Pairing: Fllay/Kira (pre discovery); Athrun/Lacus; Cagalli/Kira (Pre discovery); Athrun/Cagalli; Kira/Lacus…… SPOILERS! Ending: Fllay/Kira; Athrun/Lacus (I have decided to make this story a sorta happy ending.)

Summary: AU 300A.D. The story of a young girl who made a deal with the devil. The story of Fllay Allster, a young girl who had to pick up her life after she lost everything, and had to find a new reason to live and love.

Disclaimer: Don't own Gundam Seed or Destiny. Didn't really watch all of the show either. Hated the plot, but loved the characters, so I am making an AU so I can keep the characters, without the plot.

Author's Notes: Fllay/Kira and Cagalli/Kira were all before they found out that Kira was Cagalli's twin. So it's not really incest…

Dedication: Dedicated to Termony, cause reading her story made me want to write a Gundam Seed story…

Chapter 3: Sand through your fingertips

The most painful moment in a person's life isn't when you realize that you can't trust someone; it's the moment that you realize that someone couldn't trust you. The pain from such a realization won't ever go away, and will leave you wondering about yourself for the rest of your life. Are you not worthy? What did you do wrong?

And as Fllay was slowly being replaced these thoughts ran constantly through her head. I will not keep you waiting with my rambles. I am sure you want to know what happened after Cagalli, our princess, was revived.

Fllay didn't know what to do anymore as she watched Cagalli and Kira work in the farm helping Kira's uncle with the crops. Part of her was glad that they had one more pair of hands helping with this year's harvest, but the other part of her. The darker and deep part of her was discontent to watch her friend being pulled towards someone else.

She knew that the only reason why Kira had never shown interest in any of the other kids in the village was because of their age difference, but she had always assumed that even if there were other kids their age, he would still be close to her. But seeing him talk and work with Cagalli, it seemed to Fllay that her assumptions were wrong.

And Fllay didn't know what to think. How were you suppose to tell your best friend that you didn't think he was being a good friend without sounding spoiled? Especially since he was spending time with a newcomer and helping her settle in?

After Cagalli had been treated, they had found out that she was a girl. Fllay remembered being shocked, because when they were outside she seriously didn't notice that the body had been a female body. But more than her own surprise she remembered the blush that had crept on Kira's cheeks. She had then thought that it was from being embarrassed that he had also made the same mistake. But now it seemed to Fllay that he was instead crushing on the new girl.

The two of them actually got along considerably well. They didn't fight all the time, like when Kira and Fllay were together. Whenever Kira said something, instead of blushing or just laughing, Cagalli would return the joke with something equally witty.

Fllay really was starting to resent the other girl. It was like she was slowly being replaced. After placing the last bundle of crops in the wagon, Fllay walked behind Cagalli and Kira back to the main farmhouse located towards the north.

And Fllay's day just got worse from that point on. When they had reached the main farm, Kira's uncle had seemed really surprised to see Fllay there. He had even gone as far as to ask her if she had needed anything.

Fllay was certainly upset. Had he not seen Fllay helping with the harvest? It seemed unlikely because she had been working all day, but she had a sneaking suspicion that is wasn't so much as Kira's uncle not noticing she was there, but his way of politely asking her to leave. That had caused a burning feeling in her gut. While she had to admit that she was not as good as Cagalli at actually harvesting the crops, she had tried her very best.

As she was silently excusing herself from the farm, she turned to Kira and tried to see if he had wanted her to stay. Part of her wanted to see him squirm for not defending her against his uncle, another part wanted him to comfort her and tell her that everything was still as it should be. When Kira did not turn to meet her gaze, Fllay felt her temper flare.

Instead of coming to her defense, as any fiancé should, Kira merely waved good bye to her and turned back to Cagalli with a soft blush on his cheeks.

Sometimes you can just feel the turning point of an event coming. And stopping it is like trying to capture grains of sand with your hand. The harder you squeeze, the fast it flows away from you.

I guess that's what hurts humanity the most. Knowing that something is coming, and unable to stop it. Knowing that you can't save anyone. I guess that's why so many of those that you called seers, the ones with second sight, take their lives.

The guilt builds up like a dam. Knowing that you could have done something, but not knowing what that thing was, just like that bittersweet sting of knowing that you forgot something, but never knowing what that is.

You ask: then why people say 'knowledge is power'? And you would be right. Knowledge is not power. Only the ignorant and prideful scholars think that. Knowledge is like the individual feathers of a bird's wing, but the ability to use this knowledge that is the wing and air that allows flight.

Darn…it's really to write a fic consistently after leaving it for so long…LOL.