It's the most wonderful time of the year! Its Christmas time again and this will make my third Christmas fic for Legal Drug. I've come a long way since that first story, don't you think? Anyway this story isn't all about the sex, I've added some highs and lows and tried show you how much these characters have grown since I first started writing for them. But don't worry - it's still has some sexy scenes too!
Have fun and enjoy my latest creation!
Joy and Peaceful Kisses
Kazahaya was humming Christmas carols as he walked down the sidewalk. He was in a really good mood. Thanksgiving had been wonderful and the time with Rikuo, Saiga and Kakei had been almost perfect since then. Next week was Christmas and they still had New Year's to look forward to. Their shopping was basically done but both he and Rikuo still had things to buy.
He stopped to stare at display of toy trains. There were so many things he hadn't got to play with growing up he thought but then remembered that no one had had every toy. Kazahaya sighed and continued walking. Rikuo had suggested they split up to do their shopping so he knew his lover was planning to surprise him with something. Kazahaya had no idea what Rikuo was going to get so he was a bit stumped what to get him in return. They also needed some stocking stuffers so Kazahaya decided to concentrate on buying those and maybe he'd find something special to give to Rikuo.
Kazahaya exhaled and grinned to see his breath in the cold air. He hoped they got some snow. He'd love to play in the snow with Rikuo. In front of him there was a crowd of people looking in a store window so Kazahaya decided to see what was up. It was a game store. There were video games, board games, role playing games and even some magic kits. Charmed, Kazahaya decided to check it out. Sometimes the four of them would play board games; maybe he could find something new.
Wide eyed, Kazahaya saw many things he'd like to take home. He went down each isle looking. Kakei had told him to be careful with his money so instead of snatching up everything he saw, Kazahaya decided to look at everything first before making a decision. He'd walked the entire store and was about to go make his choices when some laughter caught his attention. It wasn't Rikuo but the tone sounded like Rikuo when he was sexually aroused. Curious, Kazahaya turned to see a curtain with a sign that said 'Adults Only.' He was legal – Kazahaya went beyond the curtain.
Kazahaya's mood had already been high, now it was reaching for the stars. The bag of gifts thumped against his thigh and he grinned thinking of his family's reaction to them. Suddenly he began to sing out loud causing the people around him to stare but his joy was so obvious that they couldn't help but smile with him.
He began to look for Rikuo, walking with the crowd and followed them around the corner. Kazahaya was singing White Christmas when something wet touched his cheek. He stopped and looked up. Another snowflake drifted down and landed on his nose. If it were possible, his smile grew larger. "Snow! All right! Snow! Merry Christmas everyone!" He laughed and did a little dance enticing some kids to join him.
Kazahaya ran down the street laughing as the snow got thicker. He crossed the street and watched some kids trying to make snowballs but there wasn't enough snow yet. A sigh of contentment left him as he walked towards home. He still hadn't caught sight of Rikuo, he must still be shopping. As he walked he came upon some trees whose branches were dressing up in white blankets and a chill shook his soul.
Blinking Kazahaya wondered what was going on. He tried to smile but it seemed impossible now. His limbs suddenly felt leaden with cold and he had trouble breathing. Kazahaya stumbled and reached out for the nearest tree to catch himself and it all came back.
The numbing cold and the utter helplessness saturated his mind and soul. Kazahaya wanted to collapse to the ground but he knew if he did – he would die. He was on his own. He was alone in the world. He had left Kei behind and could not count on his look-alike to be by his side anymore.
Kazahaya hugged his arms close to his body. The bag thumped heavily against him. Bag? Shopping? But he had no money and no where to live…Rikuo! Suddenly he remembered Rikuo and the store. He had a home…but why was he so cold and alone on the streets of Tokyo?
Thoughts and images flashed in his mind becoming jumbled. Distantly he heard the sounds of people laughing and talking, of cars and tires on wet streets. "Must go home." He muttered, his lips barely moving they were so cold. "But I left Kei…I can't go home…" Kazahaya began to walk not really seeing anyone or anything. He just knew he had to keep moving or he would freeze to death.
Saiga was behind the counter laughing with one of their regular customers as he bagged up some purchases. Business was great this year and they'd had steady customers all morning long. Since the boys were off today, he and Kakei had had their hands full but it had been fun. Everyone seemed to be in a festive move so it was easy to overlook how much work it really was. Right now Kakei was trying to help a new husband pick out a romantic card for his new bride. Next to the kid, Kakei was the biggest romantic he knew – the customer would leave with just the right card or a damn good idea of how to make one of his own.
Just as he was ringing up another customer, something caught his eye outside the window. The window was decorated with garland and fake snow along with some festive window clings so seeing anything clearly took a moment but with Saiga's eyesight, he could see more than the average man. Of course he'd seen the snow when it started and he'd smiled along with everyone else. Kazahaya would be tickled pink by a white Christmas and Saiga could just imagine how much fun they would have playing in it. But now he lost his smile for he saw Kazahaya but the boy looked nothing like the happy, excited, young man who'd left first thing this morning.
Saiga frowned to see wet tears streaming from the boy's eyes. Kazahaya was clutching a bag and holding his arms in a death grip. His steps were hesitant and there was no mistaking the tremor in his limbs. People on the street gave Kazahaya pitying looks and tried to stay out of the wavering teen's path. Saiga was about to go get him leaving the line of customers when seemingly without conscious thought, he headed for the store.
"Kid!" Saiga yelled at him but the teen didn't seem to hear. He was about to leave the register but suddenly there were twice as many people waiting to be checked out. His body jerked caught between wanting to go to Kazahaya and doing his job. Frantically he looked for Kakei.
