I do not enjoy making people cry so sorry for that (you didn't really, did you? You're just saying that, right?)… And it will get happier, I just don't know how it will end yet (it's till making it's mind up— I just write down how the story comes to me in my head, it wants to speak for itself) lol =] Enjoy.
14) Promises
He's next.
I woke with a start, my hands feeling their way across the bed even though I knew Jacob wasn't there. I flicked my legs over the bed and leapt up, heading for the door and hauling it open half a second later.
Jacob, Jacob, Jacob.
His face kept flashing past me. His eyes were wide and for once terrified, his mouth hung open limply in shock and I tried to blink away the vision of his horror. I tried to blink away the vision of his body covered in deep crimson.
The hallucination affected my sight and so I stood turning in tight circles in the tiled hall for a few moments before ice cold hands clasped down around my shoulders and halted me.
"Nessie?!"
It was Uncle Emmett. His voice was shaky, worried. I shook my head at him and felt my body heave as it began to hyperventilate.
"Jacob!" I managed to gasp.
"He's patrolling. Nessie, what…?" Uncle Emmett drew me to his chest, nursing me like a child, and kissed my forehead. "Darling, talk to me. Please."
"I need Jacob," I wriggled my way free from his arms easily and took off down the corridor.
I faintly heard Aunt Rose call for me before Uncle Emmett caught her and told her to let me be.
I may have been anxious, but I hadn't turned rude. "Thank you," I whispered, knowing he would hear me with ease.
When I reached the front door, I didn't stop but hauled this door open much like I had my bedroom door and leapt across the porch and down the stairs in one bound. The wide green yard was flying past my eyes; nothing was stopping me until I had run into Jacob. Literally if I had to come to that. I reached the border of the forest and picked out his scent, following it where it weaved its way through the trees and shrubs.
"JACOB!" I screamed.
I never planned to but now I couldn't stop crying his name. I darted through the jungle, ducking under low branches and whipping my way through thick bushes, all the while crying out for him.
"JACOB!"
Where is he? Jacob, oh Jacob, please. Please, please, please.
I took in a lungful of rushing air and prepared my body to scream again when I heard a low howl echo from the other end of the forest.
"Jacob," I muttered as I skidded to a halt and twirled my body to face the howl.
Another howl followed the former and I raced towards it, back the way I had come, pushing and forcing my body to move as swift as it possibly could.
"JACOB!" with every call, a howl responded.
Jacob, howl, Jacob, howl, Jacob, howl.
My heart was barely there, beating as fast as a tiny hummingbirds wings and not weighing nearly enough for me to feel it in my chest. My breaths were ragged and uneven, and I had to consciously remind my body to inhale and exhale to get the oxygen.
A wall of musky woodland scent, ocean breeze and camellia assaulted my nose before I could see him. I closed my eyes and breathed in my life source deeply before I opened my eyes again and saw him burst through the shrubs into the meadow I was headed for.
My Jacob.
I leapt through the ferns and bounded towards Jacob, who turned slightly so I wouldn't hit him head on. I bumped into him hard but wrapped my arms tightly around his neck to avoid being rebounded. I pressed my face into his hot russet fur as he nuzzled his nose into my side.
It wasn't until I tasted the awful salt in my mouth that I realized I was crying and Jake was whining softly. I trembled into his fur and he lowered himself to the floor, easing me onto the ground. He used his head as leverage to hug me to his wolfy chest and I buried my hands and face deeper in his fur.
My anxiousness eased after a while and I got tired of sitting and allowed my body to slump lazily.
"Can we go back, Jacob? And can you stay with me this time, please?"
I pulled my face back to gaze into his black wolf eyes and he nodded. He stood up and supported me with his nose until I was standing and stable. He watched me as he walked backwards into the shrubs and changed forms.
From the moment he disappeared into the trees, I held post and expectantly waited in the middle of the field for him to come back to me. When he walked back from behind the cover of the trees I ran into his open arms.
My hands wrapped themselves around his massive shoulders and pressed on his blades. My legs wrapped themselves around his waist and interlocked while my face fell into his neck and kissed him softly. One of his arms wrapped around my waist holding me to him while the other weaved through my hair and his lips planted hot kisses on me anywhere he could reach.
