Sorry that the update took so long. I have just been very busy. This was the last week of school and we had lots of programs and field day and stuff to attend.

I have a poll on my page. I am trying to decide what story to write next. This one only has about four or five more chapters. Please go vote!

Ok so to keep everyone up to date this chapter will be Edward's POV of the Wednesday and Thursday that BxE spent apart. Chapter 9 will be about Friday! Enjoy.

When I left Bella's house I was almost completely under control but I quickly drained a deer just to be sure. I was planning on hunting with the family over the next two days so I didn't

overdo it.

Alice had gathered the family in the living room to give everyone a rundown of what had happened last night and they were all waiting for me when I arrived. Esme and Carlisle both

looked concerned. Emmett who had been there looked bored. Jasper looked sympathetic and Rose looked upset.

"I'm fine and so is Bella. I appreciate everyone's concern but I'm thirsty. Let's hunt."

"Are you sure son? We could stay here and talk awhile if you need to." Carlisle was such a good father.

"I promise that I'm okay. Em and Alice got there in time to stop anything bad from happening. I was even in control enough to kiss Bella before I left. I am fine."

'You kissed her?" Esme squealed.

"Don't get you hair in a knot he barely touched the top of her head with his lips." Emmett chuckled.

"Not true Em. Remember he kissed her on the lips right before you guys left." Alice reminded him.

"Wait? That was him kissing her? I just thought he was smelling her breath or something." He laughed. I could show you a real kiss Edward. Just watch Rose and I.

"No thanks Emmett." I snapped. "Now if everyone is done analyzing my love life I'd like to leave."

We ran for about two hours before we arrived at a small nature reserve that had an over abundance of bear and wolves.

Everyone began to give themselves over to their instincts and drift off towards their different prey. Rosalie and I hung back per our agreement yesterday.

I smiled tentatively at her and she glared at me.

I will not be speaking out loud, brother dear. I will not take the chance of anyone hearing this and taking it all out of context.

"That's fine, Rose. You know that most of my conversations with Carlisle and Alice are conducted much the same way." I could give her privacy.

I would really rather that you don't speak either. That is unless you need clarification on something.

I nodded.

I'm not sure where to begin. I have kept all of this bottled up for so long. So let me just start at the beginning. First off I want you to know that I have absolutely no romantic feelings for you

whatsoever. I never have you are my bother and nothing else. Understood?

She paused and I nodded but I was actually very confused as to where this was headed.

She walked over to a log at the edge of the trees in the opposite direction of where our family had entered the forest. She took off her jacket and sat on it on the wet ground with her

back resting on the fallen tree. I sat down beside her and she sighed heavily.

Do you remember why I disliked you when we first met?

I looked at her skeptically but one again nodded. I had a feeling that I would be doing that a lot this morning so I sighed as well.

Okay well, then I don't need to remind you that I have always prided myself on being desired by every man that I have ever met or that I was beyond pissed off that you didn't want me. What I

don't think you do know however is that I had a fear that what had happened to me was the reason that you didn't want me. I was afraid that you thought of me as impure or unworthy.

"No! Rosalie, no. I have never thought that way. I am sorry if" I began to apologize but she covered my mouth with her hand and growled angrily.

"What part of no talking didn't you understand?" She hissed.

"Sorry, please continue." I mumbled behind her hand.

I hated you for it. I felt like you had judged me and I was livid. I had honestly hoped that once I had found Emmett that you would be jealous. I am vain enough to admit that I hoped that it would

be a case of you wanting what you couldn't have. I looked forward to telling you how utterly undesirable I found you and had found you since the first time I heard you speak.

That of course never happened but I was so in love with Emmett that I decided that it didn't matter anymore. I was done trying to catch your attention.

It wasn't until after I saw you interacting with other females that I realized that you weren't interested in anyone. I realized that you regarded every woman the way you did me. We were just

people. After you turned Tanya down Em asked me if you were gay. I considered it, but decided that you were just not interested in love or sex at all.

She let her mind drift and I was suddenly watching her conversation with Emmett about my sexuality.