Kakei had helped the new husband as was smiling with satisfaction when he heard Saiga. At first he was surprised Kazahaya was back so soon, especially because it was snowing but then Saiga's tone warned him something was wrong. Moving as quickly as possible through the crowded store, Kakei moved forward. He could see Saiga frowning mightily but Kakei did not have Saiga's height and many bodies blocked his sight. The chatter had all but stopped as Kakei forced his way through stationary bodies. Finally he reached the front of the store and felt his heart leap up his throat.
Kazahaya knelt on the floor water pooling around him. He was as pale as death and he looked as if he had nothing to live for. Ignoring the staring customers, Kakei slipped off his lab coat and tossed it about Kazahaya's shoulders. He tried in vain to get the teen to his feet, Kazahaya didn't seem to hear him - all he did was shiver violently and cry. "Saiga, please." Kakei felt panic and tears in his throat.
Saiga had already left the counter. Briefly he touched Kakei's shoulder before kneeling and scooping Kazahaya into his arms. Without a word, Saiga headed for the back of the store. Kakei cleared his throat and pasted a small smile on his face and moved behind the counter. "Sorry you had to wait. Next please." He looked up and prayed Saiga could help Kazahaya.
Kazahaya never said a word, moved or acknowledged that he was being held. Saiga figured he'd be more comfortable in his own apartment so he hurried upstairs. Once inside he took Kazahaya to his bed. He sat down with him on his lap and tried to get his attention.
"Talk to me kid; tell me what happened to you." Saiga spoke softly and held the teen's face between his hands. His skin was so cold that Saiga shivered. "God, what happened?!" Using Kakei's coat he used it to wipe Kazahaya's face.
"Cold…will die in the…cold…" Kazahaya whispered teeth chattering.
"Okay, let's get this coat off." Saiga unzipped it and struggled to get the coat off Kazahaya. The boy wasn't cooperating and his chilled body wouldn't be still and then there was the bag still clutched in Kazahaya's hand. Saiga couldn't get his fingers open; finally he broke the handles to the bag and took off Kazahaya's coat. Standing he lay him down on the bed and removed soaked shoes. "What did you do? Stand in a puddle?"
Saiga's fear was massive. Kazahaya had yet to respond to him. Lean feet were blocks of ice. Turning away he went to find some socks and he got a shock when he turned around. Fully clothed Kazahaya had pulled the covers over his head.
Saiga thought that trying to get warm was a good sign and went back to him to see if he could get Kazahaya to tell him what happened. It didn't appear that he'd been attacked or robbed but something had changed him while he'd been out. After twenty minutes, Saiga decided to let Kakei try because other than being allowed to put socks on Kazahaya's feet, the teen wouldn't come out from under the covers. Saiga covered him with another blanket then ran downstairs.
Kakei had been looking for him and excused himself from the curious customers. "What happened to him?" Kakei took Saiga's hand and they stepped just inside the storeroom.
"I don't know. He can't or won't tell me. He just mutters about being cold and dying. You go to him and I'll take care of the store. What about Rikuo? Should I call him?"
Kakei thought a moment then squeezed Saiga's hand. "No, let me try with Kazahaya first. You'd better go, they're getting restless." Kakei took the quick kiss Saiga gave him glad for the strength it gave. They separated, one going upstairs, the other to hurry shoppers on their way.
It was silent in the apartment. Kakei noticed that Saiga had turned up the heat but as he got closer to the bed, Kakei could tell it wasn't helping Kazahaya. The bed shook along with the boy's shaking body. Kakei sat on the bed and slipped a hand beneath the covers. Kazahaya was curled into a ball facing the wall so Kakei's hand came into contact with his still wet hair then touched his neck. Kazahaya's skin was icy and Kakei wondered how long he'd stayed outside in the snow. He worried if maybe the boy had hypothermia.
"Kazahaya? Come on sweetie; tell me what happened to you?" He lay down behind Kazahaya trying to warm him.
"Will…die here…so cold…" Came a shattered voice from deep under the covers.
It was Kakei's turn to be chilled. Now he knew what happened or thought he knew. This was beginning to sound very familiar. Somehow Kazahaya was reliving the time before Rikuo found him. Kakei hugged Kazahaya then got up and went to the phone.
It rang three times and a breathless Rikuo answered. "Hey!" He laughed. "It's really coming down out here, Kazahaya must be in heaven. You want me to come back? Is it that busy?"
"Rikuo…Kazahaya needs you." Kakei was sure not to sound panicked but he wanted Rikuo to take his words seriously.
Rikuo lost his smile and fear took the place of happiness. "What happened?"
"Just come home and up to the apartment, I'll explain when you arrive." Kakei said watching the bed with its shivering burden.
"I'm on my way." Rikuo slowly took the phone away from his ear then stared at it. "Kazahaya – wait for me." The phone was clutched in one hand and in his other were the presents for his family. As he ran knocking people left and right Rikuo wondered if all their Christmas plans were now over.
Kakei stood when he heard thundering steps on the stairs. He was there to meet Rikuo when the door opened. "Rikuo." He took the other's sweaty hand and led him over to the bed.
Rikuo frowned at the lump on Kazahaya's bed. "What? Where?" Then he heard a whimper and knew it was Kazahaya. "Babe? Babe, what's wrong?" He dropped his packages and like Kakei had done, got on the bed with Kazahaya. He dug beneath the covers and jumped to feel how cold Kazahaya was. He himself was cold just coming in from outside but Kazahaya's flesh was like he'd been in a freezer. Rikuo looked puzzled at Kakei.
"He came home this way, collapsed on the floor in the store. Saiga had to carry him up here but Kazahaya wouldn't talk. He hasn't said much for me either but what he did say…Rikuo remember when you first found him?"
"What you mean? When he was unconscious in the plaza?" Rikuo scooted ever closer trying to stem Kazahaya's shaking.
"I think he's remembering that time. Maybe he went to that place and touched something. It brought all his memories and hurts back to him. It's been almost an hour and he's still cold as ice."
