Chris and Ashley were waiting for Ashley's gynecologic oncologist. Steve was watching the five kids for them. Dr. Ragsdale walked in with the metal clipboard. "Mrs. Jericho, Mr. Jericho." He said nodding his head.

"Dr. Ragsdale please call me Ashley." She said softly.

"Alright Ashley. How are you feeling?" He asked.

Ashley smiled. "I feel good." She said as she pushed her long black hair out of her face.

Dr. Ragsdale smiled and nodded. "That's good news. Alright well let's talk about your treatment." He said.

Ashley nodded. "Alright."

"The most common treatment is a hysterectomy followed by chemo." Dr. Ragsdale said looking straight at Ashley.

"No absolutely not." Ashley said quickly. "I would like to have other children someday."

Dr. Ragsdale smiled and nodded. "Alright then your only other choice is chemotherapy. The type I would put you on is Taxol."

Ashley nodded and looked at Chris who squeezed her hand. "That's fine." She said.

Dr. Ragsdale raised an eyebrow. "You sure you don't want to discuss this with your husband first?" He asked.

Chris shook his head. "No. She knows what she wants." He said with a supportive smile.

Dr. Ragsdale nodded and smiled. "Well how this is going to work is it's going to be six rounds of Taxol. One a week is that okay?" He asked. "I could space them out every two weeks I would prefer the once a week Taxol."

Ashley looked at Chris and nodded. "The one a week is okay with me." She said.

Dr. Ragsdale nodded and smiled. "Well let's not waste anymore time. We'll get your treatments started today."

Ashley came home later that day exhausted. "Mama play!" Noah cried as he jumped into her arms.

Ashley smiled and set her three-year-old year old on the floor. "Not right now baby boy." She said quietly.

Noah looked up a hurt expression written on his face. His mother had always dropped everything to play with him. "No mama plays now!" Noah said in a firm voice as he stopped his foot.

"Not right now Noah." Ashley said.

Noah started to cry. "Mama mean!" He shouted.

Ashley turned to Chris. "Chris please help me out." She said holding back tears.

Chris smiled and nodded. He picked up Noah. "Come on buddy let's let mama rest. We'll play airplane." He said with a laugh.

Ashley made her way up to her and Chris' room. She laid down in there king sized bed and turned on the TV. It was going to be hard dealing with not only both of her boys but also Chris' other three kids. She sighed, closed her eyes, and quickly fell asleep.

It was seven o clock at night and Noah, Austin and the twins were all sleeping. While Ash played quietly in the den. Chris brought up a plate of food for Ashley. He gently shook her awake. "Hey." She whispered a smile gracing her face.

Chris smiled and kissed her softly. "How you feeling baby?" He asked.

Ashley shrugged. "Okay."

Chris nodded and handed her the glass of ice water. "Dr. Ragsdale said to drink plenty of fluids. Plus you have to eat this whole plate."

Ashley grabbed the glass and downed half of it in a couple of gulps. "Ah!" She said with a smile. "No food Chris. If I eat I am going to throw up."

Chris shook his head. "You need to keep your weight up. Dr. Ragsdale said now is the time." He said.

Ashley shrugged. "I'll eat as much as I can okay?" She asked.

Chris nodded. "It's a start." He said and tucked a piece of her hair behind her ear.

"How are the kids?" Ashley said as she took a bite of chicken.

Chris smiled. "All are sleeping but Ash." He said.

Ashley nodded. "Noah still upset with me?" She asked. She hated her boys being mad at her. They were used to their mother dropping everything to spend a little time with them.

Chris shook his head. "No. Ash explained to him your sick and need rest."

Ashley smiled. "That boy is going to make a fine lawyer one day."

"Ash?"

"Yeah! He's nine years old and knows how to talk his way out of everything!" Ashley giggled.

Chris smiled glad that Ashley was in good spirits. "I love you."

"I love you too." Chris grinned and kissed his wife.

"Do you need anything?" He asked.

Ashley shrugged. "More sleep." She answered honestly.

Chris nodded. "Alright. I'll bring you up some more water so if you wake up you won't have to get up."

Ashley nodded. "Ya know a girl can get used to dinner in bed and being waited on hand and foot." She said with a small laugh.

"Don't get too used to it!" Chris teased and walked out of the room. Once outside he sighed and slid down the wall.

'What am I going to do if I lose her?' He asked himself. It was the first time he had allowed that thought to enter his mind. Ashley was his one and only. He absolutely couldn't imagine life without Ashley by his side. He sighed and walked by Austin's room. Austin sat on the bed looking through a picture book.

"Aren't you supposed to be asleep?" Chris asked.

Austin looked up at him with the baby blue eyes, his mother's eyes. Austin was the spitting image of his mother. His black hair was long and hung around his face and his eyes stood out from the pale face and curtain of black hair. Chris sighed if he lost Ashley he wasn't sure how he would be able to look at his son. "Mama didn't come and read to me." He said sadly. "She always tucks me and Noah in."

Chris sighed. "Come on buddy let's go see Mama." He said praying Ashley was still awake.

"Noah, come on daddy's taking us to see Mama!" Austin called and the blonde hair blue eyed three year old rushed out.

Once in the master bedroom Ashley grinned when she saw her sons. "Mama! Noah and me waited and waited for you to come but you didn't come!" Austin cried.

Ashley smiled sadly. "I am sorry bubba. I am super tired. Can I read you both the same story here?" She asked.

"Yeah!" Austin said and handed her the picture book he had been looking at. "I choose it earlier!" Austin and Noah both settled down. Ashley smiled at the book in her hand, it had been always been a favorite especially as a child. Steve had first read Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good Very Bad Day by Judith Viorst.

By the time she finished both of her boys were sleeping. She kissed each of their foreheads and Chris carried them back to bed. Chris had assumed Ashley would go directly to sleep but as he walked past their room her head her crying.

When he opened the door, Ashley laid facing the wall so she couldn't see him. He crept over to the bed, slid in, and held his wife in his arms. She turned towards him tears streaking her face. "I don't wanna die Chris; I wanna see my boys grow up." She sobbed.

Chris smiled and kissed her tears away. "You'll be there with me when they get married." He promised her.