Holy crap, 200 hits in less than 24 hours. I don't know if that's a good number, but it makes me happy. .

This here chapter is basically all dialogue. But it's interesting. I got sick of always seeing Sora as the innocent I-would-never-do-anything-wrong-in-my-life character, so I changed it up a bit.

Anyways: Rated M for language and what not.

Warnings: A shit ton of dialogue, and no, I don't own any of these characters.

Loveless Lies

Chapter 5: The truth is a lie, lover.

"You weren't my first time with a guy."

For the first time in Riku's 18 years of existence, he was silent. He has slept with other guys. I wasn't his first time. Should I be angry, upset, scared I might have AIDS? No, you idiot. This is Sora. He wouldn't have been that stupid. Maybe he was just using me…

Sora hated the silence. He wanted to say something to break it, but he knew the statement hurt Riku. Riku hates me. A tear formed in the corner of his left eye and trickled down his cheek. He thinks I'm a whore. I am a whore.

Riku turned to see a distraught Sora. He's never this quiet. He's waiting for me to say something...uhh... "Who was it?" Riku finally managed to get out of his mouth.

Sora sighed, "You remember Demyx, right? Axel's ex?"

"Oh God, no. Not him" Riku shuddered.

Sora shook his head violently, "Jesus, no." Sora paused, tangled in his thoughts of the past.

"Go on…"

"Well, um, back before me and Kairi started dating, so that was the summer before sophomore year, I went with Axel and Demyx to Radiant Gardens Theme Park. You were sick, and we needed a fourth person or else someone would have to ride by themselves. So, Demyx invited his friend from Traverse Town to come along. Zexion"

"So you had sex with him at a theme park, " Riku said bitterly.

"No! Let me finish"

Riku rolled his eyes, "Fine."

"He was hitting on me the entire day. But subtly. Like he would buy me ice cream or won me stuff from the games. He's a loner according to Demyx. Demyx was surprised that Zex was even speaking to me, let alone leading me on. I didn't like him. At all. I was in love with Kairi. So I tried to ignore his comments. His blue-ish hair. His smile. I would try to think about Kairi, but when it was time to leave he kissed me and I melted and I wrote my screen name on his arm," Sora blurted out with amazing speed.

"We only talked a few times on AIM. I figured he forgot about me, so I didn't bother bringing him up to anyone. It was just a stupid crush. Besides I was with Kairi. I was happy, right? We didn't even see each other again until this school year. Remember what happened after the last football game?"

"Yeah, wasn't that when Kairi wanted to go to some club, but you didn't want to," Riku said.

"She told me that either I go, or I could fuck off for all she cared. So I walked away. I felt bad after five minutes, like I always do. I drove to the Interbelt and saw he grind up against some guy. The way she was dancing. It was like she was having sex with him. I couldn't take it. I came home and got online. As usual, Zex was at home and online on a Friday night. I told him I was coming over. He gave me directions. I don't know what got into me. I drove three hours straight, leaving my cell at home, to see some kid I liked, or almost liked, over two years ago."

"I was worried fucking sick about you. I called everyone. I blew off some girl who wanted in my pants and scouted every coffee shop and bar for miles looking for your ass."

"Sorry," Sora blushed then continued. "Anyways, I was crying hysterically when I arrived at Zex's apartment. I told him about Kairi and how she was a bitch. I told him that I thought I had feelings for him, but was scared. The whole time he held me in his lap telling me, that Kairi didn't deserve me, and I was beautiful. Kairi never told me that. I kissed him. One thing led to another, and…yeah…"

"So, in October, you had sex with some kid named Zexion, who you may or may not have liked," Riku said. That's not so bad. Kairi was being a bitch. Hell, I would have done the same thing...

"That's not all."

"Are you fucking serious?"

Sora pulled into Axel's apartment complex and parked. Neither of the two boys moved to get out of the car. Riku glared at Sora expecting more of an explanation.

Sora took a deep breath, "The next morning I left to come home. Zex begged me to stay, but I couldn't. I hated myself for cheating on Kairi with a guy. But there was something about that night with Zexion that wouldn't leave my mind all the way home. It felt better than anything I had ever done with Kairi. That's what scared me. I kept making pro con lists in my head, one for Kairi and one for Zex. I thought I could figure everything out, then I saw you sleeping on my couch…"

"I had begged your mom to do so. I though you had offed yourself," Riku tried to explain.