Rikuo found Kazahaya's neck and kissed it but he didn't seem to feel it. "So how do I bring him out of it?"
"Well it's a vision and it affected him badly but still he knew to come home. Kazahaya knows he has a home here and people who love him but a part of him is still hurt by his past. Hold him Rikuo, show him he's loved and I think Kazahaya will come back to us." Kakei laid a hand on Rikuo's shoulder. "Take as much time as you need and call us if you need us. I still want us to have a great Christmas so bring him back so we can give him one, okay?" Kakei kissed them both then quietly left them alone.
Rikuo held Kazahaya for a while unsure exactly how to bring Kazahaya out of his past. There was another huge shiver and that set Rikuo into motion. "First I've got to get you warm. At this rate, you'll be in the hospital for Christmas. Don't worry babe, I'm going to take care of you." He promised but wasn't sure if Kazahaya could hear him.
Rising, Rikuo went to the closet and got out an electric blanket. He went to his own bed and plugged it in. He was sure Kazahaya's bed was wet and he'd never get warm there. Without really thinking about it, Rikuo suddenly knew what to do to help Kazahaya.
He turned on the tree. He lit gingerbread and cinnamon spice candles. He turned on the radio to a station playing nothing but Christmas music. He retrieved a towel and went back to Kazahaya. Rikuo tugged and pulled until the covers were on the floor. His heart broke to see Kazahaya in the fetal position looking as if the world had abandoned him. "I won't let you." Rikuo said as he turned Kazahaya over and with brute strength ripped off the sweater and T-shirt Kazahaya wore – both were wet with snow and sweat. "Dammit Kazahaya, I won't let your past ruin this holiday for us! Do you hear me?! I won't let you!" His words were harsh and full of feeling but his hands were as gentle as possible.
Carefully he started to unbutton Kazahaya's pants when the teen's body seemed to loosen up. He still shivered but his muscles weren't as tight. Rikuo breathed a sigh of relief. "That's right baby, you recognize my touch. I'm going take care of you." He spoke soothingly now. Rikuo pulled down pants and underwear together and off, socks lost in the legs. Even though Kazahaya was still shivering, Rikuo knew he had to get Kazahaya's hair dry so he propped up the naked boy and sat behind him. Using brisk motions he toweled the long strands until they were just damp. That would have to do.
Rikuo lay Kazahaya down again and went to his bed. He pulled back the covers and quickly stripped off his own clothing. "Okay babe, let's get warm, huh?" Rikuo picked up Kazahaya's ice cold body and carried him to his bed. Kazahaya lay face up as Rikuo slid in beside him. Up came the sheet, the blanket and then the electric blanket. Rikuo pulled Kazahaya close, trapping one lean leg between his own. Gently Rikuo closed his eyes and wiped away tears then tucked Kazahaya's face close to his chest.
He shivered, Kazahaya was so cold but Rikuo didn't let go. "Hey, Kazahaya? Remember that day we had a water balloon fight in the store? It was really hot back then, not like now huh? And we had to wear those Speedos!" Rikuo started talking about the little things and how much fun they'd had. "How about when we had that job getting the ring and you had to wear a wedding dress? It was nice but I liked you better in the first dress – that Chinese one, where you showed a bit of leg. Now that was sexy!" Rikuo stroked Kazahaya's back and slowly the cold skin began to warm.
"What about the Star Festival babe? You'd been looking forward to that but were willing to give it up just for me. You made me feel so special Kazahaya. Only you could make me feel like that. Don't you want to share that feeling with me again? Kazahaya I need you here with me…" Rikuo became aware of wetness against his chest and pulled back to wipe away more tears but he saw that Kazahaya's eyes were open and looking at him.
"I'm sorry…I got…lost…but I'm he-re n-now! IloveyouRikuo!" Kazahaya finally moved on his own and pressed himself flush against Rikuo. He was crying still but it wasn't despair that filled him but hope and relief. "It just…all came back." He spoke against Rikuo's throat. "It was snowing a-and I was s-so happy! But then…I touched a tree…I-I think it's…where you f-found mee!"
"Shh, it's okay Kazahaya. I understand. I'm just glad you found your way back home – to us, to me." Rikuo framed his face and smiled softly. "You came back because this is where you are loved." Delicately Rikuo kissed Kazahaya's trembling lips pouring his heart and soul into the light kiss.
Kazahaya could feel the last of the cold leaving his body. His hands gripped Rikuo's sides and his thigh moved ever so slightly between Rikuo's. He was becoming aroused but it was so much more than sex. Rikuo had said it, even through his pain he'd known to come home, come back to where he was loved. "Thank God…thank God for you…" Kazahaya spoke once they broke apart. He let his cheek lay softly across Rikuo's then just smoothed his face against every inch of Rikuo he could reach.
"I never forgot the pain…but because of you, Kakei and Saiga I was able to deal and move on…then suddenly I was there, in that place. I never knew where you found me but today, in the snow I was there…I touched the tree and it was like…I'd never had you…" Kazahaya hugged Rikuo closer. "…but along with the past, I could still see you and came home…I came home and you took care of me…like you always do." This time it was Kazahaya who kissed Rikuo trying to convey his gratitude.
Rikuo rolled over so that he was on top of Kazahaya. "We take care of each other, that's why we're so good together. Ah, babe, you gotta stop crying." Rikuo smiled softly and kissed away Kazahaya's tears. "Let me kiss away those bad memories." Face and neck were treated to lovely, wet kisses that moved down to sensitive nipples.
Kazahaya tossed his head back. The cold was now a forgotten memory as Rikuo's touch and body warmed him but he wanted to participate in the loving. It was as Rikuo said – they were good together. His legs moved restlessly touching Rikuo as he moved down his body. Kazahaya's hands caressed what he could hair, ears, back and shoulders. He thrust his hips up as Rikuo's tongue found his bellybutton then giggled as fingers found one of his ticklish spots. It amazed Kazahaya that just a little while ago, he was in deep despair but loving words and actions from Rikuo could make everything better.
