I felt burning so much burning. It started in my toes and worked it's way up to my head. Oh God my head is throbbing! I wanted the pain to go away , I screamed and thrashed my legs about , trying to stop the pain but then I felt my heart speed up faster & faster till nothing. Complete silence except the drip-drops off the excess water from the storm. I , me , a vampire? I don't want to be a vampire , not know , after Edward left who am I suppose to share my eternal life with , am i suppose to be alone. "completely & Utterly alone" I whispered to myself while getting up and taking in my surroundings. Everything looked so clearer , it felt like I could see , like really see. 'Wow' I sighed. I looked out beyond the forest with my newly enhanced seeing and ran to any direction the wind took me.
------------------------------------------------ 79 years later -------------------------------------------------
"Ryan!" I hissed super low that any human couldn't hear. I saw Ryan's head pop out behind the door of the dressing room. I smiled at him and he smiled back as he entered the room. As he walked in , I closed the door with my mind. You see I'm telepathic and i can bring anything back to life. I have a shield but i can also use other vampires gifts as my own. So like i can store them inside of me until they are in need of use. So technically I have all Vampire gifts. But the most special that only I have is I can control my body with my mind. Like if I'm lets say thirsty i can use my mind to tell my body I'm full and I wont be Thirsty so I can not hunt forever. Oh and I can change my Appearance how awesome is that wow I'm starting to sound like Dylan.
"Bella?" Ryan asked snapping me out of my monologue. Humph he ruins the moment.
"What?" I hissed. Wow that was rude. I looked up at him with a sorryful expression , he understood.
"Were on in 5" He stated walking out of the room. I sighed and got up to check my make-up in the mirror. I looked at my glossy Brown hair and with a snap of my fingers I had Faint gold highlights. Much better. I put on my Black pumps and looked at myself again. I had on Black skinny Jeans with a white studded belt-a white t-shirt with a black vest that was left un-buttoned , My hair was all the way down cascading down my back to the middle and my bangs were swept to the left. I looked at myself once more and headed out to stage.
"How's it going San Antonio?" I yelled into the microphone. I heard shouting and screams of yeas & Goods.
"I didn't hear you!" I yelled again. The people screamed louder. I grinned at them , my fans were everything to me.
" Okay im going to start off with All around me and then im going to end off with a new song , Kay?"
Everyone nodded.
The music started and you can say I kind of got in the Zone.
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm still alive, I'm still alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you, you
I'm still alive
I'm still alive
We're still alive
And I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
So I cry
Holy
The light is white
Holy
And I see you
Only You
And I'm alive
I'm still alive
We're still alive
And I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
As the song ended , I quietly hissed to my band mates that we were going to sing Sorrow and then Im so sick
Sometimes life seems to quiet into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark, meant to make me strong.
Familiar breath of my old lies
Changed the color in my eyes
Soon he will perferate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you, and hold for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole... as you flew right through me.
Left alone with only reflections of the memory
To face the ugly girl that's smothering me.
Sitting closer than my pain...
He knew each tear before it came,
And soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
We kiss each other one more time
And sing this lie that's half way mine
The sword is slicing through the questions so I won't be fooled
By his angel light..
Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you and for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole as you flew right though me
and up into the stars
Joy will come
We quickly went into our next song
I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now
Hear it, I'm screaming it
You tremble at this sound
You sink into my clothes
This invasion makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so, I'm so sick
I'm so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so (I'm so)
I'm so sick (I'm so sick)
I'm so (I'm so)
I'm so sick (I'm so sick)
I told the guys i just wanted my guitar and im going to do the acoustic version , they nodded and left why I played :
The fog went up and went it came down I was sitting on a stool with a guitar in my hands and the microphone by my mouth but still close to my guitar and so I started :
The walls between
You and I
Always pushing us apart nothing left but scars fight after fight
The space between
Our calm and rage
started growing shorter , disappearing slowly day after day
I was sitting there waiting in my room for you
You were waiting for me too
And it makes me wonder
The older I get
Will I get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I didn't know then it would hurt like this but I think
The older I get
Maybe I'll get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this
The time between
Those cutting words
Built up our defenses never made no sense it just made me hurt
Do you believe
That time heals all wounds
It started getting better but it's easy not to fight when I'm not with you
What was I waiting for
I should've taken less and given you more
I should've weathered the storm
I need to say so bad
What were you waiting for
This could have been the best we ever had
Altro:
I'm just getting older
I'm not getting over you I'm trying to
I wish it didn't hurt like this
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this
As i stopped i got up and bowed with a grin on my face and left towards the back of the stage.
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