Chapter 6

Thinking about what I was going to do with the piano, I walk over to the desk and pull out some scissors. I push open the piano lid and prepare to reciprocate the damage that Edward did on my dead heart. I bring the scissors close to the strings, but I can't bring myself to follow through. I know how much Edward loves this piano and honestly, I love seeing him play it.

Closing the piano top, I take a seat at the piano stool. Running my fingers over the keys, I start humming to myself and start playing. Forgetting the others still in the room, my humming escalates into soft singing.

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could've been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I'd love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I start to really get into the song, the words connecting to my feelings in every way imaginable. I couldn't even bring myself to hate Edward really, not as much as I still loved him. My heart was still his and if he asked me to go to the end of the Earth for him then I would surely do so in an instant.

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don't want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don't want a broken heart
And I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

I wanted to follow Carlisle's advice. I needed to act like he didn't exist, but it wasn't in my power to do so. Edward had me wrapped around his finger and I hated it but again, there is nothing I could do to stop this. I hear the front door open, and break out of my moment long enough for Edward and my gaze to meet.

It was hard for me to talk to him face to face, but I wanted him to know how I felt. I needed him to understand. Still looking at him, I continue on.

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you've got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you're not deserving me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

Edward's face is inscrutable to the untrained eye, but I can see shock and thought clouding his eyes. Hopeful that I was reaching out to him I continued.

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take breath with out you babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don't want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don't want a broken heart
And I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be…Oooo
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't wanna a broken heart
Don't want to take a breath with out my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don't want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl

I finished with a sigh and stood up, walking over to him. The surprise and curiosity on his face was replaced with what seemed to be exasperation. It was then that I knew I had my answer, I knew that there was no way Edward's feelings had changed. But I still needed him to hear me out. I still needed some amount of closure.

"Edward, about before, I'm sorry. It was juvenile for me to not want you to play your piano, I was just…upset and hurt." I smile hesitantly at him.

"It's fine Bella, we've both been under a lot of stress. It's understandable. Now if you'll excuse…" Edward was about to walk around me but I cut him off.

"Wait Edward, you had a chance to talk to me before, now it's my turn. You need to know that I love you and I still do no matter how much I fight against it. I know that's one sided. Edward, I don't think you realize how much you've burned me with this betrayal. These past three weeks have been a living hell for me, and it seems like they've been a walk in the park for you.

I'm beginning to think that maybe this was for the best ,that maybe I deserve someone better, maybe you weren't the one like I thought. And as cold and distant as you've been to me, it is somewhat comforting to me to know that while I will find my true love, you'll never be with yours." I finished completely satisfied, and walked past him escaping into Carlisle's study. I felt oddly exhilarated like I just closed a depressing chapter of my past and opened a promising future.

((AN: that song thing was cheesy but I couldn't help it. "Broken-Hearted Girl" by Beyonce))