In the dark where I can't see anything besides the shadows surrounding me I sat

In the dark where I can't see anything besides the shadows surrounding me I sat. Not shouting out for help nor crying, just sitting there waiting for my life to end. It felt as though all the happiness inside of me had vanished and left was just an old dirty body that could no longer move. If I still had the will then there would still be no way for me to see the light ever again, still it's wasn't as though I knew what the light was like. Actually, I quite sure that I still haven't seen the light, the sun can warm me but still there is only darkness that I see. That day, the day that I had been sitting in the darkness for so long that I didn't even know how long anymore, hours, maybe days. I could dream of a man, I remember that I liked that person a lot but I just couldn't seem to remember who he was as well as everything else was as good as gone in my head. But he was there; I could see him in the dark. I waited for him and at last he came and reached out his hand, trying to pull me up, made me see my surroundings.

"Sakura!" The door to the almost deserted bathroom opened and Sakura could hear footsteps coming closer her. From that day on, I became the person who I am now. Though I don't know if it was the same as before, however, does that even make a difference?

"SAKURA!" Sakura looked up at the tall man in front of her, his long raven hair tied up as usual. That was the first time for ´me´ to meet Itachi; he saved me from a certain death. From that day on I understood that even though I didn't know this man, never kissed the man nor ever made love with him, I loved him. The man who right now, once again, came running for me in order to save me from this darkness in my thoughts. For whenever he is around, let it be a storm or doom day, when he's around my skies are clear as well as the sun shines through this metal armor around me.

"Itachi…" Sakura mumbled as he hurried towards her. "Why am I crying…? Why does everything I do go wrong?"

Itachi bent down in front if Sakura, her eyes didn't have any life, was she that broken? "Sakura… listen to me, every thing's fine. Nothing has happened". However, Itachis words didn't seem to reach her as she was only aware of his presence.

"As soon as everything seems fine, another obstacle turns up and makes me fall back to the ground. Why, why am I cursed in this horrible way that I even seem to forget what's dear to me?" Sakura continued.

"Sakura, if you're going to continue like this… it's just not like you. Where's that girl who liked to kill people just for the fun of it or irritate me when you where bored. Right now you're acting as if you are the only one that things happen to, look at the people around you, everyone has troubles, not just you." Itachi said, he didn't mean for it to sound as harsh as it did. But it somehow seemed to make her listen to him at last. "I said that I can't come to your rescue every time something happens, so please try to stand up and stare at your troubles with the same glare you gave Kisame before he got himself killed!"

Sakura starred up at Itachi, he was serious.

"No matter what situation… A shinobi must keep emotions inside. You must make your mission you top priority and you must possess a heart that never shows tears. "

"I am a shinobi… that way I should have no emotions at all. Complete the mission, even if it means losing everything dear." Sakura said and wiped away her tears. "I won't cry, I'm strong enough to do the impossible and the possible. But even though I just said that doesn't mean that I'll live up to it by all means."

Itachi and Sakura gazed at each other, both not wanting to admit that the other was right. After some time Itachi turned around and started walking away.

"You know… Maybe you're right... I don't mean that I was wrong or anything, I can do what I want but… thanks, I guess." Sakura said almost in a silent mumble. Though it seems Itachi heard her very clearly as he nodded and walked out of the bathroom. Sakura was pissed that these kinds of things always happened now, getting depressed and then Itachi comes to cheer her up. Why would she always have these breakdowns?

However, as soon as Sakura saw Itachi exit the bathroom she felt this huge clump in her chest once again. That hateful feeling of sadness and failure. How was he always able to make her feel so much better whenever things brought her down?

Sakura stood up and forcibly made her way towards the bathroom door. As she stood there starring at the wooden door she knew that the people outside of it where going to make her sick. Even if they had that disgusted aura around them or not, the students in this school just didn't seem human anymore. Just by hearing their voices, Sakura just wanted to run away again. Though this time she had already decided that she would stand her ground, nothing would make her run away, she was a shinobi, not a coward.

Sakura gathered her strength and opened the bathroom door, the voices became higher as she walked out from the bathroom. Times have been worse than this, times when she has been so close to death that she could swear that she would never be able to see the world again. She has also killed so many people that one couldn't see the ground any longer, still something like this would mess up her feeling so extremely.

Maybe she was just paranoid but if felt that people were starring at her more than usual right as she walked past them. She was walking towards the front gate, she just wanted to get some fresh air for a change without a bunch of people disturbing her. Though it really seemed impossible as people just didn't seem to want to leave her alone, Sakura almost had to close her eyes in order to get them out of her mind. However, then Sakura could more clearly hear them all whisper. She wanted to be back in Japan together with everyone that likes and hated her. Anything but this place were she actually wanted to kill students who haven't done her any harm at all. Sakura could get out a kunai and kill everyone in this corridor in a flash but what would she gain from that? There would be a huge commotion and higher up wizards would cause some trouble, her mission was also to gain some hidden secrets and information about the wizarding world that was hard enough itself. Then kill Harry, though it would be quite easier to kill him after gaining the information.

As Sakura at last gets out from the castle with it's students she goes to the black lake and sits down on the sloping lawn that had a strong summer-green colour. The grass was short as if it was newly cut by someone, however, Sakura doubted that someone had taken their time to cut it all themselves without some help from magic. There was so much in this word that Sakura just didn't understand at all, no one seemed to do thing themselves if it wasn't for some punishment. Will they just live that way for the rest of their lives, shouldn't they become really lazy after a while?

