seemed that I was walking a tightrope with Edward and I wasn't as sure about the routine like usual.

"Thanks Jasper, I see why Alice keeps you around. If Edward asks, tell him I went to see Carlisle at the hospital." I requested. Jasper agreed, and I left to escape from going stir crazy.

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