Rikuo lifted his head wanting to see Kazahaya laugh. The crack in his heart healed. If Kazahaya was alive and happy then Rikuo could live as well. "I love you babe."
Kazahaya's chest rose and fell quickly. He could still feel the tears on his cheeks but they didn't matter anymore. He sat up forcing Rikuo back against the wall and straddled his hips. "We love each other." They stared at one another smiling then Rikuo moved so that he could physically love Kazahaya.
Two pairs of eyes stayed locked onto each other as Rikuo entered Kazahaya. They didn't speak, barely moved. Mostly they stared at each other and smiled, letting the tension build until they couldn't bear to stay still any longer. Still it was slow loving; they'd never done it like that before. Kazahaya had both arms around Rikuo's shoulders helping to raise and lower himself while Rikuo's hands and arms surrounded his back and supported his bottom. After a while, Rikuo brought one hand around Kazahaya's sweaty hip, over his belly until he found his lover's erection. "Come with me…"
"Always with you…" Kazahaya replied moving his hips forward increasing both their pleasure. He accepted the quick kiss from Rikuo with a smile then they both focused on making the moment the best it could be.
Kazahaya's mouth dropped open and he held on tighter. Rikuo grimaced and pulled Kazahaya closer. Foreheads made contact as they looked into their lover's eyes and shared the joy of being in love.
Kazahaya was asleep when Rikuo got up to call downstairs. "He's okay now. You were right, he'd been taken back to that time and it may still be hard for him but he's himself again." Rikuo heard Kakei's relief and could imagine Saiga standing behind him so that he could listen too.
"We should probably sit him down and talk it out; it may make him feel better." Kakei suggested.
"Yeah, okay but not today maybe after work tomorrow Let's give him a little time to deal with all those old feelings again."
"Sure. Okay then we'll see you guys in the morning and know we're only a phone call away if you need us." Kakei wanted to say more but it could wait.
"Hey, kiss the kid for us!" Rikuo heard Saiga yell and it made him smile.
"No problem, night guys." Rikuo hung up the phone gently. It felt good to have people around who cared. He looked to Kazahaya who was sleeping peacefully. He'd worried that maybe he would have bad dreams but no, at least not yet. Looking outside, Rikuo saw that the snow continued to fall and it was steadily growing darker but it was only early afternoon.
"Sleep babe and I'll wake you for dinner." Rikuo had gone to the bed and tucked the covers around Kazahaya's shoulders. With the lightest of touches he brushed hair out of Kazahaya's face. "You're mine now and I'm never letting you go." One finger just touched the corner of Kazahaya's mouth and he smiled in his sleep. Rikuo chuckled and felt love tug at him. Even in sleep, Kazahaya was his.
He felt awkward. They were all treating him with kid gloves. Kazahaya had volunteered to work the register just so they wouldn't baby him. Of course he'd scared them yesterday and he was very sorry for that but it had happened and there was no way to take it back. He hoped that if they saw him working hard and acting normal, it would reassure them that he was okay. But he those memories still bothered him a bit. Why had it all seemed so fresh after all this time? Had he really left that much pain there with that tree? Now that he knew where it was that he'd fallen, he would avoid it like the plague.
Kakei did watch him, he couldn't help it. Kazahaya smiled, laughed and was polite to the customers but he wasn't himself. They knew him so well and this Kazahaya was holding a part of himself back. The light in his eyes had dimmed some. Last night he and Saiga had talked about what they could do to make things better for Kazahaya and they'd come up with an idea. When he got a chance, he'd discuss it with Rikuo and get his opinion. Who knew Kazahaya better than his lover?
Saiga tried to act normally around Kazahaya by teasing and flirting with him but it felt weird. He remembered holding a devastated boy in his arms and being able to do nothing about it. The kid hadn't responded to him at all. But it wasn't as if he'd done it on purpose. Kakei's plan sounded like a good idea to him and it would give the two of them a way to reconnect with the kid. Even now Saiga couldn't seem to leave him alone as he joined Kazahaya at the register. He squeezed the boy's arm offering silent comfort and helped him to bag up a customer's things.
"I'm okay." Kazahaya told them over dinner. They'd cooked a large meal because they were all starving after working so hard. Unbelievably all that stock they'd had at Thanksgiving was almost gone now and they still Sunday and Monday to get through. "Stop worrying – I won't ruin Christmas."
"Oh Kazahaya, I never thought you would but you did have a big shock to your system. All that pain you felt before you came to us was upon you once again. Don't you think we should talk? We could help you work through it. We want to help." Kakei reached across the table and took the teen's hand.
Kazahaya could feel tears but he didn't let them fall. He held tightly to Kakei and when he had control again he looked up with a tender smile. "Thanks Kakei. Really, thanks but I don't want to talk about it. I want to leave it in the past and focus on being here with you guys, okay? Please?" Just thinking about talking about it made him hurt inside. Kazahaya did not want to go back there.
"Okay Stubborn." Saiga said with a wiry grin. "We won't bring it up again. You ready for dessert? We've got snow cream." Saiga laughed to see the kid's smile. He'd thought making snow cream would be something Kazahaya would love and he was right. "Be right back." Saiga got up and moved to get the sweet dessert.
Kakei sighed but then smiled. It seemed Kazahaya didn't want their help dealing with his past, at least not yet. Well they'd still go on with his plan and Rikuo had agreed to it as well. He hoped it worked.
Sunday was a blur of frantic customers, wrapping gifts in secret, finding time to play in the snow. Saiga worried the grocery stores would be out some things he needed for Christmas dinner and rushed out to do some shopping. Kakei had already begun checking inventory for after Christmas leaving the boys to running the store and keeping it clean since there was so much slush from the falling snow.