He sauntered back up to the house silently, just holding me, and I felt my body slacking from exhaustion again. I knew when we had reached the yard because the light behind my closed eyelids brightened and I turned my head to bury it deeper into Jacob's neck.
"What happened?" Jacob's quiet voice told me he was speaking to someone else and trying not to wake me.
"I don't know," I heard Uncle Emmett reply. He brushed a cool hand over my back before he continued, "She woke up and ran around looking for you. She was horrified; I've never seen her so scared. She must have had a really bad nightmare or something."
Uncle Emmett stopped speaking and I felt his hand press harder on my back
"And from now on, when she's sleeping, don't leave until she wakes up and knows where you're going and how long you're gonna be. If you do, I'll have you head," Uncle Emmett threatened
"I won't leave again, don't worry about that," Jacob spat back viciously.
I frowned at their exchange but felt too weak to lift my head or mumble anything into Jacob's neck so I made a mental note to speak to Uncle Emmett later.
Uncle Emmett's hand vanished from my back and I resigned to listening to Jacob's heart beat as he climbed the porch stairs, opened the front door and strode through the house to get to my room.
When he laid me down on my bed, he rubbed his fingers over my cheeks softly and kissed the corners of my eyes.
I blinked my eyes open and met his black eyes briefly before he kissed me full on the lips gently and turned away to dig through my movies to pick out what he knew was my utmost favourite; The Notebook.
He put the disk in the DVD player and grabbed the remotes, tossing them onto the bedside table and jumping onto the bed, leaning against the headboard and stretching his long legs out in front of him.
I looked up at Jacob and draped an arm across his thighs to pull my head up to lay my head on his hip. He rubbed my arm for a few moments so I looked at him again and he moved both his hands to close around my waist and nudge me. Getting the picture, I got up and sat in his lap, allowing him to bind his strong arms around me securely.
My back pressed up against his chest and I rolled my head back onto his shoulder. Jacob reached a hand up to brush my cheeks with the back of his fingers and ran a finger over my bottom lip.
His fingers then tucked underneath my chin and tilted my head up. I obliged and Jacob's lips pressed down hot and lightly on mine. His hand's which had moved to my stomach, played lightly over the cotton fabric and traced lines across the little bit of skin that was revealed.
"Never leave me Jake," I said into his cheek.
"I will never leave you Nessie," he replied.
"Promise me, Jacob. Promise me you'll never leave me, never hurt me. Please," I whispered.
I let my head fall forward and stared at my thighs. Jacob's hands were resting there and patting me ever so naturally and casually.
"Renesmee Carlie Cullen, the moment I laid eyes on you, I lived for you. I will never leave you, ever. I will never hurt you, ever. I will fight for you, always. I will protect you and shelter you, always. I will do everything and anything I can to make you happy for the rest of your existence. When you need me, I will be there and there is nothing that could ever keep me away from you. I promise you, Nessie, I will never leave you. I will never hurt you; you are my heart, my soul and my life; without you I would not survive. I care for you more than anything else in the entire universe. I truly love you, Nessie. Forever."
Jacob kissed the side of my neck fondly and I thrust myself further back into his chest and rolled my head to the left so he could leave scorching kisses up and down the right side of my neck. I bit my lip as his arms constricted around my body and my nails traced meaningless patterns across his smooth skin.
"I love you, Nessie. So much," he whispered in my ear before he pressed his lips deeply into my cheek.
I believed him. Every single word he had said, I believed him, and I loved him with all my heart. Just like he loved me.
"I love you, Jacob. Forever. With all my heart, I love you," I whispered back
Jake kissed my neck again a few more time before grasping my shoulders and turning me to face him. One hand crawled around to my back to press me to him while the other cupped my face and stroked my neck. Our lips met warmly and soundly in the middle as I turned my body so we were chest to chest. I used my hands to shove lightly on his shoulders and push him so he lay down. I stretched my body over his then and ran my hands through his hair, imitating his hands through mine.
I loved him. I loved Jacob, and Jacob loved me. For always, we would love each other. Always. We had promised.