Disclamer: as much as i would love it, i do not own any of the characters.

i dont really have anything to say, so read on...

For the next couple days, and weeks, Jasper and I hung out all the time. I also noticed he was acting a bit off. A lot of the time he was in deep thought. Every time I asked what he was thinking about, all he would say is, "You."

I spent a lot of time with his siblings too, even Edward, and I know that he doesn't really like me, but seems to be dealing with it.

Everyone at school knows that I am tight with the Cullen's and am dating Jasper. The only one who seems to still like me, is Angela. I hang out with her a lot too. Jessica, along with basically every other girl, tries to get me to spill gossip on them, but of course, I don't. Now they don't talk to me, and I receive glares, but I could care less about them. They'll eventually have to get over it.

As the bruises on my hips went away, so did my willingness to not know what the Cullen's are, and what secret it is that they're hiding. Like I said before, I don't care what they are, but this not knowing is killing me.

I gathered many little observations but my theories were always way off or are too crazy to even concider being true. I've noticed that not only do they not eat, but they don't drink either. I'm also guessing that they don't sleep, judging by the circles under their eyes. That could be wrong too, because there is no way Alice can be that hyper without any sleep. But what explains it then?

They love speed too, but not that I don't. They go even faster than me sometimes. And I have also seen them move extremely fast. Like one minute they are in the garage, and the next second they are in the kitchen, and the garage is pretty far from there basically on the other side of the house.

I wouldn't just ask Jasper what they are, that would be insane. Would I just go up to him and be like, "Hey Jasper? Are you human? What are you?" He would either think I'm crazy, be insulted, or want to have nothing to do with me anymore. That last one wasn't an option, I like being with him too much to jeopardize our relationship.

I also thought over the night when we started to go out, when I felt something I wasn't sure of. I realized what it really was, when Jasper kissed me goodnight about a week ago. It was love. I am totally in love with Jasper Hale, and I had no idea how to tell him.

Jasper and I have been going out for about a month already, and I already told my dad about it. I couldn't just keep it from him. Three days after our first kiss, I decided to tell Charlie, he took it better that I thought. It was almost scary.

Flashback

When I came home from school, I decided to make Charlie dinner. He needed to be in a good mood so I could tell him.

That night, Jasper was supposed to be taking me out to a movie in Seattle.

I made Charlie a steak and myself a salad. I didn't really like making him meat, but I couldn't just make him give it up because of my choice.

Charlie came home just when I started making my salad.

"Bella? I'm home," he called out to the whole house, I don't think he knew where I was.

"In the kitchen dad." I heard him taking off his boots by the door.

He entered the room with a smile on his face. "Wow, that smells incredible Bells."

I smiled back at him. "Why thank you. It's almost finished."

About 5 minutes later, all the plates and food was on the table and we were eating.

"How was work dad?" I decided to make small talk.

"Great, but there really isn't much that goes on in Forks." He winked.

I laughed. "Yeah, it doesn't seem like anyone really breaks the law here."

"So, how was your day?" He asked me.

"Pretty good, pretty good. I've made lots of friends here."Even if some of them don't like me anymore.

"Really?"

"You say it like you're surprised." He chuckled. "Well, Angela Webber is really nice, and I hang out with the Cullen's a lot too."

"Oh yeah, you did say you were friendly with them." I think he just remembered that.

"Well, I also kinda sorta have a crush on one of them." I looked down at my food. I don't know why I said it like that, it was almost too junior high school like.

"Really? Which one is that?" I expected yelling.

I looked up, he had his eyebrow raised. "Oh Jasper, he's the tall, blonde one, the one with the twin."

"Does he like you back?"

"I think he does. He asked me out." No need to tell him its been a couple days.

"When?"

"Well, he is taking me to a movie tonight. He said he would be here around 6:00." I hope this didn't make him mad.

He smiled. "Well I'm glad. Good for you." He then looked serious. "If he ever hurts you, there will be hell to pay, don't worry."

I chuckled. "Thanks dad, but I think you're the one who doesn't need to worry."

"Well have fun tonight, ok?"

