Nat and the band were rehearsing, and Nat decided it would be the perfect time to show them the new song. After showing the band the notes and playing the song, the band agreed it sounded great and the fans would definitely like it. But there was a sense of awkwardness. The song was about Kristina, and everyone knew it…except Kristina. How would she react once she started putting all of the pieces together?
"Nat, the song is great." She complemented. "Who is it for?"
"Uhhh….well…." Nat was torn whether to tell the truth or lie. Nat didn't want to tell the truth out of the fear Kristina wouldn't feel the same and quit the band because working with Nat would be too embarrassing afterwards. But he didn't want to lie because even though he had been lying about his feelings a lot lately, he didn't want to lie to Kristina. She didn't deserve it.
"Well?"
"It's for no one. I just…wrote it." Nat sighed. Why couldn't he just tell Kristina how he felt?
"Oh." Kristina stuck her hands in her pocket and walked away, her hair draping over her face and shoulders. Was she disappointed? Maybe.
"Okay guys, who the song is for isn't really important." Nat announced. "It's just a song I wrote for entertainment and the fans will love it, and that's that. Let's rehearse something else. Is No Night is Perfect ok?" The response Nat got to this question was a bunch of mumbling. "Yeah, sure, whatever."
So the band rehearsed the song No Night Is Perfect . After the song was finished, Nat patted everyone on the back. "You all did gr-" But Nat was interrupted.
In walked the one Nat used to love. The one that made his heart sing every time he looked at her. She now was the one caused his heart pain and bitterness. Her betrayal left him shattered. But it didn't matter how he felt about it, there she was. Rosalina. She looked as beautiful as Nat remembered, wearing that sweet smile that melted his heart.
"Hi Nat." She greeted.
Nat didn't respond.
"Hey, guys."
"Hi, Rosalina." They all said, in shock.
"Hi Kristina. I heard a lot about you."
Kristina didn't respond.
"Nat, can I talk to you outside?"
Nat followed her out the door.
"What did you want to talk to me about?" Nat asked, uneasily. At this point, Nat didn't want to talk to Rosalina. If she told him she wanted to be back in the band, it would hurt. If she told him she didn't want to be back in the band, that would hurt, too. Nat would rather break his leg than to have Rosalina shatter his heart again.
"Nat, I'm feeling morose."
"What?"
"You know…doleful?"
"Huh?"
"Lugubrious?"
"What the-"
"Nat, I'm depressed!"
Rosalina held Nat's hand and pulled her head up to his chest. She looked up at him with her soft brown eyes. "And do you want to know why I'm feeling depressed?"
"Umm…I guess?"
She distanced herself and grabbed both of his hands. "I miss you."
"Yeah, I thought so."
Rosalina raised her eyebrows in surprise. She didn't expect that response.
"You always come crying back to me at some point or another. What made you do it this time?" Nat asked, pulling his hands away.
"Because Bobby Love isn't Nat Wolff. He couldn't love me like you did. Bobby usually thinks about Bobby. Nat thinks about others. I love you, Nat."
Nat rolled his eyes. He had heard it all before. "He dumped you, didn't he?"
"No! I dumped him!"
"So? Why would I care?"
"I thought you loved me!"
"Yeah, I loved you, but right now I'm not so sure. I've lost count of how many times you hurt me. How do I know you won't do it again?"
Kristina stepped outside to walk to the bus stop, but froze when she heard Nat yelling at Rosalina. Though she felt guilty, she decided to stop and listen, just in case Nat needed a shoulder to cry on afterwards.
Meanwhile, Rosalina sighed in exasperation. "Nat! Just give me one more chance! I love you, I really do!"
"Yeah, that's what you said the last time!"
"Nat, please, listen to what I'm telling you!"
Nat folded his arms and grudgingly decided that Rosalina deserved a chance to tell her side of the story.