"Whoa, hun, please tell me that Ed did not just say 'Thank you but I will have to decline the offer' to Tanya! She is a succubus for crying out loud.

Why would a guy who is completely unattached, and perpetually seventeen turn down a girl as sexy as her unless he's" he paused here apparently lost in a sudden

revelation "aww damn don't tell me that he's into men. I'd hate to have to feel all weird about wrestling and fighting him." He visibly shuddered after he said it.

"No Em, I just think that Carlisle was right. Edward just isn't into sex, period."

"Rosalie" I called bringing her back into the present.

Sorry, now back to what I was saying. I was beyond furious when I realized what was going on with Bella an you. I convinced myself that this was just a passing fling and that you would get over

it soon. I was scared that when you moved on she would expose us out of anger but that was before I knew her. Our family means everything to me. So I couldn't allow that to happen. I tried to

like her, I tried to be civil for the sake of the family, I really did but when Alice told me that you and Bella were going to be intimate, I lost it.

She paused in her mental tirade, she was breathing heavily seething with anger but trying to calm herself.

I was stunned. I couldn't comprehend the reason behind her anger.

Once she had calmed herself physically and her thoughts were less chaotic she began her explanation again.

Somewhere in my mind I knew that I was being irrationally and idiotic but all I could think was that I had been right in the beginning. You really didn't want me because I wasn't a virgin anymore.

I wasn't pure like Bella. I told myself that you had turned Tanya down for the same reason and all of the others who had thrown themselves at you as well. I assumed that you had seen all of

their sexual conquests in their thoughts and that's why you always said no. I wanted to scream and yell at you for treating all of us like we were below you. I wanted to hate you for it. I did hate

Bella for it, I saw her as everything I could never be innocent, the object of your affections and of course human. I needed to get all of this off of my chest before we talked today so I sat down

with Carlisle last night and he helped me to put all of this into perspective. I realize now that it has nothing to do with me or anyone else. You were only meant to love Bella the same way I was

only ever meant to love Emmett. My jealousy has no basis and I am sorry. There I said it but don't get used to it. You won't hear it again.

I nodded and smiled sadly at her. I was upset that I had hurt my oldest sibling but relieved to finally know what was wrong with her.

I pulled her into a hug before she could pull away and whispered in her ear

"For what it's worth Rose, I have always thought you were beautiful but I prefer brunettes." I released her and we both laughed and headed out to find our family.

It was mid afternoon when Alice came flitting up beside me distracting me and allowing my prey a chance to run. I started to give chase but she grabbed my arm to stop me.

"What's going on Alice?" I asked as she jerked me to a stop.

She didn't answer but showed me a vision of Bella sitting at her decrepit computer typing. All of a sudden she gasped and said in a whispered rush 'Edward is a vampire' then the vision

went black.

"Is that all you saw?" I asked more calmly then I felt. I knew that she was going to figure it out but now that I heard the words come from her mouth I was horrified that she knew and

beyond terrified that she was going to leave me now.

No, but I'm not going to show you the rest unless you tell me what Rose and you chatted about this morning. She smiled smugly but her face dropped when she saw my expression.

"I would never betray Rosalie that way she is my sister just as you are, Alice." I scolded her.

Please Edward. I know it has to be something good. I saw how pissed she was.

I shook my head and she became smug once more as she showed me Bella.

My love was at school. She was lying outside on a bench in the quad with her head in Mike Newton's lap. Her eyes were closed and he was running his vile fingers

through her hair. I noticed that she was wearing the same clothes that she wore when she had discovered my secret.

I fell to the ground holding my head.

"No, please god no. Tell me that's not going to happen. Alice, please." I breathed choking back the sob that was threatening to explode from my chest.

"It already happened Edward." She whispered lowering herself to my level.

"Why, Alice, why?" I cried not being able to hold back my sobs any longer.

"Oh, Edward. I'm sorry. Please don't cry. It's not what you think. I am so sorry. I am nosy and that was mean. Here watch all of it." she sobbed with me.