Sakura leaned down on the grass and looked up at the countless fluffy clouds in the light blue sky. Peaceful, yes that was the right word to explain that moment, this was all she needed to get her mind off the things that made her upset. A easy and calm life would be quite nice to have for a change.

But a calm life wouldn't be so fun, what's so good in lying here and starring at some stupid clouds?

Maybe... I'm like this because nothing has happened in a while! All I have been doing is hitting a tree and studying to a test that I don't even have any use of... I haven't been in a real fight in ages! Sakura thought and stood up with confidence. What use was fresh air when you could feel the sent of blood and feel how tension fires up ones soul. She just had to fight someone and she knew exactly who her victim would be.

Hermione was sitting in the great hall studying with a great smile on her face, everything had gone as planned. Putting that spell on most students in the Gryffindor common room, now Sakura wouldn't be in her way any longer. Well if was her own fault for being so stubborn in destroying Hermiones happiness. Though Hermione didn't dare put that short time spell on Harry and the others in case something went wrong. However, that wasn't a big problem at all, Hermione was their closest friend!

"Hermione? I didn't think I would see you here, and studying for that matter. I thought you would be searching for banned spells in the library as usual." Hermione looked up only to find Sakura standing there smiling down at her.

"How-"

"Students talk... You should be more careful when doing those kinds of things." Sakura said interrupting her. Hermione frowned, she didn't think anyone had noticed her as she had borrowed those books in the library.

"What do you want?"

"Oh that's what I would like to as you! Why the hell did you suddenly decide that you want to destroy my freaking life for your own benefits? That's just sick..."Sakura said with a disgusted tone in her voice.

"You're the sick one here! You destroyed my life first so I have all right to destroy yours now!"

"What the hell are you talking about?! I never meant to make your angry, all I wanted was to be your friend! Is that too much to ask for?!" Sakura almost shouted out. There wasn't many people in the great hall because most people were at their classes or studying in the library or their common room. However, the few students in the great hall and the students passing by all stopped with what they were doing in order to see what the commotion was all about. When they saw that it was Sakura and Hermione again the most of them stopped to see the rest in interest of how it would end, as the last fight didn't finish.

"Before you came here I was happy! I had friends, now look at me!! You took it all away from me-"

"I didn't take it all away from you! I wanted to be your friend too but you were the one who walked away! It wasn't my fault that you decided to not be friends with us!"

"I was your fault that because you moved here!" Hermoine shouted out, Sakura had gotten her really angry. Sakura was now smiling inside, this feeling of hatred brought back memories of the good old times and this time no one would be able to stop her in killing this bitch. Hermione stood up and drew her wand as she pointed it at Sakura, her eyes where serious.

"What are you going to do with a stupid stick, poke me with it? Lets have a real fist fight without using any magic."

"Do you think I'm stupid? I'm not agreeing with that, you'll only use some lousy trick."

"Well yes I do believe that you are truly stupid and I'm not going to use any dirty trick if you don't." Sakura said and grabbed Hermiones wand before she could even blink and tossed it away together with her own wand.

Hermione gasped as she saw her wand almost breaking is the process "Give that back!" she yelled.

"no..." Sakura said with a sadistic smile on her pale face.

"Stop this right away!" Harry said as he and the others came running into the great hall. Fuck... I can't do anything against him. He even had his wand out so Sakura backed away from Hermione.

"Don't get yourself into this Harry, this isn't about you..." Sakura said with a frown. Why did everyone try to destroy her time of fun.

"She's right, this is about us two but I think we should make it a proper duel with wands." Hermione said in her usual in-a-matter-of-fact tone.

"Why? Think that you'll lose otherwise?" Sakura asked, Harry glaring at both of them.

"Stop this both of you or I'll call a professor over!" Harry said making Hermione flinch, she didn't want a professor involved in this.

"I don't care, I just want to beat the crap out of this sissy girl that's standing right in front of me." Sakura said but Hermione didn't seem to care about what Sakura said any more. She quickly got her wand and picked up her schoolbooks that were still on the table. She gave Sakura a last death-glare before dashing out from the great hall.

Sakura stood there in the middle of the crowd with Harry and Ron,who by the way just looked kind of confused. "What are you starring at? Go do something that concerns you instead..." Sakura said with deadly venom in her words making people quickly go away except Harry and Ron who both looked at her with disappointment before also exiting the great hall. Soon Sakura stood there alone in silence.

A/N: Once again, I'm so sorry that it's sooooo late!! I didn't mean to... I lost a paper that I have written down everything that's going to happen until chapter 16 and found it a couple of hours ago. So this could have been out several weeks ago if I didn't lose it! I'm a bad person. But here I am with a new chapter for all of you who follow this story of mine.

Ok so I could have made it longer but I seriously have to start with some cramming for some tests so that I can write finished my other story tonight and start with chapter 14 of this story as soon as tomorrow!

Well another reason for this chapter being so late may be because I have gotten myself a life!! I mean seriously, I don't sit in front of my computer 14/7... That's kind of cool.

Please leave a review and I may upload next chapter even faster than in 3days.

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Neko-chan