Christmas Eve dawned cold and cloudy but with the city blanketed in snow it was a beauty to behold. Kazahaya woke everyone at five in the morning. He bullied them until they all got up and went outside to play. Just a block away, a park full of untouched snow awaited them.
Kakei stopped stunned by the cold wet stuff that had just exploded in his face. He heard hilarious laughter as he cleared the snow from his mouth and nose. "All right you're in for it now!" He bent down to make a huge ball only to get hit two more times. "Ahhhh!" He chased down the nearest body and Rikuo hit the snow with Kakei on top. Now in a power position, Kakei with glee, stuffed snow in Rikuo's face and inside his shirt.
"Shittttt! That's cold!" He roared but didn't have time to retaliate because Kakei, killing himself laughing was already gone. Seeing Kazahaya bent over laughing, Rikuo came up behind him and slipped cold hands under his coat and inside his shirt. Kazahaya screamed and did a little jig trying to get away from Rikuo.
Saiga and Kakei traded snowballs as Kazahaya ran around them trying to get away from Rikuo. Finally he stumbled and knocked Saiga down which was perfect because everyone then jumped him. Saiga end up being a human snowman with snow in his shirt and pants. He roared with the onslaught of the cold stuff and sent them all tumbling into the snow.
They were chilled to the bone but lay laughing in the snow unwilling to move. Kazahaya looked over at them faces all red with cold, breath visible in the air but they were smiling and happy and he was one of them. "I love you guys. How about I fix breakfast when we get home?"
Their eyes found him and he seemed more at ease with himself than he had in days. "Better do it like I taught you! After freezing my ass with all that snow, you owe me kid!"
Kazahaya laughed because he'd been the one to put snow down the back of Saiga's pants. He nodded unable to speak. He fell backwards trying to duck a snowball. Once flat in the snow he started making a snow angel.
First they had to get out of their wet clothes then crowded into the downstairs bath for a quick shower. Of course with the four of them under the hot spray together, there were some roaming hands but they didn't take it too far since they still had to eat before opening the store.
Kazahaya pleased Saiga greatly when he cooked a perfect meal. He'd been watching Saiga for a while and trying his best to become a better cook and this time the Christmas angels must have been with him because he didn't burn anything.
They left the dishes and hurried to open the store for the last minute Christmas shoppers. Since they were closing early, about 3pm, they figured it would be a busy day. Most of the really good stuff was already gone but they still had a few things people could give as gifts. A lot of cards were sold, so was candy and batteries. They also ran out of napkins, plastic silverware, and plates. Some even bought decorations. Up until the locking of the door, there were still customers trying to get in but Saiga turned them away, if he didn't, they couldn't enjoy their own Christmas Eve.
Without knowing why Kazahaya was rushed to help clean up the store and then there was the mess in the kitchen that needed cleaning too. It seemed they were going somewhere and he was the only one who didn't know where. A surprise he figured and joyfully put all his energy into the work. By five the sun had disappeared and they were bundled up ready to go.
"Can you guys give me a hint?" He and Rikuo were in the backseat as Saiga carefully drove the slick streets.
"How about I give you a kiss instead? Seems like there's some mistletoe hanging from the ceiling." Rikuo chuckled. Like last year, there was mistletoe almost everywhere, even here in the car.
"I'll take it but can't I have a hint too?" Kazahaya pouted which only provided Rikuo with a better target. Lips connected to the one he loved, Kazahaya failed to see exactly where they were going. It wasn't until the car came to a stop that he broke from Rikuo's kiss. "You're trying to distract me but I want my surprise." Kazahaya said resting his cheek against Rikuo's. He gave his lover a kiss on that cheek then pulled back to see where they were.
"Out of the car everybody!" Saiga yelled opening his door. Kakei had gotten out as well carrying a small bag. In the backseat, Rikuo linked his fingers with Kazahaya's and pulled him out of the car.
"Hey wait, don't pull so hard Rikuo!" Kazahaya laughed and before he realized it he was standing next to a tree across the street from some shops. "This…this is…" His eyes grew wide and fear shown clearly on his face. "No…why? Why are we here?!"
He had sworn to never come here again but Saiga, Kakei and Rikuo had purposely brought him back here. They knew what this place had done to him and they brought him back here! "What?! Is this punishment or something?! Did I do something wrong?!"
They closed in on him. Rikuo still had his hand and pulled the trembling body close. Kakei took his other hand while Saiga came up behind him and held him by the shoulders.
"This place is important to us." Kakei said and couldn't help but smile as Kazahaya looked at him as if he'd lost his mind. "I'm serious Kazahaya. It may remind you of pain you'd rather forget but this is the place where Rikuo found you. You lay here beneath this tree on a cold, snowy night. Only God knows why he came over here but he did and saw you. Rikuo didn't know it then but you changed him. There was something in you, something about you that he wanted to save. Without really thinking about it – he had to have you and brought you home." Kakei smiled as he noticed the red in Rikuo's cheeks that had nothing to do with the cold.
"That's right kid." Saiga leaned down so that his warm breath tickled Kazahaya's ear. "He was a stiff board, hardly any fun at all until you came along." Saiga looked at the tree and the snow falling around them. "Because this place was here to shelter you from the snow, to keep you alive until Rikuo could find you – it's a sacred spot to us."
Kakei let go of Kazahaya's hand then picked up the bag at his feet. He pulled out a white candle and placed it near to the tree then he pulled out a cord with white ribbons attached to it and with Rikuo holding one end, walked around the tree. Kakei tied it off and stepped back to take a look. It now looked like a holy tree. Smiling he gestured for the others to join him.
Kazahaya held his hands to his heart as he watched the three of them light matches then together they lit the candle. He no longer felt pain but his being was so full that he thought he would burst. There was no stopping the tears or slowing down his heart or breathing.
