Dedications: Kuroytos, ashley the twisted, purple-ducks

I really don't have anything to say xD The song that's used is Crush by David... I'm not going to TRY with his last name XD

Dedcated to: purple-ducks

CHAPTER FIVE:

.:~**~:. Kyoya's POV .:~**~:.

For a week everything has been havoc.

For a week I've been helping Kaoru with his homework.

For a week my father has been beating me every chance he gets.

For a week I've been watching Kaoru from the corner of my eye, hoping to catch him.

For a week my sister has been worried about my actions with everything.

For a week I've sat next to Kaoru on the bus looking at him smile.

For a week I've wondered how the soft lips would feel on mine.

For a week I've admired Kaoru in all of his glory.

For a week I've admitted to myself,

That I like Kaoru.

I looked up at my ceiling. For some reason the new found strength I have keeps me from breaking down. I've held my ground much better that I used to. It was much easier to not cry when my father hits me. No one outside my family knows that he hurts me but every time I keep in my tears I feel like Kaoru would smile at me for being so brave.

Sometimes I want to tell him but what would I expect him to say?

I didn't want to tell him because I wanted him to pity me. I didn't want to tell him because I wanted him to do something. I didn't know why I wanted to tell him so badly... Maybe it's like... A confirmation. To see if he really cares about me... Maybe I should tell him.. I just don't know what to say.

"KYOYA OOTORI!!" I sighed and got off my bed and walked to my dad's office.

Through everything he said I didn't pay attention. I stood there looking helpless. I'd whimper even though I knew it wasn't because I was afraid of him. It was because I knew he wanted me to fear him. If I didn't, he'd beat me harder. Trying to give me a reason to fear him.

This beating was about the fact that it costs money to buy my lunch and that was money he didn't have.

So I wasn't eating lunch at school anymore I guess...

He pinned me down and started to punch me. He was finally in the habit of not touching my face. Good. My cuts were finally healing.

When he was done, I could barely move. I knew I had a bunch of bruises.

I limped to my room when he was done with me and plopped down on my bed and groaned loudly. Tomorrow was going to be a turtle neck day...

I sighed as I ran my fingers down the handprint bruise on my neck. And whimpered slightly.

It hurt so bad.

I wouldn't dare take a day off from school though. That would just be more time for him to hurt me.

I couldn't wait for school.

.:~**~:. o(^.^)o .:~**~:.

I woke up aching horribly like always and forced myself into a dark blue turtle neck and some black slacks. It sucks because it's fall... The beginning of fall so it's still slightly hot outside. I'm going to sweat to death but I didn't mind. As long as no one saw the horrible bruises.

I limped to the bus stop and waited to get on. When the bus DID come, however, I walked strong onto it. I wouldn't want anyone thinking otherwise even though I WAS in pain.

I sat in mine and Kaoru's seat. I had to wait about, 10 minutes for him to get on. This bus ride was ridiculously long. It was close to 40 minutes. I'm surprised the bus driver doesn't quit since most of the time the bus ride is hell.

My heart was thumping wildly as I peeked out the window and saw Hikaru, Tamaki and Kaoru. I smiled inwardly.

Kaoru was wearing a pretty shade of orange. Of course, it's his favorite color after all. For once it wasn't a funny shirt but one with a collar and a pocket that rested on the left side of his chest. His hair was done like it always was and he had orange sunglasses on the top of his head with white jeans and orange shoes. He had a bunch of jelly bracelets on his wrist and he was laughing at something Tamaki said.

Speaking of Tamaki, he had a button up long sleeved pink shirt with white pants and white shoes. Somehow he looked nice in pink. It contrasted with his violet eyes.

Hikaru on the other hand was kind of angry for no reason. He was in an outfit that resembled Kaoru's greatly but instead of white jeans he had black and everything Kaoru had in orange, he had in purple. He too had jelly bracelets on his wrist.

The bus opened and I couldn't breath. I was nervous. I was shaking and then I heard him laugh. I blushed horribly and looked out the window and felt someone sit down in my seat. I looked and there Kaoru was with a smile.

