A/N: You know I think that a woman invented the lap top or at least the idea of it because you know women love carrying things around. Lol I just love my laptop… So much so that I have even watched shows from the comfort of my bathtub… In addition, right now while my sister is driving I am writing this chapter.

Okay now have y'all been good? Do y'all really think you deserve this chapter? Hm… I wonder

Listening to- FINALLY FOUND A SONG I CAN WRITE TO! If A Song Could Get Me You by: Marit Larsen

She has an amazing voice so if you have not heard any of her songs listen to one.

Disclaimer: I OWN NOTHING!

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I waited in the kitchen as people came and went to see about Sirius. I was not sure what was going on, but I hoped someone could tell me soon because I was starting to go crazy.

There was not anything else I wanted to do at the moment besides scream at the top of my lungs. Of course, I wanted to see Sirius as well, but I would not get any answers from him.

Finally, when I thought no one was coming back for a while I stood up and walked over to the nearest wall. I clenched my fist and placed them against the chilled wall. I took a deep breath and let my head fall against the wall it felt nice. That is when I closed my eyes and first punched the wall with my right hand… and then my left.

I repeated this until my knuckles bled and then continued after I caught my breath.

After I felt content, I slid down to the floor and put my head in my hands. I just could not take it anymore.

I got up without paying attention to the throbbing sensation in my hands and ran upstairs while taking two sometimes three steps up at a time.

When I got to Sirius's bedroom door, I placed one hand on the door and then clenched my fist once more. I had to know what was going on.

I opened the door and let it fly open until it made a loud crash against the wall. Everyone looked at me with shocked looks on their faces.

Whether it was because blood was dripping from my hands to the floor or the fact that I was there at all, I was not sure, but I did not really care. I needed to talk to Sirius alone and no one was going to stop me.

"OUT!" I screamed at everyone in the room. One by one, everyone left, but Remus remained in a chair beside Sirius.

He was staring at Sirius, but Sirius was staring at me. When he realized I would not leave he nodded in my direction and then said, "Remus can you leave me and Harry alone for a second?" he nodded and left with taking one last look between Sirius and I. I slammed the door in his face.

I fell down to my knees beside Sirius and said, "I need to know what's going on Sirius. This is going too far now."

His fingers intertwined themselves in my hair and I heard him sigh when I leaned into his touch.

"I cannot tell you Harry?"

"WHY NOT DAMNIT!?" I yelled as I got up and looked down at him.

"Harry… You just don't understand!"

"WHAT DON'T I UNDERSTAND? PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME!"

Sirius looked away from me for a second and then looked back up at me.

"This is for your protection."

"I don't need protection idiot so stop trying to act as though you are doing this for my benefit! Now are you going to tell me what's really going on?"

"Are you going to tell me what's going on with you then?" Sirius asked with a determined look on his face.

"I can't…At least not at the present moment."

"Well then I can't help you." How could he say that? I was not coming home with blood all over me.

We stared at each other for a long while until we realized neither of us would surrender to the other.

"You should go, Harry." He said as he turned away from me.

That was it I could not take his bullshit anymore. I started walking away, but then turned back around quickly and walked back over to him so he could see me.

I took his face into my hands and kissed him as hard as I could and then punched him in the face leaving a blood smears from my own bloody hands.

I left before he could even finishing saying ow. I slammed the door behind me and started walking down the stairs, but not more than five steps down I saw Snape leaning against the wall actually smiling.

"What's your problem?" he shrugged and headed back upstairs to Sirius's room.

When I finally got to the bottom of the steps, I did not stop. I kept walking right out the front door and I did not even stop there I kept walking not even knowing which way I was going.

I did not want to explain myself to anyone in that house and I wished it were already tomorrow so I could go back to Hogwarts.

After the sun started setting, I found a park and found a nearby bench to sit down at. I watched as various people walk by with their partners, children, or sometimes even by themselves.

I wondered if any of them were feeling the same kind of frustration that I was at the moment. I wanted to be alone, but at the same time, I wanted someone to comfort me. I needed to be away from Sirius for as long as it took for the problems to fade away, but I also needed to be with him so I could take care of him while he recovered. Most of all though I didn't ever want to find out if my father and Sirius had been in a relationship and if they were was I replacement for my father, but this was the one thing I really needed to know to decide where I went from here.

I got up and started walking again until I found myself at the train station. I went in and walked straight into platform nine and three quarters.

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