18) Stuck
I couldn't believe it. I was going to marry Jacob.
Marry him!
I don't know what cold feet felt like, but I know I didn't have them; my feet couldn't cool down enough.
I'm gonna catch fire soon.
My Jacob.
My Jacob, my best friend, my partner, my life and my soul mate. My husband.
I don't think I could pinch myself hard enough.
"What are you doing?!" Aunt Alice's horrified scream questioned me.
"Making sure this is real," I replied dazedly.
"Renesmee Carlie Cullen, if you so much as make your skin red on your wedding day, I'll kill you," she promised me.
I couldn't help it; I was too giddy to be scared, so I laughed.
"How is me killing you funny?" she asked with a brow raised high over her eye.
"Its not," I answered truthfully. "But I don't care; I'm marring Jacob, Aunt Alice. I'M MARRING HIM!"
I felt it as a wide grin formed on my mouth and couldn't help but jump up and down squealing like a little school girl. Aunt Alice thankfully joined in and we both jumped up and down, squealing our delight.
"I've been waiting for this for so, so long. You have no idea how excited I've been!" Aunt Alice grinned.
"You?! If you're the one that's excited, what does that make me?"
"Uper duper excited?" she asked with a dorky accent.
I stopped jumping for a second and stared at her. Unable to control confusion for long, my exhilaration took over again and we began jumping up and down yelling 'uper duper excited' at the tops of our lungs. After a while we succumbed to fits of giggles and rolled around on the floor kicking our legs and hugging our tummies.
"Well, well, well. I didn't think I'd ever see my one hundred plus vampire sister and my seven and a half year old vampire hybrid daughter rolling around on the floor like a couple of human kindergarteners but all right."
I looked up to my Mom's voice and flew into her arms.
"I'm so happy, Mom," I squeaked into her neck.
"I know, sweetheart. I'm so happy for you, and for Jacob, too. He's nervous, you know," Mom spoke into my hair.
I pulled back and looked her in her eyes. Some people may find them scary or unnatural, especially if they aren't the usual topaz and more black like they are now. I, as her daughter, found them nurturing.
"Why?"
She smiled lightly as she carried me to the bed and sat me down, sitting next to me and tucking me into her side.
"He's afraid you might change your mind," she explained as she slipped a lock of my hair behind my ear. "That you 'might come to your senses'."
'Might come to my senses'? What? Did my Jacob think I was an idiot? Come to my senses indeed.
"I'm not going to back out, Mom. Tell him that. There is no way he's living the rest of his life without me; he's stuck with me now."
"I will." She kissed my cheek and put a titanic cup in my hands. "I thought that since you haven't been hunting you might appreciate some blood."
"Thanks," I said as I sipped the think substance. "Elk?"
"Yeah, they thought you might want to drink a carnivore's blood later so they chose the vegan instead."
"Alice!" my mom chided. "That is not the case, thank you very much. And I'd watch Edward next time you're near him, too."
"He won't catch me," she grinned.
Mom rolled her eyes and turned her gaze back to my smiley face. "Drink that and get ready; the weddings in three hours."
I glanced at the clock and started bouncing on my toes again when I saw the time; one fifty-three p.m.
"Come on, little miss bride," Alice said as she plucked me from where I was standing and sat me on the seat in front of her mirror.
Mom gave me another kiss on my forehead before she left and I took deep, calming breaths while I took sips of my drink and watched Alice go to work in the reflection before me.
My Jacob.
Bella's POV
I shut the door silently and floated down the stairs and into the living room.
Jacob was sitting on the couch with his knee jogging and his head rolled back onto the wall. His hands were restless and he repeatedly knocked his left palm with his right fist while he breathed in deeply and chewed his top lip.
I gave a little sigh and sat beside him in the next instant, my hands closing around his and pressing them flat on his legs before I held his face and pulled it forward off the wall. I waited for him to look at me so I could observe his deep brown black eyes before I spoke.
"If I were you, I would stop chewing your lip before you damage it beyond repair," I said softly.
He frowned at me and released his lip, running his tongue over it to promote the healing and staring at me worriedly.
"Another thing I would do if I were you is to relax, my little sun," I smiled.
He laughed at my contradictory pun and looked at me. "She's not backing out?"
"Why would she?"
"I just thought… I…" he sighed and leaned back again, rubbing his hands over his face before leaning forward and dropping his head into his hands.
"Jacob, Nessie said she loved you and there's no way your living the rest of your life without her. She said you're stuck with her now. She is my daughter, so I'd trust her on that," I whispered.
He was still for a moment before he turned and wrapped his arms around me.
"I'm so happy, Bells. I… I love her so much," he breathed into my shoulder.