"I figured as much. With all the thoughts of Kairi, Zex and me possibly being gay…I.. I saw you differently. I walked towards you. You looked so.. perfect. I wanted to hold you and tell you I was sorry for not calling. I don't know why, but I just want to kiss you. Then you woke up and latched onto me. telling me you were glad I wasn't dead. You told me that Kairi didn't deserve me. Just like Zex had, but there was something more when you said it. I don't know what.. But it meant the world to me."

Riku blushed at the thought of meaning that much to the brunette.

"I decided to hide my feelings from you and the whole incident with Zexion. I was ashamed. I forgave Kairi, but every time I looked at her, all I saw was that guy all up in her business, then I thought of Zex, then you. I don't know.

"Zex called me a few days later. Asking if I was okay. He wondered if I had thought anymore about the possibility of a relationship with him. I told him I was straight, but I knew I wasn't. Then one night after work in December, I went to see my dad in Traverse Town. I saw Zexion outside at a coffee shop and lost it. I ran to him and threw my arms around him. I don't know why. I actually liked you. I was positive of it. I think I clung to Zex because he was completely out of reach from Kairi. I could have both. And I didn't want to tell you that I liked you because I was sure you were straight. You're always with girls."

Riku blushed, "They meant nothing to me."

Sora glanced over to Riku, locking eyes with the silver-haired boy. He's going to hate me. "So, I slept with Zexion, again and again and again. Every time I said was at my dad's, I was with Zexion."

"Jesus, Sora. You were up there at least once a week for quite some time."

"I know. It felt so good while I was with him. Everything seemed perfect, until he asked why he couldn't come down to Destiny Islands and meet my friends, you especially. He thought me and Kairi were over. He told me he loved me, Riku. God, I was still with Kairi, and there were my feelings about you. I couldn't love Zexion. I didn't love Zexion. I didn't say it back. I told him I had to go. He looked devastated. He had loved me. I was completely using him. I felt like complete shit. I knew if I told Kairi, she would have the same look on her face. She would hate me. I couldn't tell her. It would kill her. So I hid it."

Riku shook his head. Fuck. That's a lot for me not to know. "When was the last time you saw him?"

"May. The beginning of May."

Riku looked away from Sora. He found a nice rock on the ground outside the car and starred at it. Once again, Riku was at a loss of words. Sora fidgeted in the silence.

"Riku, I'm sorry I never told you. I never told anyone up until this point. Not even Roxas. No one. But I thought I should tell you, because…I uh…I love you," Sora rapidly fired the words from his mouth, and then there was silence.

"Well how the fuck am I supposed to trust you? Huh? You go around telling Kairi you love her and bang some poor kid miles away at the same time. He falls for you, you fucking leave him high and dry, then come on to me? How do I know you won't cheat on me? How do I know you will actually get the fucking guts to tell Kairi you're gay?" Riku screamed at the poor brunette who was now in tears, shaking violently. Nice one. Make the boy cry. He just poured his soul to you, and you treat him like shit.

"I deserved all of that," Sora said between sobs. "I will understand if you don't like me anymore. I really do love you. I need to tell Kairi…I'm a piece of shit. You shouldn't talk to me anymore. No one should."

Riku had never in his life seen Sora like this. Sora was always happy, bouncing around, tripping on everything and smiling.Yeah, he had been pissed off at Kairi a lot recently, but he had never looked this way: completely helpless and hurting more than the boy ever should. Riku couldn't stand seeing it.

Riku grabbed Sora from the driver's seat and held him close to his body. I don't care what he's done. He's still Sora."It's going to be okay. I will always be here for you. I was just scared that you were going to lead me on and then leave me. All that stuff about Zexion… I had no idea. I…I still want to be with you." Riku said as he stroked the brunette's spiked hair.

Sora sniffed as he looked up with his shinning blue eyes, "Really?"

"Of course," Riku smiled. "I've liked you for 6 years now. I'm not letting you get away that easily." He squeezed Sora close to his chest. He could feel the smaller boy's warm breath against his neck.

"I'll tell Kairi. By tomorrow, I promise," Sora reassured Riku.

"You'd better," Riku said as he consumed Sora's lips with his own, pushing his tongue through the smaller boys parted lips. Finally, Riku retracted his kiss for some much needed air, "I don't know how long I can keep that a secret."

Holy shit batman! That was a bunch of dialogue. I seriously tried to condense it, but I failed.

I like the turn out, though. ::shrugs::

Another update by Sunday! What's to come: How will Roxas take the news? Will Sora actually grow balls and tell Kairi?

--Em