(Takeru's p.o.v.)
'thoughts'
[language change]
{flashback}
[I still think that we should fake fainting to get out of talking to them right now. Just this time since we both can't handle the negative energy they hold.] Willis stated to me as he spoke in Russian for some reason. Maybe because no one knew this language and so we could talk comfortably. I nodded and swallowed before closing my eyes and letting Nadia catch me as Rath did for Willis.
"They must still be tired so if you would please come back next time." She said as she helped me seems more unconscious by letting me sleep on the couch. When they left I got up and looked at the window to see the sun shining brightly and no clouds in sight. It looked so beautiful and I was glad for once since the day I knew I could control the weather.
"I think we should open a gate so we can see the digital world and purify it. We haven't gone… let's go to the roof no one will notice us there." I told them after I put on a scarf Patamon helped me make two winters ago. I loved winter and it was soon going to be November.
When we got on the roof Willis grabbed my hand for support.
"Digital gate materialize. Open to Gennai's house." I said as the gate opened to show the lake where Gennai's house is.
The moment I stepped through the gate everything went black and all the sound disappeared.
"Little child of hope did you think that you could step here and not suffer my wrath?" the voice of a Nemesis spoke as a chain wrapped around my neck. 'I have to escape this now. With a voice as sweet as time unbinds this chain.' I thought as the chain broke and I opened my eyes to see Willis shaking me. I coughed a couple times to gain my breathing.
"I'm okay Willis… we have company," I said looking into the bushes straight at the other digidestined.
"Hey your partners are here so come on out." I said to Biyomon as she flew down from a tree.
"Really where?" she asked excitedly as I pointed and turned to the lake waiting for the stairs to appear.
As I began walking down the stairs I watched all the fish and a Seadramon pass and bow to me. I bowed in return and watched as he left to protect the destiny stones.
"Takeru what brings you here?" I looked around to see Leomon and Elecmon at the coffee table.
"Purification." Nadia stated glancing around for any signs of negative spirit energy. When she didn't find any she sat down by the wall while Rath leaned on it with his arms crossed over his chest.
"I understand that you Digidestined opened your heart to the darkness." Gennai stated in an angry disappointed voice. I didn't want them to get in trouble.
"It was my fault Gennai."
"And how was it your fault Takeru? What did you do to warrant them to harbor ill feelings?"
"I was weak. I didn't tell them anything. I kept secrets and avoided them. Lost touch with them and I-" Gennai cut me off of my self destructive rant by pushing me into a bed couch with a cup of tea.
"Stop this Takeru. I know you don't want anyone getting in trouble but it can't be helped. This time you can't take the blame for this. This isn't some kid bringing a gun to school and you taking the blame." He said and I barely contained a flinch when he said this.
"You saved them and that's understandable that you wish to protect them. But they aren't Nicholas!" there was a stunned silence and I stood up.
"Don't you think I know that?! I know I couldn't save Nicholas and I know that I helped him kill his self! But I can't… why am I so weak!" I shouted angrily at myself and dropped the cup of tea. I felt a tear fall and stopped completely. '10. 9. 8. 7. 6. 5. 4. 3. 2. 1. okay. Calm down be happy. Today is a beautiful day.' I thought as I opened my eyes and sat down to drink the tea.
"Can I have more tea?" I asked Gennai when I was confident my voice was clear. He nodded and turned away from me. He seemed disappointed and I almost dropped my smile but kept it going. 'No need to ruin a day like this with my little problems'
"Take-chan, why don't we get started on purifying this place." Willis asked looking at me with concern to which I waved off.
"Guardians of light that protect these worlds. Renew the shield of Hope and Miracles to the worlds. Banish the negative energy and bring forth the light in the dark. The dark in the light and restore the balance of powers." I said closing my eyes listening to everything breathe and beat as a whole. Everything was at peace and this time I knew why I had to do this.
"Takeru come inside please. We have to speak." Gennai stated frustration in his voice as he motioned for us to enter.
"Do you still blame your self?" I took the tea and stared at it while nodding silently.
("Hey Takeru come on inside. Mom and dad won't mind you stay a bit and besides we have homework to do." I nodded to Nicholas as he unlocked the door ignoring his fighting parents as usual. But this time it didn't work because his father struck us both.
"I'm sorry Mr. Gregory. " I said in hopes of him not striking his wife and son again. I tended to stay a while so he couldn't hurt them and he hurt me sometimes but I ignored that. He left the house and drove off.
"I'm really sorry Mrs. Gregory. Would you like something to eat? Or some water?" I asked as Nicholas and I began to clean her wounds and bandage her bruises. She shook her head and laid down to rest after we set her down gently on the guest bed. Which was closer to Nicholas room so we could watch and protect her. (School in America)
"Nicholas why do you have this gun?"
