Author's Note: Sorry the last chapter was crap, guys. I'm trying to do better.
It was early Saturday morning, 6:15 am, to be exact. Nat Wolff was walking down the street. He had been up since 4:00. He had tried everything to try and get back to sleep, but to no avail. Warm milk, herbal tea, or just staying up and watching cartoons. Nat needed time to just walk around and clear his head. He felt like his thoughts were rushing 200 miles an hour and there was no stopping them.
Nat thought about how much he had grown since Rosalina left. It's not like Rosalina is a bad person, really. She and Nat just weren't made for each other, and that was a hard pill for Nat to swallow. When Nat first saw Rosalina, it was love at first sight. And even at only 9 years old, Nat had seen a lot of pretty girls. Rosalina wasn't just a pretty girl to Nat. She was smart, talented, funny, caring, loving, reasonable, and had the best heart out of anyone Nat knew. Now Nat had let all those feelings go away, and he had tried so desperately to hang onto them.
Even scarier than letting go of an old love was grabbing on to a new one. Still, with Kristina, it almost seemed easy. Like she was the refrigerator and Nat was the magnet, it was like his heart seemed to be stuck on her. Nat had a hard time imagining falling in love with someone so easily. It took years for him to even confess his love to Rosalina! Nat was scared of falling in love again. Kristina may seem perfect now, but will she break his heart too? What if it's just Rosalina all over again? But what if it's different? What if this turns into something that will start great and end peacefully? What if it lasts forever? What if Kristina is "the one"?
Nat couldn't believe what he just thought. Whoa, Nat, don't get ahead of yourself….
But it wasn't just his love life that was changing. It seemed like everything was changing! His voice was deep. He was tall. Even Thomas, Qaasim and David were getting taller and their voices were getting deeper. And they were into girls now. Before, those three thought girls were disgusting. Now they were into girls! Not to mention. Nat's dad let him baby-sit Alex from time to time when he went out with Betty. And his dad actually yelled at him once! If that's not changing, I don't know what is.
Nat wasn't crazy about change at all. Why couldn't things just stay the same? Nat asked himself. He hated the idea of one day, the band will reach 18 years old and be grown up. He hated the idea that one day, he might have to get married and have kids of his own. He hated the idea that one day, his dad will get old and die. He hated the idea that he will get old and die! Nat couldn't stand getting older and having these things coming.
Whoa there, hold the phone! Nat tried to think things through a little more.
Ok, Nat, calm down. It's not like all of this stuff is going to happen all at once. I'll have to grow more and become more mature. Doesn't this stuff come slowly by slowly, piece by piece? I'll just enjoy my childhood while I can and when it comes time to let go, I'll be more of a man. It can't be that bad, can it? I always said when I was 7 that grown-ups have all the fun. Yeah they bald, but hey, as long as there's wigs around, I'm cool with it. Gosh, my hair…
The thought that suddenly popped into Nat's head next seemed unthinkable a month ago. Maybe it was unthinkable now! Was Nat insane? Maybe he was worrying too much. He couldn't imagine.
But as Nat ran his fingers through his hair, maybe it wasn't so unthinkable after all. I mean, his hair was short when he was 9, right? Nat had haircuts when he was 9. Back when he was 9, he wasn't scared of growing older or having more responsibility. The only thing he was scared of was monsters under the bed. Maybe if Nat let go of his oh-so-cool long and growing hair, maybe he'd be less afraid of letting go of other things.
Nat entered Barber Shop.
Author's Note: Another crap chapter. Don't worry guys, I'll get good at this someday. Lol.