CHAPTER 3

Wanted to get something up before Friday. Didn't really proof this, well I kinda did but again its late. This Chapter sort of drags. I like it better towards the end. But I don't do well with all the dialogue but didnt' know how else to write this. Anyway, Chapter 4 is when I promise to expose Jules dark secret to a member of the team, and where you find out what Kira is doing for Sam. There I let a little spoiler out on what I have for Chapter 4. So please be kind in your reviews. Because I'm very iffy about this Chapter.

"Happy Monday boys and gal" stated Sergeant Gregory Parker as he entered the briefing room. "Today we are going to hit the gym hard and run the obstacle course in preparation for tomorrow's weigh in and PT test. "

"Great, you mean another training for training..Again????" Spike announced smiling sarcastically at his teammates who all chuckled at his comment.

"Listen, we are here to represent Toronto's finest. And part of that folks is not only getting the cool pants, but making sure you look extremely good in the cool pants" Ed commented. "Jules makes it look easy,….but we can't have her being the only one that looks good. Now granted everyday is a Jules Day." Unable to resist Jules gave Ed a friendly but firm punch on the shoulder as she winked at him.

"Copy that" echoed the rest of the team.

"Okay well let get to the gym before we get any calls. Umm, Jules if you can stick around for a bit I need to get with you on a couple of things" Sergeant Parker stated.

"Sure Boss" Jules said nervously. What now, I already signed up for the Psych eval, I just haven't actually had time to go to see the Therapist yet.

As the rest of the team exited Jules began to fidget with her hands as she saw she was finally alone with her Sergeant.. "So what's up Boss?" she said looking up at him.

"I've already signed up for the psych eval and I had no problems overcoming my two biggest fears. Being human and not being perfect. As a matter of fact you said it yourself the planets aligned last Friday. Both girls are home safe and sound with their families.... ."Jules playfully rambling her thoughts to him, hoping she wasn't sounding defensive.

"That was a good job Jules. It really was. But I had to skip of to Dallas on Friday so try and see my son. And we never got to finish our conversation. Jules, aside from the psych eval, every year there is a PT test and weigh in you tend to go a little bonkers". Greg Parker sighed and slowly thought more about what he was going to say next to her.

"But Sarge I…" she tried to get a quick sentence in but she wasn't quick enough for the experience negotiator.

"Jules, if you're afraid to make mistakes its going to get in your way. I think you know that. I think it's great that you take the PT test and weigh in seriously and go to extremes. I think you nuts personally running 5 miles to warm up for it….but well" he smiled at her and then gave Jules the serious face.

"It's all nerve wracking for all of us Jules.. The PT test is something we all have to pass to stay in the SRU. I know the stakes are high. And no matter how many times you do it, its always in the back of your head this will be the day you might not pass and that ends your career with the SRU. " He paused briefly in deep thought.. "But Jules, I have to tell you striving for perfection……well it's uh setting yourself up for instant failure. It's simply not attainable" he shook his head at her.

As she looked back at him and proceeded to get up the chair Jules looked at Greg and said " I'm working on it. I just don't want to make a mistake like she….my mother did. I don't want ruin the lives of the people around me and the people we were meant to protect."

Standing next to her, Greg patted Jules on the shoulder. "Your mother saved so many people that day and saved your father. Now how can that be a mistake huh?"

Jules looked at him and gestured in agreement trying to hold the tears forming in her eyes and headed to the locker room.

*******SRU Lobby**************************************

"Okay Kira here you go" as Sam handed her a heavy bag.

"Sam, there is 12 pad locks in here…..oh wait 12 pad locks for 12 lockers representing the 12 roses you would send to her if you weren't on the same team…." Kira sarcastically stated trying to hold her laughter in.

"Seriously Kira, Are we all set? You can set up everything after we leave..... to run the obstacle course..right? It has be done before we come back for the weigh in. I owe you big time if you pull this off for me" Sam stated as he proceeded to make puppy dog eyes begging her to agree.

"Okay I'm going to do this for you. But here is 9 locks back. 3 is enough Sam, just like 3 roses. I'm not putting 12 clues in 12 lockers like she is on a scavenger hunt. It is a little bit over board don't you think? Were you seriously listening to the 12 days of Christmas again? All your shooting for is a first date right?" she paused. "Your trying to go for the gentleman caller motif right?..... and not trying to go all stalker on Jules?" as she began to laugh. The truth was she thought it was adorable what Sam was trying to do and what he was willing to do for Jules. Kira normally played by the book, but even though it was a little bit against regulations and behind his owns teams back ,she couldn't help it. She wanted to do this for him and she wanted to do it for Jules.

"You're the best Kira…..and when Troy and I go out tonight I promise to play match maker. He needs a girl like you to keep him straight. Team 3 would be so thankful if you would just go out with the man" Sam replied as he tried to make a quick get away so as not to give Kira chance to comment back.

Kira shook her head in laughter.

*********SRU Woman's locker room*************************

Jules sat on the bench staring at her reflection momentarily to gain composure before meeting up with the Team in the gym. She knows the conversation with Greg was not a reprimand. But a conversation from Boss showing he cares for his team and their welfare. Deep down inside she felt lucky to be under Greg Parker's command. But to Jules, it was impossible not to internalize the conversation that had just occured. At the moment the conversation with Greg, the anxiety of having to do the PT course tomorrow, being inspected in her SRU uniform, and the memories of her mother was more than she could handle. The overwhelming thoughts she had was defeaning. So she did the only thing she knew how to do,

She opened her locker and took a box of cookies stashed in the very back compartment of her locker. She began to devour all of it in just minutes. She then proceeded to the toilet and did the one thing she knew how to do and how to control but even that wasn't enough. Afterall she did purge the evening before and had absolutely nothing but diet pills and water this morning. She had to do something to control the pain she was feeling. Jules took a razor out of her locker, and started cutting. She began making small cuts with the razor until the her feelings were numbed by the pain she inflicted on her leg.

Weren't expecting her to do that were ya? Reveiw please....Next update really can't be until Friday. But I'll do my best, unless you Scorpio for even posting this Chapter.