"Because Tk I can't take it. Mom and Dad are coming right now so when they come we'll all be a happy family." I looked at him as he put my hands on the gun with him. We shot his parents and then he smiled at me before pulling the trigger with my fingers.)
I was brought out of my daze by Gennai shaking me.
"Yeah what is it that you need Gennai?" I asked happily making sure to keep my mind, hear t and soul happy. Everything happened to be tapped into the weather and I didn't want to ruin it.
"Stop that. It's not healthy for you to keep doing this." I shook my head and sat down next to Nadia. 'As long as I smile then nothing bad will happen.'
"With Light there is Knowledge and with Knowledge there is power. With Power there is Hope and with Hope there is Miracles." I said remembering Nicholas' words.
"Take-chan please stop it for right now. I just want to see the little boy who stood up for the ones who couldn't stand up for themselves." I looked at Willis trying so hard to keep my smile.
"I can't… and you know that so stop I please." I begged him as I could hear the distant rumble of thunder. 'Just have to keep calm and act as if this conversation never happened.'
"Takeru, I think it would be best if you stop letting your emotions be bottled up. I mean the sunshine and cloud free days are beautiful but we still need rain." Gennai explained which I knew since once every month I allow my self to shed tears.
"I'm going for a walk." I said quickly and practically ran out the door and onto Seadramon's head for a ride underwater. He really didn't mind letting me swim by him. In fact he helped me go lower to see all the beauty.
'This is so beautiful… I want to protect everything here.' I told him telepathically since I couldn't talk underwater. He nodded and took me up to get air.
"Hey Seadramon do you think it was my fault that the others… that they…"
"No child of Hope. You mustn't allow all of your Hope to diminish or the worlds will fall apart one by one." I nodded and looked up to see Halsemon flying above looking for me.
"Tk um Gennai told us everything. And well we're sorry." Yolei said and hovered next to me and Seadramon. I looked at Seadramon who helped me onto Halsemon. I looked at her hand and then my own seeing the blood covering it. 'I… take me under please Seadramon. I can't deal with this right now.' I asked him politely and he agreed taking me three thousand feet under to the destiny stone.
"It's beautiful isn't it Takeru?" Cody asked from inside Submarimon. I looked at him before swimming to the stone and touching it allowing its energy to flow through me. 'Thank you for giving me the strength to continue Angemon.' I thought feeling his power and essence coming from the Destiny stone.
"Takeru please let us explain to yo-" I grabbed onto Subamarimon's dorsal fin and looked up. Hoping that they would understand.
"Tk why'd you swim off like that?!" Yolei shouted angrily and I couldn't help but flinch in remembrance of how they acted before. I let go of the dorsal fin and looked at my hands again. 'Still there. Nothing can make it disappear, and those words he told me won't stop being repeated.' I looked up at them through my bangs to see Willis swimming this way.
"Hey Take-chan! Come on let's head home!" he called from afar as he stopped to catch his breath every few miles or so.
"No get out of the water Willis!" I shouted as I swam towards him quickly before tossing him at a 30 degree angle in between Cody and Yolei. A tail wrapped around me and began squeezing me tightly.
"Takeru!"
"I'm fine… I know how Matt felt now." I muttered weakly trying to breathe evenly. I heard a couple of my ribs crack and knew I was in trouble. So much pain and heat was all thought. What kind of digimon is this?
"Takeru you have to get out of Metal Seadramon's grasp!" so that's what type of digimon it is, the one from the dark masters. I heard myself laugh and I couldn't see why I was laughing.
"You think you can make me suffer? Do you honestly think such a pitiful and weak digimon such as your self dark master can cause me pain? Would you like me to show you real pain?" I heard myself taunt him. 'Why was I saying these things? What am i doing I have to stop it!' I heard myself laugh again and I escaped the grasp of Metal Seadramon and kicked him.
"Stop me please. Somebody… anybody." I begged as I kicked him again launching him into the cliff side. I ended up swimming quicker than ever to catch him and slam him again into the cliff side. I couldn't stop myself and no one could stop me.
"Lightning strike down the path before me!" I shouted before I could stop myself and watched as Metal Seadramon began turning into data. 'What's wrong with me? Why did I just do that to him…?'
'WHO THE HELL AM I!!!!!!!!!" I heard myself cry as I hit the floor beside his head watching as he slowly vanished. I could feel the rain hit me and wash away my tears.
"How many more people, digimon, and innocents will I destroy before it finally ends?" I lay there watching as his data finally vanished and saw a pair of feet come into view. 'Was the only thing I could do right now cause pain?' someone was talking but it sounded so far away, who was talking?
"I'm so tired. Just let me sleep please." I heard myself mumble weakly before everything went dark and I felt at peace.