Bella was sitting in her first class of the day. She looked lost in thought. She seemed confused and upset. All of a sudden she tried to stand but collapsed and fainted. Mike

Newton and a boy named Lee volunteered to take Bella to the nurse but Newton decided to sit on the bench instead once they were out of sight of the class.

'I will stay here with Bella while you go and get the nurse and have Mrs. Goff call her dad. I think the fresh air will do her some good.'

Lee ran off towards the office after he helped Mike lower my love onto the bench. Mike sat down on the edge but scooted over until he could lift Bella's head into his lap.

The nurse and the principal came and took her to the nurse's office and the her father came and took her home. She came to just as he laid her in her bed.

She was fine. I would have to deal with Newton later.

I'm sorry Edward, really.

Alice's thoughts were nothing but apologetic now and I forgave her. I was still upset though so I decided to call my Bella just to make sure that she was all right. I tried her cell phone but

she didn't answer. I didn't leave a message. I dialed her father's house and was getting ready to hang up after the sixth ring but I heard her pick up.

"Hello?" she was panting and sounded as if she had been running.

"Bella love are you all right?" I asked worried that she might be sick.

"Yeah I'm fine; I just had to run for the phone. How are you?" she sounded eager to talk and I wondered if she had made her discovery yet.

"I am well. I'm sorry that you had to run for the phone. I miss you." I sighed the last part realizing that missed was a understatement.

"I miss you too." she breathed.

"I will be home around one am Friday would you like for me to come over then or wait until time for school?" I was wary of asking. I wondered if she would want to talk to me again after

she found out or if this was the last time we would talk.

"Um, well I kind of wanted to talk to you about that." she mumbled.

I inhaled sharply thinking that this was were she would tell me to stay away from her. "About what?"

"School on Friday. I was hoping that we could not go." she rushed through the words.

"That could be arranged. Do you miss me as much as I miss you?" I replied playfully thankful that she didn't order me away yet.

"Of course, I miss you like crazy. I love you." she said happily and my silent heart skipped a beat.

"As I love you, my Bella." We were silent for a few moments and I wondered if she was okay.

"I hate do say goodbye but Charlie will be home in half an hour and I haven't even started cooking yet." She seemed reluctant to end our call.

"Did you have that much homework, love? Or were you just missing me so much that you lost track of time?" I teased.

"While I was missing you to the point of distraction all day the reason I haven't started dinner is that I have been doing some research." Research, was that what she was doing at her

computer? Does she already know? Is that why she didn't answer my question directly?

"Edward?" she asked after a few moments breaking my train of thought.

"Yes? I'm here. I was just thinking." I answered.

"What were you thinking about?" she asked warily.

"About how you avoided my question earlier. When I asked if I should come over when I get home or if I should wait until the morning, you changed the subject." I said sadly knowing

that I was asking her to tell me if I still had a place in her life.

"Sorry, I thought it was obvious that I wanted you here as soon as possible. I just wanted you to be prepared for my Friday plan." she explained but all I heard was that she wanted me

still. I expressed my gratitude for that.

"Thank you. I will see you as soon as possible. Is it okay if I call you tomorrow afternoon?"

She was quiet for a moment before she simply said "no."

"May I ask why not?" I asked as my heart was shattering.

"Sure, I want you to call me tomorrow evening so that we can talk until you get here. If you call in the afternoon we will have the interruption of homework and dinner." She never said or

did what I expected her to I laughed in relief before responding.

"That sounds lovely. I will call you at seven."

"Seven sounds great." she agreed instantly.

"I will be thinking of you all night. Have a good night love." I all but purred.

"I will dream of you. Goodnight Edward, I love you." she breathed.

"I will be with you tomorrow my love, goodnight" I promised

"Bye" she sighed.

"Until tomorrow," I whispered and hung up.

My mind was racing. I wasn't sure if she knew yet but For now I put it out of my head so that I could concentrate on my happiness that she still wanted me and finally give myself over to

my senses for the hunt.

