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***Just a warning the language in this chapter is a little bit more adult than I have used in this story in the past. Emotions are running pretty high right now in the Cullen household so please forgive what ever you hear. ***
Without further ado, I present Edward's side of things:
The last sixteen hours had been nothing short of horrible. Carlisle had decreed that Tanya and I be locked in the music room until we found some common ground to stand on. He assumed that we could find the bonds of friendship that we used to share if given enough time alone.
I knew better.
I had been lonely and depressed before, believing that there was no one who would ever love the monster that I am and standing firm on the belief that I couldn't love anyone romantically because that required one to give their heart and soul to another and my heart was a dead useless lump taking up space in my hollow chest and my soul was lost the moment the first drops of human blood hit my tongue.
Tanya had understood that. She believed in the same things I did. She also felt that we were soulless creatures doomed to walk the earth forever, however she felt that as long as she was beyond redemption she should enjoy every carnal pleasure that this life had to offer. That is where our views differed.
Passion, lust, desire and love all went hand in hand in my book and since I wasn't capable of one I was capable of none.
Isabella Swan had changed that the moment she spoke my name in her sleep. She showed me that I can love and gave me hope that I do in fact have a soul.
I have tried to explain all of this to Tanya but she really only listened to one part of my explanation and has been trying to use my new outlook on love so that they leaned in her favor. Her argument was that if I realized that I was able to love and lust then I could join her in her escapades.
She reasoned that she could teach me about sex and desire and if I wanted Bella could reap the benefits of said education. She refused to believe that the only person I even thought of in that manner was Bella and we have been circling around each other in this disagreement since Carlisle ushered us in this room and closed the door.
I had been tempted to leave many times but I knew that Carlisle had good intentions with this so I would give it my all until he came home from the hospital.
He would see then that there was no chance at a reconciliation of Tanya and my friendship until she accepted that I was in love with Bella and stopped her ludicrous pursuit of my affections.
Edward, Bella has been worrying about us all day so I am going to go see her and calm her down. I will bring her back here later. Do try not to kill Tanya while I'm gone.
Alice left to make sure that Bella was alright and bring her here. I wanted this show down between me and Tanya over when she got here so I fostered all of the patience that I could and tried once more to reason with the unreasonable.
"Tanya, this has gone on long enough. Please, try to understand that Bella is the only one for me and move on. I am truly sorry if you're feelings have been hurt but I can not and will not give you what you want. I don't love you Tanya, you know that so please just be reasonable" she cut me off with a growl.
"How dare you Edward Cullen?! I never asked you for love. I asked you for a mutual pleasurable release! I don't care if your silly human is the love of your pathetic existence I don't want your heart. I can have any man's heart I want. All I am asking you for is a chance to experience your body. I am willing to wait until after your Bella has had her turn, if that's what you want." she started her speech with a clenched jaw and rough tone but was practically purring by the end.
"You are the most ridiculous creature on this Earth! Get this though your thick skull, Tanya. I. Do. Not. Want. You." I shouted all pretense of patience forgotten.
"Liar! Every man wants me!" she yelled back.
"I don't! Bella is the only woman I have ever or will ever desire so just leave me the hell alone" I was seething and for a moment contemplated just tearing her head off. It could be reattached. The only thing that kept me from attacking her was the sound of my love's truck coming up the drive.
I readjusted my tone and spoke to Tanya like one would speak to an unruly toddler.
"Tanya, Bella is here and I would really like to see her so please try to calm yourself down so that Carlisle will let us leave this room."
"Okay Edward. I'd like to see Bella too." I bet if I explained how much better Edward would be in bed after he gains some experience she would agree with me.
"You will do no such thing. Bella is a sweet innocent young woman and I will not allow you to corrupt her with your wicked thoughts." I growled.
Fine, fine Edward. Let's just sit here and be quiet for a few minutes and I'm sure Carlisle will send someone in here to release us soon.
Tanya began translating the book 'The Joy of Sex' into her native Russian in her head. I sighed and relaxed now that she was thinking something besides vulgar thoughts involving me. I sat down on the chaise and ran my hand through my hair. I wasn't physically tired, no that was an impossibility but I was emotionally and intellectually exhausted.
I heard Bella speaking to Carlisle and then her precious heartbeat began to grow louder. She was coming towards the music room. She paused outside the door taking a deep breath and then my world exploded.
Without warning Tanya pounced on me wrapping her legs around my waist and her arms gripped my shoulders. I saw her intent before she could move again and grabbed her face to keep her from trying to kiss me.
Bella had opened the door at that exact moment. Tanya's face was smug as were her thoughts. I win.
I was stunned at Tanya's actions. I was frozen in anger until I heard Bella's sweet voice mumble an apology for interrupting and begin to back out of the room.
