Chapter Four: You Had Me From Hello

Matt stood staring back at Emily, his heart beating a thousand times a minute.

"Matt, how did...what are...," Emily started but no coherent words would come out of her mouth.

"Emily, can I come in, we need to talk," Matt said.

"I don't...I can't...sure," Emily said, giving in to trying to form words.

Matt walked in and sat down on the chair, opposite the bed. He rubbed his hands together nervously before he looked up to begin talking.

Emily loved how when Matt was nervous, he would rub his hands together. He always looked deep in thought.

"Em, I don't know how we got so far off course. This, this is not how I saw our relationship going. I never wanted this, not really," Matt said, as he ran his hand through his hair.

"If you didn't want it like this, then why did you end it," Emily said, her anger growing.

"Because of my stupid pride. I wanted you to be with me, and when you weren't, it hurt," Matt said, as he got up and started to pace.

"You were hurt, you. How do you think I felt. Do you think I felt good?" Emily said, nearly screaming at him.

"No, I never said that, you asked me why I did it. Not that it's a good reason, but it's the truth," Matt said, as he quickly swiped at his eyes.

"Look, this just isn't going to work. I'm going to talk to Cheryl about resigning me to New York. We need distance and lots of it," Emily said, as she sat down on the bed, her back to Matt.

He looked down at the stereo that was sitting in front of him. It had been driving him crazy, all the songs that reminded him of Emily, but now that's what he needed. He switched it on, and tears immeditately hit the back of his eyes, as his eyes met Emily's. It was there song, it just happened to be the song that was playing the first time they made love. It also happened to be a song that fit them, and they're relationship so well.

"Em, dance with me," Matt said.

"Dance with you?" Emily questioned completely confused. Matt didn't dance, he hadn't even asked her to dance once since they'd been together.

"Yes, please," he all but begged.

"Fine," Emily threw her hands up in defeat.

Matt grabbed her hand in his, and placed his other one, on her hip, as he pulled her into his body. His mind going back to the first time they had heard this song together.

Beginning of Flashback

"Matt, maybe we shouldn't have," Emily said, as they're breathing slowed.

"Em, it was bound to happen. Your hot, I'm hot, it's like we're two peas in a pod," Matt said, earning a smile, and a smack.

"It's just, what if Cheryl finds out," Emily said, finding comfort, in beening held in Matt's strong arms.

"She won't we'll keep it between us," Matt said, as he flipped on the stereo.

One word, that's all was said
Something in your voice called me, turned my head
Your smile captured me, you were in my future as far as I could see
And I don't know how it happened, but it happens still
You ask me if I love you, if I always will

Well, you had me from 'Hello'
I felt love start to grow the moment I looked into your eyes
You won me, it was over from the start
You completely stole my heart, and now you won't let go
I never even had a chance you know
You had me from "Hello"

Matt instantly knew that this song would signify the bond between the two of them. No matter how much they said it was just sex, the night before, Matt knew it was so much more than that.

End of Flashback

Emily shifted herself just a little bit in his arms. It felt so good to be held by him again. Her body had ached the night before, from lack of his touch. Her mind took her back to they're first night together.

Beginning of Flashback

"Matt I'm not in the mood for music," Emily whined, before she heard the words.

"Oh, well then I guess I know what your in the mood for," Matt said, as he assualted her body with kisses.

Emily sat completely still under him, letting the song truly sink in. As a tear fell from her eye, she knew this song would remind her of the love she felt in her heart for Matt Flannery.

Inside I built a wall so high around my heart, I thought I'd never fall
One touch, you brought it down
Bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground
And I swore to me that I wasn't going to love again
The last time was the last time I'd let someone in

Well, you had me from 'Hello'
I felt love start to grow the moment I looked into your eyes
You won me, it was over from the start
You completely stole my heart, and now you wont let go
I never even had a chance you know
You had me from 'Hello'

End of Flashback

Emily pulled back from his embrace, as tears trickled slowly down her face. She just wanted him to leave, and take all her heart ache with him.

Matt placed his finger on her cheek, and caressed away some of the tears. He gave her a weak smile, before pulling her in a soft passionate kiss. At first Emily pulled away, before giving in. Matt ran his tongue along Emily's bottom lip, asking for premission to enter. She hestiated, but soon gave him the permission he was seeking. They let they're tongues explore each others mouths, as if they'd never kissed before. After a few minutes they both pulled away, both equally breathless.

"Matt I can't do this," Emily finally said, opening her hotel room door.

Matt sat down in the chair, refusing to go. Tears streaming down his face, he refused to lose her. He refused to give in.

"Matt please," Emily begged him.

"No, I won't let you decide both of our futures. I know we can work this out. We have to. I cannot survive without you. I can't live without you," Matt said.

Emily's heart broke all over again. She hated seeing what she was doing to him. She just didn't think she was willing, or that she could give him her heart again. She was to afraid he'd break it again.

"Em, please," Matt said, his head falling into his hands.

"Matt I just," Emily started but Matt intrrupted her.

"I won't hear that you can't do it. You can, I promise you that I will do everything humanly possible to protect your heart," Matt said, tears falling faster by the minute.

"I'm sorry, I just can't," Emily said.

Matt felt his stomach churn, as bile rose up into his throat. He couldn't take this, he couldn't let her give up on them. He got up and walked in the bathroom, and puked. Then he sat down on the toilet, what had he done that couldn't be fixed. He asked himself over and over again.