Nathan interlocked his fingers, put his hands on top of his head, and looked up at the ceiling, "not again," he said frustrated.

"Dude, I think she wants you to follow her this time," Lucas said.

"Why would you say that," Nathan asked looking down at him.

"Because she's standing outside doing that cross arms foot tap thing she does when she's waiting," Lucas said pointing out to Haley.

Nathan quickly walked out of the café. Haley started walking staring straight ahead, "what do you want from me?"

"Well for starters could you slow down? I can't walk that fast remember my foot," he said.

"Sorry," she said as she slowed down.

"I'd like for you to be able to look at me Hales," he said with hurt in his voice.

"I can't," she said instantly.

"I know," he said, "it hurts you too much. You look at me and all you can see is how I almost cost you Keith. I get it Lucas told me. I wish I could take it all back for you, for Keith, for all of us Hale—,"

She stopped walking as she interrupted him, "it's not that Nathan," she said as he stopped and turned to face her. Staring at the ground she continued, "it's not. For a long time I thought it was, at first, when you first held Keith that day it did hurt too much, but I don't think it's been that for a long time now. I just didn't realize it until last night. It's not because of what I could have lost, it's because…" she paused. He reached out and took her hand and she let him. She continued to look down, "it's because of what I did lose," she finished as she fell into his arms and cried. Nathan didn't say anything he just held her as tears formed in his own eyes. He stroked her hair and looked up; neither of them had been paying attention to where they were walking. They had ended up at their stone table, the one she had been to the night before.

When she was done crying he released her. She looked up at him for a split second still neither spoke a word. They headed back to the café in silence. All this talking had reminded Nathan of a moment from their past.

It was the end of summer before their senior year. Nathan had just returned from High Flyers, he and Haley weren't exactly together. Brooke was throwing a massive end of summer party on the beach. Peyton had just walked away from Haley as Nathan approached her. "Hey, can I talk to you," he said to her. She nodded and started to walk with him. "Wanted to say I'm sorry. I should have told you I was back in town."

"It's ok," she said to him.

"Not really," he said back. "Look I've been avoiding you because I'm still mad, Haley, about everything." He looked her in the eyes then looked at the ground. "I don't see that changing anytime soon." He paused, "You know the last two times I came to the beach? For our wedding and to burn the wedding wall."

"So that's what happened to it," she said to him sounding a little sad and a little concerned.

"First I broke it in half with the keyboard I bought you and then I burned it," he paused and looked at her, she was looking out to the water, "sorry."

"Nathan," she said as she grabbed her forehead and he turned to look at her. "I need to ask you something and I really don't want you to take it the wrong way but," she paused and they both stopped walking he looked at her curiously, "I need to know what you want from me, or from us," she asked looking away. She paused for a split second and looked him in the eyes and fumbled with the words, "where are we now?"

"I don't know," he answered shrugging his shoulders.

She looked at him sad and confused, "what do you want us to be?"

He shrugged again, "I don't know, Haley, I can't answer that right now."

"I can," she exclaimed. "I want us to be together!"

"Why?" She looked hurt and shocked when he said that. "I mean we are so far away from who we used to be," he said putting his arms out to his side "why even fight for it," he asked as he shrugged.

"Because I love you," she said in a simple as that way.

He sighed and looked away. "Well listen…" he sighed again, "basketball season's coming up and I'm," he paused, "I'm gonna concentrate on that, so you should do you're thing whatever it is, school, music, something other than me. Because I really don't know when I'm gonna be ready for us again," he paused again, "or even if I'll be ready for us at all."

"Nathan, don't say that, God," Haley said as she brought her hands up to her head closed her eyes and ran her fingers through her hair and looked away.

"Haley, I'm not saying it to be mean, ok, I don't," he paused, "I don't like hurting you," he paused again, "I'm just trying to be honest." He stared at her waiting for her to look at him. When she didn't he said, "I'm gonna head back… alright," and started to walk away.

She waited a few seconds, closed her eyes, sighed and with her back to his as he walked away she said, "Nathan," they both turned to look at each other for a moment, "I'm not going anywhere."

He kind of nodded, "ok," and turned and walked away.

Haley headed for the door of the café as Nathan stopped, "Haley." She turned and looked at him. "I'm not going anywhere," he says.

She kind of nods, "ok," she turns to go into the café.