End Flashback

I wonder what my mom would have done in Charlie's place. There would probably be a lot of giggling and explaining, and questions. I wonder what she would do if she found out I was in love. I didn't even want to think about it. I don't even want to think about the fact that she isn't even around to see it.

Think of another subject Bella.

I'm just sitting there, on my bed, looking out the window. I just got home from hanging out with Rosalie, Emmett, Alice and Jasper; I have no idea where Edward was.

Does Jasper feel the same way? What would happen if I tell him I love him? Would he laugh in my face, or say he doesn't feel the same way? This was all too confusing.

I don't think he's the type of guy to be mean about it, but I can never be sure. I still don't know that much about him. He doesn't really say much about his family. I don't want to badger him about it and seem too nosey, so I don't push it.

I want him to open up, to be able to trust me with whatever secret he is hiding. I want him to know that I will care about him, no matter what he is keeping to himself. I want to tell him how I feel.

I've decided. Tomorrow I will ask him over, and just tell him. It's a Saturday and Charlie is going fishing with some work buddies, so I hope Jasper will be able to come early.

I know I am taking a huge risk by letting him know, but I don't care. This will either make us closer, or push us apart.

I started to get ready for bed, and thought over what I was going to say. I think the best way is to just come out and say it, so that's exactly what I'm going to do.

Soon after I got into bed, I fell into a deep sleep.

When I woke up, I noticed it was light outside, not the usual dark, cloudy light, but a bright light. I jumped up and ran to the window. There were only a couple pitiful looking clouds in tha sky, and the sun was blazing.

I smiled up at it. Today was a perfect day. I guess the gods want me to tell him.

I flopped back down on the bed and squealed. I actually squealed. I have never done that in my entire life. I guess happiness makes me girlie.

Something in the back of my head was telling me I was wrong about today. Telling me today was going to be like every other day, and that nothing is going to happen.

I ignored the voice, and jumped up again. I grabbed my bag of toiletries and beaded for the bathroom. I did my hair, perfectly I might add, and my make-up. I looked hot! Now time for the outfit.

I rummaged through my closet and dresser to find a really good outfit. I settled on some bright yellow skinny jeans and a black batman logo tee. (images on profile)

I went downstairs and ate some cereal, hurrying so I could go call Jasper.

When I finally went and called him, he didnt answer. I called twice, and he still didn't answer. I even called Alice, Rosalie, Emmett and their home. No one answered. I debated with myself on weather I should go over there, i decided not to barge in, there could be something important going on.

All day I was moping about my bad luck.

The next day the sun was out again, but it wasn't any better than the day before. Stupid sun, I thought you were a good sign. Apparently I was wrong about you, you suck!

Again, on Monday, the stupid sun was out. I drove to school a little sad since I didnt get to tell Jasper that I love him. I scanned the parking lot looking for Edward's Volvo, that they all take, but it wasn't there.

The rest of the day sucked like the sun did. Apparently, Jasper not being there made Mike go after me. He asked me out about 5 times, even though he knows I'm with Jasper, and talked to me all day. He was so lucky that I didnt kick him in his manhood, which I almost did, many times.

After school, I drove home in a funk. I was mad at myself for not kicking Mike in the nuts and I was seriously confused as to why the Cullen's dissappeared, and that none of them called me.

As I turned the corner to the street my house was on, the sun almost blinded me. Something was making it shine in my face. Ugh! Stupid, stupid, stupid sun!! I hate you!

Could this be another hint as to what they are? The sun? That doesnt seem likely, but I'll store that away with my other observations, and follow that one closely.

i wanted to skip a couple weeks, i was tired of writing her when she first moved, and i thought i would add a bit about the sun.

ok, personally, i think i could have done much better on this chap. i know its really short, but i had no idea what i was going to write about, so this is what happened. all my other chaps i have written a long time ago, but now im going off the top of my head!

i have serious writers block!! im stuck between many possible things to happen! i originally wrote something, but i think it sucks, i have no idea what i was thinking!

i will either create a poll, or an authors note, and have you review, and let you decide between my ideas. but let me know what you think so far and REVIEW.

XJasperellaX

p.s. i promise, this will get better!! dont quit on me now ;D