I'm everything I am
because you loved me
- 'Because You Love Me' by Celine Dion
ABCs of Love
Bottle
B is for Bottle
Eric hates reality.
To him it's harsh and cruel. Reality deprived him of the thing he loved most. Reality is like knowing that he has to wake up each day alone, knowing that his heart has to shatter with each new day.
But Eric loves the bottle.
He loves to drink himself silly. It's his little scapegoat. When he's drunk, he's delusional which means he's not alone, he's not sad. He has back what he lost.
Drinking helps him slip away from the harsh world he's forced to live in. It helps him find peace, helps him imagine things that aren't there.
Reality is a wake up call to what he doesn't have anymore; it's his misery, his agony. Drinking is his excuse - his freedom. He knows in reality Tim won't be coming back. But when he's drinking, he can at least see him once again in his hallucinations.
FIN.