"Good morning Kyoya!" He said happily and I nodded my head and he got himself situated and accidentally elbowed me and I let out a whimper and really wish I didn't.

"Are you... Okay?" He asked and then blinked. "I mean, sorry! I didn't know I hit you that hard. I wasn't trying to hit you so don't think I was!" He was rambling and it was quite cute. I smiled slightly and shook my head.

"No. It's fine. You didn't hit me that hard. Just have a bruise there is all." I said and he went to ask why. His lips moved in the formation but then grinned.

"Hey your bandage is off." He said and pulled me closer to him as he examined my cheek. I felt my cheeks heat up and pulled away from him embarrassed.

"Sorry!" He blushed and laughed nervously. "I'm not flirting with you, I was just curious to how you looked without the bandage."

I don't know what feeling my heart made. I was kind of afraid to find out though.

"... Um.. And how is that?" I asked and he smiled and pulled out his iPod.

"Very nice!" He said and I turned my head and blushed.

"Thanks... You... You look nice... But you always do... With the matching and all..." I should just shut up.

He grinned.

"Thanks. I didn't want to wear this but I was convinced by Tamaki. He said it was a chick magnet." With that he winked and I felt a lump in my throat and nodded.

"Nice..." I said and turned away from him and closed my eyes tightly.

"Wanna listen?" He asked innocently and I turned to him with a smile.

"No that's fine." I said and turned away again. Why did my heart ache so badly?

Was it because I just finally admitted to myself that I liked him to figure out he wanted a girlfriend and not a boyfriend?

Of course he wanted a girlfriend. Why wouldn't he? He's gorgeous.

"Oh... Okay..." He said and I turned to him with a smirk.

"Does it break your heart that much?" I teased and he gave me a pout.

"Please." He begged and my stomach churned and my heart sped up.

"Fine." I said shortly and he smiled and handed me a headphone and our hands touched and it felt like an electric shock. I gulped and took the headphone. I liked listening to music with him because we had to be incredibly close for the headphones to work.

I looked at him as he made a sort of confused face while deciding what song he wanted to pick. I smirked slightly and his face lit up and he clicked the center button.

"Sorry, I love this song!" He said happily.

I hung up the phone tonight

Something happened for the first time

Deep inside

It was a rush

What a rush

'Cause the possibility

That you would ever feel the same way

About me

It's just to much

Just to much

Why do I keep running from the truth

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized

So mesmerized

And I've just got to know

Do you ever think

When you're all alone

All that we could be?

Where this thing could go?

Am I crazy or falling in love?

Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch your breath

When I look at you?

Are you holding back

Like the way I do?

'cause I'm trying, trying to walk away

But I know this crush ain't going

Away

Going Away

My heart started thudding harder. Why did he have to pick this song? It matched my situation perfectly.

I looked at Kaoru as he mouthed the words to the song.

Kiss him.

A voice in my head told me and I closed my eyes tightly and just listened to song by song. Each one was about love in some way and it was tearing me apart. Every time I looked at him, my heart would ache as I glimpsed at his lips move in perfect synch to the song. I wanted to kiss those perfect lips. I knew I couldn't though.

Chick magnet.

That is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard. But somehow I wanted him more. He looked so cute and I decided to start a conversation and I took out the ear piece and he paused the music and looked at me.

"What's up?" He asked and I quickly pointed to the bracelets.

"Do those have a meaning?" I asked and he chuckled and held out his wrist.

"You have to do something to the person depending on what color bracelet you break off. Like... Say... Tamaki breaks off Hikaru's black bracelet. Black means sex. So Tamaki would have to have sex with Hikaru." Kaoru explained and I chuckled.

"Interesting concept." I admitted and he nodded and grinned as he held out his wrist.

"Wanna break one off?" He asked and my face flushed.

"Um... Okay but I'm not picking black." No matter how much I want to...

"Okay." He closed his eyes and I turned away and grabbed on and ripped it off.

Kaoru opened his eyes and looked at the broken bracelet in my hands.

"You got yellow!" He said grinning and I looked at the yellow bracelet.

"What does that mean?" I asked and he grinned.

"A hug!" With that he hugged me tightly. I wanted to like that moment but it hurt so I tensed up.