"We mark this spot as a special place to be remembered with love for the extra special person that was discovered here. I hope Kazahaya that knowing we find this spot to be important that soon you'll be able to let go of the bad memories being here brings you." Kakei spoke for them then stood quickly for Kazahaya looked as if he was about to fall.
"Babe!" They caught him and all held him.
"No! N-no more…bad m-memories! …Not now…" Kazahaya couldn't feel himself smiling but he knew that he was. His eyes weren't big enough to take in their faces and he desperately wanted to remember everything about this moment. He wiped his face on his sleeve and tried again to speak. "…All gone…you took… the pain…Away!" It was useless and he hugged Rikuo's neck and just bawled.
"I guess we did a good thing." Kakei said voice full of tears as Saiga wrapped his arms about him. He supposed they were making a spectacle of themselves to anyone watching but it didn't matter. Kazahaya's soul was whole again and that was all that mattered.
They stopped for pizza and went home. It was smiles all around the table then they moved in front of the TV for hot chocolate and movies. Kazahaya lined them up on the couch with Rikuo sitting between Saiga and Kakei then he placed himself in Rikuo's lap. He wanted to be surrounded by them like before.
It was their pleasure to indulge him so they watched A Christmas Carol, T'was the Night before Christmas and Rudolf. It was as Frosty was just coming on that Kazahaya fell asleep. His head lay in the crook of Rikuo's neck, one hand holding Kakei's and the other resting on Saiga's thigh.
Rikuo's hand rested over his heart and the steady beat was very soothing. His eyes began to droop as he focused on the beat.
"I think that's enough TV for tonight." Kakei said as he looked over and saw them. "They're so cute."
Saiga chuckled because they were. Kazahaya's mouth hung open and he lay boneless in Rikuo's arms. Rikuo rested his dark head on Kazahaya's lighter one, his mouth blowing breaths in the boy's hair. "Hey wake up. Let's go to bed guys, you can sleep with us." Saiga shook Rikuo knowing it was useless to try and wake Kazahaya.
"Sleep here. Don't wanna move." Rikuo said grumpily which only caused more laughter.
"Come on now, it'll be more comfortable in bed. Saiga you take Kazahaya and I'll get this lump up." Kakei said and turned off the TV as Saiga gathered Kazahaya into his arms.
Saiga felt the difference this time. When he'd last held Kazahaya the kid had been cold as ice. He hadn't recognized him at all but now he trustingly turned to him and held Saiga about the shoulders. He hefted the slight warm weight and carried it lovingly.
"Come on Rikuo or Saiga's not going let you sleep beside Kazahaya." Kakei tugged and Rikuo finally pushed himself up from the couch and wrapped a long arm about Kakei.
"He really liked what we did, didn't he?"
"Yes, yes he did. It felt good to you too didn't it?" Kakei looked up and studied Rikuo's face. So often he was able to hide his feeling behind a mask but today he hid nothing. His eyes were moist and a smile graced his face.
"Yeah, it was – is a damn good feeling." Rikuo looked down at Kakei then suddenly caught him up in a tight hug. "Thanks Kakei."
Kakei was surprised but happy. "Sure, sure." He returned the hug with feeling then together they went to the bedroom in time to see Saiga joyfully undressing Kazahaya. "Saiga let him sleep!"
"What?! I'm just undressing him!" He tried to act indignant but he'd been running his hands over the warm skin of Kazahaya's flat belly in anticipation of pulling off his underwear.
"Pervert." Rikuo said fondly and started stripping. "Tomorrow - you 'Corrupter of young men!' Let's just go to sleep now. Go ahead and finish but no touching!" He'd already gotten out of his shirt and was working on his pants.
"Party poopers." He said pouting then laughed because he bet he looked just like the kid. Saiga pulled off the underwear and sighed with regret at seeing the semi-hard erection.
They just laughed at him. It wasn't long before they were all naked and crawling into the big bed. It was like it was at Thanksgiving; the two couples cuddled together – all four sharing one bed.
Christmas morning and it was Kazahaya who woke first. His eyes popped open and he smiled. Rikuo was behind him and held by the penis and directly in front of him was Saiga with Kakei lying half on top of him. They'd slept together! He giggled suddenly very happy to be alive. He wanted to get up and go open presents but he also wanted Rikuo to love him and have some fun right here where he was. Oh the choices but when in sleep Rikuo stroked him, Kazahaya made up his mind. Hips pushed backwards into Rikuo and Kazahaya let his hand cover Rikuo's to move it along his steadily hardening erection.
Rikuo had been dreaming of chocolate snow cream but suddenly he had another craving – for Kazahaya. He yawned and felt the press of warm buttocks against his thighs and his hand appeared to be sliding over steel flesh. Rikuo tightened his grip to hear a giggle. Kazahaya was awake! "Merry Christmas babe."
It came out on a long sigh, "Merry Christmas Rikuo. Mmm, very Merry Christmas." Kazahaya leaned forward as Rikuo began kissing him down his spine. His face came into contact with Saiga's arm and Kazahaya playfully bit him.
"Huh? What is it?" Saiga shrugged at the tiny sting in his arm but then he noticed cooler air on his skin as the covers were being lowered. He cracked one eye open to see Kazahaya grinning up at him. He opened the other in time to see Rikuo's head disappear behind Kazahaya's hip. As Saiga leaned up to get a better look, his hand covered Kakei's ass and squeezed.
"Oh…yeah…Rikuo…" Kazahaya had to close his eyes to the pleasure Rikuo's lips and tongue was giving him. He used Saiga for leverage and made it possible for Rikuo to have better access to his bottom.
Kakei began moving his hips as Saiga's hand stroked his butt. He heard sounds and reluctantly opened his eyes then blinked rapidly. Kazahaya's face was inches from his own and it was obvious he was being loved on. Pushing into Saiga's hand, he lifted his head to see what was going on. As he blinked yet again all he could see was the top of Rikuo's head as he put his lips and tongue to good use. Suddenly he popped up and with a huge grin got Kazahaya to his knees.
