A/N:

this story is poorly typed, so sorry... it was done in a rush... i didnt have time to arrange it. so it goes in one sentence at a time...

a birthday gift for my cool friend here in fanfiction ---- aeonreclipse... i hope you like it... ^0^

yaoi fic... mild rape (not that detailed) at the start... never tried writing one though.. this will be my first...

in this fic, itachi never annihilated their clan, but their parents still died... from a tragic mission.

itachi and sasuke are living alone as orphans, in the outskirts of konoha... at the end of the uchiha compound.

sasuke was under training to be a fully pledged jonin, while itachi was an anbu captain.

itachi=seme/uke...sasuke=uke/seme ... give and take... i always believed that give and take relationships are hot...

'.....' thoughts

"....." talking

"nii-san, no matter how many times you'd hurt me... you can't make me hate you... i admit i hated you at first...

but time heals all wounds... i will always need you... i will always want you..."

***let's erase the past***

ikatlong kabanata

itachi regained his state of mind, he felt relieved... he looked at his right and saw sasuke lying on a large rock slumped and gagged.

itachi searched his heart for any guilt... he found none... he was actually overjoyed... contented and fulfilled.

sasuke was glassy-eyed... staring blankly into space... his pale naked body had scattered bruises all over... from itachi's grasps.

itachi then released sasuke from his illusion... he knew sasuke would kill him for this... he didn't care... he can now die happily.

sasuke's mind didn't want to think... he can't comprehend what had just happened... his aniki... his hero.. his guardian... just raped him.

he can feel the stinging agony on from his behind... he can feel the coldness wetness enveloping his naked flesh... but he ignored them.

he was used to pain... but his system can't accept the fact that he was raped... he was now damaged beyond repair.

he felt someone touch his cheek, he knew it was itachi... who else could have the nerve to make any body contact with him?

"otouto..." the once soothing voice filled his ears in a different tune now. it sounded like a monster trying to mask his voice like an angel.

sasuke didn't move... confusion filled his entire being... he remained silent... how he wanted to kill itachi right now.

"sasuke, i..." itachi said but sasuke turned to face the elder raven. his eyes were locked to itachi... his lips quivered...

"don't say anything itachi... nothing you can say will undo what was done..." sasuke said, his voice was emotionless.

sasuke then fell into a trance. itachi felt bad... he never planned to take sasuke by force. but his inner self wanted the claim so badly.

itachi caressed sasuke's wet hair... the younger raven remained unmoving. itachi carried the limp naked body and made a couple of hand signs.

they appeared in the uchiha residence with a puff of smoke. the teleportation jutsu carried them back home with ease.

itachi then laid sasuke to bed. he got a blanket and covered the naked flesh. sasuke still continued to stare with empty eyes.

months after the incident, sasuke continued his training... but a drastic change happened to the younger uchiha...

he became colder and aloof. he turned more anti-social. he even stopped smirking and the once rare smile was never again seen on his lips.

sasuke became a loner, even naruto noticed the difference but was too afraid to ask the raven what his problem was.

sasuke felt betrayed... he will get his revenge soon... he would even offer his soul to the demons just to get a chance get even with itachi.

the more he tried to hate itachi, the more his heart begged to be free... his mind screamed death, but his heart echoed love.

he grew afraid, despite the traumatic experience, he had learned to love his aniki at a different... pretenses aside, itachi will always be his possesor.

sasuke would try his hardest to erase these romantic feelings... fuck! the man molested him... and it hurt his ego like hell.

he had to overcome this stupid infatuation... he needs to be avenged... itachi needed to be lectured, he scolded himself.

itachi on the other hand, went on with his life. he completed missions after missions with perfection and ease.

he never heard a word from sasuke after the incident... he would see sasuke from time to time, but the younger would disperse from his sight.

itachi wanted so badly to talk to sasuke, to ask for forgiveness... for a second chance maybe... but his pride was getting in the way.

itachi continued acting as if nothing happened... he never tried to converse woth sasuke anymore... they were strangers under the same roof.

one day, itachi was sent on a mission with his fellow anbus to the land of the lightning. it was to be a month long mission.

sasuke was thanking kami silently... he had a month to plan a revenge against itachi... he will make his aniki pay dearly.

sasuke went to itachi's room...sensed for any traps or indicators... he found none.. the coast was clear...

he went to itachi's cabinet, it was locked... as always... since they were younger, sasuke never saw the contents of this wooden mystery.

sasuke picked on the lock, as soon as he heard the click his heart pounded... he pulled the drawer out slowly ...'creak'came the sound.

to sasuke's surprise he saw his things... his long lost things... he saw his worn out forehead protector, some of his testpapers from school.

he saw his ripped shirt, his blood-stained bandage... everything he owned that he threw or lost were here...

sasuke was about to freak out... his aniki was obsessed with him in some way... then he saw a book with 'diary' labelled to it.

chapter 3... poorly typed.... sorry this was done in less than 4 hours... rush, rush, rush!