He may smell like a repulsive dog, but he was still my best friend. I enfolded my arms around him lightly and kissed his cheek.
I felt something hot fall onto my shoulder as I smelt salt in the air and realized he was crying when his body subtly shuddered.
"Jake?" I breathed. "Jake, honey, what's the matter?"
He shook his head into my shoulder and pulled back swiping at his eyes. "Nothing."
I smiled and wiped the back of my fingers across his cheek to disperse his tears and laughed when he shuddered.
"Guess I'm a bit cold, huh?"
"And a bit dead, Bells," he chuckled lightly.
I got up and brushed my lips over his forehead. "She loves you Jacob, more than anything. This is what she wants; you."
Jacob's POV
'This is what she wants; you.'
I watched Bella glide out of the room gracefully as those six glorious words ran through my head over and over and over.
My Nessie, she wanted me. God, I loved her.
My legs started jogging again and I let my head fall backwards onto the wall again. I listened intently as the clock ticked and Nessie's fast heart beat faster two floors above me where the little pixie would be dressing her up. I knew my Ness was smart enough to still have limits and rein her in, so the pixie wouldn't be having too much fun.
I don't know at what point I fell asleep, but I woke my dopey eyes to Seth hovering over my face and blowing it.
"Seth, piss off," I mumbled as I sat up and fisted his arm.
"Come on, man. It's show time!" he said.
Show time… shit! I'm gonna be late for Nessie's wedding. For my wedding… for our wedding!
I leapt up of the couch and made to fly through the door when Embry stepped in and we bumped into each other.
"What's the rush?" he inquired while he straightened his suit up.
"I'm gonna be late! Move!"
"Dude, the ceremony hasn't started yet, you still got thirty minutes."
I turned to check the clock and turned straight back around to glare at Seth.
"Extra shifts for a month! You're lucky I don't rip your head from your shoulders."
Seth laughed and spun around.
Nice to know I'm being taken seriously.
"This is your suit, put it on," Seth said as he tossed it at me.
I caught it and looked from it to him and back again.
"Alice's orders," Seth claimed.
I nodded and walked out of the room, down the hall and into the bathroom. I chucked the suit on and arranged it so it looked alright then walked back out of the bathroom to talk to Seth and Embry.
By the time five to come around I couldn't breathe. Emmett told us to move our tails before Alice found us so we all got up and took our places at the alter set up outside.
I twiddled my punched my palm again as I looked around at what the pixie had organized.
We had a little table covered with flowers (don't ask me what they are cos I don't know and I don't care) as our alter thing and a nice long green grassed isle for my angel to walk down. There was paper and a pen on the table (our contract and pen to sign it I'm guessing) and a few chairs for our more human guests (Emily, Claire, Kim, Billy, Sue and Rachel).
All in all, a nice small wedding; my baby will like this.
"She coming, she's coming, she's coming," the little pixie sung as she pushed everyone into their places except for our imprints and parents, she was smarter than that.
Sam, Quil and Jared all stood with Emily, Claire and Kim in their arms. I pushed my Dad so that he would sit at the front of the audience and Paul stood with his arms draped around Rach's waist while she held Sue's hand who was sitting down beside them.
When everyone was positioned, Alice dashed inside and led the bridesmaids and brides way when she left the house again.
Alice and Leah were the two bridesmaids, dressed beautifully in pale yellow dresses that reached their knees and pretty silver heels that snaked up their calves. If it was any other day I would have laughed at Leah in a dress, but I fund it hard to breath right now so that was my main focus.
When Edwards piano started playing, I knew what was coming and I gripped the edge of the table to keep myself standing. I looked at the ground to keep my cool and it worked.
Until everyone started gasping in wonder at least.
I looked up from the ground and saw her eyes watching me. Her soft curls were framed around her face and her cheeks were deepening with every second that passed, every step she took closer until she was beside me.
She looked absolutely… magnificent in her ivory dress; there was a pale yellow ribbon tied around her small waist and the dress flared slightly from there and fell to her knees. Her straps were those thin spaghetti strap things and I think and… she looked lovely. Her tiny feet were in dainty silver flats and looked so cute. Around her wrist she wore the bracelet her mother had given to her which was adorned with Edward's crystal heart, my wolf and Charlie's swan that he had gotten for her. Her gold locket hung around her neck and rested against her chest.
Nessie. Baby.
She was… gorgeous. So beautiful.
She reached her hand out for mine and I took hold of it, playing with her fingers and smiling at her. She smiled back, biting her full bottom lip. Her eyes were locked on mine and I felt the full power of the imprint chain me to her. Not that I had any objections.
Those eyes, those lips, those hands… they were mine. Forever to watch and kiss and hold.
Nessie was mine; she was my Nessie.
And I was hers; I was her Jacob.