Chapter 2

In the middle of the night Jules Callaghan tossed and turned, sweating profusely in her sleep over the images that flashed in her mind. There she was seeing and feeling everything all over again. She could see in front of her, the man she loved with all her heart standing before her in front of a podium. But instead of being 35 years old, she was different. She was in her body but much younger, her hands were tinier and to her left was her 16 year old brother Matthew holding her hand gently whispering to her that everything would be alright. Next to Matthew she could see in the corner of her eye a glimpse of her other brothers Jake and Ryan. All of them had a sad look on their face. She hated the fact that all though she understood to some level what was happening, she felt nothing except knots in her stomach. Somehow she knew life as she knew it was never going to be the same again for her and her family.

As Jules focused her eyes in front of her, she saw her father with his left arm in a sling and all choked up as he centered the microphone close to him and attempted to speak.

"Friends, family, and fellow police offers…….thank you. Thank you for the support you have provided my family and me during this difficult time." Jack Callaghan sighed attempting to regain his composure.

"Isabella.... Bell my wife is going to be greatly missed. She was my best friend, the mother of my children, my hero, and one of the finest police officers on the force. There were so many great things about her, so many things she still needed to do and she sacrificed it all to save me and the city of Toronto from a mad man." The tears began to swell in Jack Callaghan's eyes. He began to shake as he took deep breaths and continued.

He then felt a warm tiny loving hand grab his. And there he saw his little girl, Jules looking up at him with those eyes giving him the confidence to continue. "We lost 16 people this week from the Tower Sniper to include my wife. But what most of you don't know is she saved me. She shielded me with her body as more shots were fired. I know in my heart, Bell did this for me and for our children because we were her life and she was ours. She sacraficed herself for me and in the line of duty. Until death do us part and don't let them forget that mommy loves them, was the last thing she said to me. And then she was gone. Oh god she was gone" Jack's voice quivered.

"Matthew, Jake, Ryan, and Jules your mother was perfect and an extraordinary woman. Be successful, make her and I even prouder. Through you she will live on, and through you I find my strength now. It may seem impossible for us to be without her. But we need to find away to be happy anyway and for you to succeed and not allow her passing to go in vain. Succeed and be the loving children she raised." he said with as much conviction as he stared into each and everyone of his children's eyes.

"BEEP, BEEP, BEEP...." the sound of the alarm broke her from her sleep. Jules leaned to her side. She placed her hand on her heart as it pounded. She felt so panicked and overwhelemed with emotion from her dream. She leanded over to stop the beeping of the alrarm clock and saw it was 5:30AM. IT was time to get up and start her shift.

***************AT HQ HEADQUARTERS************************************

"Hey Kira. My aren't we looking so fresh and beautiful this Monday morning" Sam Braddock smirked and said sarcastically.

Kira giggled as she was onto him. "What do you want Braddock. Well I know what you want, I just want to here you say it."

He smiled back. "Okay you got me. So are we all set? I just found out from Sarge Team 1 is scheduled for our PFT tomorrow and then weigh in. So while we are out doing our physical fitness test and running the obstacle course I thought you could slip this inside her locker?" he said nervously as he handed her an envelope with Jules's name on it.

"God Braddock, you know you are so so lucky I'm a hopeless romantic" as Kira winked at Sam and took the envelope. "You owe me big Mr."

"You're a doll Kira. If it works out, I promise our first child, if it is girl will be named Kira". Sam yelled to her as he skipped off to the men's locker room like he just won the lottery.

****************Outside the parking lot of HQ Headquarters*********************

"Blow it off Jules, blow it off. It happened, it's in the past. You've dealt with it, and it was just a dream." Jules said to her as she sat in her jeep.

As she grabbed her purse and her duffell bag she heard a loud voice inside her head again. "Oh Jules, forgetting something? Let's see it is going to be a 12 hour shift and we wouldn't want you pigging out again now would we? If you had more discipline then I wouldn't need to remind you, now would I?"

Jules then opened the front storage compartment in the passenger side of her Jeep. She stared at all the diet pills and laxatives she stored underneath her car insurance and vehicle registration. She opened each bottle and with the bottle of water in her hand began popping diet pills one by one as she walked towards the SRU HQ building.

REVIEW PLEASE. SORRY IF I'M DRAGGING. I'LL GET TO THE POINT NEXT CHAPTER. BUT I FELT IT WAS REALLY IMPORTANT TO GO BACK TO JULES' PAST BEFORE I START CHAPTER 3. THANKS FOR ALL THE REVIEWS AND KIND WORDS. AGAIN REVIEWS ARE WELCOMED....GOOD BAD AND UGLY. I'M STILL WORKING ON MY GRAMMAR, SPELLING, FRAGMENTED SENTENCES. HOPE THIS DOESN'T SUCK. ALSO WOKRING ON HAVING MORE CONFIDENCE IN WHAT I WRITE. HOPE ALL YOU ENJOY THIS. OH AND, NEXT UPDATE MAY NOT HAPPEN UNTIL FRIDAY. :0(