A/N:

this story is poorly typed, so sorry... it was done in a rush... i didnt have time to arrange it. so it goes in one sentence at a time...

a birthday gift for my cool friend here in fanfiction ---- aeonreclipse... i hope you like it... ^0^

yaoi fic... mild rape (not that detailed) at the start... never tried writing one though.. this will be my first...

in this fic, itachi never annihilated their clan, but their parents still died... from a tragic mission.

itachi and sasuke are living alone as orphans, in the outskirts of konoha... at the end of the uchiha compound.

sasuke was under training to be a fully pledged jonin, while itachi was an anbu captain.

itachi=seme/uke...sasuke=uke/seme ... give and take... i always believed that give and take relationships are hot...

'.....' thoughts

"....." talking

"nii-san, no matter how many times you'd hurt me... you can't make me hate you... i admit i hated you at first...

but time heals all wounds... i will always need you... i will always want you..."

***let's erase the past***

ika-apat na kabanata

sasuke got it and sat on itachi's bed... he flipped through the pages, his eyes scanned the contents of his aniki's deepest thoughts...

a certain entry caught his attention...

may 5, xxxx

i cant understand why i feel this way towards sasuke, i know its wrong but i cant help it... im in love with my brother.

july 24, xxxx

sasuke is now officially 6 years old and a day... he is getting cuter. how i love my baby brother!

september 17, xxxx

sasuke told me that the pink-haired witch kissed him. the nerve of that girl. nobody should claim his first kiss. it should be me, sasuke is mine.

october 3, xxxx

sasuke came home from school and was crying, mom and dad were not home so i was left to comfort him. he hugged me. i was so happy i could hardly breath.

november 13, xxxx

dad and mom passed away. the hokage told me they died along with the others on duty. i felt bad, how will i tell sasuke this?

november 14, xxxx

sasuke found out about our parents, kami...i wish i could take all his pain away. it hurts me to see my beloved crying.

december 25, xxxx

a sad christmas for the two of us... sasuke has been silent lately... i wish i could kiss his pain away.

january 2, xxxx

new year was boring. sasuke talked to me for a while. i can still see the pain in his eyes. i will protect him forever.

the confessions written by itachi bored into sasuke's heart... itachi had loved him since they were young...

he just couldnt understand why the rape was necessary... he could've just confessed... sasuke was sure he wont freak out.

the hatred he had for aniki slowly disappeared as he continued to read itachi's diary... remembering the highlights of every entry.

soon sasuke felt love overflowing from his heart... maybe it all happened since itachi was stressed out... he deserved another chance.

sasuke continued to read the confessions itachi made on the lifeless book... sasuke's eyes studied his aniki's writings.

as his thoughts travelled, he couldn't stop himself from imagining his aniki's face... he sighed... he cant deny it... he loved itachi more than a kin.

as he stayed motionless, absorbed in his own world, the daydream was broken when he heard the door bang open.

"sasuke?" itachi said, his eyes locked unto sasuke's hands... in his otouto's grasp was his diary!

"sasuke..." his voice stopped, he was to bewildered to think... he came back home to retrieve the map he left for the mission.

he couldn't believe sasuke would touch his things... of all things his diary... where all his deepest secrets were written.

"nii-san... are all of these true? or you're just trying to fool me again...." sasuke's voice came out steady, filling the silence.

"otouto... " itachi said, unable to make a sentence to answer the query given by his brother to him.

sasuke stood up, leaving the notebook at the bed's edge. he moved closer to itachi, his eyes focusing intently on the older raven.

for the first time after the dreadful incident between the two, sasuke was able to look straight into itachi's eyes.

sasuke studied the proud features of his aniki... the stubborn chin, deep set eyes, the pink lips... that he now wanted to taste... so badly.

"so you wrote in your diary that you love me nii-san..." sasuke said tauntingly at his aniki... he walked towards his aniki and circled him.

itachi stood motionless, he tried hard not to show any feelings... but his heart was beating wildly... his throat was running dry.

as sasuke circled around him, like a predatory feline ready to pounce any moment... sasuke's eyes blazed... itachi had to blink twice.

sasuke's eyes didnt blaze with anger... it displayed confidence... dominance... hunger... and clouded to the extremes... with pure lust.

itachi wanted to back off... he had never seen sasuke so serious... sasuke looked well-planned... and itachi was getting nervous...

sasuke continued to circle around itachi slowly, in a lazy patterned intervals... like a snake, wrapping his coils around his prey.

itachi watched, if he wanted to... he can actually outrun sasuke... he was after all an excellent shinobi... but he couldn't seem to.

but itachi wondered, why his feet won't move. he stood there, rooted to the floor. his mind was asking him to run, but his heart stopped him.

itachi stared unto sasuke's perfect face... with the arrogant smirk. he was still so breathtakingly beautiful in his eyes, as always.

as itachi moved to back off, sasuke pounced unto him...he was fast... too surprised, itachi fell on his back... with sasuke on top of him.

sasuke pinned both of itachi's hands... he was semi-crouched, so he manuevered the task easily... a sly smirk stained sasuke's lips.

"so you're in love with me, nii-san?" sasuke purred unto itachi's ear... his warm breath caressed the tiny hairs on itachi's skin.

the elder raven shivered at the sensation, he got up... as he stood, he remained silent... though his heart was already beating like crazy.

itachi had to tell sasuke his feelings... if his younger brother was planning to kill him, at least he could die in peace.

itachi closed his eyes... he waited for sasuke to advance... his mission was forgotten... it was only sasuke... everything was for sasuke.

sasuke saw itachi close his eyes, like a silent surrender... he smiled, as his eyes scanned itachi's physique before him.

itachi was wearing his anbu uniform. the black body-forming leotard like inner cloth was hugging itachi's muscled form.

sasuke licked his lips... he never knew that if you stared too much... one would hunger... one can crave...

sasuke's heart yelled, it was against his brain's wishes... his brain shouted murder... but his heart wanted something softer.

finally his heart and mind negotiated... it would be a wonderfully sweet revenge... the idea was devouring sasuke's sanity.

if itachi wanted him so bad... then he will give it too him... he will claim itachi the way his aniki claimed him....

chapter 4... poorly typed.... sorry this was done in less than 4 hours... rush, rush, rush!