My computer went away to get fixed now it looks all shiny and new ^^ I only got it back about an hour ago and immediately started updating stuff :) sorry to keep you all waiting. Anyway, I'll shut up and actually write something.

I was annoyed. I know it was for my own good and all but wearing an oxygen mask and having all these wires prodding is not my idea of enjoyment. I tried to sigh but it came out more of just a slightly longer breath.

Dad was sitting next to me. He'd stopped crying about ten minutes ago thankfully, not what I want to hear in my last hours. Dad held my hand really tight, it hurt a bit but it was better than the tears. The twins were here as well, they looked like they'd been sleeping in the corridor but of course they denied it. Their hair was a mess, it's the first time I've seen them without their hair immaculately styled with gel and whatever other fancy products they use. It was also kind of obvious they hadn't gone home considering they were wearing the same clothes as they had the day before but I decided not to point that out.

Light up, light up

As if you have the choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear

Huni crept into the room with Mori close behind. He had his beloved Usa-chan clutched in his small hands but his eyes were dry, there were probably no more tears to cry considering the bucketfuls he's managed to produce yesterday.

'Haruhi,' Mori greeted. At least someone was acting normal, why was everyone grieving if I was still here. I pulled of the oxygen mask and smiled. I was feeling quite calm and surprisingly happy. It's not like I had much of a choice. With the amount of meds I was on I was probably as high as a kite.

I tried to reply with any greeting but speaking wasn't something I could take for granted anymore, each breath was hard, 'Hey *breath* guys. All *breath* ok?'

Most of them obviously flinched, I didn't sound too great do it was understandable.

'We're... fine Haru-chan. It's nice to see you,' Huni grinned. It would have been nice if he had just said no, I'm upset and I hope this isn't the last time I can see you. But it was. I gave another raspy sigh and surveyed the bright room. There was a huge display of flowers that filled most of the room. They were pretty and smelt nice. I didn't like most showy things but flowers were an exception. They were natural. They didn't have to be expensive to look the best. They lived and died, like I was going to.

Crowded around my bed were the hosts. Well. Not all of them of course. Kyouya was missing.

And Tamaki.

The twin, my dad and Huni were all chatting to try and blot out the fact that I wasn't going to be here much longer, trying to talk to me enough to fill in the lifetime of talking they thought they had with me. They sounded happy but despair and desperation hung heavy in the air. I was already in pain but the awful atmosphere was almost killing me, not that I needed any help.

The only person I couldn't hear, that I wanted to hear, was Tamaki.

Tamaki!

I could hear him. He wasn't in the room. Oh god. Was I going mental as well? That's just great, I was dying of cancer that was quickly killing me and in the time I have left I'm going to be an insane babbling fool.

But I wasn't mental, Tamaki flung the door open in his usual dramatic style but then he stopped. He just stood there looking at me. I didn't do anything either, I was too busy gaping like a fish (It might have been shock but it may also have been the fact I couldn't breathe properly without my mask which was hanging around my neck)

The rest of the room was silent too, I'm guessing they didn't know Tamaki was coming either.

Tamaki stumbled over to my bed and touched my face with one hand, gently, as if to check I was actually real.

For the first time in thirteen years, I started to cry.

Thank you for reading, I already have the next chapter in my head so you shouldn't be waiting long ;)