"Something wrong?" I he asked and I quickly shook my head.

"Say!" Hikaru sat on Kaoru's lap. "We're having our super awesome sleepover party this weekend. Wanna go?" He asked and I looked at Kaoru who grinned widely.

"You should come!" He said excitedly and I gulped.

"I uhh... I g-guess I could ask." I was shaking, literally. I was not looking forward to asking my dad. That would not go well.

"Awesome!"

.:~**~:. o(^.^)o .:~**~:.

I got home from school and played with the broken bracelet that was in my hands. I knew this wasn't going to go well but I needed to try. Tomorrow was Friday and I would be able to sleep over Kaoru's house. It would be great.

Oddly my body has gotten used to being bruised so much they fade away quicker than I expected.

My heart was pounding as I knocked on his door.

"Come in." His voice boomed and I opened the door and looked at him.

"Excuse me, father. I'm terribly so--"

"Get on with it!" He snapped and I nodded.

"I was invited to sleep over someone's house this weekend and I was wondering if I could.. Go?" I was shaking horribly. It was like asking Hikaru a simple math problem knowing that if he got it wrong you'd die a horrible death.

"...." He was thinking. That was weird. "What time?"

"I would get off the bus at his house, he said his mom could drop me off whenever you wanted me to and that it wasn't a problem." I answered quickly and he looked up.

"I want you home Sunday at 6 o'clock sharp. Your grandmother is coming for dinner." He said and I nodded.

"PM?" I asked and he nodded and I smiled widely. "Thank you father." I bowed a few times and rushed out of the room. I couldn't believe it. I was shaking I was so happy. I could go!

I quickly rushed to my room and pulled out my cell phone.

Kaoru entered his number with a heart next to it because he said I loved him the most and he was special-er. Then Hikaru said "Yeah special in the head" and Tamaki said "Aw, Hikaru thinks he's Kaoru talking to Hikaru!" And yeah I'm ranting but that's just because I was incredibly happy.

I clicked send and I was never so nervous for someone to answer their phone, ever.

"Hallo?" Kaoru's voice answered then giggled and whined. "Stop Hikaru! That tickles. Tamaki! Get Hikaru out of my room!"

"But I love you so much! Please have my children!" Hikaru said and screamed out "No!!" I'm guessing that was when Tamaki dragged him away.

"Sorry, hello?" My throat was dry.

"Heh. Hi." That was pathetic. I should just shoot myself now.

"Kyoya! Yo! Wassap homie g skillet biscuit on a roll with butter and cream cheese with some pickles... Mmm pickles... I like spicy food." I blinked at the randomness of Kaoru and raised my eyebrow. "Don't raise your eyebrow at me!"

"How did you...?" I looked around my room.

"No I don't have any cameras in your room. I just know you so well because I'm the amazing Buddhist panda." He said completely seriously and I cracked a smile. "Anyhoodle, so, can you come?!"

"Surprisingly, yes. I can." I said and he giggled.

"Sweet! So you're sleeping over till Saturday or Sunday?" Kaoru asked and I smiled.

"My dad said yes to Sunday if you don't mind." I said and I could hear him jump off his bed.

"MA!!" He yelled.

"What is it sweetie?" I heard his mom's voice in the background.

"Kyoya is coming over and sleeping over!" He called out and I blushed.

He didn't tell his mom? He didn't ASK his mom?

"Okay. When do I have to bring him home?" She asked and I blinked. If I TOLD my dad that a friend was coming over, not ASK but TELL, he would kill me.

"Hold up!.. Kyoya what time is she bringing you home?" Kaoru asked and I blushed darker.

"Well... My dad wants me home at 6---"

"5:50!" Kaoru called out and I smirked.

"Thank you Kaoru." I said and heard him laugh cutely.

"Thank you for what?" He asked. There were tons of things I could've said.

Thank you for being my friend.

Thank you for being there for me.

Thank you for giving me a hug.

Thank you for being my FIRST friend.

But I just looked away.

"Thanks for inviting me over."

I looked down.

d'awww D: poor Kyoya. When will he tell Kaoru?? :[

Mkay, remember, 100 is my goal! ^.^