What can I say? Work has kept me terribly busy lately, and well, I spent the long weekend at the summer house celebrating the Midsummer, but I am doing my best with this story. Hope you are still enjoying it.

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It was like a slap to her face.

The spoken words slowly reaching her mind, her brain registering the meaning, and suddenly she felt even worse. The sudden wave of nausea made her close her eyes and she felt hard to breathe.

"Sam?" Janet´s voice was soft, worried.

She heard the concern on her friend´s voice, but she didn´t reply. The infirmary where she was sitting instead of the nice Italian restaurant where they had planned to be, seemed suddenly colder and she shivered slightly.

"Sam?" Janet tried again, reaching to touch her arm to get her attention. "Did you hear what I said?"

Had she heard her? Her life had shattered into a million pieces in the seconds she had heard the words.

"Yeah." She replied weakly, finally lifting her eyes up to look at her. "Are you sure about this?"

The doctor nodded her head. "I checked it twice. I´m sure."

"Oh god."

"You´re acting like you just got word of your impending death, Sam."

"Same thing."

"Hardly." Janet smiled softly. "It´s not all bad news, you know."

Sam felt suddenly very tired. "I don´t understand how this could happen."

Her life being what it was, hectic, classified from most parts; long days at the base, long stays off-world. Her father was sharing his body with an alien for crying out loud. Their constant fight for the safety of the Earth. Their enemies who wanted wipe out the planet and even more, if possible, wanted to punish them for stopping them for doing that, every god damn time.

How could she have time to find a time for a relationship? And it wasn´t just the time. She would make time if needed. But her feelings for the man she was not allowed to love had always been too strong to give anyone else even a slightest chance.

She had loved Jack ONeill for so long that she could barely remember the time when he was not a part of her life. Years had been wasted, not ever really even given a chance for what could have been.

Not until now.

And she regretted nothing in her life, except for the time they had lost while waiting. But she knew she would do it all over again. She would wait for him for eternity.

"Sam I know you are confused and scared about all this." Janet started softly, interrupting her thoughts about her life. "Remember that everything is confidential, you don´t have to worry about that now."

"I know, Janet."

"And as your friend I dare to ask," Janet continued carefully. "Isn´t this something you have always wanted?" She asked, remembering the nights they had spent talking about life and love.

It really was, wasn´t it. A little baby.

"But I don´t understand how this could be happening." Sam sighed, confused because of all the mixed feelings.

"Okay, listen. I´ll tell you something and you promise you won´t interrupt me..."

"Now why would I..."

Janet raised a hand to stop her, a soft smile playing on her lips. "Ah, Sam."

"Fine."

"I didn´t tell you this before because I thought it would be best for you to figure it out by yourselves. You and the colonel I mean." She started softly before telling her how the mind sometimes protected the person, allowing the memories to be forgotten. The bad, and good, memories of what had happened weeks ago when they had been captured. "I think something happened between you and the colonel." She finished.

"Janet." Sam sighed, her voice mixed with sadness and frustration of not knowing.

"Listen, Sam, when Jacob beamed you into the ship, the colonel was holding your hand tightly, refusing to let you go. He was worried about you, more than usual. And that´s not all. I found some marks on your breasts and legs, ones that are often connected to a rough sex or rape. And I doubt you were raped, Sam."

Carter shook her head. "No." She whispered, the memories flooding back into her mind. The nauseous feeling returned as well as it all came back to her slowly.

"I know this is not what you expected to hear. I wasn´t even sure that telling you would bring back the memories, but a human mind is complicated. We still don´t know everything about it. And I can´t be one hundred percent sure about this without making a few more tests."

Her friend only nodded her head. She actually didn´t care that much that very moment. Most of the doctor´s words went unheard as she explained how it worked.

Jack´s baby. What if he didn´t want another child? But he probably did. He had been a great father to Charlie, and he would be a great father to their unborn child, she knew that. But she was afraid to let herself think that everything would be fine just like that. With them, it was always so much more complicated.

"It´s okay, Sam." Janet touched her arm gently to make her look at her. "We´ll work this out. You don´t have to decide anything just yet. We´ll wait for the test results and figure this out. I´m here for you, as your doctor of course, but more importantly, as your friend." Janet said softly. "And Sam, whatever happened between you and Jack, it´s not a surprise, not for us. Your feelings for each other..." She trailed off, knowing she had said enough.

"Thanks, Janet."

"Now, you understand that I have to take you from the field. I will brief General Hammond about this later if you want to be there as well."

"Yeah, I think I have to."

"But for now, I want you to go home. Try to sleep. I know you have lot of thinking about, but at least try to rest a little. Come back tomorrow morning, I´ll try to get the results back by then."

Sam slid off from the medical bed and reached to take her coat. "I have to tell him soon." She said softly.

"Yes you do."

"Yeah." Sam sighed before giving her friend a soft smile. "Thanks, Janet, for everything."

"Everything will be fine." Janet promised softly.

"I hope so."

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