DISCLAIMER: AFTER A WHILE – BY VERONICA SHOFFSTALL
CHAPTER 9
#3 – Figure Out who you are and do it on Purpose she realized was one wish Sam Braddock was incapable of granting her. This was the one thing she decided she needed to do for herlself, as she laid in her hospital bed alone deep in thought. Today was her 1 month anniversary at the Eating Disorder Recovery Center.
After returning several weeks ago from their 2 day weekend expedition, things sadly spun out of control for Jules Callaghan. Scott had not taken her decision to be with Sam very well and through his relentless anger Scott went straight to Sergeant Gregory Parker to expose her and Sam's relationship. Everything in her life at that point felt surreal, as if she was no longer in charge of her destiny or her own body. Making it worse was never being confronted by Sergeant Parker, although she and Sam knew it would soon come in time.
Jules had reached her breaking point. In a manner of weeks her next weigh in at the SRU registered at 100lbs with a Kevlar vest. She was ashamed and could not fathom how to stop the roller coaster ride she was on. There was also no denying her problem anymore from Team 1.
With Sam by her side she admitted everything to Sergeant Parker and requested a temporary medical leave of absence and admitted herself to the Eating Disorder Recovery Center. That was the last she saw of Sam or the rest of the team.
Today would be the first day she would be allowed visitors. She anxiously waited hoping she would soon see Sam. What if he doesn't come? She scribbled on her journal.
She had been journaling a lot as part of her therapy to better understand herself and as she anxiously awaited visiting hours she scribbled the following in her journal:
After A While
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and sharing a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open with the grace of a woman and not the grief of a child,
And you learn that sunshine burns if you get too much
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure,
That you really are strong, and that you really do have worth.
As she completed writting she heard a familiar voice.
"Hey Jules, How ya doing sweetheart?" as voice said from behind her.
"Sam", she softly said with tears in her eyes.
TBC
NOT MY PROUDEST WORK. I'LL DO MY BEST TO MAKE IT UP TO ALL OF YOU ON THE NEXT CHAPTER WHICH MAY BE THE FINAL CHAPTER.
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