Rikuo noticed their bedmates were awake and he saluted them with his huge penis. "Morning guys, excuse us. Here it comes babe."
Kazahaya opened his eyes and saw Kakei's face close to his and just as Rikuo gave him what he wanted; Kazahaya stole a Christmas kiss from Kakei.
Saiga lay caught between them – Kazahaya and Kakei kissing over him while Rikuo held his lover's hips and thrust with passion. He couldn't stand it and grabbing Kakei by the hips pulled his man up so that his knees were on either side of him and Kakei was facing the foot of the bed.
Kakei missed the kiss but leaned forward in anticipation of Saiga's loving. Saiga didn't move far but just enough for Kakei to take control of their loving once he was inside that warm place.
They watched each other. It was almost a contest to see who would climax first. The bed rocked and shook with each move. Their sighs, moans and groans played a song in their ears until it was impossible to hear anything but the frantic beating of their hearts. Kazahaya tossed back his head and let out a yell and like a domino affect, they all followed him into the white mist.
"Ugh, you guys are killing me – I can barely breathe!" Saiga said pushing at the sweaty flesh lying upon his body. Kakei was over his legs, Kazahaya on his chest with Rikuo on top of him – he was effectively trapped.
"But you're so comfortable." Kazahaya joked. He licked a flat nipple then sucked when it puckered for him. "Seem like you could go again…but NOT! I want presents now that I've had my Christmas Sex! Last one there has to cook breakfast!" Kazahaya laughed as he squirmed out from beneath Rikuo and over Kakei. He snatched something to put on and raced butt naked out of the bedroom heading for the Christmas tree.
Rikuo rolled over laughing because Kazahaya's excitement and tossed him sideways. He shrugged at the other two men then he too ran naked for the tree. Kakei and Saiga stared at each other before both scrambling to get up. Kakei was tricky and used his bottom to knock Saiga backwards before he too jumped up off the bed and sprinted after the boys.
"Dammit Kakei!" Saiga roared and followed the sound of bare feet against the floor.
Kazahaya was on his knees beside the tree wearing only his sweater from yesterday, Rikuo in his T-shirt, Kakei in his lab coat and Saiga had on nothing but his shades. He grabbed a blanket off the couch and wrapped it about his hips and sat down. "Well, what are you waiting for? Let's get to ripping!" He couldn't be mad at them not when they all looked so ridiculous. Saiga smiled and grabbed a present with his name on it.
All of Saiga's presents were hand-made. Everyone got new sweaters and kimonos. Kakei got them the new game system Wii and upgraded their phones with MP3 Players. They in turn got Saiga some new cookware he'd been wanting plus all the accessories to go with it. Kakei they got some expensive cologne and day trip to one of his favorite spas. Next they checked their stockings to find things like candy, fruit, movie tickets andcoupons for lunch at their favorite places.
Saiga stood very pleased with his gifts."Guess I should start breakfast since I was last to arrive - you 'bare butt bandits!'" He pointed to the boys with pretend ire.
"Wait! That's not all!" Kazahaya grinned and jumped up and all eyes watched with muted lust as his exposed genitals waved at them. He ran to a closet and brought out bag of wrapped gifts. "These are my stocking stuffers! They wouldn't fit in your stockings so here!" Kazahaya was so excited he was all but bouncing.
Rikuo had trouble trying not to look at Kazahaya instead of at his gift. "Be still babe or I'm never going to open this."
"Yeah, cover up!" Saiga threw a pillow at him.
Kazahaya laughed with delight, sat on the floor and put the pillow in his lap. "Go on…open them!" He knew once they saw them – the pillow would be snatched away.
Saiga's mouth dropped open in shock and then he howled with laughter. Kakei blinked slowly then he too fell over laughing. Rikuo already affected by the other's gifts anxiously tore into his own and also collapsed into fits of laughter.
Kazahaya was bouncing again, up on his knees laughing pleased with their reactions to his gifts. His penis was standing out straight which only made them laugh harder. In moments, he found himself forced onto his back as Rikuo jumped him kissing him then he and Kakei were stripping him of his sweater and Saiga had hold of his erection.
"Thanks Kazahaya!" They all said and lovingly attacked him.
Breakfast was actually lunch. They had loved again then took a bath only to love some more. When they finally made it to the kitchen, everyone helped cook because they were starved. Jokes were told and much laughing was done as outside more snow fell.
"So Saiga how'd the muffins turn out? I can't wait to eat one!" Rikuo asked as he put butter on the table.
"Perfect! Here you go." On a platter were several muffins in the shape of penises. "Ready to eat – scarf'em down boys, I know you know how! Think I'll bake us a chocolate penis cake for New Years'. Thanks for the fancy baking pans kid!" Saiga said with a laugh.
"No 'oblem!" Kazahaya said his mouth full of blueberry penis. They all died laughing again.
"When are you going to use yours Kakei?" Rikuo asked.
Kakei shook his head in wonder at the real-sized gel penis. It was one of those stress reducers that you squeezed. "Ha, I suppose the next time I'm doing the store's books and have a raging headache but," He picked up and expertly ran his hands over it, "I guess I could use it anytime!"
"Don't forget the pacifier! It came with several different flavored drops you can use!" Kazahaya's loud, happy voice told him.
"Oh no, I haven't!" Kakei laughed putting down the stress reliever. It must work; he was feeling no stress at all! He was still surprised Kazahaya had bought these. It was more of Saiga's style. Picking up the penis pacifier Kakei opened a small bottle of grape liquid and added a few drops to the neon bright yellow pacifier. He almost couldn't do it, he was laughing so hard and with the three of them watching him but he put it in his mouth and got to sucking.
