So I know I confused the hell out of you with that last chapter, but please bare with me, I promise it will be worth it! Here is chapter 8.

Enjoy SK

Chapter 8 Find Me

Every day that followed those first few felt very long. I couldn't stop thinking about what I had walked in on, and had started to wonder how long it had been going on. I guess I got my answer when I never heard from either of them after a week.

Once Christian and I got into LA we went straight to the condo that the Do Jo owned. I called Anastasia and told her that I would not be returning to the Dominican and would be staying in LA for a long while if not forever. She had told me that a letter had arrived for me that day and that she would have it couriered in the morning, making sure I would receive it sometime tomorrow. I was surprised that she didn't press me for information, and wondered why she hadn't. I never asked though, assuming that she was just letting me have my own time.

Christian tried to convince me that he should be a hotel room. I wasn't having that; I told him that I didn't think he should be alone. Truth be told I really didn't want to be alone either. So he agreed to stay with me, only after I agreed that he could work at the Do Jo with me to cover his share of the bills.

So now it had been 3 months since that fateful day, and somehow I didn't feel any better than the moment I caught them. I put on a big smile for Christian though; it seemed to help him a little. Also working too my mind off it too, well somewhat I guess. True to her word Anastasia had the letter sent to me, and what it said surprised me. This year's Tae Kwon Do championships were being held in Seoul, the capital of Korea. This was unheard of, as it is usually only held in LA. It also said that we had three extra months to prepare. Seeing as that was three months ago, I have a little over 3 months to prepare. Really I had done nothing to prepare, I taught, worked out and came home. I put on a good show for clients and for staff, but deep down I was dying. I guess losing the love of your life twice, takes a lot out of you.

I was lying in my bed one morning, laying there just listening to the radio when a song came on that caught my attention.

When morning comes
I'm gonna force myself to
crawl out of this bed
Open my eyes
And stare out at the
open road ahead
Oh, I have stumbled
Been knocked down
But now I'm ready to
leave the ground

[Chorus]
And fly, spread my wings
And leave the past behind
there's a life for me
that I wanna find
And I'm strong enough to
be myself this time
I'm wanna leave and not look back
I wanna laugh and love and dance
don't wanna miss another chance
To find me

For so long
Oh I was too afraid
to make a change
Nobody knew
The smile I wore was
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just a masquerade
Now I'm letting go of
All my fears
No more hiding
No more tears

[Chorus]
I'm gonna fly, spread my wings
And leave the past behind
there's a life for me
that I wanna find
And I'm strong enough to
be myself this time
I'm wanna leave and not look back
I wanna laugh and love and dance
don't wanna miss another chance
To find me

Oh I've made promises
To everyone else
And now it's time I do something
For myself Yeah

[Chorus]
Hey I'm gonna fly, spread my wings
And leave the past behind
there's a life for me
that I wanna find
And I'm strong enough to
be myself this time
I'm wanna leave and not look back
I wanna laugh and love and dance
don't wanna miss another chance
To find me
Yeah, yeah Oh Find me

It was Diana DeGarmo's Find me, and it made my heart start to feel warm. It was like that song was written for me. I have never been affected like that by a song, and I relished in the words. I immediately signed into iTunes and bought and downloaded the song. I hit repeat, cranked it and soon enough I knew the words. It described my life, and I knew at that moment that I would be ok. I was going to get out of this funk, and show him and her. Show them that even though they hurt me, I was going to come back with a vengeance. I was going to do exactly what the song said; I was going to Find Me.

From that day on I trained every spare moment, Christian helped. Counting laps, reffing my spars with other staff.

"Rose?" Heather peeked her head into one of the course rooms "Oh hey there you are, there is some guy and woman at the counter asking for you" I nodded and followed her out. There standing at the counter where two of my favourite people in the world.

"Luka and Andrea what the hell are you two doing here?" I asked hugging them both. Silently praying to god, thanking him for sending them back to me.

"Well how could you train right without us?" Luka smirked, and Andrea smiled. I hugged them tighter again, and realised how much I actually missed them.

The next three months went by quickly. I was really happy to be near people who I loved. Yes I said it I loved Christian, no not like that. Like a brother, we had become really close and talked about everything. He filed for divorce, and it was really hard on him. The happier I became the easier it was for him, I played the song for him and he agreed saying we both needed to find ourselves.

The day finally came, today I was defending my championship. I was nervous and took Luka suggestion, to only go against the person who won the final round. The day seemed to drag on, until finally it was my turn.

"Ladies and Gentlemen, we are now heading into our main event. This match will be for the World Tae Kwon Do Championship. In the red corner the current champion Rose Hathaway. " I smiled and waved as the cheers came out over the arena.

"In the blue corner, Marcus Taylor." Oh I guess I should have been paying attention today, I didn't even realize he was here. Ha idiot thought he could actually take me. I glanced at him, and he smirked at me and then looked to his left. There was Lissa standing there with this shit eating grin on her face. Yeah keep it up, I will wipe that smile right off your face you dirty slut!

"Roza" My head snapped to my right and I saw a grinning Dimitri. He nodded at me, to say that he believed in me I nodded back. I looked to my left and was greeted with three beaming smiled. Christian, Luka and Andrea where here with me. I knew that with them all I could do this.

So the match began, and Marcus tried a round house kick to my ribs, I faked left and my fist connected with his right side. I felt him wince, and smiled. I knew right there that I was going to beat him. I wouldn't let myself be cocky and paid attention. He lunged at me again, and when he was almost beside me I flicked my left foot out and he slammed into the mat, not wasting time I leapt around and pinned him to the ground. I flipped him over and wrapped my left foot over his right leg. I pulled back with my right hand and TAP TAP TAP. Only 57 seconds into it and I had won!!!!!

The crowd went wild, and I leapt up and ran to my three most favourite people. I was engulfed with hugs. I heard a throat clear, and turned around to see Dimitri standing there with a huge smile on his lips. I leapt at him and he caught me laughing. He leaned down and whispered into my ear.

"I knew you could do it" I laughed and hugged him tighter. Again silently thanking god for the great people in my life.

Well there it is, I hope you liked it... Review I know you want to!

SK