Disclamer: i own none of the characters, sad i kno...
On my way to Forks Hospital, I felt more tears. Since I'm driving on a motorcycle, I thought tears wouldn't be a good thing. I let my thoughts roam to other things.
They flowed to Jasper. Why did they do that? Was it because I had a crush on him? No I don't. Do I? I wouldn't really know. Yes, he was cute, and shy and a gentleman, but that doesn't mean I like him?
I had to get to know Jasper Cullen better. That is my goal for this year. I did find out that him and his sister have a weird thing for sniffing the air. At least I'm pretty sure that they do. That was defiantly weird. But hey, some people do crazy things, who am I to judge?
I also know that here is something… off, about all of the Cullen's. I just don't know what it is. I know they are all adopted, but they have the same color eyes. It could just be a coincidence, but there aren't many people with eye color like that.
I parked my bike in the parking lot and since I thought no one would steal it, I left my helmet on the seat.
I headed up to the front desk when I got in the doors. There was a nice but bored looking nurse sitting in the swivel chair just behind the desk.
"Um, excuse me?" I didn't know if she was busy or not.
She looked up from what she was writing. "Yes dear? How may I help you?"
"I'm looking for my mother's room. Someone called and said she was transferred here today from Phoenix. Her name is Isabella Barnett." I told her.
She smiled at me. "Just a moment." She looked it up on the computer. "Room 221, dear."
I smiled back at her. "Thank you."
I went to the elevator and pressed level 2. When the doors opened and I stepped out, I saw someone who I didn't think would be here. Jasper Cullen. He was talking to a doctor with topaz colored eyes too. His name tag said "Dr. Cullen". He looked more like a model that a doctor.
I walked by quietly, so as not to interrupt their conversation. I didn't mean to eavesdrop, but I caught some of the words.
They were talking about someone with no smell. That's odd.
My room was next to where they were talking, so of course they saw me. They stopped talking as soon as I got near. I caught Jaspers eye and I blushed a little bit.
I stopped at my moms doorway, just looking at her motionless form. A tear rolled down me cheek at the sight, all of a sudden a wave of calm swept over me. I have no idea where that came from but I welcomed it.
"Mom." I whispered.
I walked slowly into the room and took her limp hand in my own.
"It's to see you again mom. I've missed you so much." At that point I could barely see, there were too many tears. "Why… why mom? Why wont you just wake up. I need you! I need you here for me!" I took a deep breath. "I love you so much! You just left me! I'm sorry for the way I acted that morning, I didn't mean anything! I just want the chance to say that I'm sorry face to face. Please wake up! Please, please, please."
I heard the heart monitor quicken. "Mom?"
Beep…beep…beep.. beep. Beep, beep, beep, beep.
"No! Help someone help me!" I yelled out to anyone.
Dr. Cullen rushed in. I was so thankful that he was there, kinda.
Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
"NO! YOU CANT DO THAT TO ME MOM!" I screamed.
I rushed to her side but to cold arms wrapped themselves around my waist, holding me back. Not caring who they belonged to, I struggled. I fought with all I had as nurses and Dr. Cullen tried to revive her.
"LET ME GO!" I screamed at whoever was holding me. I struggled still, but soon gave up. "You have to let me go, she needs me." I whispered. "Please."
Whoever, led me out of the room. I sunk to the floor, taking the person with me.
"Shhh, Bella. It's ok." He said.
I looked up, shocked to see that the arms belonged to Jasper.
"No it's not. She's gone and she is never going to come back." I started to cry even harder onto his shoulder, he gently stroked my hair. "She will never come back."
"Shhh, Bella." He continued to comfort me.
Why is he being so nice to me? I just met him today. I figured I didn't care and just let him hold me.
"Shhh, Bella."
Slowly I calmed down and stopped crying, but I didn't move out of his arms. I looked up and realized he was wearing an expensive looking shirt, I just ruined it.
"I'm sorry I ruined your shirt." I looked up into his eyes, they were kind and gentle.
"It's ok, it was getting old anyway." We both chuckled.
I then noticed I was still in his arms and we were still on the floor. I blushed a little. "We should probably get off the floor."
All he did was smirk and stood up, taking me along with him. He put me down and I started to laugh.
"What?" He was confused now.
"Oh, nothing." I smiled and looked away from the eyes that were about a foot taller than me. I think that is a slight exaggeration though.
I looked back towards the room where that were putting a white sheet over my moms head. Deep sadness seeped through my veins, but as soon as it came, it went away. What is going on with me?
"I can't believe she's gone." I didn't actually mean to say that out loud, but I did. A wave of calm washed over me, but I pushed it away. This is just creepy, what is wrong with my emotions?
"I'm so sorry Ms. Swan. There was nothing we could do." That was the standard thing to say, but it still hit me hard.
While he was talking, I let the tears spill again. I wasn't even embarrasses that I was crying in front of the guy I'm falling for and his father.
I leaned onto the wall. "I knew there was a chance that she wasn't going to wake up." I slip to the floor for the second time today. "I just didn't think she would pass so soon after she got here."
I put my head in my hands to cover my face as I let go of my remaining tears.
I felt someone sit down next to me and I looked up to see that it was Jasper yet again. He looked sad for me. "I'm so sorry Bella."
How could someone be this nice to someone they just met, let alone feel sorry for that person?
I composed myself as best as I could and said thanks to both Jasper and Dr. Cullen, who was still standing there.
"Well Jasper, Bella, I must be off. Jasper I'll see you when I get home. Bye." Dr. Cullen said.
I looked over at Jasper, who made no move to leave. "I'm sorry, you don't have to stay here with me."
"Oh no, Bella, its ok."
"No, no really. You don't know me, you can still catch him I think."
"It's really ok Bella." He smiled.
"Well, I guess its ok then." I smiled back at him.
What do you think?? i cried when i was writing this, some of you may not, but hey, im a softie.
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