A/N: Sorry it has been so long since I have updated everyone, but if you have read my excuse note, you know why. I would like to thank everyone for his or her patience and understanding. I hope everyone will enjoy this chapter because I wrote about half of it a month ago and then wrote the other today so I do not know how it will turn out. Now let us all take the time to enjoy a long overdue Sirius and Harry love! Oh wait they are still fighting! *Sniffles* Don't worry their love will prevail… eventually and then more drama then more prevailing love!

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I waited for everyone else to exit the train before I even considered getting off. When I finally managed to get off with Hedwig resting on my shoulder, I saw Draco.

He was in the exact same spot he was last year. This time no words passed between us just a single nod and we both headed off towards Hogwarts.

We could not be seen talking or even walking together anymore, otherwise Draco's father would be back in a heartbeat to possibly pull Draco out of Hogwarts forever.

Draco and I took separate paths to Hogwarts and still had not said a word to each other or even looked in each other's direction. I hadn't to say it, but I was starting to miss Draco. Sure, he never talked much before, but this silence and the silence he usually kept around company were completely different. Almost as if he was empty inside, cut off from all human emotion, but I knew it was in there somewhere. I had to at least hope it was because he could have never loved Hermione the way he had if he was truly a bottomless pit.

"There you are Harry. I have been looking everywhere. What took you so long?" Ginny asked with a huge smile on her face as she wrapped her arm around mine.

Ginny was great, but she knows I loved… I mean love Sirius. Is she just setting herself up to be hurt again or does she truly believe Sirius and I have ended it?

"Ginny… What's going on here exactly?" she stopped and looked over at me with a confused look on her face.

"Well we are walking to Hogwarts." She was purposely dodging the question now.

I untangled her arm from mine and said, "I think you should go on ahead with the others. I need to be alone anyway." Her beautiful, delicate face was in pain and I had caused it.

She walked as fast as she could in front of me barely going into a sprint. I knew she was crying, but there was nothing I could do to help her now. That was if I wanted to help her and I wasn't quite sure I did. She had known all along and to assume I would come running to her just because Sirius and I had a fight… again.

"Well what does she know?" I whispered to myself as I kicked the rocks beneath my feet.

I found a stump leading away from the pathway I was on, but I did not want to go back just yet.

"Go on Hedwig. I know you don't want to stay here when there is all this open space." She made a very low, painful noise in the back of her throat right before she took off. Great now I was hurting even Hedwig who was the only one I had now.

"Shouldn't you be at Hogwarts by now, Potter?" I turned around faster than I should have because in the next second I fell off the stump and found myself on the flat of my back staring up at Snape and that sneer he so often wore on his face.

"I was heading that way." I said as I picked myself up and brushed the dirt off my pants.

"Did not seem like it. Now hurry on." Without even second-guessing myself, I started jogging towards Hogwarts, but when I turned around for a brief second Snape was nowhere to be found.

I wasn't two worried because if he were eaten by something from the forbidden forest I wouldn't really care. Sure Snape was helping with the Order, but I never felt certain that I could trust him. I couldn't quite place my finger on it, but it always seemed as though he was hiding something.

When I finally got to the dining hall, I decided it would be better not to go in. Everyone seemed so happy even Draco and Hermione seemed to be enjoying themselves though I knew it was fake, for the both of them. I however, could not pull off that façade.

I watched them for a while as they both sat on sides where they could easily look at the other without anyone even realizing it. Not once though did they catch each other doing what they themselves were. It was all very… unnecessary.

No longer could I watch them so I headed up to the Gryffindor Tower that so often set my mind to ease, but this year I knew it would do no such thing. Sirius had been here last year with me, in one of his forms or the other.

Before I knew what I was doing, I was back outside in the pouring rain. I needed somewhere that did not remind me of Sirius anywhere. I found myself at the edge of the Forbidden Forest at that moment. Of course, this place held memories with Sirius as well, but fewer in numbers. I walked straight in without turning back once to consider checking in with everyone one.

After I was deep enough to not see anything, but the dark trees that surrounded me I lie on the ground and let the light drizzles of rainfall on my face. The cool rain felt nice against my burning skin.

As the rain stopped, my skin still yearned for something… and the burning was driving me insane.

"Acio FIREBOLT!" in seconds it was in my hands. I jumped up and flew up until I could get past the trees that seemed to be growing faster than I could ride. I leaned down and shot straight up almost instantly out of the trees into the night sky.

I sat there for a long while watching as people turned lights on and off at Hogwarts as they went from place to place. It all seemed so mundane so I kept climbing the night sky for something that was out of my reach. I knew what I was truly searching for out here, but I couldn't admit it to myself not yet and I wouldn't ever find it up here.

When I finally decided I could go no further I screamed, "I HATE YOU!" into the night sky. As though he could hear me, but saying it was enough.

Before I headed back down I stretched my arms out and let my head fall back.

I wasn't sure what had just happened, but I was now falling through the sky and my hand was outstretched to my firebolt that was too far away now and my wand was, I suspected, already far below me.

For some reason though I felt very calm so I just kicked back and enjoyed the ride even when I felt my back hit up against something harder than a boulder I did not mind... I fell asleep with a smile on my face because the burning was gone now.

A/N: Believe me this ending to the chapter was ten times better than what I originally had planned… If you want to know what it was I don't mind you asking… Oh and it feels great to be back!