Rikuo had to wipe tears from his eyes and even slapped the table a few times as he watched Kakei eagerly suck the pacifier. "Oh babe you outdid yourself!"
Kazahaya's eyes were bright as he watched them all. Nobody bothered to ask Rikuo when he was going to use his gift because he'd long since started eating the little chocolate penises Kazahaya had given him. He was very surprised and happy his gifts went over so well and after they ate – he'd give them the last one.
But they ended up going out to play in the snow and joining all the other families enjoying this white Christmas. Wet but happy they returned home to take another bath then fall into the bed exhausted. It was dark when they awoke and jumped up to fix dinner. Nothing had been prepared so they spent the next few hours cooking and playing with their brand new Wii. It wasn't until they were all cuddled on the couch, lights off, tree on and some old movie was on that Kazahaya got up to go to the bathroom. When he came back he held a large gift bag. Mysteriously he just grinned and lit some candles. He moved a table before them then knelt and pulled out the box.
"A board game babe? What's so special about it that you waited until now to bring it out?" Rikuo was still stretched out on the couch and hadn't taken a good look.
Saiga sat up with a grin. "Kid, you've gotta take me to this store! I go first!"
"Hmm?" Kakei moved to get a closer look since Saiga looked so excited and he too began laughing. "Yes Kazahaya, we have to know where you found all these marvelous toys!" He picked up the instructions and started reading.
Rikuo frowned and picked up the top. "The Sexy Game for Lovers" it said. "Just follow the rules and you'll have hours of horny sexy fun! Babe!" Laughing eyes caught Kazahaya's. "You're just full of surprises aren't you?"
"Yep, I guess I am! You ready for me to beat the pants off you – literally?!"
"Hell yes! Let's play!" Rikuo scooted forward and picked up some dice.
They lay in bed looking out the window over Kazahaya's bed. The moon was out but there was still a flutter of snow to be seen here and there. Kazahaya's gifts were the best hands down in fun and sexiness. The board game had lasted for three hours. Sometimes they were laughing so much that they forgot what they were doing and others the moment was so hot that flames weren't needed to melt the candles – they had only to touch them and a pool of wax would have formed. It had only been an hour or so since they'd climbed the stairs and collapsed into bed.
"It was wonderful wasn't it?"
"The best babe, the absolute best."
"And what you guys did Christmas Eve – I've got no words…no words…"
"None needed. Just always show me your love." Rikuo sat up and reached for something in the night stand. He lay on one side and held up his hand then out of it dropped a silver chain and charm. The charm was some kanji characters. It said 'Forever Mine.' Wear this for me?"
Was it possible to be this happy? Kazahaya wondered as he nodded and let Rikuo put the chain around his neck. It told the world that somebody on this earth loved him and wanted him for all time.
Rikuo watched as Kazahaya smiled through his tears then suddenly reach beneath their pillow and pull out a box. He raised an eyebrow as Kazahaya opened it and showed him an ID bracelet. "You don't have to wear it all the time! Only when…you want to…" Kazahaya said nervously.
Written on one side in kanji was 'Himura' then Kazahaya turned it over and there it said 'Holder of my Heart.' Rikuo stared at the bracelet then at the love and hope shining in Kazahaya's eyes. "Oh babe…" He threw and arm over his eyes and dropped down on the pillow.
Kazahaya gasped in fear. Had it been a mistake? Was the bracelet too much? He started to cover the bracelet with a shaking hand when Rikuo scared him by grabbing his hand. He looked up and saw tears in Rikuo's eyes.
"It's true what they say, that the one you can always make you cry but these are tears of joy babe. …So I hold your heart?" A tear rolled down Rikuo's face to see Kazahaya nod all shy and hesitant. "You tear me up inside but it the best feeling in the world and I hope it Never, Ever goes away." Rikuo got closer, head propped up on one hand and held out the other for Kazahaya to fasten the bracelet onto his wrist. Once on, Rikuo held up his wrist feeling the weight of the metal on his arm. Kazahaya's heart – yeah it was a weight he would bear with love and pride.
Kazahaya placed a hand over his charm. It was warm to the touch, smooth under his finger as he traced it. They'd had the same idea to give a physical representation of their love. And he'd made Rikuo cry – cry from happiness.
Rikuo looked down to see a smile of utter contentment on his lover's face. Kazahaya's eyes were closed and he kept tracing the charm over and over as if trying to press it into his skin and keep it forever next to his heart. "Usually you only look like that after good loving."
"I could say the same about you." Kazahaya cupped his jaw then moved his hand back into Rikuo's hair. "But we did have some good loving earlier." The kissed tenderly.
"Yeah we did, didn't we?" Rikuo lay down again and pulled Kazahaya on top of him. He tucked Kazahaya's head beneath his chin and crossed his arms over the small of his back. "Let's get some sleep babe. You've given me a Christmas I won't ever forget. I want to lie with you in my arms and dream of nothing but you."
"You're going to make me cry again with all these sweet words." Kazahaya laughed softly. He knew he'd be dreaming tonight too. He would dream of that tree and how he'd fallen there. He would dream of being found and Rikuo. He would dream of last night when they had declared that tree and the space around it as holy because they loved him so. He would dream of the happiness he'd never thought to have and the best part was – none of it was a dream. It was all real and all his.
Kazahaya raised his head to look down at Rikuo. "Love you…"
"Love you too babe…"
They kissed again then with hearts beating in the same rhythm. As the snow of this Christmas Day fell blanketing their world in white and giving the promise of new and brighter future, the lovers slept in each other's arms sharing the warmth and comfort of love…
I hope you feel all warm and fuzzy because that's what I was going for. I'd like to wish you all a Merry Christmas! I hope your holiday will be safe and wonderful and that you'll make some special memories of your own.
Comfort and Joy have nothing to do with being legal or illegal but it makes the world a much better place...