Alice stayed away from me for the remainder of day despite the fact that I had told her several times that I wasn't angry or upset with her. Jasper had even tried to tell her that he felt no

negative emotions coming from me. It was around sunrise when she came up to me. I was finishing up a black bear that Emmett had missed.

She threw her arms around my waist and sobbed into my shirt.

I'm sorry Edward. I really never meant to hurt you. You know that I love you. You are my brother and I was just awful to you.

"Alice, please. This is unnecessary, I have already forgiven you. You were just trying to get me to gossip with you. I understand. Really, I do. Just please don't do it again." I said

soothingly as I hugged her tightly.

"I promise Edward." She mumbled and drew back with a smile on her face.

I will see you at home after you talk to Bella, Jazz has something planned for us. Bye." She bounced away after planting a kiss on my cheek.

I took down a couple of elk and a wolf and then headed out to find Carlisle to let him know that I was going to head home.

It was almost one in the afternoon when I arrived at the house. I hurried upstairs to shower. I had decided to go to the school and watch Bella through the minds of those around her

much as I had done the Wednesday before the ball.

I propped myself up on the trunk a maple tree and filtered through the minds of the humans until I found my love. She was sitting at our lab table looking very depressed. She kept

glancing at my seat and sighing. I was reluctant to hope that she was missing me. I caught a glimpse of her as she walked out of the school on her way to gym and had to hold myself in

place so that I didn't run out to her and kiss her. I watched her fumble her way through gym and sat mesmerized as she walked through the sunlight on her way to her truck. She was

radiant in the sun. Her hair had a shine to it that couldn't be seen in the cloudy weather that Forks was famous for. Her eyes were sad but held a glow that I hadn't seen before. I missed

her more that moment than I had since I had left her room two nights ago.

I decided that I needed to do something productive while I waited for the sun to go down. I had told her that we wouldn't be home until very late and I had decided to give her that time

to process what she had discovered and not run over to her house as the sun began to set.

I had just made it back to the house when my cell started ringing. The caller ID said it was Alice.

"Hello Alice"

"Hi Edward. I just wanted to let you know that you and Bella will have from 6am Saturday morning until nine pm on Sunday night alone. Her dad is going on a weekend fishing trip. His trip

couldn't have come at a better time if I had planned it myself." she giggled.

"Thanks for the information Alice. Do you know what's going to happen when I see her tonight?"

"I do but I think that you should just let it happen. I think you going over there knowing how it's going to turn out may be unfair to Bella. Have fun, bye" she hung up before I could

respond.

"Thanks pixie" I growled then stuck my tongue out hoping that she saw me.

She did say that Bella and I had the whole weekend together so I clung to that for hope that we may be okay and began to make plans for Saturday. Tomorrow was Bella's day. We were

going to skip school together and I planned on just following her lead the whole day. Saturday I was going to take her to my favorite place in Forks aside from her room; my meadow.

It was ten to seven when I finished finalizing my plan so I decided to call Bella early.

The phone rang three times before my love answered.

"Edward" she sighed sweetly like just saying my name eased her mind.

"Ah, my love it's wonderful to her your voice." I said in the same tone.

We fell into a comfortable conversation and I found my self pacing back and forth in the living room of my house waiting for the time when I could see her.

It was around eleven thirty when my family came home. Alice and Jasper were with them.

I told everyone about school tomorrow Alice told me in her thoughts.

I nodded that I had heard her.

I told everyone in a tone and at a speed that Bella couldn't hear that I was leaving to go to her house and wouldn't be home until Sunday. I ignored their thoughts as I ran to her house.

I noticed that she had gone quiet and I could hear her heart speed up. I was hoping that she had just realized how close the time was to when I had said that I would be home.

I was about to find out.

"Bella?"

"Yes?" she must have been lost in thought because she sounded a bit confused.

"Look out of the window, love" I whispered and heard her heart take off and her feet running across the floor. She was at the window with it thrown open when I emerged from the

woods. Her smile took my unnecessary breath away. I ran for the tree by her window to climb up to her. I was excited and terrified. This was going to either be the best or worst night of

my very long existence.