"Bella" I called but the door was already closed. I stood still holding Tanya's head in my hands. She lowered her body to the floor when she saw the look of loathing and fury on my face.
Oh calm down Edward. The little human will be fine.
That made me even angrier so I slammed her head off of the nearest wall growling the entire time. She sprang to her feet and crouched down ready to attack when the door flew open. I was held by Emmett and Jasper. Kate and Eleazar restrained Tanya.
Carlisle stood in between us looking very angry. He opened his mouth to speak only to close it again not knowing what to say. His thoughts were incoherent and colored with anger and disappointment. Jasper was sending out calming waves to the room but my anger was too great. I was glaring at Tanya and she was glaring back. She had purposely tried to hurt my Bella.
"No! I want to go home" I heard Bella say in the most broken tone I had ever heard. I growled at Tanya and Jasper tried again to calm me.
I heard Rosalie and Irina speaking with Bella it sounded like Rose was insulting her.
"Did she see Edward toss Tanya head first into the wall and go into shock?"
Bella's heart sped up and her voice rang out with fury.
"No, Rosalie but I did see Tanya draped across your cheating brother's lap. So forgive me for being a little upset. Now move, so that I can get out of here. I am going home." She released a heartbreaking sob at the end of her rant.
The next thing I knew Rosalie was standing directly in front of me.
"Did you do this?" Did you cheat on Bella with Tanya? She was growling with both her words and her thoughts.
"No, Tanya attacked," but I didn't get to finish because at that moment I heard Bella's parting words to Esme.
"Don't you dare tell me that I am mistaken, Esme. I know what I saw and I will never forget that image if I live to be a hundred. So please just let me leave." She sounded so broken, so hurt then she was gone. My love had left me because of Tanya's perverse actions. That thought enraged me and I pulled away from my brothers, jumped over Rosalie and had Tanya's head between my hands before anyone even moved.
"Edward no!" Alice shouted distracting me long enough to allow Emmett and Jasper to pull me backwards away from Tanya.
"If I have lost her because of you I swear to all that is holy that you will die." My voice was a low menacing snarl. She shuddered at my tone and threat.
"Please calm down Edward. I'd like for you to tell me what happened." Carlisle quietly demanded.
I took a deep unneeded breath. I struggled for a moment trying to find a way to explain what happened and not call Tanya the whore that I thought she was.
"That lying deceitful tramp told me that she understood that Bella and I were together and she agreed to stop her incessant putrid taunting with her thoughts. We heard Bella coming down the hall and as soon as she turned to door knob that vile creature pounced on me. She wrapped herself around me and tried to kiss me. I was trying to push her off.
Bella saw me grab Tanya's face and I assume that she thought I was trying to kiss her. Bella closed the door before I could stop her and I threw the loathsome creature that was assaulting me against the wall and that's when you all came in" I tried very hard to contain my anger. I wanted my brothers to release me so that I could go after Bella.
Not tonight Edward. She is too hurt. Give her some space tonight; she will be more likely to listen tomorrow when she has had a chance to process everything. Alice told me, she must have seen my decision to go to Bella as soon as I had made it.
"Is that true Tanya? Did you do this thing that Edward is accusing you of? Please tell me it's all a lie." Kate asked already knowing the answer.
Tanya nodded and let out a mournful sob. She wasn't sorry for what she did. She was just upset that her sisters were going to be angry at her actions.
"Why sister? The Cullens are family Tanya, why would you disrespect them in this manner." Irina couldn't believe her sister would purposely hurt those she called family.
"He rejected me! What else was I supposed to do?" Tanya's voice was quiet but forceful.
"Accept it and move on." Irina.
"Back off and leave him alone" Kate.
"Carlisle, I am truly sorry for what has occurred here. Tanya's actions were deplorable. I think that we should be leaving now." Eleazar lead the Denali clan out of the music room.
"Oh, hell no!" Rosalie shouted running ahead of them. "That little jezabel isn't going to cause all of this trouble and then just walk away. She is coming with me." Rose grabbed Tanya by the arm and dragged her away from her stunned sisters.
Alice laughed when they disappeared out of the backdoor then quickly blocked her thoughts so that I couldn't see what she was thinking.
"What did you see? Where did they go, Alice dear" Esme asked her.
Alice shook her head laughing. "No way, I'm not saying any thing. Just know that Rose will not cause any physical harm to Tanya." She froze for a split second then laughed again.
"Okay she will not cause much physical harm to Tanya." she amended.
Em and Jazz released me and we all moved to the living room to wait for Rose to come back. I was waiting for the sun to come up because as soon as it did I was going to go to my love and beg her forgiveness.
Okay there is Edward's side of the Tanya incident. Any guess where Rose took Tanya? Review and let me know what you think.