"Nat, I know I've hurt you many times. I hate myself for it. I've realized no matter who it is…Michele, Bobby, whoever…they'll never take your place. We've known each other for 6 years, you know me better than anyone. We're meant to be together, I can feel it. I know I've been stupid, but just forgive me one more time. I love you, Nat. I know you love me too."
Wow, she's really milking it, Kristina thought.
"I don't know, Rosalina."
Rosalina grabbed Nat by his shoulders and forced his lips onto hers. Knowing Rosalina was kissing Nat, Kristina turned ran back inside and slammed the pushed Rosalina off of him. "What was that noise?"
"Nat, shut up! Do you realize what I just did?"
"You kissed me."
"And all you care about is the noise?"
"You're right." Nat kissed Rosalina again. For the first time, he actually stuck his tongue in her mouth. While tongue wrestling, Nat had his hands on Rosalina back and Rosalina had her hands on his hips. They moved their heads a bit while kissing. The kiss was deep and sensual, the best kiss Nat ever had. They kissed for 10 minutes, but 5 minutes into the kiss Nat didn't feel right. Even though he tried to focus on him and Rosalina, all he could about was Kristina, and how it would feel if he was kissing her this way. Nat pushed Rosalina away.
"Rosalina, deep down all this time I always wanted you to come back and kiss me like that. I always wondered what it would be like to have you in my arms again, kissing without a care in the world, knowing right now it's just you and me and no one else. But there is someone else. Even though you're coming back to me, I know someone else is meant for you, and it's not me. It hurts so much that it's like this, but you and me just don't belong together."
"But Nat-" Rosalina tried to object with tears in her eyes.
"Don't make this harder than it has to be." Nat couldn't make eye contact with Rosalina anymore. He didn't want to make her cry and hurt her feelings, but all Nat and Rosalina did together was cause each other pain, he knew it was better like this, no matter how much it hurt.
Rosalina wiped the tears out of her eyes. "It's that Kristina girl, isn't it??" She asked angrily.
"No. Kristina and I are just friends."
"That's not what I heard."
"What did you hear?" Nat asked, sounding worried.
"I hear all these rumors that you and her are dating! Why, Nat? You've known me all these years and you're just going to dump me for a girl you just met?!"
"Those rumors are just what they're called…rumors! And even if we were dating, there's nothing wrong with getting to know new people! You should know that better than anyone!"
Rosalina slapped Nat.
"What did you do that for?!" He asked, rubbing his cheek. It started to sting awfully.
"You just don't understand!"
"No, you don't understand! Rosalina, I know you're upset, but we're just not meant to be together, as lovers or as friends! Maybe when we're older we can be friends again, but right now we just need to get away from each other."
Nat sighed. Rosalina sighed. This was the last thing they wanted, but Rosalina knew in her heart everything Nat was saying was right.
"So this is really it, then?" She said, struggling not to cry.
"Yeah, it is."
"Goodbye, Nat." She said quietly. She kissed him one last time, then walked away, crying silently to herself.
Nat went back inside the studio to grab his stuff, then saw Kristina on the floor sitting on the floor, grabbing her stomach.
"Kristina are you okay?" He asked, getting down on his knee to check on her.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just…I don't feel well. I have nausea." Kristina said, avoiding eye contact.
"Do you want me to get you some Pepto Bismol or something?"
"No! Just go home! I'll be fine!" She snapped.
Nat walked out with his backpack slung over his shoulder. He wanted to ask her if she was okay, but decided that maybe it was best to leave her alone.
Kristina felt so ashamed of herself. First she spies on Nat, then she yells at him. After all he's done for me, why do I have to be such a crappy friend? She asked herself. But Kristina knew why. She was jealous. She didn't even realized she loved Nat until she heard him kissing Rosalina. Kristina hoped he wouldn't kick her out of the band because of Rosalina, even though she felt she deserved it.
Kristina finally called her brother and asked him to pick her up. While she was standing outside waiting, it started to rain. Kristina swallowed a lump in her throat as she realized that she loved someone too late.
