I came out later dressed in some jeans and a white buttoned blouse. Taking a deep breath I walked out of my room with my head heald high. Joel is not going to make me blush and make me look stupid this time. I floated into the kitchen and sat next to Harvey on the couch.

'Where's Joel?' I asked noticing his absence.

'He went into town,' Harvey said coldly still staring at the TV. With that, I got up. Drifting around the back of the couch behind Harvey, letting him feel my warm breathe against his neck. I lowered my face, kissing the edge of his shoulder and neck, bringing my hands to rest on his shoulders.

'Why are you so angry today?' I asked alluringly, beginning to move my fingers in circular motions. Harvey sighed softly.

'I'm not…' he managed to blurt out.

'Is someone jealous?' I hinted smiling, taking my lips to just below his ear. ' Well I think it's cute.'

'My suffering? Cute? You surely must be joking. Imagine if I teased you with another girl that took my fancy? Where is your compassion Anna Barnett?' he shook his head in disapproval.

I sighed, seeing his point. Joel could even give me what Harvey couldn't….yet.

But was I willing to wait that long? Wait. What was I thinking? I'm not some horny teenager; of course I can wait. Can't I?

'I'm sorry Harvey, I know. Joel is…a friend but things between us are, complicated. I wish you could understand what you both mean to me.' I sighed, standing up. I grabbed a sweater and headed out the back door with a book and a sunhat.

Sitting in a nice sunny spot where no one could see me behind a tree, taking my book and putting on my favorite floppy sunhat, I sighed to be away from the stress.

I had begun the fourteenth chapter when I began to doze off, falling back against the grass resting my hat over my face.

I giggled suddenly, feeling something tickling my feet. Peeking under my hat I noticed Joel sitting beside me, my stomach suddenly tightened to a ball and my breath caught. Why was he so good looking again? Looking at him made me feel pathetic.

'Aargh!' I sighed in frustration pulling my hat over my face again.

'I'm sorry, did I disturb you?' Joel asked innocently. I felt like slapping him across the face, he knows the torture I go through.

'Joel!' I tried not to yell. Sitting up, I just saw the pain flicker across his face. I sighed. 'Joel what do you want from me?' I said softly.

'I want you,' he said, capturing my gaze, I could feel the blush creep across my face.

'And?'

He didn't need to say the answer I was looking for, as a wash of desire consumed his facial features. I could feel my heart begin to race, I blushed even redder, looking down towards the ground. As I pretended to be utterly engaged with a piece of grass.

HEY! I'm just going to create a POV so this ones in Joels POV. Now you get to know how Joel thinks. Haha, be warned.

AN This chapter is very saucy so be warned, nothing happens though.

I stared at her pink blushing face. She didn't understand how beautiful she was, thank god I was wearing jeans. I sniggered, that would scare her away.

She looked up at me, her big blue eyes questioning. Her chest wasn't rising and falling. I tried desperately not to stare as the restraint of my jeans became almost painful.

'Anna? Breath,' I reminded her. Looking at her face, she began to inhale, did I do that? If only she knew how much she affected me.

'Thanks,' she breathed.

'My pleasure,' I smiled crookedly, hoping she didn't take notice to the double meaning. I looked down, taking her book between my fingers flipping it around to see the title.

'Torn' it read. She tried to snatch it back, leaning forward to capture it. But all she captured was my lips. She sighed involuntary, pulling the book away at the same time.

'Not fair!' I muttered against her lips.

I wrapped my arms around her waist, pulling her closer. She stopped, looking at me, her eyes full of unsure desire.

'Please don't go,' I whispered huskily. Pulling her legs around my waist, as she hesitantly wrapped her arms around my neck. I moaned as she shifted her weight so slightly against the bulge in my jeans. I stopped suddenly, awaiting her reaction. Her eyes widened in surprise, as her breath caught. I smiled crookedly, doing my best to look innocent.

'Joel I…'She was lost for words.

I shushed her, placing a finger over her lips. 'We don't have to do anything if you don't want to.' I said kissing one of her wrists, making her moan. The sound was enough to be my undoing but I held my breath, waiting for my control to ravish her subside a little. I opened my eyes, meeting hers as she saw the pure lust covering my face. A grin flickered across her face briefly before I had to close my eyes again as she grinded her self against me. I gritted my teeth, sucking in a shaky breath.

'Anna-' I managed to breath a tortured whisper. ' You need to stop…we can't…' I unhooked her arms from around my neck.

'Party pooper,' she muttered. 'And I was just beginning to have fun.' She grinned.

I bit back a moan, how easily I could let her 'have her fun.' But I knew she would regret it in the end.

Her breathing remained uneven, as I let my eyes wonder about her beautiful body. She shivered.

'You're almost exactly like Harvey,' she said disappointed. I sighed at her, hating to see her like this.

'You would have regretted it,' I said stroking her cheek with my thumb, trying to control myself. Letting her see in my eyes how much I wanted her. She sighed too in understanding.

'I'm sure Harvey would understand my needs eventually with some persuasion,' she ventured looking for a way around this. I chuckled huskily.

'No, first you would call me a jerk for taking advantage of you, you would tell me to pack my bags and never come back, and then I would blame myself for following my stupid desires for you.' I said earnestly, looking into her deep blue eyes.

She was silent for a moment, taking this in.

'Tell me what you're thinking right now,' she finally whispered looking up at me. I trailed my fingers up and down her waist and sighed.

'How beautiful you are, and how you make me feel when I'm around you. How Harvey is the luckiest guy in the world to have you for him self. How you're going to leave in a moment to go back to him like nothing ever happened. How I'm never going to know what its like to…' I trailed off, smiling sheepishly at my honesty. Anna blushed, burying her face in my shirt.

I grabbed her book off the ground and picked her up, as I put her floppy hat on her head. She dropped her legs from around my waist instantly and stood up.

'If only I could have both,' she whispered so softly I barely heard it.

And as we walked silently back towards the house, I knew what I was going to do. I was going to have a little man-to-man talk with him, probably one of the most awkward talks I will ever have.